I burned with envy—not from Kodan’s extensive travel, but just from the chance Fina had to pick her brain in private. It made climbing back into the carriage with Elias even more frustrating. As we made our way back onto the road, Elias looked just as irritated as me as he reviewed the documents.By sunset, we had made it out of the forest and back onto the bald streets of Frasia, then to the inn we were staying at for the night. It was a large timber and brick building with a thatched roof, and a lamp burning over the sign that declared its unfortunate name: the Bloody Nightingale. It was the largest structure for miles, with the others around it mostly small subsistence farms.Elias climbed out of the coach first and stretched his arms luxuriously overhead. His spine popped, and he groaned with pleasure. “Gods, I hate those carriages,” he grumbled. “I have half a mind to run the rest of the way.”“I don’t know if that’d make a great first impression,” I teased.“Oh, gods,” he said a
Elias nodded slightly, brow furrowed like he was still trying to figure me out.I sighed. “I suppose it’s another thing I took as truth from my father, when he wasn’t even my father at all.” He’d done nothing but lie to me my whole life—it was like I had to now re-examine everything I knew about myself, my past, and my future, to untangle his deceptions from my reality.“I have something for you,” Elias said abruptly. He gestured for me to step closer.I moved to stand in front of him, and the closeness of his strong body, the warmth of the fire, and the brandy in my veins all made me want to lean closer, to press against him. Bury my face in his neck and inhale his soothing, masculine scent. I didn’t, even as my wolf complained internally.“Here.” He pulled a delicate brooch from his pocket made in the shape of a moth. The body was made of fine silver, and the wings were inlaid with moonstones. “This is for shifting. It allows you to keep your clothes intact, should you desire to shi
3The next morning, I climbed into the carriage feeling shockingly well-rested. Elias had been right about the run—I’d slept like the dead on the slightly too soft mattress. I slept even better with the heat of Elias’ body next to mine. He’d been perfectly respectful all night too, keeping his distance from me. If I’d woken up first with my nose pressed to his nape, well, he didn’t need to know that.The mischievous glimmer in his dark eyes, however, suggested he might. “That run seemed to serve you well,” he said as he set our rucksacks inside the carriage. “Should make for a more pleasant ride today. Are you sore at all?”“No, should I be?” I asked, rubbing my neck.“Not particularly,” he said. “Just from the roughhousing last night. You were quite spry for someone who rarely shifts.” He set his hand at my neck where I was rubbing it and pressed his thumb into the muscle. It was slightly sore—that was why the contact sent delicious warmth spiraling through me.I swallowed and stepp
I turned red with embarrassment. “Ah, I hope it didn’t disturb you.”“Disturb?” Adora asked. “I love the sound of a howl in the evening. Makes me feel safe.”“Me, too,” Fina said. “I was glad to hear it. Are things okay between you two?”I took a tiny sip from the flask. The brandy did warm me, and I sank a little deeper into the bench seating. With my cloak wrapped around me like a blanket, I could lower my nose into the fur collar and savor the warmth.“They’re better,” I admitted. “Getting better.”Fina smiled, and kindly didn’t press for more. “Good. Here, Kodan has been teaching us this crazy card game from Askon. Want to play?”We hunkered down with the cards, prepared to wait a long time for Kodan and the king to return—but it was only about an hour before there was a knock on the carriage door. Elias was at the other side, flushed and grinning, with Kodan next to him, still in her intimidating wolf-shape.“We’ve found a place to stay nearby,” Elias said. “We can fit the party
“I haven’t camped like this in a long time,” he hummed.“When’s the last time?” Kodan asked. “Back when you were a pup?”“I think so,” Elias said. “It had to be when we were still in the old Nightfall.”Kodan whistled low. “Yeah, so about a hundred years ago.”Elias clicked his tongue and flicked a twig of firewood at Kodan’s face as she laughed. I found myself laughing, too. I was so used to seeing Elias as the serious, unflappable King—but Kodan brought out a younger-seeming, more playful side of him.“You’re older than me, remember?”Kodan cringed. “I try not to.”I pressed my shoulder against Elias’, and he adjusted slightly so he could wind his arm around me. I told myself it was the chill and the tiredness that led me to do this—but the contact felt good. Grounding. I took a sip of the warm wine.“What was it like?” I asked. “Old Nightfall?”“Old Nightfall?” Fina asked.“Our former pack lands,” Kodan explained. “We lived on that territory until I was ten.”“And I was six,” Elias
Elias nuzzled closer then licked my snout, just once, a gentle soothing motion. Somehow, in the quiet of the cave, I was able to fall asleep.I awoke at dawn, before everyone else, and the world was still. I padded out of the cave and stretched luxuriously, from the tip of my snout to the tip of my tail, then took a deep inhale of the cold morning air. The balds were covered in a layer of pristine snow, untouched save for a few animal footprints here and there. The sky was clear and the sun was shining high overhead, already beginning to loosen the hold the snow had. It wouldn’t be too hard to get the carriages moving in this weather.I was considering going on a run—a thought I never would’ve considered before this journey—when Kodan stepped quietly out of the cave. She was in her human form and was already leading one of the horses outside.I shifted quickly back into my human form. “Good morning,” I said.“Morning,” Kodan said. “Just going to start to hitch up the horses, since I’m
