I wrapped my arms around myself. Even with him so close to me, I’d never felt so alone. “Elias,” I said. “Please talk to me.”
“What is there to talk about?” he snapped. His voice was cold and stiff with restrained anger. “You left me. You chose Draunar. And I had been foolish enough to think that what was between us was real.” He shook his head, laughing softly.
“I had to,” I said. My voice rose in desperation. I had to make him understand. “I had to, Elias, with his terms—”
“I believe you called our marriage a ‘practical arrangement?’” he said. “Isn’t that right?”
I snapped my mouth shut. After all that had happened, I’d almost forgotten what I’d said in order to force Elias to let me go. I had said our marriage was just a forced agreement—a practical decision. Not rooted in love.
That had been true, at the start. But things had changed.
“I didn’t mean it,” I said meekly.
“Then why would you say it?” He whirled to face it, golden eyes blazing. “You chose him so easily. Hardly any hesitation. How am I supposed to trust you? How am I supposed to call you my queen when you are willing to abandon me at the smallest obstacle?”
“In what realm was that a small obstacle?” I shot back. Frustration was beginning to clash with the guilt in my chest. “He was threatening to bring dragons to Frasia. To kill our subjects. And we were just supposed to let that happen? For our own comfort?”
“You are naive,” he said. “It was never that simple.”
“What other option did we have?” I asked. “I couldn’t let war come to Frasia.”
“And yet it did,” he said coldly.
Shame, guilt, anger, all blended together, icy and nauseating. “You did that,” I said. “Not me.”
“Because you are my queen!” he roared. “You expected me to stand by while that beast hauled you into the sky like a common cow picked up for prey? You imagined there was any way I would accept that? That I would live happily in Frasia with some other wolf, with the image of your body in Draunar’s claws burned behind my eyelids?” Pain leaked into his voice. He scowled and looked back toward the fire, as he rubbed one hand roughly over his face.
“I just wanted to do what was right for our kingdom,” I said. “What other option did we have?”
“There are always other options,” Elias said. “That is why you are naive. It is never so black and white. He was threatening us, certainly, and complicating negotiations, but there are always other avenues. Negotiations are not choosing a dress from a handful of options—it’s weaving a tapestry. It’s complicated. And you threw out all the work we’d done when you accepted his ridiculous terms.”
I bit my lower lip. I had felt so righteous when I had made that decision. I’d felt like a strong, serious queen. A queen willing to sacrifice for her people. A queen who would do whatever it took to do the right thing. But through Elias’ eyes, it was shortsighted. Foolish. Again, we weren’t working as partners—we were working separately, but side by side.
“How was I supposed to know all of that?” I demanded. “You didn’t include me in the negotiations at all. If I had known what your method was, what our method was, I wouldn’t have felt so cornered when Draunar proposed the terms.”
“Diplomacy is not an immediate privilege,” he said. “It takes time to learn.”
“You should’ve told me that, too.”
“I should’ve done a lot of things. But even so, how can I trust you after this?” he asked. “How can I know you won’t leap at the chance to leave me again?” The rage had finally melted from his gaze. Now, there was only hurt in his expression, as if now in the relative safety of Siena, he had allowed himself to feel his betrayal.
I stepped closer. When he didn’t move away, I carefully set my hand at his upper arm and slid my hand to his shoulder. He shivered slightly under my touch, and his eyes fluttered closed.
“You’re right,” I said softly. “I never should’ve agreed to his terms.”
He exhaled hard out of his nose.
“I didn’t see another way,” I said. “I was afraid—afraid it would escalate to war if I refused. I didn’t think there would be fighting because I agreed. I thought—I thought we would both put Frasia first, and accept the conditions.”
“Putting Frasia first does not mean sacrificing ourselves,” Elias said. “It never has.”
“You make it sound so easy,” I said.
“What?”
“Being the leader.” I set my hand at the joint of his neck and shoulder. My wolf was purring at being this close—at finally connecting with him. Even if I couldn’t soothe his pain just yet, at least we were starting to understand each other again. “I was doing what I thought was right. I realized how wrong I was when I ended up in his hoard.”
