ALEXAI tried to escape from the thoughts crowding my mind that threatened to tear through the fabrics of reality and drown me in my own tears as my fingers ran through my hair. I turned on the shower faucet after setting the temperature to a suitable one, as the water came in contact with my bare skin I shuddered a little and sighed loudly.Washing myself wasn't much of a big deal but I felt lazy or too sluggish to make an attempt so I just let the water pour down on me, my hands instinctively went to my tummy which I gently caressed and couldn't stop sighing, having a child is a dream of mine but giving the circumstances I've been rethinking it all.A little beep pulled me out of my imaginary destructive thinking, I touched the little device and the beeping stopped. The beep was to alert me that someone was in my room. I relaxed knowing that only a few people had access to my room freely and not long after I heard a familiar voice."Alexa, are you fine?" I sighed and replied that
ALEXALevi continued to stare at me. I was not sure about what he wanted to say but I am very sure I knew what the whole topic was about. I avoided his gaze overall, I couldn’t just bear looking at him while he tried everywhere he could to get me to look at him. I stare at everything around the room but him. But when I finally gathered the courage to gaze at his face, his eyes trailed down to my stomach.The movement was so fast that I almost thought I managed it but I didn’t. His eyes fell on my tummy for a few seconds when he thought I wasn’t looking and then they were up again looking at my face.When he finally opened his mouth to speak, Mia walked into the room with a cup of clearly freshly made coffee in her hands. The little heat brewing out of the cup confirmed that to me.“Hey Alexa, here you are. I have been searching the whole house for you.” She chanted while she moved toward me. “I made this for you. I thought you are going to like it seeing as it is a bit chilly outside
ALEXA.Most times we don't get what we wish from life and just have to settle for what life throws at you, this to me felt like one of those times.The only thing disdainful about this whole life and throwing circumstances is the fact that you are forced to succumb to whatever is fated to you.As it turned out I was fated never to find perfect love, and the more this became glaring the more the internal zeal to run away came to my mind.Of course this was going to come with a lot at stake, with the house being perfectly guarded and with Levi constantly on the lookout it was slowly occurring to me that I had to do a lot .Recently, amidst this whole madness that was happening around me, there is this urge or what I could call a sudden drift from Levi toward me.With a child thrown into our controversial life , he was starting to show more interest. While that should have been flattering it birthed the same feeling as my ill fate — so much that I wanted nothing to do with him. It was s
LEVIWe all have different ways of dealing with pain most especially the silent type, for me pain starts slowly and the next moment I am completely overwhelmed by it .The whole situation is swift and happens at the speed of light, I could easily say I wear my emotions right there on my sleeve and walk with it in broad daylight. While the entire situation makes me vulnerable, it doesn't make me less of a man . I am human anyways —literally . Moment before I bumped into Alexa, I had been reflecting on things. I had been on call with the doctor and the information he was giving wasn't one any expectant father would want.There was a deep fear in my heart toward the fate of the child but the last thing I would do was show this fear.I walked away from her with a heavy heart, walked back to my room the only place I felt peace and calm. I left the events of the days that had passed drift through my mind with the wind , as it did my mind rattled with dissatisfaction — with want, my manly
ALEXAMoments like this set the pace for what the state of my heart would be for the rest of the week, listening to him speak I could come to no conclusion.Let us just say, I chose to be more careful when it came to him, it was like the only thing I could come up with to save myself from having to deal with what could be a heartache.While we have our faults, dealing with him was a entirely different task—It came with a lot of risk, I had tried wanting to give him all of me in the past and what did he do? I gave a forced sigh. Over that past week the thought of trusting him again had crossed my mind, zero times.I was at this state where I knew the next decision would go a long way to affect how the fortune of the future would be ."A penny for your thoughts." Mia's familiar voice filled the hallway and I turned to see where she was .I shook my head slightly, the last thing I wanted at this moment would be Mia educating me about how the future should be.Most of the times, I felt
ALEXA.I stared at the page's of the form in my hands as the air was filled with the antiseptic scent of the hospital."Do you at times feel like you are all alone and lost in yourself?" I stared hard at the fifth question and ticked the Yes box. It had been twenty minutes since I arrived at the hospital and an hour since I made the call to the doctor.At the back of my mind was the fact that I couldn't stay sane if I spent all the time I had staying at home. I needed that freedom to carry out my plans of absconding.I had barely been with the doctor for twenty minutes having back and forths conversations with her when she had suggested the best for me would be therapy.Was it obvious that I was broken?"Mrs. Smith would speak to you now." A receptionist donning tanned red hair muttered as she stood right there in front of where I was sitting.From the way she spoke and the manner she was speaking, I tried to guess that the reason for the flighty air around her could be because she k
