4⁰ Wedding and the night

Summer and Spring Kingdom

Bella

The two weeks have passed and now it is time for my wedding, I tried to get rid of myself but it was not possible, so I accepted my marriage, however I confess that the night I cried for everything that I will not experience. Time had passed so quickly that it was frightening to me, my life was changing and I didn't know what to expect, and that was frightening. I was already in the carriage, waiting for my time to come to enter the church full of fear.

During the past weeks, Antony had shown himself to be a good person. I think I had been wrong about him during the garden walks, because he showed himself to be a gentleman. On one of these walks we kissed, I didn't feel anything, but that must be because we don't know each other well yet. I think that with time I might fall in love with him. In fact, I need to fall in love, I couldn't bear to live forever with a person I didn't love, it would be torture. Have a child with a man you don't love.

I snap out of my thoughts when the carriage door opens, giving me the sight of my father and everyone else happy. It was definitely time to enter the church. I confess that at this moment what I wanted most was to run away without looking back, but I couldn't. I need to get married to keep my kingdom. My subjects were already suffering a lot from misery, my marriage would get us out of this unfortunate situation, and everyone could live in good conditions.

" Come on, my dear child, the time has come for you to be happy. You will become one of the best queens this kingdom has ever seen, I'm sure of it. " said my father. Little did he know that I didn't want to get married.

" Thank you, Dad. Now let's go, I'm very nervous."

Before I give up, because this is the will of my soul, I wanted to live, see the world traveling, and finally fall in love.

We left toward the big door of the church, my hands were already sweating, thank goodness I was wearing gloves, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath trying to calm my heart, opening my eyes just as the door opened. Revealing all the guests and my future husband, he looked really beautiful, but nothing about him made my heart race, or my legs tremble, or the butterflies in my stomach, or the hairs on my skin shiver, like all the romance books say.

As slowly as I walked, so that it would take time to reach him, my father increased his pace, and the next thing I knew I was holding Antony's hand.

" Bella, you are more beautiful than you already are." Antony said, looking me up and down.

Even his compliments didn't make me blush.

" Thank you. You look good too." I politely returned the compliment.

During the ceremony, I noticed that Antony couldn't take his eyes off me. After a few minutes the priest asked:

" Elisabete Bella Ferraz Alçante, do you take Antony Giordano Wilson Mendonça as your lawful husband?"

I swear I thought about saying "no", but I looked at my parents' faces and at that moment I realized that there was no turning back. I looked at Antony slowly breathing and said a simple word that would change my destiny.

"I accept."

" I said with a lump in my throat and my heart was aching."

This was for sure the hardest thing to do, to marry a person that I hardly know and that I am not in love with.

But it was the right thing to do, my kingdom depended on this arrangement.

After we left the church, we all went to my palace, where the party would take place.

It was still very strange to know that I will not return to the kingdom where I was born, I don't know what awaits me in my husband's kingdom, I don't know anything, I only know a little about his customs.

Even if they are not very different from my kingdom, but there is always something that represents the kingdom.

It will be a strange environment for me, everything will be new:People, places and customs.

If I were to choose one word to describe me in this situation I am living, the word would be "terrified", everything arouses in me an unequal fear, but a queen never shows her fear. Always with her head held high to see her strength, even with the title of queen, in the real monarchy only the kings have the true power. Queens in this world are objects adorned with jewels to show the wealth of the kingdoms, the more jewels a queen has, the stronger the kingdom is.

Twenty minutes later, we were all in the castle, the party would be held in the garden where, everything was beautiful. Since there was no love between the wedding, I wanted this day to be unforgettable, at least that much.

" Bella, come here, you need to change your dress, you won't be wearing your wedding dress the whole party. " said Esmeralda, who always stayed by my side. She would come to live with me, this made me more comfortable in knowing that I would have a known person in the same place as me.

" Okay Esmeralda, let's go." I said taking her hand, I always call her that.

When I got to my room, I already had a dress on my bed. I changed my dress, putting on a blue one. We returned to the party, where people only talked about how Antony and I were a beautiful couple, but I knew that everyone there knew that this marriage was arranged and not for love.

But this doesn't matter to anyone, what really matters is to know that the kingdoms were stronger with the union.

It was what really mattered in the marriages of princes and princesses, and only the lucky ones can have it all together: love and power. However, this is not my case.

There are those who are lucky enough to find what they have always wanted, live what they have always desired. And finally you can choose the course of your life without anyone else being able to decide. That is what matters most in a life has decisions, no matter if they are right or wrong, it is you who chose.