Andi had schooled Lexy in the correct lyrics of the new hit by Tag Team while Beth appeased the plumber by day, umpire by night who still didn’t seem happy with their performance. Luckily, it was the final inning, and they’d all be out of there soon enough. She was ready to get in the minivan and crank up the air conditioning, not that she wouldn’t have to stand around and wait for her dad to load everything up and go over the game with his assistant coaches for a half an hour before he finally headed home. She desperately wished her dad would just let her take the car. She’d had her permit for a few months. But her parents would never let her drive the car by herself until she was fully licensed. Next year, her dad had told her. But then, next year her brother would be in college. This was likely their last summer for Babe Ruth League ball. A pang of sadness hit the pit of her stomach, and her eyes automatically searched for Sammy. This was the summer to make something happen. There wasn’t much of a chance her dad would coach next year without Shane on the team.
Once the game was over, Beth collected her book and her extra pencils, made sure all of the electronics were switched off, and the three of them headed down the ladder, Lexy in the middle so she didn’t fall. Besides her creative interpretation of song lyrics, she was a bit of a klutz, and her friends naturally took precautions to keep Lexy safe in these sorts of situations.
A breeze greeted them when Beth’s feet hit the concrete, and while she enjoyed the cooling effect after being trapped in the stuffy scorekeeper’s box for almost three hours, the fact that it was blowing in from the east meant it smelled a lot like raw sewage.
“God, who ever thought it was a good idea to put a lagoon next to a public park,” Andi noted, shaking her head as Beth turned to secure the ladder back into the floor of the booth. Beth knew it was because a branch of Muddy Creek meandered its way along the east side of the park, making it a logical place to build the lagoon, and she thought it had been there longer than the baseball diamonds, but she didn’t feel the need to get into that all right now.
“At least there’s wind,” Lexy reminded them. “Maybe I’ll just sit down here on the bleachers next time there’s a home game.”
“Thanks.” Beth shook her head and rounded the concession stand, knowing Lexy was just kidding. Besides, the group of preppy girls sitting on the bleachers was enough to make Lexy change her tune even if sitting near them would mean avoiding the warmer temperatures in the booth.
The gaggle of girls had been impossible to see from the scorekeeper’s perch, but Beth had had a feeling all along that they were there. She managed a small smile as she and her three friends skirted around them. None of the girls even acknowledged them, which wasn’t surprising. Even Shane’s girlfriend didn’t speak to her, though, to give her the benefit of the doubt, she wasn’t looking in Beth’s direction. Beth decided not to hold it against her since ordinarily Tiffany Parker would at least say hi. Although, with those other girls around, there was a chance she might not have. Maybe Beth was just as embarrassing to Tiffany as she was to Shane.
Beth opened the door of the minivan and dropped the scorebook on the dash. It was too hot to get inside while her dad was still packing up gear. She saw Shane shove a bat in one of the bags before abandoning the job to one of the other guys and sauntering toward Tiffany. Beth prayed there would be no PDA as that always made her stomach roll.
“Gross,” Andi muttered, leaning back against the sliding door as Beth closed the passenger side. “Tiffany’s okay, but those other girls are so…”
“Slutty?” Lexy finished.
“I was going to say rude, but sure.” Andi shook her head.
“Mindy Caraway, Jessica Swan, Amber James, and what’s the other girl’s name?” Lexy asked, adjusting her glasses, like that would somehow help.
“Oh, come on, Lex. That’s Carly Lyles. She’s Amber’s best friend,” Andi reminded them, not that Beth didn’t already know exactly who each of them was. Wearing cut-off shorts and T-shirts, their makeup perfect, like they hadn’t been sweltering in the same summer heat as the rest of them, not a hair out of place, the girls greeted Shane and told him what a great game it had been. Beth bet none of them even knew the rules. She shook her head, folding her arms and trying not to stare.
“I should’ve brought more hairspray,” Andi mumbled, and Beth agreed, pulling a loose lock of hair in front of her nose and whiffing the comforting scent of Salon Selectives.
“We should go help your dad,” Lexy suggested, brushing her hair off of her shoulder.
Beth turned to see Michael talking to her dad as they finished packing up the last of the bats. “I think they’re done.”