“Even as a man?” he asked gently.“Especially as a man,” I admitted. Sleeping close as wolves was different—it was more instinctive, animal, functional. As humans, it meant something different. Something more.“Well,” he said with a small, almost hopeful smile, “I run fairly hot as a man, too, so you’re in luck.”I curled up in our shared bedroll first, under the heavy blankets in just my underclothes. Elias pulled off his shirt, revealing all that broad, tan muscle, and then crawled in next to me.“This all right?” he murmured as he set his arm at my waist.“Yes,” I murmured. “Much warmer.”It took hardly any time at all for Elias to sink into a deep slumber. I matched my breathing to his, slow and heavy, and snuggled a little closer to him. As I drifted toward sleep as well, I realized that even in the wilderness of Frasia, with an unknown kingdom on the horizon, I’d never before felt as safe as I did now with Elias holding me.4“Good morning, lovebirds,” Kodan said as she stuck h
“Why?” I asked. “Because I like maps?”“No,” he said, “because you’re worldly.”I blinked at him. “What?”“I do recall you chose a Shiangan sword to fight me with,” he said, “not to keep bringing up the arena. But I was struck by that. No other competitor wanted it. They were challenging to wield.”“It’s just a reflection of my training,” I murmured, even as pride bloomed in my chest. “And my interests.”“Well,” he said, “I’m glad you’re coming with me on this trip, then. Maybe I’ll have you show off some of those sword skills.”“Before I was sent for the Choice,” I said as I gazed out toward the horizon, “my dream was to travel as far and wide as I could. I dreamed of seeing the entire world if I could.”“Do you no longer dream of that?” he asked.“Well,” I said, “now that I’m queen, it’s not like I can take off for a trip whenever I’d like.”“Maybe not whenever,” he said, “but your role as queen doesn’t mean you can’t leave Efra.”I looked over at him. He was watching me closely as
Elias and I sat at a long table atop the dais, with Enet and Khainan seated at our sides. The band played a riotous, fast-moving song, and the crowd of wolves on the floor engaged in one of Nightfall’s many elegant, quick, high-energy jigs. I caught a few glimpses of Fina and Adora in the crowd, exchanging grins as they bounced gleefully between dance partners. Laughter rang through the room as men swung women up into the air, dark skirts flashed like waves, and even a few kisses were snuck on the dance floor.Looking out over the crowd, with a glass of wine in my hand and Elias’ hand on my thigh, I felt settled. I felt like I was at home. Elias gazed over the crowd, too, then caught my eye and gave me a small smile.We’d been through a lot. In my darkest moments I’d thought I might never see him again.But here we were. Seated side by side with a convoy from abroad, overlooking our kingdom. I’d survived Draunar and Corinne both. Elias had survived a brush with craziness.If we’d made
I pushed open the door to the balcony and stepped outside, immediately sighing with pleasure in the crisp, cool midday air. Enet joined me, then braced both hands on the railing and gazed out over the tree line.“It’s beautiful here,” she said. “Colder than Askon, but just as lush.”“I’ve read about Askon,” I said. “And pored over the maps and the few sketches we have. Your architecture is incredible.”Enet smiled, looking vaguely impressed. “You’re interested in Askonian architecture?”“It’s unique,” I said, “building around the trees like that. I hope to include some of that style if Efra continues to grow.”Enet nodded. “What else have you read about Askon?” she asked.I knew a leading question when I heard one. I stood next to her, gazing out over the tree line.“There’s not much in the library,” I said. “Frasia hasn’t maintained a close relationship with Askon, obviously. But there’s some history.”“History that led you to call on us rather than Osna, or Cruora?”“We’re also both
I had never seen such a grand procession of carriages. I had to intentionally keep my jaw shut as they rolled seemingly without end through the gates of the manor. The carriages were pure black, detailed with gold, and pulled by gorgeous horses with sleek black pelts. They carried no markings of the jaguars, but the sheer beauty of the carriages proved they were royal. Two carriages rolled ahead, guided by a few servants hustling on foot—luggage and servants of Askon’s own, I assumed. The third carriage in the line came to a stop at the front doors of the palace. The horses tossed their heads, nickering; the driver hopped down and swept into a dramatic bow before he opened the door to the carriage.I wasn’t sure what I was expecting. I had a vision of what jaguar shifters might look like—tall and elegant, catlike and sleek, dressed in gold and jewels, like the dragons of Shianga. But the two that stepped out of the carriage surprised me.The queen emerged first. She was a short, lean
