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Patricia

I rushed out of my office and ran down the hallway, ignoring the weird looks people shot in my

direction.

I found Jessica after some time at the normally isolated part of the office building, with her phone

in her hand. I halted, frightened of what she was thinking of doing.

“W-what are you doing, Jess?”

She looked at me with a spiteful expression, one I never dreamed of getting from her. “What do

you think? Telling your husband of course.”

My eyes dipped in confusion, feeling betrayed. The words were stuck in my throat. “Jessica.”

“I’m not going to support you in this, don’t be fooled. I’ll do the right thing, by letting Ethan

know.”

“Why…why are you being like this?”

“Shouldn’t I be asking?”

I shook my head, trying to put her strange behaviour past me and focus on what was important. I

took a step towards her, begging. “Please. Just hold on. I know I made a mistake-”

“A mistake?” she echoed. “You think this is just a mistake,” she chuckled dryly.

“Jessica.”

“Tell me. How long have you been sleeping with him?”

I was beyond shocked at that point. She already didn’t have much faith in me. Why would she

suddenly guess that I had slept with him, from catching me in one kiss?

“You’ve been sleeping with him, haven’t you?” she inquired, anger flaring in her eyes.

I sighed. “It happened once, but just let me explain-”

“You're very selfish, Patricia. Ethan has done nothing but love you. Look at that expensive ring on

your finger. You live in a beautiful house, perfect family. You have a child for Christ’s sake!”

I was hurt. I didn’t know if I deserved to be disappointed, but I was. My own best friend. Someone

I thought could help me go through this. I was surprised.

“I know. I’ve been extremely selfish,” I acknowledged, just to make her stop. “But just allow me

to do one thing right. Let me settle this with my husband, on my own.”

She looked away and exhaled, nodding before slowly turning back. “Fine, but just don’t speak to

me again. I don’t know how to look at you anymore.”

With that she slipped her phone into her pocket and walked away.

I backed up against the wall, tears falling freely. After years of therapy, I thought I could be free,

that I could live like a normal human being, but everything was falling apart. How was I going to

face Ethan? And what the hell was I going to do with Bryce?

Bryce.

He was a cruel calculating manipulator. My own childhood friend. He knew too well…

…how to take advantage of my PTSD.

*Present*

I had always wished for Ethan to come home early occasionally so we could at least have time to

ourselves and be that lovesick couple we used to be. Today, I was nowhere near excited, seeing

him this close to me. My heart was beating rapidly alright, but not because of our proximity.

My knees grew weak, and I had no other option but to look away from his piercing eyes,

anywhere but there. The betrayed look on his face was unbearable to look at. It was almost as if he

knew.

I heard him scoff and I looked further away.

“You’re my wife Patricia, but yet look how scared you are of me.”

Patricia? He called me Patricia.

My eyes met his again in confusion and fear. Did he know?

He took a step back and turned around, burying his hands in his hair.

“Ethan?” I called him cautiously.

He sighed and turned back, his eyes red. “Just tell me the truth, okay. What the hell are you hiding

from me?”

“I'm not hiding any-” I stopped myself before I could complete that sentence. What was I doing?

Lying wasn’t going to save the situation, this was it. The time I was dreading had come and I had

to tell the truth. I just hadn’t envisioned everything playing out this way.

“So you're just going to lie to me, aren’t you?” he whispered, his voiced laced heavily with hurt

and disappointment.

Seeing him like that pierced my heart, and my eyes brimmed with tears. I bit by lip and shook my

head, concentrating more on keeping my tears from falling rather than finding something to say.

“Just fucking say something!” He banged his fist on the desk beside me, startling me. “I want to

hear it from you.”

I shook my head again, refusing to believe it. He already knew. He already knew what I had done.

I lowered my eyes in shame and dropped to my knees in front of him. I was filled with so much

shame that I couldn’t look up at him anymore.

“I'm sorry,” I sobbed out, choking on my own breath as the tears started. “I'm so sorry, Ethan.”

“Get up,” he said.