“I thought I’d lost you,” Elias admitted. He said the words with his jaw clenched, like it hurt to even admit the fear. “I thought you were gone forever. I didn’t see a way to lead without you at my side. I couldn’t see past my own pain. I just ran.” He shook his head slightly. “If I had known the duchess would call on Rodthar—”
“And if I had known Draunar wanted me for his hoard, not as a diplomat,” I said, “we both would’ve made different choices.” I sighed softly. “Elias, I’m sorry.”
His brown eyes, flecked with gold, met mine. My heart beat hard in my chest.
“I’m sorry,” I said again. “I never wanted to leave you. I fought my way out of Draunar’s cave because of it. I fought my way back to you.”
Elias’ brows pulled together. He closed his eyes again and then bared his teeth briefly, an uncontrolled response, like being this close hurt.
I wrapped my hand around his nape and pulled him down for a kiss. Even if he couldn’t forgive me, or even fully understand me, I knew from the pain in his eyes that he still cared about me. Loved me. And I loved him, too, even though I’d left him alone in Shianga.His lips met mine. Softly at first. Just the barest touch of my lips against his, and for a moment the stiffness made me think he might pull back and shove me away.But then it was as if something inside him snapped. He growled low and possessive in his chest, then wrapped his arm around my waist and hauled me flush against him. His other hand raked through my hair; he kissed me so hard I bent back with the force of it. I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck and moaned into the kiss, a sound of desire and relief both. My wolf was just as pleased as I was, close to the surface, heightening the sensations. It felt like it’d been years since I’d kissed him. Now I couldn’t get enough, chasing his lips, deepening the kiss, eve
“Don’t hide,” he growled. “Look at me.”I bit my lower lip, then turned back to meet his gaze.“Good,” he said. He slid his hand over my belly, delicious pressure that made me squirm, and then gripped my thigh and tugged my legs apart. I gasped, gripping his upper arm hard. He exhaled hard, eyes landing between my legs, where I was already wet and ready for him.“Gorgeous.” He traced his fingertips gently up my inner thigh, then slid two fingers against my pussy, not pressing inside but just sliding over my wet folds. I gasped, moving my hips down toward his hand as pleasure licked up my spine. It was overwhelming, but still not enough, just slow steady pressure that had me rocking my hips to match it.“Please,” I begged. “I need you.”Elias swallowed my repeated pleas in another kiss, wet and messy, tongue and teeth clashing. He shoved his pants down just enough to free his length, and as much as I wanted to get my hands on him, my mouth on him, I didn’t want to stop kissing him. I h
“When I was leaving, he woke up. I couldn’t let him see the scales, so I told him I was just…checking on him. That I wanted to see him.”Elias nodded.“He invited me into his bed. I told him to wait until he was better rested, since he was so injured and exhausted. Hoping to the gods that the spell worked so I wouldn’t have to see that promise through.” I propped my chin on my knees. “He demanded a kiss, and I gave it.”“You kissed him,” Elias growled.I nodded. I couldn’t meet his eyes.“That foul beast,” he said. Rage radiated off him in waves. “I can only hope the Fae queen keeps him alive so I can slaughter him myself for what he did.”“Can I ask you something?” I asked.The anger was still palpable in the air, but he nodded.“When I was in his room, I had a knife on me,” I said. “To pry the scales he was shedding off. And when I was done and I had them, there was a moment when I had the knife in my hand and I realized I could slit his throat. Right there. I was trying to decide i
One of the servants stood and fixed her a bowl of oatmeal and a mug of coffee, which she accepted with an exhausted, grateful sigh.“I did,” she said. “It’s worse than we expected.”“What do you mean?” Elias asked.“Rodthar has not just taken the throne,” she said. “He’s made the manor into a fortress. It’s as if he’s brought all of Daybreak with him. There are guards swarming the place.”“I see,” Elias said coolly. “He’s expecting retribution.”Kodan nodded. “There’s no way we can get into the castle. Not without a lot of help, and not without killing a lot of wolves.”“The reinforcements are coming,” Elias said, “but a man like Rodthar won’t hesitate to throw his guards on their swords if he must.”“I must admit,” Kodan said, “If what Reyna said about Corinne is true, I don’t think we should risk our forces fighting the Daybreak guards.”“Nor do I,” Thaddeus said. “The wolves of Siena are strong, but few in number. I won’t lead them into a slaughterhouse.”“No one is going into a sl
