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2024-10-29 19:42:56Cole's P.O.V.
"Please go back to school though, I'll see you later." He then leaves.
Shit, I never told him about Shawn, I was going to tell him about the message and everything, but when he got in the car, he looked more distressed than me, I completely forgot.
I don't want to go against what Xavier wants. I'll go to school, just for a bit though. But I can't bring myself to drive off. The fear of going to school is weighing on me. I hang my head and watch as my tears patter on my clothes.
I exhale shakily. I wish I had Xavier next to me. I look back at the hospital and see Xavier isn't there. He must be in therapy now. I imagine him, strong as he is, going through this.
'Exactly.'
Great, just what I need.
'Look at you, scared of words? Words on a scr
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