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43. Not Like That

Author: Eden Moon
last update Last Updated: 2024-09-21 07:00:04

I woke up first. We'd slept, clinging to one another the rest of the day and night. We clung to one another like we could physically hold the bond intact still.

Like it wouldn't break if we didn't let go.

Everything around me was the same. The same bedroom, the same bed, the same man lying beside me.

But something wasn't right. The stillness felt strange. Everything felt strange.

I lay there blinking at the ceiling, trying to figure out what exactly had changed. His arm was still around my waist, and the bed still smelled like him, but something between us was different.

It just wasn't the same. The pull that always drew me closer to him, that electric spark, had dulled.

It hadn't disappeared entirely. I still loved him, but the intensity was gone.

Like a thread that had frayed at the edges.

I glanced over at Cast still asleep beside me, his chest rising and falling steadily. He looked peaceful, but the bond between us... it felt broken. I could feel the gap, the hollow space wh
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