*Skye* During the entire journey down the interminable flight of stairs, I not only see but feel all the eyes coming to bear on me and fear someone will discern the truth and yell out, "Fake, liar, deceiver."But I hear only quiet murmurings, spot an eyebrow or two raised in curiosity. I straighten my spine, lift my chin. I've spent a good deal of my life playing a role. No reason to stop now.As I step onto the floor, Ben leads me over to the Duke and Duchess of Northingdon, who are greeting their guests. They are a handsome couple, the duke as dark-haired as my own husband, the duchess with hair a much more pleasant shade of red than my own. I have always felt mine is too fiery, too harsh… perhaps because my father thought it a sign that I was possessed by the devil."It's such a pleasure to meet you," the duchess says with a kind smile."I'm honored," I say, dipping into a deep curtsy."Where did you find such a treasure, Ben?" the duke asks."My father introduced us. I could not
*Ben* I am not jealous. I have always known that men would want to dance with her, and I have even encouraged her to dance with other partners. So this irrational need coursing through me to rip off limbs whenever a man takes her in his arms is not jealousy. I don't know what it is, other than dark and irritating. "Here, drink this," Tom orders. "You look as though you are on the verge of murdering someone." I glance over at the glass containing amber liquid, take it, and enjoy a long swallow. "Where did you find that?" "Card room. So who has earned your ire?" He asks. I don't know if the man has earned it. "Sheridan." "Ah, dancing with Skye, I see." He grins. And before Sheridan, it had been Avendale, who everyone knows is madly in love with his wife. No danger there of him seeking a dalliance with Skye, and even if he did, she would decline. If there is one thing regarding my wife of which I am absolutely convinced, it is her loyalty. "You made quite the splash with your arr
*Skye* As I step onto the terrace, I welcome the cool night air brushing over my skin. If I had known I would be dancing so much, I would have brought a second pair of shoes. I'm not certain how much longer the ones I'm wearing will last, the soles already worn incredibly thin. The terrace is remarkably absent of guests lingering about, most opting to walk through the gardens. The paths are lined with lights, which provide a soft glow that leaves the couples unidentifiable. I long for a walk but I don’t much feel like it without my husband to escort me. So I move off to the far side of the tiled veranda where the shadows are thicker and wrap my gloved fingers around the wrought-iron railing. Inhaling deeply, I can't help but feel that the night has been a success. The only thing that would have made it more enjoyable is if Ben had been my constant dance partner. No one else moves as smoothly as he does. With no one else do I feel as comfortable or as in tune. With no one else...
*Ben* I can't stomach the thought of being in the residence with her. I consider going to the club, but I can't abide the notion of inflicting my foul mood on others or dealing with the possibility of running into Beaumont. I might truly kill the man if our paths ever again cross. So I sequester myself in the library, with the door locked so no one can disturb me, and drink straight from a bottle of whiskey as though I'm a barbarian. Everything makes sense now. Why she answered my father's advert. Why she refuses to speak of the past. Why her family wants nothing to do with her. She had been a married man's mistress. I sling the bottle toward the fireplace, taking no solace as it shatters in the hearth, glass flying, whiskey splashing. I should be grateful there are no flames to catch the liquid alight, but at the moment, I'm hard-pressed to be thankful for anything. I stalk to the liquor cabinet, retrieve another bottle, and down half the whiskey before coming up for air. Damn h
*Skye* He has chosen to ride his motorbike rather than travel in the car with me. Whenever we round a curve, I look out the window and see him driving ahead, such a lonely figure, the sight of which causes an ache in my chest. Although even from this distance, I can sense the anger roiling off him. He sits so stiffly in the saddle. Even when the dark clouds roll in and the rain starts, he doesn’t seek shelter within the confines of the vehicle. I should have welcomed his absence. Instead, I mourn it. Reaching into the wicker basket that the cook had presented to me before leaving, I remove a block of cheese, take a bite, and slowly chew. There has to be some way to make this situation right. I don’t expect him to ever forgive me, I’m not certain I will ever forgive myself. At the time, I had no choice, no options… or at least not any that I could see. In hindsight... A light fluttering just below my waist causes everything within me to still. I dare not breathe, but simply wait for i
*Skye* I lie on my side beneath the covers, staring at the pale moonlight filtering in through the windows. My life has been a series of escapes, of running away, each one leading to something worse than what had come before. Reading the gossip Magazines, I never considered the rich to be very noble. The men are womanizers; the ladies are silly chits who care only about gowns, money, and dance partners. None of them have real troubles or concerns. Through Montie, I havd learned they are a selfish lot concerned only with their own wants and needs. The other mistresses I have known saw the upper crust of society as a means to an end. Nice residence, fancy clothes, fine jewelry. And if it means giving up one's good name and reputation, they think it worth it for all they gain to be spoiled and pampered, even if it means indulging the whims of a specific gentleman anytime day or night. To be his bird in a gilded cage, to sing when prompted, to keep silent otherwise. Mistresses mistaken
*Ben* I awaken with my head feeling as heavy as my heart. I rather wish that I hadn't asked Skye about her history with Beaumont because I have a strong need to go find him and pummel the man to within an inch of his life. I have catched glimpses of her innocence when she kills spiders, falls into the arms of a waiting servants, and laughs, dancing her fingers over the piano keys. I wish I had known her before Beaumont tore away her guilelessness, although I recognize that I would have considered her too pure for the likes of me, giving her little thought because she would have been likable and the last thing I wanted was a woman I could fancy. How ironic then that I ended up with one I could love. I shouldn't have come to her, should have resisted, but where she is concerned, I had no resistance from the moment I opened the door to her. I curse her for bringing a loneliness to my life that I had never before experienced. I never had any trouble sleeping alone, and now I despise
*Skye* It's the very worst place I could come, but I have nowhere else to go. Knocking on the servants' door, I hold my breath, striving not to think about what might have gone through Ben's head other than a great deal of pain considering how much he'd imbibed when he awoke this morning to find me gone. Would he have even cared or would he have thought good riddance? A servant opens the door, blinks at me, furrows his brow, and I know he's trying to place me. "I'm here to see Miss Sophie." "What is the nature of your business?" "It's personal." In my bag, I have several calling cards that Ben had given me when we arrived in New York, in the event I made morning calls. He had such faith in me garnering the love and respect of Society, of being welcomed, of being accepted as his wife. Instead, I've merely managed to ruin his life. And I'll ruin it further if I hand over a calling card and anyone discovers that Mrs. Archer is very familiar with Mistress Row. "Just inform her that