“I'm sorry. I'm sorry,” I repeated.

“I said get up!” His hand came around my arm and he pulled me up and pushed me to the wall,

willing me to look him in the eyes.

“Why are you sorry, huh?” he asked softly as his voice broke. I could tell he was holding back

tears. “You didn’t do anything so why are you sorry? Why are you-”

“Bryce.” I spat out before I worsened everything. “I slept with Bryce.”

“Ha,” he breathed out dryly and pushed himself away from me, walking a few steps away. “No,

no, no…”

“But I-”

“And here I was thinking they were just lies I had heard, but you're saying this…with your own

mouth-”

“It was a mistake-”

“A mistake?” he turned around abruptly. “This is not a mistake Patricia. A mistake is spilling

coffee on your white tablecloth, not jumping into bed with another man!”

“I'm sorry.”

“How long?”

“What?” I asked in genuine confusion.

“How long have you been sleeping with him?”

“It happened once.”

He nodded but didn’t say anything else. He kept pacing the room, running his hand through his

hair.

“Ethan,” I stepped forward, wiping the tears from my face.

“Don’t…don’t come any closer.” He held his hand out, emphasising his point. “I don’t want to be

around you right now.”

He turned away from me and headed for the door.

“Where are you going?”

He stopped and turned his head slightly. “What? You think I'm going to destroy your boyfriend’s

pretty face? Calm your heart. I think my husbandly duties are finished.”

“Ethan I'm not in love with him,” I tried to assure him, whispering out as loud as possible.

“Well that helps a lot,” he said sarcastically and then left.

I sank to the floor once again, feeling everything in me tear apart. I buried my face in my hands

and just let the tears out. Guilt was something I had dealt with my whole life, as at a certain point

in my life I had actually believed I killed my birth mother, but the fact that it was familiar didn’t

mean it was easy to handle. In fact, it only got worse as time passed.

Though I felt uneasy about him leaving just like that, I was calmed knowing he wasn’t going to

Bryce. I wouldn’t be able to take it if he hurt himself because of me.

It was in times like this that my biological father’s words came to haunt me. I was nothing but a curse. I had simply been a burden to my loved ones all my life because of my mental health. I had

hurt Ethan, and there was nothing I could do to change that fact. As if that wasn’t enough, I was

also going to destroy my own daughter’s life with this incoming divorce.

My life surely was of no purpose.

I looked out the window wondering if my dead parents would be laughing at me from wherever

they were. Would my loved ones have had a better life, if I had just died back then?

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  • Passion in Broken Love   Five

    EthanTwo hours had already passed, but I was still sitting in the same place, in the driver’s seat of my car, not knowing what to feel. I was trying hard, really hard to convince myself that I could hold it all in, but I could only deceive myself for so long.Even though I said I wouldn’t, I was tempted to go find the scoundrel who called himself Bryce and unleash all my anger on him. But clearly, I was in no proper state of mind to face him. I could end up being called a murderer tomorrow.I slapped the wheel in frustration and cursed out loudly. That was when the tears came rushing down my face. My heart ached as I yelled out, pouring my emotions out all at once. I was angry and confused and most of all, I felt betrayed and lost.How had things come to this? Of all the problems I expected with our marriage, I didn’t think I’d be faced with one of this sort. I still couldn’t accept that she had cheated. She wasn’t the type. She just didn’t have it in her nature to do something like

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  • Passion in Broken Love   Six

    EthanMy eyes grew alert immediately. His words hit me hard like a brick thrown to my forehead. It was painful and scary. This entire time, I had never thought of the event of a divorce. It hadn’t come to mind even once.A life without Patricia. A life where I could see Nelly only on certain days of the week. No, I couldn’t picture it. “A divorce?”Dad smiled weakly. “I can see you haven’t thought about it.”He stretched his arms over the counter and placed his hands over mine. I bowed my head, trying to hide the other round of tears that threatened to fall.“I can’t give you any sweet words, son,” he said. “It has always been one of my fervent prayers that you never experience what I did with your mother. A divorce might seem like the most reasonable solution, but it’s all up to you. If you can find a way around this…excellent, but if not, do what you must. In everything, just think about Nellana. That’s a sure way to know what’s best.”I drew my hands back and cleaned my face.Nelly

