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MIRROR ME IN MY PAIN

Author: Kairal.K
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COLE

How am I supposed to love you, when I don’t know who you are?

I don’t want to listen to Landon making excuses for her, she is doing this knowing how this is all going to play out. She knows. And I don’t want to listen to Kyle say that he is going to kill her when he lays eyes on her because that only makes me want to kill him first.

Never have I ever thought about killing any of my brothers but today …. I can't stand any of them. Because I only need one person but that person is the one who is causing all this chaos in my life.

I hate her too.

I am going to look for her, I am not going to sit down and pretend like she is going to show up on my fucking front steps. I know her, and I know she is never going to come back here. so I will go look for her.

I am not ready to lose her.

I am taking the first steps to the staircase when I feel like my middle is being blown to pieces. And that’s when I let out a pained sound and pain blinds all the world around me.

“shit, what's goin
Kairal.K

you know, I knew the way Storm's and Cole's connection was delayed, was going to be fire. apart from that, the boys are for the first time in all their years going against each other. not good, not at all because right now would be time to go find Storm and help her, right? well, that would work if they weren't being beaten down by the connection meaning that with every lash of pain, she feels they do. will they push it through and look for her or are they going to continue whining? come on boys, do better, we need you to get it together, am I right?

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