ARHAAN
FLASHBACK
I claimed her mine and I knew that she won't be the one who will go against my wishes. But then, I refrained from approaching her that very day. It was the first day of college and an act like that can always turn her off. So I decide to wait for a perfect moment when I will approach her and she won't have any other chance except to fall in love with me.
But yes, the moment I claimed her, I didn't claim her for her body. I had no interest in that. I wanted her to be known as mine, I wanted her heart and soul.
But, from that day, I kept an eye on her. Who she was? What does she do? Where she is from? What's her likes and dislikes? Where she goes? When does she return? What does she say to others? I knew everything about her and the more I knew about her, the more I fell in love with her and the urge to make her mine, increased more and more. But I somehow refrained to express this to her, thinking I will propose to her for marrying me and she would have to accept.
But the day when I saw her in the club, it made me angry. How can she be in a place such as that? Who gave her the right to drink and dance like a slut? And when the boys tried to molest her, I lost it. She is mine and no one in this fucking world has any right to snatch what's mine. So I went to her and kissed her in front of the whole club.
RAAHI
I was devastated that day, because never in my wildest dreams I have thought about something like that, which happened to me in the club and after. I couldn't bear it or take a hold of it. But little did I know, my life was going to be much more miserable and traumatising than what I had experienced then.
I couldn't sleep the entire night due to whatever happened. Mansi tried her best to console me, but she failed because she knew that whatever happened, wasn't something I could not react to. She just stayed there beside me, giving me a shoulder to cry on.
The next morning, I took a shower and then got ready for my college. I reached college on time and that was the first day, I noticed Arhaan in college. Just a mere glimpse of him and it gave me shivers down my spine. I wasn't prepared for that.
But I knew I couldn't react or create a scene there, so I quietly walked towards my class and then, I got to know that he is my classmate. My life is now screwed up. I wanted to cry because I was so scared, but I couldn't. I just, couldn't. Maybe there were so many students in the class or maybe I was scared so much that I couldn't even cry.
But the worst was yet to happen, and that happened when he entered the class and looked at me. I started trembling with his look, but he kept on looking at me as he walked towards me. And the next thing I know, he sat beside me in class.
I went numb as I felt him sitting beside me. I couldn't even dare to look at him or notice what he was doing. How could I do that? He was too intimating and scary. All I wanted to escape from here. I noticed that the arrive hasn't arrived yet, I decided to go to another seat, but as I stood up, he held my wrist again and made me sit.
"Don't you dare to move far away from me," he growled in a deep voice. That was enough for me as I couldn't react anymore. I quietly sat in my seat and waited for the professor to arrive.
After a few moments, the professor entered the class and started teaching. But that was the first day in my life that I couldn't focus on the class. I wasn't even able to hear the professor properly. I was anxious and trembled with fear. My mind was consumed by his scary thoughts and thus I couldn't do anything else. While he kept on looking at me the entire class. I felt disgusted and just wanted to run away. But I was weak enough to do that as well.
The moment the class went over and the professor walked out of the class, I immediately got up from my seat and then rushed out of the class. I waited for no one, I just wanted to get away from here, but was that even possible?
I was scared, disgusted and felt angry as well. How could he do this to me? And why me?
But I wasn't lucky enough, as I walked out of the class, he rushed and followed me. "Raahi listen," he kept on calling me, but I was in no good to hear him, so I didn't turn around. I just kept on increasing my pace so I could run away furthest from him. But what was I even thinking?
The next moment, I felt his grip on my bruised wrist and before I could even flinch, he turned me around to face him. The bruise hurt me so badly, and how could I allow someone to hurt and torment me like that? I remembered my dad's words, whenever he used to say that I am not weak. I took a deep breath and decided to face him. I can not run away from my fears.
"What's your problem, haan? Why are you doing this to me? Can't you stay away? Behave yourself," I angrily growled, thinking it might stop him from whatever he was doing. But oh God! Never in my life, I have been wrong more than that.