Lexy sighed loudly. “Next time, we should go right over and help your dad.”
“Don’t you think that would look a little obvious?” Andi asked.
“Hey, maybe that’s what we need. Clearly, we don’t look like them… but we’re pretty enough.” Lexy nodded her head once, for emphasis.
“Sure. If my parents could afford to buy my entire wardrobe from The Limited and I only weighed ninety-five pounds.” Andi looked down at her own figure and shook her head.
“You’re beautiful, Andi,” Beth assured her friend. While both of her friends were a little curvier than the other girls, that didn’t make them unattractive. They certainly weren’t overweight. Beth knew how they felt, though. It didn’t matter that she was a perfectly healthy body weight, maybe even a bit on the skinny side. Her brother loved to make jokes about her weight, always had, and it was easy to let those negative thoughts sink into her head. She was sure her friends had heard similar comments from their siblings, or in Andi’s case, possibly her own parents who tended to think mean was funny.
Before anyone could say more, Beth realized Sammy was headed past them, toward the group of giggling girls on the bleachers. She inhaled, filling her lungs, thinking this may be her last breath. The scent of perspiration mingled with the same cologne he always wore, though she wasn’t sure what it was, and Beth held on to it, certain he wouldn’t notice them lingering in the shadows of her mother’s Caravan.
So when he stopped walking, her knees buckled a little bit. “How’d you like the scorekeeper’s booth? I bet it’s hot up there.”
Beth stared, the breath she’d inhaled now choking her. Even in the dim light, his eyes still seemed to be twinkling. He had a smear of dirt on the side of his handsome face, just above his perfectly squared off jaw, and the idea that she could reach up and rub it off had her grasping her hands together to prevent any ridiculous behaviors. Not that she could control her limbs right now since she had some sort of paralyses all of a sudden.
A subtle but sharp shove in the middle of her back from Andi made her gasp. “Uh, yeah. No, I mean… we had a fan.”
“Really?” He folded his arms and looked down at her, shaking his head. “Couldn’t hear it.”
“It was across the room.” Beth thought she should smile or find something interesting to say. Instead, she stared at him, like he was an insect and not the guy she’d been dreaming about for years.
“It was a thousand degrees up there.” Lexy inserted herself into the conversation. “It was like keeping score on the sun.”
Sammy made a noise like he was trying not to laugh, and Beth heard Andi mutter something under her breath that sounded like, “You’ve gotta be kidding me.”
Beth’s eyes flickered over to Lexy and then back to Sammy, wondering if he’d acknowledge her friend’s ridiculous statement. He took a step forward so that he was only a few inches from Beth now, and she felt her heart lock up on her. Almost in a whisper, he said, “Well, you still smell really good,” and then turned and walked away before she could even begin to formulate a response. By the time she realized she should’ve said, “So do you,” or “Thanks,” or “Will you be my boyfriend?” he was over near the bleachers inserting himself into the conversation with the popular girls, one of which, Carly Lyles, was actually hugging him, right there in the park. Beth didn’t know if she should rejoice that he’d spoken to her or storm across the field and punch Carly right in the face.
“What the hell?” Andi asked, shoving Lexy. “Why did you say that?”
“What? It worked. He spoke to Beth, didn’t he?”
“Yeah, he was already speaking to Beth. You just made it sound like she was a sweaty pig.”
The argument continued, even though her dad was approaching the van and the girls piled in. Shane had his own car there, and who knew when he might head home. Unlike Beth, he had no curfew. Their mom insisted Beth had to be home by 11:00 unless she was with her dad, of course. Shane could stay out later because, as Evelyn put it, he, was “less likely to get into any trouble.” Beth had no idea how her mother had come to that conclusion since Beth was a straight A student who still went to church with her family most Sundays and didn’t even curse in front of her parents, but Evelyn Monroe was a tough nut to crack.
“Well, that was a good game,” Richard noted, starting the van. Beth’s friends concurred, but her eyes were still glued to Sammy. He had his arm around Carly, and the whole group was laughing. Her dad clarified that both of the girls needed dropped off at Andi’s house since Lexy was staying over. Andi confirmed that he’d remembered correctly, and he pulled out of the parking spot, causing Beth’s head to swivel back to reality.
