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114. I Knew The Feeling Well
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CAST - I adjusted my shirt, buttoning it back up after holding Declan against my skin. Lila was getting ready to nurse him, and I sat back, watching with a weird, almost stoic focus. It was the same focus I'd had all day, just observing, taking in every little detail like it might slip away. I couldn't stop staring. Everything seemed to narrow down to just those two. It was all I could think about. It was all I wanted to think about. It wasn't long before Declan started drifting off, full and content after what felt like his twentieth feeding of the day. Lila returned him to me, and I cradled him under my shirt. It was colder in this part of the house, and this was better than using blankets. There was one good benefit from the extra heat an Alpha werewolf produced. Lila also mentioned it helped with bonding. I would never argue with that. I couldn't get used to the feeling of holding him like this. It was overwhelming in a way I didn't know how to put into words. "You've b
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CAST - The drive up to Dr. Tessa Marie's office was quiet. It wasn't uncomfortable exactly, but it was sober. We both had things to say but didn't know how to start. I stared out the window, watching the trees blur by, trying to wrap my head around the fact that I was actually going to see a doctor about this. About the depression I'd been ignoring for years. It wasn't something alphas talked about, let alone admitted to needing help. But here I was, on my way to meet with someone who understood both sides of me. I'd met with Dr. Tessa briefly over a telehealth session a few days ago, and she'd asked to see me in person. "Sensitive things to discuss," she'd said, which was code for werewolf problems that couldn't exactly be included in medical records. The idea of talking about my struggles, especially with someone outside the pack, didn't sit right with me, but Linc had been insistent. I couldn't keep going like this. Bouncing between moments of calm and spiraling into de
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LINC - As Cast and I exited Dr. Tessa's office, she called after me. "Linc, how are you doing?"I turned back to face her. "I'm doing really well, actually. My healers have perfected the formula."She seemed pleased. "That's wonderful. Is it easier now that you're Alpha?"I chuckled. "Yes, much easier. I even promoted the healer who has been helping me all this time."Tessa nodded. "That's great to hear. Your progress is impressive."She hesitated before adding, "You know, after hearing about Lila from three different people, I'd really love to meet her. How about you and Lila join me for dinner soon?"I was a bit surprised but smiled. "That sounds nice. I'll mention it to Lila.""Excellent," she said. "My husband always likes to meet the Alphas I work with, anyway.""I appreciate the invitation," I replied.I hadn't told anyone before today. Not a single soul. Not even Lila, the person I trusted with everything. And here I was, sitting in the car next to Cast, admitting to him that
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I sat there listening to the rhythmic hum of the pump filling the room as I worked on filling another bottle for Declan. Linc had asked me to pump several bottles before he left, saying he needed to take Cast to the same mental health facility that Selena had gone to. He didn't explain much, only mentioned that it would be good to have some extra milk on hand for Declan, "just in case." I wasn't sure what he was planning, but I trusted him.As the bottles filled, my mind drifted. I knew Cast was struggling, even if he wouldn't admit it very often.Linc was doing everything he could to support him, and I was grateful for that. The dynamic between us had shifted so much in the last few weeks. We were still figuring it out and navigating the lines of what we were to each other and what roles we played in each other's lives. I knew something had changed the second they walked back into the house. I glanced up from where I was cleaning the bottles, and the energy between them was differe
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He kept going. "And for that time I didn't call you back after the fight about the lamp. You loved that stupid lamp, and I broke it. I didn't even apologize. I didn't even care enough to say sorry. Damn, I'm just a selfish asshole.""Cast, it's okay," I said softly, wrapping my arms around him as his entire body shook. "You don't have to..."But he couldn't stop. "I'm sorry I forgot your birthday the first year we were together. And for not remembering how much you hate roses. I bought them for you anyway. I just rushed. I didn't think. And I'm sorry about that time I didn't go to see your favorite band because I was too busy sulking over... I don't even know what. It wasn't fair to you."His voice cracked, and I could feel the tension in his body growing. "I'm sorry for never learning your favorite song, even though you played it a hundred times. I'm sorry I never helped with the dishes after you cooked. I just left you to clean everything. Who does that?"He started to cry harder, t
