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Tormented Circles In My Mind
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2021-06-23 01:04:25Last night was torture as she ran circles through my mind as I sought the comfort of my bed. Never has one woman consumed my dreams in total ecstasy yet bringing me pain at the very same time. I could almost feel her delicate fingers running down my sculpted. She laid spread over my body in nothing but red and black lace, but yet all there was is an empty space that is only meant for her.
So with what can only be described as endless hours, I have been counting the seconds as they crawled in anticipation; I find myself sitting with an eager finger wanting to send her a message. I have never felt so much nervousness creep up my spine. My heart will simply fall into an abyss if she refuses me again. But even if she does, I will not give up until I have her in my arms once more. She has become my now, my present; she is the driving force that will determine what I do next.
Ya, I do not fucking listen.
So before I can get my ass into any deeper trouble, the boys and
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