"Bullshit," I mumbled, standing up.
"Blu I'm serious". "I don't want to hear any of it, gosh Damon do you think lying to me is going to fix any of this?". "Blu I am not lying to you". I rolled my eyes. "Blu I have anxiety issues, or I had, I don't know, but I have... I get ...I get serious anxiety when I'm around you, even before now, I swear I freeze when I'm around you... and I planned how I was going to do the right thing and fix whatever issue we had but then ... you were so different, so so different, I didn't even know who you were. I froze again; I begged my legs to move, I begged my lips to open, but .. I... I-" "Damon, you're not making any sense at all whatsoever. You know that, right? You freeze when you see me? fine this year makes sense, 5 years ago? ten years ago? when I was nothing but a nerdy freak who could barely articulate words???" This man is pissing me off. "I was in love with that nerdy girl ", he said calmly. I was silent for a moment and then I laughed out. "You are the most manipulative person I've ever met", I said calmly and turned to walk inside. So now he's trying to use the fact that I was in love with him to counter everything and lie to me that he loved him too? He pulled me back. "Blu listen to me please -" "No, I'm not listening to any bullshit you want to say again. I can't stand you lying, just apologize and move the fuck on, all this gaslighting and manipulation is not going to work on me. You loved me? are you crazy? do you even know what you're saying? Do you even know the words you're using? Let me remind you, In case you've lost your memory, that I was the one in love with you; I followed you around all the time like a lost puppy constantly! I was the one who begged your attention; I went the extra mile to get your attention. I was a stammerer, and you knew it: I couldn't say a sentence without stammering. I worked on that for you; I wanted to be a better person for you! All you ever did was ignore me; you made me see myself as a loser, someone who could not ever measure up to your level. You despised me, you hated my existence, and you did everything you could to ensure that you never had anything to do with me and now you're telling me that you loved me?? fuck that!" "Blu..." I was getting really angry. "No don't fucken Blu me... Keep that shit to yourself, Prom; I practiced with Alex so hard to ask you to prom, I wanted to do it secretly, but then again, I wanted it publicly so people Could see that I could do something with my life. I felt like you were an achievement and that if I could successfully have you, I could be something to the world. I saw you as a brother I never had and I thought that even if you didn't want to go with me to prom, you would accept it because it was me, maybe reject me later or something, but the satisfaction of being said yes to in public was all I ever needed. I spent my entire night anxiously waiting for the moment to happen, and I asked you in front of the entire school, Damon; everybody watched as you stood there and stared at me and then walked away. The shame, the embarrassment, everything weighed on me. I lost every form of confidence in myself because I thought I was so ugly that you couldn't even pretend like you were so embarrassed. That was the worst day of my life, Damon. I used to think that the distancing was just nothing, but that day confirmed that I was a plague to you and that you wanted nothing to do with someone like me. Guess who came and picked me up from that hole I was falling into? Alex! Yes, him. When my dad talked about moving to America I didn't hesitate or even think twice about it because I needed to move away from you. I cut everyone off so I could start all over, and I came back, hoping things had changed, but did anything change? no, and now you want to play the overprotective brother role? ". He exhaled, "I had Bipolar Blu", he said calmly. "What?". "I had Bipolar and PTSD from my dad's death". "Damon you were like 13 when that happened ". He nodded, "I know, I had been suffering from trauma right after I saw my dad butcher someone and I was like 5 or 6 I don't know, but, ever since then I changed, I started going for therapy secretly without my brothers knowing, I became so cold and isolated from society and all., from everyone. That was where my issues started from initially. Everyone noticed it, my brothers did too, they tried to find out what was up but, I couldn't tell them anything, I stopped talking in general, the secret therapies and all, it was a lot. That was why when you asked me to help out when you sprained your ankle... I.. I just couldn't because I was still traumatized by the whole experience, I couldn't, and I'm sorry for that, I truly am". Then he died, it worsened because he somehow kept me sane, then everyone started telling me that I was the Dad now and I had to take care of my brothers, comfort them, be the person they look up to, and then they told me I had to carry on his work. I was 13 by then when I started moving around with a gun for fear of being killed, I stayed awake most times at night unable to sleep because of the fear that whoever took my dad was coming after them next, I was too scared... and.. and I had stopped the therapy so I was going through all this shit with a clear head. I would follow them for missions and... and.. I was slowly dying Blu". He paused and turned to me, "But then there was you, Blu"...."There was you, you looked so normal despite loosing your siblings, your mom, you actually looked perfect, and somehow staring at you everyday gives me this... calmness inside, this peace, you were my peace. You made those trauma's go away. The little efforts you put, I saw them, I saw them all but I was a coward to man up and told you that I loved you too because somehow your naivety made me freeze, everytime I saw you my heart would skip a beat and, and the way you would look at me, it would be like you were seeing right through me and I would get scared, so so scared I'll have to look for a defense to cover it up by pushing you away. Now I think about it, that was so wrong, so so wrong. I never saw you as flawed in any way because you knew you had your flaws and you brought them out and you embraced them, all of them, something I could never, that was one bold move Blu, something my coward ass could never do.And that day, at prom, I had an anxiety attack earlier because I saw