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CAST - Lying there, my back pressed into the mattress, I couldn't stop the twitching in my hands. My mind was racing, not in any way I could control or even make sense of. Everything was jumbled. Flashes of memories, regrets, and thoughts collide together in a mess of intense guilt and pain. Lila wrapped her arms around me, but her reassurances barely cut through the cold haze settling over me.I stared at the ceiling, feeling the walls close in, knowing I was on the verge of something I couldn't handle. The first pill had hit like a hammer. The second was worse. I couldn't do this again. Not a third time."I can't do this," I whispered. "I'm going to break. I can't take the third pill. I'm done. I'm leaving."Lila sat up beside me, her grip on my arm tightening as she forced me to look at her. "No, you're not. You're not walking away from this. You've already taken the first step. Of course it's hard. But you're taking the next one and the next one... until you feel better. Until
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LINC - Mom appeared at the doorway, holding Declan against her chest. "I think this little man wants to say goodnight before he passes out," she said.I crossed the room and took Declan from her. He was still for now, but I could sense the tension in the house, with Cast spiraling like he was. Lila, trying to hold everything together as she always did, was at her limit too. "I'm going to sleep out in the living room with him tonight," I said, glancing between Lila and Cast. "Mom and Dad will be upstairs. If either of you need anything, just let me know."I moved toward Cast and gently handed Declan to him. Declan's face scrunched up the second the baby settled in his arms, and he let out a loud and desperate wail. He never cried like that. Declan had been calm from the start, barely fussing unless he was hungry. The crying hit Cast hard.Lila stepped in quickly, taking Declan back from Cast. "He feels your energy," she said, gently rocking the baby. "He's scared when you're scared
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CAST - I pushed off the bed, moving toward the door, but Lila was in front of me before I could even reach for the handle."Cast, no," she said, blocking my way."I have to go. I'm just screwing everything up. I can't be here."She gripped the front of my shirt and held me in place. "You're not leaving.""I have to." My voice cracked. "I don't deserve to be here. I've ruined everything. You, Declan, Linc. None of you deserve this. Let me go, Lila. Just let me disappear.""No," she said, her grip on my shirt tightening as I tried to pull away. "You're not disappearing. Not this time."I struggled to pull free, but she didn't let go. "Let me go!" I begged, the desperation clawing its way through me. "I don't deserve to be here. You don't deserve this."She yanked me back to her, her hands fisting into my shirt as she pulled me closer. And then she kissed me. Hard.I tried to fight and push her away, but she wouldn't let me. Her lips silenced every thought and fear spinning in my head.
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Pregnant Luna - Lawful Rebellion 2- 42. Not Like This
DECLAN -The trees blurred past as Gaia ran, powerful and sure beneath me. I gripped her fur tighter, not because I was afraid but because I had never felt anything like this. The wind cut sharp against my skin, my pulse pounded in my ears, and my body moved in sync with hers like we were built for this. Everything in me buzzed with adrenaline, with the rush of speed, the sheer force of her muscles coiling and flexing beneath me. Then I saw it. A shadow slipped between the trees, fast and silent, keeping pace with us. Suki. Not now. Not like this. I silently begged her to stay back, to leave this moment alone, to not push this any further than it had already gone. But she didn't. Her wolf stayed just on the edges of my vision, always there, always lingering, never letting me forget what was still tangled inside me. The pull. The connection that refused to break, no matter how much I willed it to disappear. Then Gaia saw her. Her muscles coiled. A ripple of tension passed through
Pregnant Luna - Lawful Rebellion 2- 41. Hear Me
DECLAN -I made it back to the house just as Gaia came tearing out the front door, furious. She was barely holding herself together. The second she saw me, she yanked her shirt over her head. My brain barely caught up. I froze as every muscle in my body seemed to ripple at once. I was still reeling from being near Suki. From the way she looked at me. From the way my body reacted even when my mind told me I belonged to Gaia. The confusion pulled me in opposite directions, turning every second into a battle. And now Gaia was storming toward me, tearing off her clothes, taking up every bit of space in my mind. "Damn, Gaia." I snapped my head to the side, forcing myself to look anywhere but at her. She stalked closer, bare feet kicking up dust. I frowned. Why the hell were her shoes off? She had stormed out of the house so fast that she hadn't even thought to put them on. That wasn't like her. She grabbed my chin and jerked my head forward. "We... werr 'dults. We... need to stop act
Pregnant Luna - Lawful Rebellion 2- 40. Experienced
DECLAN - Suki stretched out on the rock beside me, legs extended, fingers tapping idly against the stone. She wasn't in a rush, and that only made everything worse for me."Why are you upset?"I stared at the dirt, exhaling hard. "You don't want to know.""Please. You rejected me. Nothing else you say can be worse than that."That shouldn't have hit as hard as it did. My hands tightened against my knees, but I kept my voice even. "Yeah... Sorry for that too."She shrugged like it didn't matter. "You did what you had to do. That doesn't mean I can't tease you about it."She smiled, not mean, not teasing, but something about it still made it impossible to ignore. I didn't push. Couldn't. Not right now.Some of the pressure in my shoulders eased. "You're handling it better than I thought.""What, did you expect me to run off crying?" She kicked a loose rock down the slope. "I don't do the whole helpless thing."I huffed. "I know. Takes a lot of strength to live out here on purpose all t