The moment I said those words to him, I could witness his eyes turning red in anger and that made me squirm in fear. His looked scared me till my soul. And the next moment, I was pulled by him all way through the corridor.
He forcefully pulled me and took me towards the terrace. Our college terrace remained empty most of the time as no one wanted to go there. I wanted to release myself from his grip and run away, but was it even possible?
He took me to the roof and then, I was caged between the wall and his chest. I looked at him with trembling and fearful eyes. He was so close to me, that I could smell the scent of cigarette that came from his mouth. I hated cigarettes, and that smell made me feel disgusting and pukish, but sadly, I was too scared to react to anything.
But finding him close to me, I was scared about one more thing and that was nothing other than my dignity. I couldn't let him do anything to me in my fragile state, so I had to fight back. I closed my eyes and tried my best to gather all the courage that was buried deep down somewhere inside me and then looked at him.
"Why did you bring me here?" I asked him, making a disgusting face.
"Because I love you, Raahi," he replied coming more close to me. I flinched as I heard his reply. No, this isn't love, this can't be love, never. Love can never send shivers down my spine due to fear. Love is said to be beautiful, it shouldn't be dreadful like this.
"But I don't. So let me go," I cried out. I felt disgusted at the man who was standing in front of me. And I tried to push him with all my might.
But the next moment, he nullified all my struggles as he held my wrists and caged them with his powerful hands. I looked at him.
"I don't care if you love me or not, but I do love you. So, you are mine and you won't fall in love with anyone else in this world, or be someone else's," he muttered, glaring at me.
"But what if I do fall in love with someone else?" I snapped. There was no way in which I was letting myself fall in love with this man.
But with my question, I could easily witness his anger growing more and more. His look was dominating and so much scary that it urged me to submit as soon as possible.
"Then I will kill that guy just because I can't kill you," he then groaned.
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ARHAAN FLASHBACK How could she even think about going to another man? She is mine and I don't want my girl whoring around like the other ones in the college. She should understand that if I have claimed her as mine, she has no right to talk to other boys, and if she does that, she would be the reason for their death and I am fucking serious. I was furious at her, how could she even say that to me? I dug my fingers at her cheeks hardly and I could hear her groan in pain. And to be honest, that's what she deserved after offending me. "Listen, Raahi. Consider this as a threat or warning, but you won't be talking to any other guy except your father, brother and me. Not even your cousins, is that clear?" I growled. She needs to be in her place. I wanted her to nod in affirmation, but she didn't, all I saw was her crying and trying to escape from me. I immediately left her and took a few steps back. I don't care if she didn't respond to my words, I will make sure she follows it. EN
RAAHI FLASHBACK The moment I heard those words, I don't know how, something in me felt tainted. I pushed him ajar with all the strength I had and got out of the car. The moment I got out of the car, I ran towards my hostel as fast as I could. I was in no way getting trapped by this man again. I entered my hostel and without wasting any other moment I rushed to my room and locked the door from inside. Mansi wasn't back yet and I knew she wouldn't be returning for at least an hour more. I threw my bag on the bed and rushed to the bathroom. I couldn't even care to undress at that time, the moment I got into the bathroom, I turned on the shower and stood below it. As the water droplets hit my skin, I picked up the soap and started scrubbing my lips, face and my hands. I was constantly crying, but I wanted to scrub it all at once, I didn't want to feel his touch on my body. It haunted me like anything. Gasping heavily, I focused on scrubbing and I didn't know till when I was under
