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Losing Control
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2025-04-13 16:00:19Kade POV
Rook is staring at me, and I’m not sure why. “You knew?” I ask.
“Yeah, don’t shout I fucking forgot because of everything.”
I’m not about to shout. It’s not his fault, I wasn’t there so he couldn’t tell me.
“I’m not about to shout, I just don’t get why you let her stay.”
Turning, he faces me more. “I wasn’t going to, but everyone looked at me like I was heartless. She’s dying Kade, and had I sent her away without you knowing it wouldn’t have gone down well.”
I nod and look out of the window. How have I fucked up so much? When did it get to a point where if I make a move on him, it’s something calculated and meaning more is happening?
When did things turn to shit? I push to figure it out and I hate it because the more I focus, the more I realise I’ve pushed Rook out for years, it began
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