Pregnant Luna - Lawful Rebellion 2- 39. Secrets
DECLAN - Mom knocked once before stepping inside, moving like she expected this to be a fight. Maybe she did. Maybe it was."Your dads worked out a deal with Jaed."I stayed where I was, back against the headboard, arms locked around Gaia. Keeping her here. Keeping her mine. "Doesn't matter. Nothing is changing."She did her best to ignore my attitude. "Gaia can still stay until her birthday."I scoffed. "You heard what I said. She was staying regardless of all the bullshit."Gaia sat up fast, then shoved off the bed completely. "Don't talk to your mother like that."Heat crawled up my spine fast. A burn that made my stomach wrench. Being called out pissed me off. Being called out by someone below me? Made my teeth ache.And I hated that I felt like that.Mom just watched, waiting. No reaction, no expression, no wasted effort. My breath felt thicker, slower, body bracing for something I wasn't even sure of. I forced my attention back to her instead of the fire sparking hot under my s
Pregnant Luna - Lawful Rebellion 2- 38. Moan
DECLAN - Jaed turned on his heel and stormed out, steps heavy enough to shake the floor. The door slammed hard enough to rattle the frame. Gaia moved fast, pushing out of the room after him without looking back. My body still burned, everything wound so tight I thought I might snap in half. There was no way in hell I was walking out there right now, not like this. I sat on the edge of the bed, planted my feet, and dragged both hands through my hair before forcing them down. If I kept doing that, it would only make everything worse. I needed to get it together. I needed to think about something else. Anything else. My breathing was too hard, too uneven. My pulse pounded in my ears. My entire body ached, my skin too hot, my blood thick and heavy. Every inch of me still screamed for her, for more, for everything I had been seconds away from having. I stared at the ceiling and tried to focus. No good. Every thought ran straight back to her. To the way she had felt pressed against m
Pregnant Luna - Lawful Rebellion 2- 37. Do It Again
DECLAN - By the end of the lesson, most of them had the alphabet down. It wasn't perfect, but it was a start. More than that, it was proof that this was happening. That Gaia was becoming part of us, not just some outsider with no way to connect.As the room emptied out, I felt her before she even touched me. Gaia slid her arms around my waist from behind, pressing herself against my back."You're incredible," she signed against my chest, looking up at me.I swallowed. Hard. "Come on," I muttered, taking her hand and pulling her toward my room.The second the door shut behind us, she was on me. She dragged me down to meet her lips. I didn't hesitate. I kissed her hard, ignoring the dull ache still lingering in my ribs. My shoulder moved without protest, and most of the cuts had already faded into thin scars. I knew I should still be careful, but touching her made everything else disappear. The soreness, the exhaustion, the remnants of pain all vanished the second she was in my arms.S
Pregnant Luna - Lawful Rebellion 2- 36. Not Really
I found Cast and Linc in the office, going over some pack reports. Linc leaned back in his chair while Cast was half-standing, flipping through pages with a scowl. They barely looked up when I walked in, but I didn't care. I had something to say, and they were going to listen."We're starting ASL classes," I said, crossing my arms. "Everyone is required to attend. That includes both of you."Linc's brow lifted slightly, and Cast set the papers down with an exasperated sigh. "You're giving us orders now?" Cast asked, folding his arms over his chest."Yes."They exchanged a look. Linc sighed first. "Declan, you don't get to just..."I cut him off. "I do. And I am. This should've happened the second we knew Gaia was deaf. Jaed made sure every single person in his pack knew how to communicate with her before they moved there. But here? We're still scribbling on notepads like it's the Dark Ages."Linc's jaw tightened. Cast clenched his teeth, looking more annoyed than guilty. But I wasn't
Pregnant Luna - Lawful Rebellion 2- 35. Distracted
Life felt strange now. Not bad. Just different.The routine of school was gone, replaced by the quiet predictability of home. I woke up early, trained with Dad Cast and some of the others, then spent the rest of the day doing whatever needed to be done around the packhouse. The only difference now? I was healing far faster than I should have been.The gashes along my ribs had already started closing. My shoulder still ached, but nowhere near what it should have been given the damage Suki had done. Even the deep bruising felt more like old aches instead of fresh wounds. It was fast. Too fast.Gaia noticed it first. She was there when I peeled off my shirt after training, her eyes narrowing as she reached out, fingers barely brushing over the nearly-healed claw marks."That’s not normal," she signed, eyes flicking up to mine.I already knew that. "I heal fast now that I'm an adult alpha?""Not this fast," she countered . "Do you think,"I exhaled. "It’s you."She nodded slowly. "We heal
