Kodan raised her eyebrows at me. “I can see your hands shaking from here,” she said. “Sit back down. Eat. Clean up. Then we’ll go.”
I sat back down heavily. “We?”
“Of course,” Kodan said. “I’m a good tracker. Between the two of us, we should be able to find him. If I went alone, he’d only run from me. But you—he can’t resist you.”
“He might be able to now,” I said, low. “After what I did.”
“I’m sure he’ll be angry,” Kodan said, “considering he has the temperament of a teenage girl sometimes. But I said resist. When he picks up your scent again, he’ll come to you.”
I rubbed my hand over my forehead. “I hope you’re right.”
“Now,” Kodan said, “as much as I want to hear everything about where in the gods’ names you were, you look like you’re about to fall over. Sleep a few hours while I make breakfast. We’ll leave tomorrow, before dawn.”
“It can wait,” I said. “But I promise. I’ll tell you everything.”
“We’ll have some time on the road,” she said. She gestured for me to take one of the spare cots. I was asleep before my head even hit the pillow.
21
A
fter a few meals of hot food and a full night of rest, I felt much more like myself. I dressed in the heavy, comfortable clothes Kodan had given me, and tied my hair back in a neat plait, keeping it well out of my way. When I stepped out of the small house into the dim light of morning, the village was still quiet, though a few scouts had begun their days tending to the horses in the nearby stable.
Kodan was finishing packing up sturdy backpack. “We’ll be on foot,” she said. “Don’t want to risk the horses drawing any attention.”
“Where are we going?” I asked.
“I was going to ask you the same thing,” Kodan said with a grin. Despite the early hour, she was wide awake and looked almost excited, with leather armor strapped on and her red hair pinned back in a plait like mine. “Your wolf led you here. She should be able to lead us to Elias, too.”
“How?” I asked. “I can’t track his scent—he’s been gone too long.”
“Not using scent,” Kodan said. “Just trust your instincts. If he were hurting, where would he run to? What kind of environment would he seek out?”
I sighed and closed my eyes, then took a deep inhalation of the brisk morning air.
I let my wolf creep closer to the surface, letting our senses blend together. With the right focus, I could trace the smell of everything a little more clearly, and feel the ground firm under my feet as clearly as if I had paws.
Where would he run?
Efra was to the east. To the north, the bay separating Frasia and Cruora.
The bay. If I inhaled deeply enough I thought I could smell the salt on the air. He’d want to be close to Efra, but far from the borders. He’d want open space to run. And maybe… Maybe the ocean would remind him of me.
“Northeast,” I said.
“Northeast,” Kodan agreed. She didn’t ask why, or offer any other alternative. She just hiked the pack onto her back, and we headed out of the village and into the balds of Frasia.
It was chilly, but there was no wind, just a delicate breeze as we started off. The hilly landscape stretched out to what looked like eternity in every direction, broken only by the occasional toughened tree and jutting boulders. As we walked, the sun rose higher in the sky, and despite the guilt and anxiety that still chewed at me, the landscape had an inexorable effect on me. Being outside, with a friend, with a mission—I felt better.
I was going to fix this. I had to.
After about a few hours of walking, Kodan pulled hard tack from her pack and broke off a piece for me. “So,” she said.
I accepted it gratefully. “So.”
“What happened?” she asked. “All I know is that you agreed to Draunar’s terms, then were hauled off in to the sky, and then you showed up in my war camp bedraggled and wrapped up in a terrible cloak.”
“Did I really look bedraggled?” I asked.
“Absolutely,” she said. “Where did he take you, when he flew off with you?”
“To his hoard,” I said. “I thought he wanted me as a queen—that I would rule Shianga with him. I didn’t realize how naive that was. I thought it was the only way to prevent war between the nations. I thought a good queen would be willing to make such a sacrifice.”
Kodan said nothing. For that I was grateful.
“His hoard is deep in the northern mountains of Shianga,” I continued. “Plenty of gold, as expected, but there was a hall that led deep into the mountain. Full of small rooms—like cells.”
“Cells?” Kodan asked. “Were they occupied?”