The stairs creaked beneath her feet as Beth felt her way along the bannister, a can of Dr. Pepper in her free hand. Whoever decided it was a good idea to put the light switch at the top of the stairs had been an idiot, and while Beth realized said idiot probably died over a hundred years ago, she really wished the people who’d renovated their house right before they bought it five years ago would’ve considered fixing this problem with the light.And put a bathroom on the second floor.She reached the top step and fumbled for the cord that hung from the ceiling in the narrow hallway that ran past Shane’s closet of a bedroom to hers. Finding it, she gave it a tug and then breathed a sigh of relief at having reached the top without tripping and tumbling to her demise. Of course, the way the stairway curved, she would’ve probably hit a wall before she broke her neck, but reaching the top of the stairs always felt lik
Something about Ryan’s tone sounded different, like he wasn’t really all that happy for her, and she wondered if he had something against Sammy. He wouldn’t be the only guy who felt that Sammy’s opinion of himself was a little unwarranted, but Beth couldn’t remember ever hearing Ryan say anything bad about him before. Her eyebrows knit together as she tried to determine how to respond. Should she thank him for the compliment, even if it might’ve been laced with sarcasm, correct him for essentially calling Sammy an ass hat, or explain why his reasoning was wrong? In the end, she did what she always did in similar situations and obliterate any twinkle of hope from her miserable existence.“Actually, once he said that, he walked over to a group of popular girls.” Beth could hear the misery in her own voice. “God, you should’ve seen the way Carly Lyles draped herself on him.” She shook her hea
Away games always had her phone ringing, and Beth had decided long ago that she would always take whoever asked first, but she’d taken her friend Brittany who normally hung out with Lexy and Andi as much as she did Beth. Since she’d started a job this summer at the local grocery store, working as a cashier, Brittany was a lot busier than the other girls. Despite the calling of dibs by Andi earlier in the week, they both understood. For Brittany, sometimes being a little bit older could be a drag because she had to work so much, but at least she had her driver’s license and could drive them around the square—when she wasn’t working or grounded.The next Tuesday the game was away again, and she’d taken Lexy after a rock paper scissors battle to the death between her bespectacled friend and Andi. There hadn’t been any tears at the resolution, but there had been some narrowed eyes and veiled threats. Beth assured And
The booth was relatively quiet for most of the game, and Beth was able to concentrate on the game for once. While she didn’t like to think her friends were upset at her or each other, at least Mr. Cooper didn’t have to turn and shout at them about the score being wrong. He did have to ask the people in the bleachers to keep it down a couple of times, however, and by the second time, Beth began to realize there was a lot of chatter going on down there. She had no idea who it was, however, because of the way the scorekeeper’s booth was situated. The fan was drowning out all but giggles now and again and the high pitched din of muffled conversation.It wasn’t until Brittany made her way up the stairs halfway through the seventh inning that any of them got a clue. “Hey chicas!” she announced, her blonde, curly hair a little saggy since she’d come from work but otherwise looking pretty and put together. “How&rsq
The silent reverie was broken by the sound of three sets of feet on the ladder. “Oh, my God!” was about all Beth could understand, but she knew she’d be filled in soon enough.“She did look like a ghost, just standing there all still,” Lexy agreed. Beth reached over and flipped the ball button on the scoring machine and then recorded the pitch in the scorebook. The girls resumed their seats, and Beth shushed them, afraid Mr. Cooper would get on to them as well.“She was beautiful, though.” The revelation came from Andi, but Beth kept her eyes forward, locked on the game. Just what she needed—another gorgeous girl to swoop in and make her feel like a loser.“Her lips are so red and pouty…. Her eyes are gold,” Lexy added.“Do you have a crush on her?” Andi laughed, elbowing the other girl.“Maybe&helli
The sound of his voice caught her off guard, and goose flesh sprung up all over her arms. If it wasn’t for the sound of her friends “oh, my God-ing” to her left, Beth would’ve thought she was asleep, that the question had only taken place in a dream.She turned her head to see Sammy standing in the dimly lit parking spot, the moon illuminating his perfect face as he waited for a response. Behind him, Robby and Michael lingered, their arms crossed as they watched, a goofy grin on Robby’s face while Michael looked much more serious.“What was that?” Beth asked, still unable to process what was happening. How in the world was it possible that Sammy was actually asking her out? If this was true, it was a miracle form heaven….“I said, would you go out with me? I mean… I want to go ask Carly out, but these two assholes keep telling me there’s not a girl in