Elias nodded. “Regardless of how you feel about him now, no woman should have to see the man who raised her slaughtered.”“He didn’t raise me,” I said, my voice hard.Elias looked up, curious.“He barely spoke to me,” I said. “I was never good enough for him—never ladylike enough, too opinionated, too cold. Barion is the one who raised me. The duke always seemed like he didn’t want anything to do with me.” I chuckled, but there was no humor in it. “I guess that much was true.”“You’d see him pay for his crimes?” Elias asked.“I’d do it myself,” I said. “If given the opportunity.”Now it was Elias’ turn to chuckle. He set his hand at my hip and tugged me in between the open spread of his legs. Then he took the mug of coffee from my hand and took a sip. I huffed in faux indignation.“Would you actually?” he asked.I knew he was thinking of the cave, of my hand wrapped around the knife, hesitating as I looked down at Draunar.“I would,” I said. “With you at my side. Knowing it wasn’t jus
“Come,” I said, “we’ll get breakfast. There’s much I need to catch you up on.”We ended up in the kitchens, seated at a small wooden table in the corner while the servants fried more bacon and cracked more eggs into the cast iron on the immense fire. They didn’t seem to mind us, and I was happy to let Elias catch the generals of Duskmoon and Starcrest up on our plan to take back Efra. I caught them up on everything—my time in Draunar’s hoard, Corinne’s takeover of Shianga, and now Daybreak’s opportunistic coup in Efra.“Do you really think this will work?” Fina asked. “Going through the tunnels?”“It’s the best option we have,” I said. “We’ve been hurt enough by battling Shianga. I don’t want us to lose any more wolves trying to fight through the soldiers of Daybreak to get to the duke. If we can take out the duke first, Daybreak will fall back.” I nodded to myself. “I know they will.”“How do you know?” Adora asked.“The duke has lost sight of the pack,” I said. “First he sent me to
“Prepare to move out,” he said. “We’ll traverse the tunnels under cover of darkness. The traitor will be dead before dawn.”More hoots and howls of agreement and thrill. It wasn’t much of a speech—but these wolves didn’t need much encouragement. These were the finest wolves Frasia had to offer.The outcropping of boulders by the lake concealed a pit, which contained a simple wooden ladder descending into the depths. Elias went down first, carrying a single torch. Then Ealric and Kodan, a few more wolves, and then finally Fina and myself.As I descended, nerves began to crawl up my spine. The tunnel was strangely familiar, deeply dark and rough-hewn, with only the flicker of Elias’ torch ahead to illuminate the path. The light cast the soldiers ahead of me in shadow. I crept quietly behind them, feet soft on the dirt.The tunnel stretched for what felt like miles. I had no idea how long I walked for, quiet and tense with nerves. It must’ve been hours. Finally, we stopped walking where
“Loyalty to the true King and Queen of Frasia,” he said. “I’m honored to fight alongside you.”“Are there others?” I asked quietly. “Are the wolves still loyal?”“Of course,” the young man said, looking at me with his brow furrowed, like he couldn’t believe I’d asked at all. “Rodthar only cares about his own power. Not about anyone in Efra. We’ve been waiting for the king to return.”I nodded. The young man’s gratitude sent a rush of adrenaline through me. We’d made it into the manor—now we just had to make it to the man who was once my father.“Which way?” Elias asked as we approached the other side of the dungeon. “How do we get into the throne room?”“I can get us back to the quarters I stayed in when I was part of the Choice,” I said. “That’s the only part of the system I know.”Elias nodded. “That’s enough. That’s close enough. Wolves—this way.”I led us out of the dungeon to the secret door I’d found when I’d first snuck down here with the intention of freeing Griffin. This time