A WEEK LATER * * After everything that happened on that island, Damon's acting like he doesn't know I exist. I'm so confused, was it a dream? was he just toying with me? or did he just want to use that to get to me. "Are you okay Blu?", Alex asked as we got into my car. "No" "I noticed, I mean ever since you came back from the island you've not been okay, even Damon, he's been avoiding everyone", he said. I swallowed hard. "What happened in that island Blu?". My brain suddenly began to replay memories, awful memories, memories that I enjoyed, I yearned for and I loved, but now it's like a stab on the chest. "Ask your brother", I said and we zoomed off. Minutes later we arrived in front of a mansion with dozens of security. Alex and Jessie got down first and then I did. They all pointed their guns at us. I scoffed, "Tell Feud that a friend is here to see him", Jessie said. Another car pulled up behind us, it was Tobi and Jerry. "I thought you guys weren't
I was seated among all of them, I knew all of them in details the color of their underwear. I knew everyone here, but none of them knew me. They stared, talked in hush tones and wondered who I was. This was the black ball, the society's annual ball, eat drink, socialize, gather allies, and kill an enemy or two. Everyone always ended with one drama or another but this time around things were going to be about me. The Hastings brothers and I weren't supposed to have any direct contact tonight because every eye will be watching us, and I don't want to implicate them any further, but Damon was supposed to be here, he was supposed to come with me to this ball, we discussed it before when we were on the island, now he's disappeared and ghosted me after everything. Alex walked up to me and bowed and handed me a glass smiling. I smiled back, "Where's Damon?", I asked through the smile. "He said he's not coming". "How the fuck is this plan suppose to work if he's not here?" "I don't kn
Few seconds later, guns where everywhere, pointed at me.Alex and Tobi immediately got their guns out and went to stand beside me.This is where I wished Damon was here."You're not getting out of here alive", Lucian said."Stop, everybody stop, put the guns down, we're not ending this ball in a bloody war", one elderly man said from the crowd."Actually, I'd like to see them try", I said."Miss Blu, please apologize to Mr Lucian and let's all put this aside ",he said again.I laughed out, loudly, "Do you have any idea who I am?", I asked."Let me do a little display of my power ", I said.I turned to all the men around pointing their guns at me"Switch ", I commanded.They immediately turned their guns to Lucian, everyone gasped in shock."What? why are you pointing your gun at me? I'm your commander, fire her", he screamed."Unfortunately, they only take orders from their original boss, me", I said.I think Lucian got the message, loud and clear.He began to quiver.*Now let's have
FLASH BACK * * I yawned tiredly as I rolled off the bed, I opened the window and allowed the cool ocean breeze envelope me, this site was beautiful, too beautiful. I got out of the room and walked out of the cabin, something delicious caught my nose and I followed it to the back of the cabin. Damon was making grilled fish- shirtless! He was backing me, so I took time to admire his physique. Let's keep the fact that I've hated him most of my life aside, this guy is extremely sexy. He had this tattoo of a lion's head on his back, very sexy muscles and a cute butt shape. He turned around and saw me staring at me. He let out a very charming smile. "Hi Blu", he said. "Hey". "How did you sleep?", he asked. I nodded, for some reason I had lost my voice. I was just staring at him. "Why are you staring at me like that?", he asked. Because you're so hot. "Nothing, what are you making?", I asked. "Well I'm making ribs steak", he said "You can cook that well?
I walked into my strip club, the boys were practicing their moves. "Good morning Queen", they all greeted."Good morning Boys", I responded and walked straight into my office.Jessie was already there waiting for me with one of my stripper boys; LKay"We got a situation", she said.I groaned, "Can't I go 24 hours without drama? What is it?" I asked."I...I ma'am, I need your help ", he said shaking."With what?".I gathered his breath."So I took this girl from the club home yesterday, we started getting freaky and we had sex, multiple times, so we went into the bathroom to get a shower, I left her in the bathroom and went to the nearest store I could find because we were running out of condoms and by the time I get back she's on the floor bleeding from the back of her head, dead!"."You think she slipped?"."I think so"."So why didn't you just call the fucken police or an ambulance ", I asked because this really wasn't my business."Queen, you know I already got a shitty record wit
I stood at the stairs watching the boy's performance while women and men cheered, enjoying the show; my boys were the best, and no one ever came near. "Queen", I turned around, it was Jessie. "There's someone in your office wanting to see you", she said. "Who?". "He said his identity is gonna be a secret, some shit like that; he looks like someone you could share a bit of your time with," she said. I sighed and headed there. I walked into my office, and I met my gun on the table. A man is sitting there, backing me. "Why the fuck is my gun there?" I asked, walking towards him. Jessie already had hers in the air, waiting to shoot. "So you can know that you could use it anytime if you don't like how this conversation will end", he said and turned around. "Conrad Kurby," he said and bowed, "Pleasure to meet you, My Queen." He was a blondie with short hair and a pair of bright brown eyes, a perfect physical appearance, and a nice body; everything was a 10. "Is tha
This conversation was getting interesting. "Go on". "Let me give you a visible example; you sent people to clean up a body in one of your boy's apartments." "You did that?!" I asked, almost angrily. "No, I've just had my eyes on you for a while, I watch your every movement, and I know everything you run in this club, legally and illegally, "he said calmly. It's giving Stalker, but for some reason, I wasn't moved. "Now do you know that the street cam's caught the movement of the body from the house to the car, well wrapped in a bag, undetectable, yes but was it suspicious? Yes, it was, and if an investigation is carried out, that's more than enough evidence to be left there." I paused to think, "Jessie get that footage wiped out" "I already took care of it ". On a very normal day, that thing is supposed to take a while to get rid of. "What are you playing at Kurby, and how does any of this have to do with your father?". "Your club is the fastest-rising male strip club in thi