Evelyn was up when they snuck in the back door; even her dad tried to avoid making any noise for fear it would wake Beth’s younger sisters, Dani and Lavender, and Evelyn would come undone. But Lavender, who was three and named after her mother’s favorite color, was standing in the kitchen in her Rugrats nightgown while Evelyn filled a sippy cup with tap water.“We won!” Richard announced, patting Lavender’s head. She smiled up at him but didn’t say anything, and Evelyn shushed all of them.“Don’t wake Dani up,” she insisted. Her sisters’ room was far away from where they were standing, across from the living room, in the front part of the house, away from the kitchen, nestled between the parlor and her parents’ bedroom. It was as if whoever designed this house had no blueprints and just started walling spaces off.“Sorry,” Richard replied, op
Beth couldn’t see anything out the window from this angle except a dark street through the branches of her mother’s prized redbud tree.Ryan stealthily stood and crept to his front window, flipping off the lamp by the side of his bed as he did so, leaving his room in near darkness, except for the glow from his aquarium in the back corner. His room was only half the size of Beth’s but still ample sized for a teenage boy.She heard more giggling, though it seemed to be fading away. Beth reminded herself that she was no longer afraid of the dark or what might lurk there and waited patiently for Ryan to drop the shades and return. He turned his light back on and took a seat, taking his time to reveal what he’d discovered, from Beth’s perspective. “It’s Olive and Johnny.”“What?” Beth craned her neck back out the window, unable to believe what she was hearing from
The sun was sweltering the day they put Hannah Day in the ground. It wasn’t a dreary, stormy morning like in the movies, but it seemed fitting that Hannah’s funeral wouldn’t quite fit the mold either. She certainly hadn’t.Beth and Ryan held onto each other as the preacher said a few words about the beautiful girl who had meant so much to so many. There was no mention of the fact that she’d drowned trying to commit murder, and that according to the journal she kept, this was her second such act. Unfortunately for Brock Hill, there’d been no one there to save him.As the preacher finished his remarks, Beth squeezed Ryan’s hand, and they gave the casket one last look as Hannah’s mother began to wail. Beth couldn’t blame her for being unable to accept what her daughter had done—or what her daughter had been through herself. The journals were full of secrets Hannah hadn’t con
“Damn,” Beth muttered, hoping she was okay. She might be batshit crazy, but the thought of anything permanently damaging happening to her made Beth sick to her stomach, especially since she’d been the one to push her.“What happened?” Michael asked. “You’re bloody, Beth.”Beth hadn’t realized her face was scratched up so badly until she dragged her hand across her cheek, and it came back pink. Halley had made contact quite a few times while they were under the water, but she had hardly felt it at the time. Now that her adrenaline was starting to die down, she was sure it would all come back to her.Sheriff Bill Jones ran up, flashlight in hand, before Beth could answer Michael. He snaked his way through the fence. “You kids all right?” he shouted, straightening his glasses and running his spread hand across his mustache.“No, we n
It wasn’t enough to scare her off, though, and Halley lunged at Beth as Ryan began to float away, still not conscious enough to help himself. Beth was aware that the creek meandered for about a quarter mile before a small, but powerful waterfall merged the creek with the lagoon. She couldn’t let him get away from her, but Halley was coming at her again, and this time, Beth was close enough for Halley to scratch her face.Beth pushed her back as hard as she could, balancing on one leg as she brought her other knee up and made contact with Halley’s gut. The smaller girl groaned, and Beth shoved her backward as hard as she could. Halley stumbled, regained her footing, and came at Beth again, but this time, Beth was out of the way, already moving toward Ryan. She dove into the water, reaching for his outstretched hand when she felt Halley latch on to her ponytail.Halley wasn’t pulling her up, though, she was pushing
