004: Visit

Larika F.S.

Nagising ako sa ingay ng telepono. Inis kong hinanap kung saan nanggagaling kahit halos matumba ako sa sakit ng ulo at kahapdian ng mata.

On top of that, the center of my thighs feels more painful than ever. I wasn't concern about it at all at nakatuon ang atensyon ko sa paghanap ng telepono. It might be my boss.

Luckily, it was beside the table. I immediately grab it without even checking the caller, but I felt weird holding it. The width felt different as well as the thinness.

I answered the phone while eyes closed, still asleep.

"Hello, sino 'to?" Silence collapses on the other line, but later on speaks from someone I don't know.

"Who's this? Why are you using my son's phone?! Are you a thief?!" Nanlaki ang mata ko sa boses ng babae sa kabilang linya. Kung kanina'y tulog ako, ngayon ay sabay-sabay na gumising ang dugo ko't kaisipan.

I harshly look on the surrounding, and I was left speechless seeing myself inside a room I don't know. And there's more, the phone wasn't mine at all! And here's more spicy! A man is beside me, asleep, completely naked!

My jaw drop as soon as I realize something.

"Kagabi..." Napatabon ako ng bibig simula ng maalala ang nangyare kagabi, at hindi ko mapigilang mamula pero mas nangingibaw ang hiyang nararamdaman.

The way he touched me...

The way I beg for him to rock me...

The way I act like a desperate slave and a hungry animal...

When I look at myself, I was naked as well. Tinakpan ko ang aking katawan kahit alam kung wala magbabago kasi nangyare na.

"Hello?! Hellooo?! Are you still there lady?!" His mother yelled under the phone.

Mas lalo akong nahiya. I grabbed it once again and I don't know what choice to choose; ending the call without giving a proper goodbye, or apologize?

But what if she'll track down my voice at balikan ako? Ano nalang mangyayare sa mga kapatid ko?

I closed my eyes and grab the phone, putting it on my ears.

"Hello Ma'am, pasensya na po at nagkamali lang ako ng teleponong nahawakan! Promise po I am not a thief dahil kahit mahirap po ako, hindi ako magnanakaw ng kahit ano. Tsaka natutulog pa po ang anak niyo..." I pointed at her child kahit hindi naman niya nakikita.

"How did you know he's still asleep? Are you with him? Did you sleep with him?!" His mother was screaming.

Did I made it worse? Fudge.

What should I say? What should I say? C'mon brain, think of an excuse!

"Please forgive me Ma'am, but I really have to end this call!" Before she could finally retreat a word, pinatay ko na ang tawag.

I'll swear, I've never done ending the call first or ending a call without having a proper goodbye. Pero kasi... the situation is very critical, at ayuko mauwi iyon sa malaking gulo.

Mas lalong sumakit ang ulo ko sa nangyayare. I look at body and it lewdness that I see.

"What did you do Larika? Nagutom kaba sa sandata ng lalake? 'Bat mo to nagawa?" I was annoyed with myself. I was lecturing myself.

To the point that I belittle and slap my face.

"You gave in... on a stranger." I weakly said, and there's no way to regain my virginity back.

I was touched my someone I barely know.

Napabaling ang mata ko sa lalakeng nakaharap sa akin. At saka nalang nag-sink sa akin na he's not totally a stranger, but I don't know him that much. He was the cute guy I met on the club, and now he is mysteriously in front of me.

This is the first time I am able to appreciate his divine face, with evil consciousness rather.

He look clean, no tattoos, but still slaying with that look. He look innocent while he's sleeping, but wild when awake. He's a perfect demeanor every girls would flock out.

And for the record, he look so unreal.

Pero I need to escape as soon as possible. From what he look, mukhang yayamin itong lalake ito. And I don't want meddling in his business, at baka nga may asawa o girlfriend na ito. From the tone of her mother, mukhang pinapahalagan siya nito.

I was too stressed to even wear my panty back, dahil nagmamadali ako.

Damn that alcohol!

Nasa isipan ko ay ang trabaho ko, mga kapatid, at bagong problema ni Papa.

I texted Rafa to cook my siblings meals, at humingi na 'rin ako ng tawad dahil hindi ako nakauwi kagabi. Gaano ko man ka-gustong umuwi ngayon, ay napapalitan ito ng takot at kahihiyan. Though they didn't know what exactly happen, pero mas nangingibaw ang guilt ko.

Nag-aalala naman si Rafa pero kaagad ko naman itong pinagsabihan na ayos na ako.

Hanggang ngayon, nasa barangay parin si Papa sa pagpapa-blatter ni Tita Mishel.