FLASHBACKARHAAN"Arrest me? What do you mean?" I was shocked.A sudden knock at my door, policemen to arrest me? Was this some kind of joke?"Yes. We do have a complaint of harassment and eve-teasing against you," the officer responded."Harassment? Eve-teasing? Who did that?" I went numb."Raahi," the officer responded.What? My Raahi filed a fake case against me? She dragged our personal matter to the police? This isn't done, baby. I will have to talk to you."No officer. I am sure, you're mistaken," I replied with a smile."She just lodged a complaint against you," the officer replied."Oh," I pretended to be shocked.Raahi, baby you don't know me yet. No one can separate me from you, darling, not even the cops. I will for sure make sure about that."Officer. You're mistaken. Actually, she is my girlfriend. We got into a huge fight, and she is so pissed off that she lodged an FIR," I spoke with a nervous smile.I had to make sure that the officer believes what I say, and for that,
RAAHIFLASHBACKI was horrified. Was he just threatening me and pretending to kill Mansi or was he serious?I looked at him, completely scared."Are... Are you joking?"I stuttered. I couldn't even form my words."Trust me, darling, I am not the person who jokes," he responded in a deep husky voice.I gulped. Why was this happening to me? What have I done to experience something like this?"No. Please, don't," I cried out. "Then, don't you fucking dare to go behind my back," he growled, yanking my hairs.END OF FLASHBACKI gasped, waking up from the pale sleep and looked around. I immediately looked at Arohi, she was sleeping peacefully in my lap. I smiled and then looked out of the window. We haven't reached our unknown destination yet. All I knew was I had some money in my bag to feed us for a few days and manage a temporary shelter, but I had to find something permanent.I then looked at Arohi who was sleeping peacefully and I remembered the experience I have had in my life. For t
RAAHII was looking out of the window towards the city the bus just entered. The city looked beautiful and I wondered which city it is because I had no idea.And then, the bus entered the bus stop and the conductor walked towards the seats."We have reached Dehradun. This is the last stop."He made the announcement and walked away.So, we were in Dehradun. I sighed, as I looked around from the bus. I finally managed to escape Arhaan and step into a new city. I can finally restart my life and live fear-free.I nudged Arohi a bit, waking her up."Aru, we have reached," I softly responded."Where is daddy?" She innocently asked.I gulped. What if Arohi wants to go back to her father? How will I make her understand that his father won't be living with us anymore? How will I manage that?"He will be with us, soon," I lied.I didn't know how to console Arohi if I told her the truth because Arhaan didn't let me come close to my daughter. He didn't even let my daughter be my first priority."
RAAHIFLASHBACK"E...everyone?" I stuttered, looking at him in complete horror."Yes. So that everyone should know that you're mine," he calmly responded."I... I mean what's the need?" I questioned."Are you planning to betray me, sweetheart?"His voice sounded calm and questioning but I knew it was a clear threat. "No... No," I immediately looked down. He was extremely intimidating and I couldn't continue to look at him like that."Then?" He asked."I mean... I mean it could create trouble for me. Like, if the teachers would get to know about this or if they inform my parents, what would I do then?" I finally addressed my fear.Yes, I was scared of Arhaan but more than that, I was scared of my parents and I didn't want to go home."So? What if they inform your parents?" He questioned."They would take me back home. I wouldn't be able to complete my studies then," I muttered.Somewhere, I was ready to suffer, I was ready to be tortured but I wasn't ready to give up on my studies. I
RAAHIFLASHBACK"I don't know why, but I don't feel good about this idea," I spoke.I was worried, I wasn't ready to play along or give in to his atrocious advances."Why?" She questioned."Because, what if his obsession doesn't fade away? What if he never lets me go? My entire life will be screwed then," I complained."It won't. Trust me," she seemed excited about this."How?" I questioned."Because we are merely eighteen, nineteen year old kids. Whatever we're obsessed with, it won't last in our late adulthood. We won't be obsessed with the same things when we turn twenty five or twenty six. You will have to play along till then," she made an obvious face."Do you really think six to seven years is a short time to play along? My entire life will be destroyed by then," I shouted at her.How could she even think of something like that?"Do you have any other option?" She gave me a glare.I went quiet. I thought about every other possibility while I could find none and that hurt me ext
