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112. Protecting You

Author: Eden Moon
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-21 04:16:58

CAST -

The hot water ran down my back, mixing with the blood, grime, and sweat from the last few days. It all swirled down the drain. I stood there, letting the steam surround me, trying to breathe through the tightness in my chest, but it wasn't working.

It never worked.

I didn't deserve to be here. I didn't deserve any of this.

Lila had given me another chance, which felt like a gift I shouldn't be allowed to accept. The water poured over me, but I couldn't wash away what I'd done. Not the pain I'd caused her, not the fact that I'd missed my son's birth because I was too stupid to see reason, too full of self-hatred to be there. The thought of it broke something inside me, and before I could stop it, I started sobbing. Quiet, hard sobs that I couldn't control. They came in waves, just like the water running over my skin, but the difference was that the water would eventually stop.

My guilt wouldn't.

I leaned against the cool tile, feeling the hot water hit my shoulders, but it did
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