There was no time. All of it seemed to speed up and slow down, to move backward and forward at once. Beth could hear a struggle, somewhere in the water, and she recognized Ryan’s voice even though it was strained and groggy. She couldn’t make out what he was saying as every word was clipped by the sounds of splashing and gurgling. Frantically, she hunted for the entrance in the fence and was just about to give up and climb over when she spotted it—and spotted them.Beth could see Halley in the water. It was deeper here than Beth had expected as it hit her above the waist. Either that, or the girl was on her hands and knees. Her face was lifted to the sky like she was praying, and though it was difficult to see, in the light reflected off the surface of the water that swirled past her, Beth could tell Halley’s eyes were closed.At first, she was confused, not understanding where Ryan might be, but then his hand ca
Rushing over to her friends, she pressed the lid back down on Ryan’s drink. “Lexy, hold onto this. Don’t let it spill, and don’t drink it. Brittany, can you drive Andi down to the pay phone? Call your uncle, the sheriff, and get him down here, okay? I’m not sure what’s going on, but we might need him.”“Do you think it’s that serious?” Lexy asked as the other two started to move.“Maybe. I don’t know.” Beth didn’t have any more time to talk about it. If Ryan really was in trouble, she should’ve already been moving.She took off running, not sure of where she was going, but instinctively, she thought the creek would be the most logical place for Halley to take him if she was really trying to injure him. She hadn’t given him enough of whatever it was floating in his drink to kil
“Hey, where’s Ryan?” she called when she was a few feet away from them. All three stood with their arms crossed, serious expressions on their faces.“We aren’t sure,” Lexy admitted. “He got up about ten, maybe fifteen minutes ago, and walked off, that way, into the park. With Halley.”Beth was confused. She peered off into the darkness. There were no lights at all in that section of the park. Across the street that circled the ball field, there was mostly just wide open space where people flew kites or lay on blankets in the shade. A few hundred yards away, off in the distance, she knew there was a chain link fence that separated the creek from the park so that no children accidentally ran into the water, but she couldn’t see it from here.“Why? Where were they going?” Beth asked, trying to keep her voice calm.“We don’t kno
The baseball game Thursday night was at home against Juniper, one of the smaller towns in the area, and there was a pretty good chance Barryville would win by the mercy rule. Beth climbed the ladder to the scorekeeper’s box alone since her friends decided they wanted to sit on the bleachers where they could keep a better eye on things. Beth remembered Ryan mentioning he wanted to go to this game back when he’d first won his freedom, and she thought there was a possibility he might show up with Halley. Since Beth wouldn’t be able to see the bleachers from her post, her friends had volunteered to observe, even though they had no idea of the potential threat.Beth hadn’t told them about the pills or all the details of Halley’s mysterious past. They only knew that there was a chance Halley wasn’t who she said she was and that Beth thought she might be up to something no good. Telling Andi, Lexy, and Brittany that she thoug
It must’ve been a day for cleaning because that’s what her mother was doing, too. “There you are. Your phone has been ringing nonstop since you left. I really wish it wasn’t so loud.”“Sorry,” Beth muttered wondering who was calling her now. She headed to the door to the stairs, her mother still talking behind her.“Dinner will be ready in a few minutes. Your dad just got home from work. You really should go out in the back yard and play with him and the girls. You never do that anymore.”“Okay,” Beth said, but her hand was on the door. How was she supposed to figure out who was calling so that they’d stop and also spend time outside with her family? Her mother continued to run a rag over the old piano in the corner of the room, the one no one knew how to play, and Beth headed upstairs, hoping whoever had been calling had good news.
Mrs. Wilson opened the door on the second knock. A surprised, yet pleasant, look crossed her face. “Beth! How nice to see you. How are you, dear?”“I’m good, Mrs. Wilson. Is Ryan here? I need to talk to him for a few minutes, if he’s not busy.”“Oh, uh, sure.” She looked worried, like she was afraid Ryan might be unduly stressed by having to talk to his unstable friend. “Come on in.” She gestured at the living room, and Beth walked in slowly. In all of the time she’d been neighbors with Ryan, she’d never come to his house before.The living room wasn’t what Beth had expected. It was clean, but the furniture looked much newer than the outside of the house would indicate. The television was small and built into a cabinet that sat on the floor, like the one Beth’s parents had had when she was little. She took a seat on a green and white ch