Nasa harap ako ngayon ng bahay nila Julius dahil gusto kong humingi ng tawad sa kabalastugan na ginawa ko kagabi. I troubled him a lot, at siya pa itong nanglibre sa akin ng alak.

Bumili ako ng siomai kahit papano para naman may maibigay ako sa kabutihan niya.

As soon as I knock the door, sumalubong sa akin ang maamong mukha ng kapatid niya. She looked so innocent as her long hair wave beautifully.

"Ikaw pala Ate Aica, pasok!" Ngumiti ako sa kanya.

"Magandang umaga Heather, andyan ba si kuya mo?" Tumango ito at binuksan ng malawak ang pinto. Pumasok ako ng hinanap ng mata si Julius.

"Siomai ba 'yan ate?" Nagliwanag ang mata nito ng makita ang dala ko. I gladly offered her some and gave it to her instead.

"Sige lang Tat, bilhin ko nalang uli si Julius." Pagmamagandang loob ko. Ngumiti naman ito pabalik.

"Madalas kasing sinasama ako ni Rafa sa pagbili ng siomai at nakasanayan na ng panlasa ko itong pagkain na ito." I smiled hearing that Rafa is taking a good care of her. "Upo ka, Ate." Habang abala sa pagkain ay ipina-upo ako ni Heather.

"Kamusta naman si Rafa?" Hearing comments about my siblings, really makes me excited and attentive.

"Alam mo naman si Rafa ate, kung wala sa library nasa office ng student council. Matalino na, responsable pa. Idagdag mo 'pang maraming nagkakagusto sa kanya. Kaya bonus nalang ang pagiging mabuti niya sa akin." Her face lit up talking about my brother, but her voice suddenly changed on her last sentence. She was pouting the whole time.

I can sense something. I woman's instincts never lie.

But she's right, everything about my brother is right. Kung wala ako, he is taking over the role for our family. At masaya akong siya ang isa sa nagiging kasangga ko sa ganitong laban.

"Ang sabihin mo, gusto mo si Rafa kaya ang bait mo sa ate niya." Our eyes land on the new comer, Julius. He was walking down the stairs, teasing her sister. I laughed when Heather shoot daggers on her older brother.

“Hindi ka naman ganuon kabait sa mga kaibigan ko ah." Julius protested.

"Ang sabihin mo 'rin, gusto mo si ate Aica kaya binabayaran mo ang bill ni Tito Aron." Did I hear it right?

Bill ni Papa?

I looked at Julius, eyes furrowed. And when I looked at Heather, she was covering her mouth and worried expression was visible on her face—she looked like she slipped information she must keep.

Naguguluhan ako, and I gave that look to Julius.

"Sorry ate!" Heather run upstairs at akma naman itong papatulan pero kumaripas na ito ng takbo.

Bumuntong-hininga si Julius at bumaba sa hagdan ng tuluyan.

"Okay fine, I bailed out Tito Aron. What's wrong with that, huh? Magkaibigan naman tayo." Nasapo ang noo ko sa sinasabi niya.

May utang pa nga ako sa kanya at kalilibre palang niya ng alak kagabi, ngayon eto naman? Hanggang kailan ako magkaka-utang sa lalakeng 'to?

"Pano mo nalaman? Hindi mo man lang sinabi sa akin ang hakbang mo? Sandamakmak na utang ko sa'yo Julius, ano pa ba ang maipangbabayad ko sa iyo?" Halos maiyak ako sa mga ginagawa ni julius.

“Join school with me." Prumotesta ako ng tingin sa kanya.

“Okay fine..."

He's an angel sent from above.

"I am not asking you to repay me." He said, tapping my shoulder.

"Nakakahiya na ng sobra..."

"I told you, we're friend. And friends have their backs. Now no more dramas, hinahanap kana ni Tito kagabi pa. At nakapagtataka ang pagkawala mo kagabi." Napalunok naman ako ng maalala iyon.

He looked suspiciously.

"Hm, wala ka ng pumunta ako sa second VIP room. Hindi naman ako sigurado kung nasa first room ka kasi imposible namang makapasok ka doon, lalo pa't strikto ang nanduon." Uminit ang pisngi ko sa mga sinasabi nito.

Malamang hindi niya talaga malalaman na nasa first room ako kung hindi siya pumasok.

Pero thankfully, he didn't went inside. Dahil kung oo, hindi ko alam kung nasaang position na ako naka-puwesto.

"U-umuwi ako..." I looked away.

"On that state?" He asked suspiciously. "Anyways, Tito Aron is seriously looking for you. Sinabi ko lang na nag-overtime ka sa trabaho." He's really a life saver, and I couldn't hide my smile.