I shook my head. “I was just the beginning. He wanted to keep queens as part of his hoard.”
She snorted a stunned laughed. “How very masculine.”
“There was one other woman already there,” I said. “She’d been there a while, it seemed, though I’m not sure how long. Corinne. The Fae queen.”
Kodan stopped dead in her tracks. “Draunar captured the Fae queen? How in the gods’ names did he do that?”
“I don’t know.” I kept walking, following my feet toward the mountain range looming in the distance, which separated the lowlands from the coastline. “But we developed a friendship while we were in there, and then she was able to use some of my wolf-magic to open a portal so we could escape.”
“A portal,” Kodan said. “To Faerie?”
I nodded.
“You were in Faerie,” she said, slow and disbelieving.
“She was not pleased at having been held hostage,” I said. “While I was in Faerie, I was privy to some of her plans. Shianga is only the beginning. Once she’s settled in her control of that nation, she’s going to begin expanding her reach. I don’t know when, or where she’ll start, but she’s not going to be satisfied with only taking control of one kingdom.”
“When will that happen?” Kodan asked. “When will she attack Shianga?”I gazed toward the mountains. “She already has.”The silence between us seemed to last for days.“You were there, weren’t you?” Kodan said.I nodded.“She must’ve had scouts in the area,” Kodan said. I could almost hear the gears working in her mind. “She was waiting for the dragons to be weakened and off guard. She waited until they fought us back, while the dragons were injured and busy licking their wounds.”Again I nodded.“Did she win?” Kodan asked. “Does Draunar live?”“I don’t know,” I said. “She captured him. When I escaped, he was in the dungeons.”“Gods above,” Kodan said. “The Fae queen in Shianga. I never thought I’d hear anything like it in my lifetime.”“There were moments when I thought I’d never escape her,” I admitted. “She’s stronger than Draunar. And she craves power—real power, not just wealth and treasure. She shouldn’t be taken lightly.”“Reyna,” Kodan said. “I’m sorry.”I blinked, glancing ove
“Careful,” Kodan said. She held out her arm in front of me, as if to hold me back. I shoved her away and took a step closer to the cave.“Elias,” I said again. I crouched down, so I was at his eye level, and my heart pounded desperately as I gazed into his familiar golden gaze. “It’s me. It’s Reyna.”He snarled again. I’d never seen him behave like this; even when he was in wolf form, he always moved with an easy regality, a self-assuredness. I’d never seen this cold, feral look.“Please,” I said. Was Kodan right?Had he gone crazy?“Please, Elias. Don’t you know me?” I begged.He lunged forward.He moved so quickly I had no time to react. Kodan shouted but Elias easily knocked her aside with the bulk of his body as he slammed me into the ground, barely avoiding slamming my skull into a nearby boulder.“Kodan, no!” I shouted.Kodan kept her hand on the hilt of her sword, but stayed still, leaning heavily against the mountain.Above me, all I could see was Elias. His familiar wolf, his
Was Elias nearby? Had he not run off at all, but was just lurking in the pass, keeping an eye on me?The thought made my lips twitch up in a small smile. I could only hope Kodan was right, that he would come back around and return to himself.We didn’t do much that day. I went back into the pass, looking for Elias, while Kodan stayed at the campsite and sharpened our weapons, mostly for something to do. We hunted—in human form—and caught enough rabbit for a stew.That night I slept fitfully again. At least until sometime in the depth of night, when I’d finally fallen into something resembling a deeper sleep, a familiar warmth settled next to me and drew me in deeper. But the feeling was gone once more before morning could break.Again, nothing in the pass. Again, a day spent poring over Gulde’s map, just for something to do. Again, rabbit stew.We ate sitting across from each other at the campfire. The mountains stood high and imposing, with the balds wide and seemingly endless all ar