TWO YEARS LATER RAAHI I was wrapping up my shift when I heard a car honk and I immediately knew who it was. I smiled and looked towards the door of the restaurant, waiting for them. And then, the door finally opened, and Arohi ran towards me with a trophy in her hand. "Mumma!" She jumped in happiness as she hugged me tightly. I hugged her back and kissed her forehead. "Your daughter is a champ," Saksham muttered as he stood beside me. "I know that," I winked. "Mumma! I won first prize at the speech competition," Arohi proudly boasted as she handed over the trophy to me. "Wow! Congratulations baby," I happily spoke. My daughter was rocking in her school and I wanted nothing more. "The topic was about superheroes, and everyone spoke about spiderman, ironman or superman, but my speech was the most different," she muttered. "Oh really? What was it?" I questioned. "I talked about you. Because you're my superhero, Mumma," Arohi replied and hugged me. Arohi's words made me feel
RAAHI "Divorce? Raahi, have you gone nuts? Do you want to divorce your husband when he needs you the most? No good wife divorces her husband," my mother shouted at me. "Well, no one was there with me when I needed people the most. To hear me, to be by my side and to not ask me to tolerate everything I suffer, so why should I be with them in their hard times?" I calmly replied. "Raahi. You're Arhaan's wife. You can't do this," she shouted again. "Why Mumma? Why am I pressurised to be a good wife? Why is it so important? Nobody asked Arhaan to be a good husband, nobody told him anything, then why me?" I questioned. I then turned towards Maa and looked at her. "Maa. Tell me. If I tried to complain about Arhaan, why was I sushed by my parents and my in-laws? Whenever you tried to take my side, why were you punished along with me? We weren't criminals, we didn't murder someone, so why?" I looked at her with teary eyes. "Raahi. You're a woman. We have to live under the shadows of our
RAAHI I went numb when I heard the news. I looked at Saksham and Mrinal, and it felt like they were expecting a reaction out of me. But I just couldn't. I didn't know what to feel. I didn't even feel a glint of sympathy at this news. "Raahi!" Saksham nudged me out of my thoughts. "Yeah?" I looked at him. "Are you okay?" He questioned. "Yeah! I am," I replied with a smile. "The news," Mrinal muttered. "Yeah! What did the officer say?" I questioned. "He told us to reach to the hospital. They have informed Arhaan's parents and your parents as well," Saksham informed. For a second, I panicked. My cover was blown up. What rubbish would I have to hear from my parents and Arhaan's father? How would I even face Maa? "Raahi," Saksham tapped my shoulders. "Yeah. I think we should go," I replied. And then, I looked at Mrinal. "Don't worry, I will take care of Arohi and will handle the party," she responded with a warm smile. "Thank you so much," I thanked her. And then, I left wit
RAAHI I screamed at Arhaan to get out of my house. I had no idea how I got the strength to face him and do this. But all I knew was that I have had enough, and if I fight this time, I could never do this. "Baby. I love you, why are you saying this? Why are you asking me to get out?" Arhaan's tone suddenly changed. He was trying to butter me, but this wasn't going to work this time. "But I don't. I don't love you and I have never loved you," I screamed at the top of my voice. "Raahi," he looked shocked. "Arhaan. Get out, or else... I will make sure whatever I said about Arohi," I threatened him again. Arhaan looked at me. His eyes were full of anger, but I wasn't afraid of him anymore. I could never be afraid of him after this. "You're gonna pay off this Raahi," he growled. "If anything named Karma exists, it will be you who will be paying the price," I replied, looking deep into his eyes. And then, he walked out of my apartment. The moment I could feel Arhaan's absence from