"Salamat Jul..." Sabi ko sabay yakap sa kanya. Halata namang nagulat ito, pero tumugon 'rin sa aking yakap.

Even if Papa is worried, I couldn't hide my wrath and anger to him. Nalaman ko kay Rafa na tinawagan niya si Julius kaya siya nakalaya ngayon.

Ang mas lalong kinaiinisan ko ay hindi man lang niya ganuon na appreciate ang kabutihang ginawa ng kaibigan ko.

As soon as I reached home, hinanap ko si Papa pero wala ito sa labas kung saan madalas siyang nagpapakain ng mga manok niya sa ganitong oras.

I marched inside the house, naabutan ko si Papa na may kausap sa sala habang nakatalikod ito sa akin. Wearing a fitted tuxedo and hair clean cutted, sa tindig alam mong may pera. At hanggang dito, amoy na amoy ko ang tapang ng pabango.

This smell's familiar.

Tinignan ko ng masama si Papa. This time, I couldn't contain my annoyance while looking at him with a smile in his face. No matter how I love my father, hindi ko maitatanggi'ng may sama ng loob ako dito.

"Pa naman! Bakit tinawagan si Julius para magbayad sa ginawa mo! Alam mo namang mabuti 'yung tao kaya hindi makatanggi." Bungad ko kay papa. Wala akong pakialam kahit may kausap ito.

Tinignan naman ako ng masama ni Papa, "Nasaan ang respeto mo sa bisita Aica? Mag hulos dili ka nga." Suway nito sa akin.

I just sigh in frustration.

"Sino ba 'yan Pa, bagong buyer na naman ng mga manok mo?" Inis na singhal ko.

It was just a joke, but his next statement wasn't.

"Hindi anak. Siya magiging asawa mo." Ngiting usal ni Papa. And with that, the man stood up and face me.

Nanlaki naman ako ng makilala ang lalake. We lock our eyes and I lost my balance, but he immediately catched me.

How did he find me?

"Careful princess." He's husky voice bring back the memory hours ago. Nanghihina ang tuhod ko sa presensya niya. His hooded eyes made me so weak, at umiwas ako ng tingin bago paman ako malunod doon.

I pushed him away and I looked irritably on my father.

"Nagpapatawa ka ba Pa? Saang komedya mo ba 'yan napulot?" I looked at them back and forth, uneasy.

Magiging asawa? Ano 'to, kontrata na gaya sa mga pelikulang napapanood ko?

Scratch that, alam ko namang hindi seryuso si Papa at itong hunghang na 'to.

"Anak, alam kong hindi ka maniniwala... Pero malaki ang pera'ng ibabayad niya sa atin nak. Ayaw mo 'nun, magagamot na natin ng tuluyan si Yasmin? 'Di ba 'yun ang pangarap mo nak?" Papa was persuading me.

Yung pangarap ko? Pangarap kong makatakas sa ganitong buhay.

But wait, are they really serious? At paano niya nakilala si Papa? At bakit siya maghahanap ng asawa? Wala ba siya 'nun, o pinapakasal ba siya sa ibang babaeng sa hindi niya mahal gaya ng nasa mga pelikula.

Kung totoo man ito, the offer is tempting.

"Ano 'ba 'tong sinabi mo Pa? Ipapakasal mo ako sa taong hindi ko kilala?" Pangwengwestyon ko dito.

"Really Ms. Sandoval?" The guy interrupted in our conversation, showing an annoying smirk on his lips. Napalunok naman ako.

Those amusing lips licked my ass.

"Oo, hindi kita kilala! At pwede ba, iyo na 'yang pera mo baliw! Maghanap ka ng ibang asawa kung gusto mo." Irap ko sa kanya.

Amusing smile curve his lips, but soon changes and look at his wrist watch.

"Well then, she's not interested in the offer Mr. Sandov, what should I do then? I still have other business do and wasting time isn't part of my job." He gave a devilish smile and walked out of our house.

Tinignan naman ako ng masama ni Papa bago hinabol ang lalake na parang tuta.

"Babalikan ko si Mr. D'arcy, siguraduhin mong susunod ka sa gusto niya!" Napapikit ako sa inis.

Napamura ako ng wala sa oras, "Putanginang buhay 'to."

That man! I hate him! And D'arcy? What a fucking lame surname.

Manghahamon ng kasal tapos babayaran pero aalipustahin muna? Hindi naman ako pungkol para hindi makahanap ng pera pangpagamot kay Yasmin. Tsaka anong akala niya sakin? Chamba siya!

Over the body that I hate, fuck him.

Fuck his offer.