When the dawn’s sunlight woke me, Elias was no longer lying at my side. He had stoked the fire, and was dressed in clothes I’d assumed were pilfered from Kodan’s pack: plain slacks and a quilted shirt similar to the one I was wearing, with his cloak folded and set aside. I sat up, shocked to see him still here. He raised one eyebrow at me, and the expression was so playful and familiar my heart clenched to see it. I’d missed him. I’d missed him so much it was like an aching wound, and being so close, but still having so much distance between us, was worse than being apart.Kodan woke up with a groan as the sunlight fell over her face. She pushed the heels of her hands into her eyes and sat up, then looked just as surprised as me to see Elias. “You stuck around?” she asked.“Is what Reyna said about the Fae queen true?” Elias asked.I put coffee on the campfire as Kodan began to pack up the campsite. “I haven’t independently confirmed anything,” she said. “I only know what Reyna told m
Elias stood in front of the gates and grinned up at the lookout. Kodan and I stood behind him. My feet ached from the hike, and I was tired down to my bones. It was like the consistent ache in my heart, like a fresh bruise, was making my exhaustion more impossible to ignore than ever.“Elias of Nightfall,” he said. “I’ve come to speak to your pack leader. And hopefully break bread.”The lookout gasped and clapped her hand over her mouth. She ducked down in the tower, and then the wooden gates slowly began to crank open. They only opened just enough for us to slip through, and then closed immediately behind us.“Thank you,” Elias said, clapping the lookout on the shoulder.She stared at him wide-eyed. She looked no older than fifteen. “Your Highness,” she said. “We—I—I’ll announce your presence.”“Relax,” Elias said with a warm smile. It was a kinder expression than I’d seen since I’d coaxed him out of the cave. “I grew up in this town. No need for any theatrics.”The lookout was still
I wrapped my arms around myself. Even with him so close to me, I’d never felt so alone. “Elias,” I said. “Please talk to me.”“What is there to talk about?” he snapped. His voice was cold and stiff with restrained anger. “You left me. You chose Draunar. And I had been foolish enough to think that what was between us was real.” He shook his head, laughing softly.“I had to,” I said. My voice rose in desperation. I had to make him understand. “I had to, Elias, with his terms—”“I believe you called our marriage a ‘practical arrangement?’” he said. “Isn’t that right?”I snapped my mouth shut. After all that had happened, I’d almost forgotten what I’d said in order to force Elias to let me go. I had said our marriage was just a forced agreement—a practical decision. Not rooted in love.That had been true, at the start. But things had changed.“I didn’t mean it,” I said meekly.“Then why would you say it?” He whirled to face it, golden eyes blazing. “You chose him so easily. Hardly any hes
I wrapped my hand around his nape and pulled him down for a kiss. Even if he couldn’t forgive me, or even fully understand me, I knew from the pain in his eyes that he still cared about me. Loved me. And I loved him, too, even though I’d left him alone in Shianga.His lips met mine. Softly at first. Just the barest touch of my lips against his, and for a moment the stiffness made me think he might pull back and shove me away.But then it was as if something inside him snapped. He growled low and possessive in his chest, then wrapped his arm around my waist and hauled me flush against him. His other hand raked through my hair; he kissed me so hard I bent back with the force of it. I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck and moaned into the kiss, a sound of desire and relief both. My wolf was just as pleased as I was, close to the surface, heightening the sensations. It felt like it’d been years since I’d kissed him. Now I couldn’t get enough, chasing his lips, deepening the kiss, eve
“Don’t hide,” he growled. “Look at me.”I bit my lower lip, then turned back to meet his gaze.“Good,” he said. He slid his hand over my belly, delicious pressure that made me squirm, and then gripped my thigh and tugged my legs apart. I gasped, gripping his upper arm hard. He exhaled hard, eyes landing between my legs, where I was already wet and ready for him.“Gorgeous.” He traced his fingertips gently up my inner thigh, then slid two fingers against my pussy, not pressing inside but just sliding over my wet folds. I gasped, moving my hips down toward his hand as pleasure licked up my spine. It was overwhelming, but still not enough, just slow steady pressure that had me rocking my hips to match it.“Please,” I begged. “I need you.”Elias swallowed my repeated pleas in another kiss, wet and messy, tongue and teeth clashing. He shoved his pants down just enough to free his length, and as much as I wanted to get my hands on him, my mouth on him, I didn’t want to stop kissing him. I h