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  • Passion in Broken Love   Seven

    PatriciaI woke up the same time my six o’clock alarm sounded. I yawned as I moved my hand around the bed searching for it to turn it off. I opened my eyes after seconds of vain searching and found it on my nightstand.I pulled myself up into a sitting position, took my phone and turned off the alarm. I pushed my hair back and then turned to Ethan’s side. It looked untouched. I instantly checked the messages I sent him yesterday. He hadn’t seen them. Did he come home at all?The moment I slid out of bed, the bathroom door opened. I turned my head and instantly locked eyes with Ethan, who had just a towel wrapped his waist.For a moment, my words were stuck in my throat as I looked at him. What was I even going to say? Hey there? Good morning? How was your night?Ethan just looked away and headed for his closet.“Wait,” I shot up from the bed, finally finding my voice.He stopped but didn’t turn. “What?”“Did you

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  • Passion in Broken Love   Eight

    PatriciaI slept for a good six hours since I didn’t have much sleep the previous night. I reluctantly pulled myself out of the bed and waltzed straight to the bathroom. I needed to get myself cleaned up. Nelly would be coming back home soon.I went to the kitchen some minutes later to make myself something to eat. I was reminded of my last attempt at talking to Ethan. The sandwiches I made for him were still in the fridge. Was he going to skip dinner too? Or he’d get takeout just as he did with lunch? Was he never going to eat from home anymore?I found myself scrolling through the messages on the office group chat sometime after I was done eating. My own guilty conscience had made it a habit. I was afraid news about my ‘affair’ with Bryce would have started spreading, but there was nothing like that on the platform.How did Ethan find out then? Did Jessica do this? I couldn’t picture her as that kind of person. Besides she promised to let me ha

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  • Passion in Broken Love   Nine

    Ethan“We should do this again, don’t you agree?”I managed a smile as I rose from my seat opposite Valeria and then looked at Daniel briefly before giving her an answer. “If my schedule permits it, why not?”She grinned heartily and then stood up, gushing out a ‘see you later’ before hurrying out of the restaurant.I finally dropped the smile and turned back to Daniel. He didn’t look too happy.“What?” I rolled my eyes at him, taking the lead to leave the building.“You know I don’t like this one bit.” He followed me.I stopped and then turned around. “So what? You want me to stop helping the intern, because of some petty rumours you’ve heard in the office?”Daniel groaned. “I know that girl, damnit. And I know she’s up to no good. You know something? The more you behave this way, the less I can blame Patricia.”I scoffed, shaking my head. “Sometimes I wonder why I call you my best friend.”With th

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  • Passion in Broken Love   Ten

    Patricia“Mommy?”“Yes sweetie,” I answered, though my focus was elsewhere as I pulled her hand through the sleeve of her shirt.“Is everything alright?” Her voice was shaky and anxious, something that wasn’t like her at all. This was the second time she was asking. I was going to have to lie again.My eyes found her worried ones. “Everything is perfect, darling.”“Then why are you so quiet? You haven’t even asked me about school or the exam. You haven’t smiled at all today. Not at me, not at dad. Why?”I sighed. This girl was too smart for her own good. Maybe I shouldn’t have taught her to read at such an early age. I cupped her face in my hands and then brushed her hair back, smiling the best I could. “You trust mommy, don’t you?”She nodded slowly.Then believe me when I say it’s alright, okay?”H

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  • Passion in Broken Love   Eleven

