Mistakes and regrets

Juss.

Finding Marlani in the state that she was that day, enveloped me with an overwhelming guilt, knowing that my best friend could have died, while I was the most hated person on her list, was something I could not get over.

She looked so frail, so delicate, like she was going to break at any moment, and it would only take the slightest push.

It was all my doing. She trusted me and I betrayed her, I broke her, I broke my best friend, and it was too late to make her whole again, not that I would be able to even if I tried. I ruin things rather than fix them.

I wanted to go back to the hospital to see how she was doing, but I was a coward. I was even tempted to call Eggust at some point, but I didn’t want to ignite a fire I couldn't put out.

Today was the first day I left my hotel room in days. I ordered literally everything and never left the door of my room. Luckily for me, the hotel had no issues with external services.

Standing at the parking lot of the hotel, waiti