ALEXAI stood there at the doorway with my mind spinning as I couldn't think at that moment, I closed my eyes in disbelief as I stood there motionless.Filled with anxiety, I hung on to the last bit self restraint—I had just walked into her room and was given the shock of my life, if she had ever talked about anyone she loved it definitely had to be Zale, seeing the man standing right there triggered so many feelings . He smiled at me and I watched as shuffle him out the door, as she stood still and straightened up herself.All this while a smirk crawled up my face as I felt amused by the event unfolding—I crossed my arms when I saw her smile as she looked all shy.After kissing him and shutting the door when he was gone, she leaned against the door as she tried to catch her breath.I pursed my lips and tapped a finger against it, turned around and narrowed my gaze.“What Just happened? " I asked.First, I was made to believe she was with Zale and now this, some part of me was comi
ALEXA"We meet our soulmates once in a lifetime, and with one kiss both your souls are damned to a hell of… ""Hell of?" The word sounded relatively like a cliche, ever wondered why the words men and hell appear in the same phrase than any other words? I was stuck, it had been over one hour and all I had been doing was writing, as it turned out Mrs . Smith was right. Writing and finding my old talent did trigger back that side of me I thought was completely lost.I stared at the page that had a smudge of ink. From within my heart echoed heavily through the room.I stared at the clock on the wall that struck past six. In a funny way I had spent three hours of my life writing. All these had come with sacrifices.Beneath all these thoughts I had, my mind played the mental image of what he could be doing at the moment.Unrepentantly, my soul had been damned to his hell each time my mind reminds me of more reasons why I shouldn't believe in him. There is that one reason why I should, the
LEVII shifted a little in my chair, impatient for the council meeting to get to the stage I had been dreaming about all these days. I looked around at all the pack members seated in the council chamber. All eyes were trained on the front of the room, at the round table where the men who would give fair judgment on who was to become Alpha, sat. I was not the only one stealing glances around the room. Zale, who was a claimant of the Alpha title sat at the end of the table also, opposite from me. It was obvious that he was in a state of barely suppressed excitement. His eyes met mine, and he smirked before looking away. I hid a grin. He was in for a shock even though he did not know it yet. There was a loud thump that echoed around the room. Conversation ceased immediately. One of the chief council members, the one with a grizzled beard slowly got to his feet. "Brothers of the pack," he called in a carrying voice. "You all know why we are here, to decide on who becomes the true Alpha
LEVI"It's your son, I can't find him anywhere!" Mia fidgeted, her eyes sunken with fear..I immediately stood up from my chair in a panicked state."Where was the last place you saw him?"I asked Mia, barrelling past her."In his room,I went downstairs to get myself a drink and answer a few calls then came back to find him gone." Mia rambled, following closely behind me just as panicked as I was.I tried to calm myself as I practically ran to the security room…I was still pissed about finding out that Zale was responsible for my father's death and now this!I needed to focus. There was no way my son could just disappear without a trace.I took in a deep breath as I got to the security room and sat down. I began to surf through the security footage, trying to calm my racing heart.Mia was right by my side, scanning the footage from between one hour ago and now. I could practically hear her heart beating her chest. She was afraid and normal I'd comfort her but I was just as panicked as
ALEXA As soon as I stepped into the restaurant, I spotted Zale seated at a table at the rear of the restaurant, fidgeting and checking his watch. He looked around, but did not spot me at the entrance, as a couple of people were leaving then, blocking his view of me. He was obviously eager to have the ring in his possession, even though I was still five minutes early for our scheduled meeting. "Hi, Zale," I said as I lowered myself into the chair next to him. He started a little, having been engrossed in checking his wristwatch in what had to be the umpteenth time. "Alexa." His face split into a wide grin. His eyes danced with barely concealed excitement. "Just who I've been expecting. It's good to see you." He looked me over, his gaze lingering on the fitted dress I wore. "You look really good... Better than you looked at our last meeting."I shrugged. "I guess it's the satisfaction of taking my own pound of flesh.""Of course. Of course. I like the way you think. Only hypocrites