There was a part of me that wondered why I still wanted to shift so badly. I’d spent so much time trapped in that shape—shouldn’t I be sick of it? Yet I only felt more connected to my wolf. We weren’t two separate identities in the same body. We were two sides of the same coin. Connected. One and the same. A run sounded amazing—a break from the responsibilities of leadership—but we had no time for that now.We could take a break in other ways, though.I took control of the kiss with a hand on his nape. Elias smiled against my lips, surprised and pleased. I set my hands at his chest and pushed him backward. He took a few steps back until the backs of his legs hit the edge of the bed, and then I pushed him down. He hit the mattress with a smirk, then scooted back, propped up on one elbow. He watched me with one eyebrow raised slightly, curiously, like he was waiting for something.I felt my face heat slightly. I still wasn’t used to being looked at like this—watched so openly, and with
“The talks in Shianga were doomed from the start,” he said, “courtesy of Rodthar of Daybreak. I hope having you all here, as a show of good faith, will prevent such complications in these talks. Since all of our fates hang in the balance.”The heads of the packs agreed to stay until word was received from Askon. Now all that was left to discuss were the details of the invitation we would send to the jaguars. Elias nodded to the servants posted at the edge of the room, and on his command, they exited and returned with the fine spread of boar and vegetables prepared for dinner.As the conversation moved away from the more serious topics of politicking to the more casual engagements of wolves catching up, Elias got roped into a conversation with Giles, and at my side, Barion topped off my glass of wine from the carafe in the center of the table.“Your Highness,” he said quietly, “I owe you an apology as well.”I sighed and closed my eyes briefly. “Please,” I said. “Not now.”Barion’s exp
There was Giles from Dawnguard, a broad-shouldered man dressed in leather armor, with a scar over one eye. From Duskmoon, Isalde, a tall woman who looked remarkably like Fina, wearing an immense necklace of amethyst and onyx. Starcrest had sent an older woman, Marget, whose eyes were clouded with blindness, but not Ealric, and for that I was grateful. It would have been a little much to have to navigate sitting at this table with Ealric and Barion of Daybreak.We took our seats at the head. I was between Barion and Elias, and anxiety was already crawling in my throat.“Thank you all for attending,” Elias said, “and welcome to Efra. I trust your journeys were not too challenging.”Around the table, murmurs of assent.“If I may,” Barion said. “Before we start, I do believe it’d be best for me to speak on the recent happenings.”He held my gaze as he said it, and he looked…beaten down. Terrible even. So unlike the gregarious man who had trained me all through my youth. His fine clothes w
She smiled gently. “Well, I’m grateful to you for keeping them to yourself. Some shifters are not so keen to be reminded of our continued existence.”I nodded, glancing toward the back room.Aerika caught it. “They have even closer lineage than I do. It’s safer for them to stay there. I do the guest-facing work when I can.” She finished pinning the hem and moved up to check the fit of the waistband. “There’s no word going around. It’s more like…a feeling.”“A feeling?”She nodded. “There was a feeling when the queen was taken captive—though we didn’t know that was what happened. I felt like a hole had been struck inside of me, somehow, and my power was beginning to slowly drain out. So slowly I hardly noticed it happening. And then, a few weeks ago, suddenly the hole was plugged. I felt stronger. More awake. More like myself again.” She smiled again, softly. “Like I’d been living in a fog, and didn’t even realize it until it cleared. I knew something had changed. I had my suspicions,
The thought was so horrifying it rattled down my spine like a physical touch. Had Duchess Alana really been capable of something so awful? Using her son to get rid of her own husband?“He’d be proud of you now,” I said. “That much I know.”He swallowed hard, his eyes closed tight. My heart broke for him—for us both—but there was still a flare of pride there too. It hurt, but we’d done the right thing. For ourselves, and for our kingdom.“Come on,” I said, “let’s get some sleep before we have to face your adoring subjects in a few hours.”Elias climbed out of the tub and toweled off, and then we fell into the bed as quickly as we could. We wouldn’t have much peace now, not with all the work that needed to be done to heal the city from Rodthar’s terrible leadership, and then the specter of Corinne looming in the future. There wasn’t a lot of peace to be found, but there was a little here, in this moment. The sun had already crossed the horizon, but with Elias’ arms finally around me, sl
I still felt distant from myself, unreal, like the events of the past few weeks had happened to someone else. How was it possible that I was standing safely in this room? How was it possible that the man who raised me had tried to steal the throne? That the duchess’ blade had been at my throat just a little while ago? And that just days before that, I’d been a hostage of the Fae queen, and before that, a relic in Draunar’s hoard?I wasn’t sure how much time passed as I stood at the window. The sky turned golden with the dawn and the soup cooled to a lukewarm temperature in my bowl. I was about to give up, crawl onto the welcoming mattress and try to sleep, when finally, finally, the door opened.I turned from the window.Elias stepped over the threshold. The King of Frasia.My husband.In the privacy of our quarters, with his exhausted gaze meeting mine, the numbness finally cracked like ice inside me. I dropped the soup and barreled forward, threw my arms around his neck, and pulled