What is is again this time?I woke up with the feeling of wanting to puke.I immediately sat up and was about to puke on the bed I’m at but gladly I was able to stand up and go to the bathroom.I’m at Brook’s mansion, the house I grew up. I was dizzy as I continued to vomit on the toilet. I almost hugged the toilet because of the twisting of my stomach.I was so weak that I leaned on the sink because I was exhausted. Fuck!What’s the matter with this vomiting shit? It’s been how many hours since I drank, why am I still feeling this?I tried to pull my self up to at least fix my self in front of the mirror.I washed my face and gargled water from the faucet. My cheeks are pinkish, like drunk. And my eyes are still puffy because off crying since last night.Just when I was trying to calm down a bit, my stomach felt like rumbling again so I vomited to the toiled again for the second time around.My face was wet with a mixture of sweat and tears."Fuck!" I yelled when I was done.It’s the
Forgiveness? Ask for what? To love now is a sin? And that’s one of the things that buried me more, deeper than the decaying body, I’m just a lost soul.I don’t know how many more times I will do it. To move away from the place where my heart really belong is the most tiring and painful thing. I knew he would look for me in places he knew I would go. He has his men, he can find me with just a flick of his hands. So I made sure I didn't go to the place where he could see me.I rented a motel just around the borders of the city and country side. This motel is very old and it will almost be considered a hunted house because of the look of its structure.I don't know how many days I will stay here but as long as I'm not sure of what's going on, I won't leave here.I almost fell to the floor of the room given to me in the extreme weakness that was produced. I kept on running and running a while ago, I kept on hiding like a criminal, hiding from someone.I didn’t know where I was going, so
No! That can’t be! I can't get pregnant! Impossible! I had my menstruation a few fvcking days ago! Being pregnant is the last thing that could happen at this moment.My legs trembled as my strength returned to the foot of the bed here in the room. I couldn’t be bothered while thinking about the possibilities.Peptic ulcer. That’s it! For sure that was it! I should probably go to the doctor and ask if this is one of the symptoms. Or maybe asked if this is about the anemia or anything scientific sh!t! Just not being pregnant!I sat up in bed in a daze. But how would I do that. I can't go out. For sure Hugh is looking for me now. If he sees me, he’ll for sure kidnap me or something.I've been thinking about things all day. I was like an idiot in the bedroom all day and even when I took a nap, I couldn't imagine my possible condition.I shouldn’t say that it’s impossible to happen because for god sake! We do it everywhere and every time we want! But half of me is saying that for sure this
I cried my self to sleep again.What time did I fall asleep wondering what kind of punishment is being awarded to me now? What sin did I commit in my first life to go through it all now.I only want to be loved in this lifetime. In this lifetime, I only desired for someone who will treat me valuable. Who will say that he’s with me all through out my journey because growing up I was deprived of that.I’m always the one to call on their ball shits. I’m always the one who suffers. When will I be happy?Even though I had no plans to revive this child I still found myself getting worried.I went down to the lobby again to buy food because I didn’t want to get hungry.I do not know! I shouldn't be doing all this. I’m strongly against abortion. That is one of the inhumane thing that a mother could do or decide on. And now that I’m on the verge of the two, I understand why some mother can bear to do such things.This is a fruit of incest so another sin would be alright right? When else has si
Gradually, I found myself running out of the money I had.Eventually I realized that I could no longer just stay here for the rest of my life. Though it’s a bummer because this place was such a good hide out. You see, Hugh and his men still can't see me in this village.There are things that I wanna do. First, is to talk to my mother and clear things out. And finally settle things together with Hugh and his mother and I.I want to clarify everything and also say about my pregnancy and what decision we should make here. Would I ever be ready to see him? Can I look into his eyes and tell him that we’ll be needing to abort this life inside me?It was better for me to face him with his mother, because I knew I’ll have a back up. Because if it was just him I probably wouldn't have the strength to face him.It might just be a sin to allow us to happen again. I spend my time thinking about what will I do for the next days. How can I go to my mother when I don't even know where she lives? And
“Free? Again? ”I hissed on the man.It’s morning and I was just done with another blow of morning vomiting and all that stuff and he came again to hand me the paper bag in his hands. It’s freakin Tuesday.What the heck?He seem so scared about my sudden question.”Why? Is your owner’s favorite days is Monday to Sunday? ”I asked again.He couldn’t answer holding the paper bag in his hands. For sure that is breakfast.“Y-You can just pay for this ma’am,” he stuttered."I don't have money,""Then it's free!" he smiled big.I palmed my face because of frustration.”Is this a scam or a joke? You’re not gonna charge this to me when I go checked out right? ” I said.“No ma’am. I swear this is free because the owner is delighted that it’s been days since you stayed here. I sighed and my shoulders weakened.”This is too much already. I hope this will be the last one. ” he just smiled when I got the paper bag from his hands.“Thank you ma’am. Eat well. ”"Tell the owner that I'm grateful." I u
Hugh’s POVShes nervous. She’s shock. She can’t comprehend my sudden existence in front of her.I gritted my jaw as I saw her. Yes baby, I’m right here. You run and I’ll chase you. You hide and I’ll seek you. You leave and I’ll follow.“W-what are you doing here?”I moved my jaw in a harsh way. Jesus, I can smell her.Her puffy eyes and his blushing cheeks are a sign that she cried again. I know.I badly wanted to hug her the moment I knew she was here. But I’m afraid that she will freak out and go running in the hills again. She thought I wouldn't see her. She thought maybe that's how fast I hid. That's where she goes wrong.I stepped once and she stepped back. I look at her intently, I gritted my teeth. I’m so mad. I badly want to punish people right now for making her like this. Does she believe that bullsh!t?I was not shaken and I finally entered her room. She gasped at my actions. I walk straight to the round table in her room.I landed the ice cream she asked for just as the be
Hugh’s POV She can’t understand it. I don’t know if she got what I meant there.‘Yes baby. I know you’re pregnant. And I know you’re not my cousin. ’She is the one who will understand then. My first and foremost concern is her and our child.”What? Get out of here! You are crazy. ” she pushed me but that didn’t move me a bit.“You don’t want your strawberry ice cream?” I challenged her.She gulped. I heard her stomach rumbling. Damn, our baby is hungry. Both of my baby is hungry."Leave my strawberry ice cream and get the fvck out of here!"“Shhh,” I shushed her.She’s still mad and confused at the same time. And mostly, nervous.“Eat now. I’ll stay here. ” I simply said.I let go of her and sat into the tiny bed. Really? I wonder how many people had been laying in here. This is fvcking disgusting. She needs a more cleaner and well environment for our child not here.“No! What are you doing? I said get out! ”I look at her with my cold eyes.“’ Don’t get too mad. Our baby would be s