LEVIIt was night time and Alexa was getting ready to go over to Zale's to hand him the fake ring.Despite the simplicity of the plan, I couldn't help but to be worried about her and the plan. I wasn't one to scare easily but when it came to Alexa's safety, I was.I watched her through the window as she walked towards the car that was to take her over to Zale 's place. I still didn't like the idea of her meeting him but in order for us to be able to trick him, she had to.The starless sky was not helping the niggling feeling I had at the back of mind either. I know why but I felt really off about the plan. Alexa had told me I was being paranoid when I had mentioned my concerns to her earlier and I had taken it as the reason but right now I wasn't so sure.As if she could sense my eyes on her, Alexa turned around and our eyes locked through the window and she frowned as she noticed the worry in my eyes.She tore her eyes off mine and quickly glanced at the driver to say something I cou
LEVII walked towards Mike who was making his way towards me.'How'd it go?’ I have a question. He heaves a breath and buries his hand in his hair, “Nothing out of the ordinary really,” he starts, leaning against a nearby wall, “They just went on and on about who the new alpha is going to be and how the choice is going to be made this year. Apparently they’re making special efforts to ensure it isn’t the same as the previous year.” He explains and I nod in understanding.“Makes sense. Did they mention who exactly who the competitors this year are?” I asked, taking the spot beside him.“To be honest, it wasn’t really clear, they didn’t state it plainly,” He scratches the back of his head, an apology in his eyes, “They however mentioned the top two contenders are you and Zale.” He finishes, his gaze studious.“That’s…good?” I muss, my hand rubbing against my chin, an impulse I had picked from Alexa. “And the supporters? Enemies?”“We actually have quite a number of people on our side,
ALEXAI told Mia about Levi's text and we drove to Levi's office. The traffic was on my side. It was light and we got to the office in record time. As soon as I pulled in front of the building, I looked into the rearview mirror, schooling my expression into the expected one of fury. Mia waited in the car. I marched past the smiling doorman, completely ignoring his greetings. The other staff scurried out of the way when I directed my scowl at them. "Where is he? Levi," I demanded of the receptionist. "He's upstairs," she said, wide eyed with surprise. "Up in the conference room."Without another word, I went upstairs, already muttering angrily to myself long before I spotted Levi. He stood with his back to the wall, sulkily regarding people who passed by him. "There you are, you piece of shit!" I screeched as loudly as I could. I pointed an accusing finger at him as I marched towards him. As I had hoped, every eye in the corridor became fixed on me. Levi gaped at me, his expressio
LEVIMy attention was half on what Mike was saying. I was lost in thought, thinking about what Mia had told me. It had come as a shock to realize that Mia had been under Ryan's thumb all this while, doing his bidding. I was grateful for whatever lucky chance had made Alexa eavesdrop and hear Mia's conversation. The sound of my phone ringing brought me out of my reverie. I started a little. "Alexa's calling," Mike said with a glance at my phone which lay between us. I grunted, picked up quickly. "I'm listening," I said as soon as I picked up the call. Mike leaned forward to talk to the driver, and I used that opportunity to shift a little to the far side of the car. This was not a conversation I wanted him to overhear. "You already left the house," remarked Alexa."Yes," I responded."I hope you still remember the plan.""Yes."There was a brief pause. Her tone was somewhat annoyed when she said, "Why are you answering me in monosyllables?" I swallowed, racking my brains for the b
ALEXA"Ryan?” I ask, trying to contain my anger.Mia’s stares at the flower arrangements behind me unwilling to meet my gaze.“I believe I asked you a question Mia. Why the hell would you do this to Levi?” “Answer me!” I snap.Mia fiddles with the hem of her dress, she opens her mouth to speak but no words come out. Alexa pulls her by the arm into an empty changing room, “Now we have some privacy. You better start talking.”Mia paced about the tiny cubicle. “I’m sorry.” “You’re sorry?” No no no! We haven’t gotten to that part yet.”“This is the part where you give me a damn explanation for why you’re stealing from your own brother.”“I..I don’t know. I just.. I mean its Ryan” Mia stutters,“I’m racking my brain searching hard for a good enough reason but nothing except its Ryan.” She huffs, “I never know how to act when it comes to him. It’s almost like I lose all self-control, like I don’t have a mind of my own. He asks me to do something, and I do it without question.I watch Mia
ALEXA"Alexa-" Levi murmured, then paused, gauging my reaction. With a sigh, I left our son's crib. I really didn't want to have the conversation he was sure to bring up right now. I needed time to process all he had said to me before. I left the nursery, hoping he would take the hint and drop the issue. I went to the bedroom, sat on the bed, but Levi was still right behind me. "We need to talk, Alexa. Please," he said. "You have already said everything there is to say.""But you haven't given me an answer yet.""Look, each of us has a lot to do today. So why don't we just drop this?" I suggested. "Both of us will function better today if you give me an answer. Let's leave the past behind us and face the future together. Marry me, Alexa.""It's not as simple as that," I grumbled. "But it is. The complications are all in your head."I bit my lip. Levi was wrong there. It was not that simple. I had been through a lot at the hands of Levi. There was an elephant in the room. Levi had