Awake

Arice Point of View

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I'm so confused about everything I heard. All this time, I thought I'm just the only one who is afraid to lose him, and it turns out, he's afraid to lose me too. On that same day, I right away forgive him. I gave him another chance for him to prove his love to me. You're asking me why? Because when we think we have been hurt by someone in the past, we build up defenses to protect ourselves from being hurt in the future. So, the fearful past causes a fearful future and the past and future become one. We cannot love when we feel fear. But when we release the fearful past and forgive everyone, we will experience total love and oneness with all. That's why I forgive him and gave him another chance to prove his love.

It's been weeks since that day. Nathan has been confined in the hospital for already a month. he is still in a coma. 

We're now on a vacation, h