RAAHI "Ah....arhaan," I stuttered. I looked at him. I knew his wicked smile and the way he talked. I knew this wouldn't be good for me. I closed my eyes tightly. No! I can't fall weak now. I can't. I have suffered for seventeen years, and after this, I finally managed to escape and create a little happy place for myself. I can't let Arhaan ruin that for me anymore. I opened my eyes and looked at him. I won't get scared anymore. "What are you doing here?" I questioned him in a confident voice. "Damn! You spoke a complete statement without stuttering. That's something new," he winked as he walked towards me. I gulped as I took my steps backwards. I had no idea what Arhaan had in his mind right now. All I knew, was that after this, he would drag me back to Delhi and I couldn't let that happen. "Where is Arohi?" He questioned. Arohi! How could I even forget her? Mrinal! Thank God Arohi is with Mrinal, and she would keep my baby safe. "Aru!" Arhaan shouted, looking around the ti
RAAHI"Come on, Arohi. Hurry up, or else you will be getting late for school," I muttered as I packed her lunch."Yes, Mumma. I'm coming," she replied from the room.I quickly served both of us breakfast as I was already getting late for work, and I didn't want that. And then, Arohi walked towards the dining table and sat on her seat. She started having breakfast."Mumma, I did my hairs today," she proudly boasted.I looked at her, and even though her hairs were a bit messy, she did it nicely. I smiled."It's good. It will just need a little bit of care from Mumma, and it will be fine," I winked.The initial few days were tough for both of us, with Arohi asking for her Daddy and disrespecting me and other stuff, but slowly, she started learning things, and three months were enough for our bond to improve. She was being a good girl, and I felt proud of her.She used to notice me, that I managed work and home altogether, and with that, she started helping me with little chores. Those we
FLASHBACKRAAHIAnd all the preparations took me a year, but still, I waited patiently because I could make no mistakes.One Day...I served a cup of tea to Arhaan."Raahi. Listen," he muttered."Yeah?" I questioned."The cameras in our house aren't working properly, so I have turned them off. A guy might come to fix it the day after tomorrow," he spoke."Okay," I nodded.Actually, the cameras were working fine, it was I who pulled out a couple of wires so that they malfunction. I had to do that because, in order to escape, I needed the cameras to remain turned off.I was about to turn around and walk away, but then Arhaan held my wrist tightly and pulled me close to him."Ah!" I hissed in pain."Before, you leave, let me make one thing very clear," he husked.He was looking at me dangerously, and I gulped. He looked scary."One mistake and you have no idea what the consequences can be," he howled.I gulped."There won't be any mistake," I weakly mumbled.I can't afford to make mistak
FLASHBACKRAAHI"How could you even scold my daughter? Who gave you the right to do that?" I heard Arhaan's angry words as he pulled my hairs and made me stand up. My forehead was hurting badly due to the hit, but he didn't care."You will have to be taught a lesson," he growled and then, he dragged me towards the room."I'm sorry, please, don't," I cried as I didn't want to bear that.But all my pleas were going to fall on dead ears as Arhaan care about nothing. He just needed reasons to torment me, and when he has got one, he wouldn't let it go at any cost.He dragged me to the room and whipped me with the same belt, and when he was done with that, he asked me to get up and go to prepare for dinner.I somehow tolerated all the pain, and when I walked towards the kitchen, I looked at Arohi. She looked confused by what happened. Maybe, initially, she thought she was happy that Arhaan scolded me, but in my later condition, I could see in her eyes that my daughter was scared of it.But
FLASHBACKRAAHIAnd the journey continued. Day after day, year after year, I was tormented, tortured by Arhaan just because he was my husband and he had a right to do so.He played the part of a perfect husband when outside, proudly showing me off like I'm his trophy, at parties and get-togethers. I had to learn to do make up and hide my scars, I had to learn to put a fake smile on my face and talk with everyone.Even if he introduced me to new people, he never mentioned them my name, he used to address me as Mrs Arhaan Awasthi. No one apart from our family knew my name, not even our neighbours or Arhaan's friends or colleagues. He was successful at wiping off my existence entirely and was proud of it.With all the show off of being a perfect husband and his trophy wife, no one knew what happened behind those closed doors. The ones who knew just told me to accept it as my fate and make amendments.I was abused and raped on a daily basis. He would beat me, humiliate me, hurl abuses at