    PatriciaMy bottom lip quivered. “Must you put it that way?” I whispered. “Is all this necessary?!”“Are you seriously asking me this Patricia? You're not a child, so you should know after what you’ve done, anything could happen…and I need answers.”“And you couldn’t just ask me?” I sobbed.He sighed and looked away for a second. When he looked back at me, there were hints of tears in his eyes. Angry tears. “How do you expect me to believe anything you say at this point? I need to get expert evidence. I need to be sure that Nelly doesn’t suffer any more than she is now-”“I'm on my period!” I confessed, breathing heavily. “Right now. It means no baby. I'm not pregnant!”He froze and a wave of embarrassment washed over his face, but it transformed into relief so quickly that I couldn’t be sure if it was there in the firs

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  • Passion in Broken Love   Twelve

    PatriciaNelly and I were lying on my bed, completely covered by the sheets, as we watched a children’s movie on my laptop. She was fully engrossed in the cartoon, while my mind was playing elsewhere.I had still not called my mother and she had been calling a lot. I knew I’d have to talk to her soon, but I couldn’t bring myself to. I didn’t think I’d be able to stand it if she found out my infidelity and became disappointed in me. The door suddenly opened and we turned our attention to Ethan, who had obviously just returned from work.“Daddy!” Nelly sang as she jumped of her bed and jumped into his embrace.“How’s my cupcake doing?” He smiled as he poked her nose ruffled her hair.“Great,” she giggled. “Mom and I are watching a movie. Do you want to join?”Ethan looked at me as his smile faded. I simply stared at him, not expecting anything. He glan

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  • Passion in Broken Love   Twenty-Nine

    PatriciaI stared at her nervous face for a while before asking, “About sex?”Her eyes widened immediately. “Gosh no!”I burst into laughter and she joined me instantly. “Oh my God, Patricia you’re so straightforward.”I giggled. “You think so?”“Stop it.” Her face flushed even deeper. “Anyway that’s not it. I just want simple marriage advice from a friend, and you’ve been married for five years. So I feel like you’re the best person to tell me some of what I need to know.”My smile faltered.Me? The best person to give marriage advice? Was this the universe’s way of making sure my conscience was active 24/7?I never thought I could feel guiltier than I already did.I concentrated on how Stephanie was now looking at me in anticipation. The was so much pride in her eyes for me, I nearly shed a tear.

  • Passion in Broken Love   Twenty-Eight

    Ethan“Yes,” the word came out of his mouth smoothly.“Dad!”“Then why are you together. How do you think this is going to work if you don’t?”I exhaled heavily and run my hand through my hair, turning away from him because I couldn’t handle it anymore.“Just listen. If your mother was still alive and she came back today to ask for my forgiveness, I could forgive her, because I wouldn’t want to continue hurting because of a grudge when I am not the guilty one. I could do that, but it doesn’t mean I would take her back. She stayed away for twenty years, and I have already moved on. But Patricia is different. I’m not comparing her to your mother or defending her. Cheating is totally wrong, but forgive me. I’m still finding it difficult associating that word with her. I’m hurt because you’re hurt, but I can’t see her as a bad person.“

  • Passion in Broken Love   Twenty-Seven

    Ethan“Patricia?” I called out again.Her head snapped to me, eyes widening as if she had just realised I was holding the door out for her. She switched the gift bag to her left hand so she could take my hand as I helped her out of the car.“I wonder how you don’t tire of overthinking,” I mumbled to her as I locked the car. I didn’t let go of her hand as we entered the house. My dad had kept the gate unlocked since he was expecting visitors.“I can’t help it.”I found myself rubbing my thumb over her hand in a way to calm her down. I felt her shiver immediately, but I didn’t let go. I don’t know what came over me at that moment, and I honestly didn’t want to know why I wanted to comfort her. I’d rather not be doing any thinking today.I opened the door leading inside the house and that’s where I felt her trying to slip her hand out of mine. I stopped

  • Passion in Broken Love   Twenty-Six

    Ethan“No,” Patricia’s voice was shaky and uncertain. “I don’t know,” she finally added.I leaned forward. “I shouldn’t. Just talk to me like you normally would.”She furrowed her brows. “I hurt you Ethan, I’m sure you’d want to give me some boundaries...”“Forget it,” I snapped. “I suggested we work things out. So I should be able to deal with it, right?”Amusement and a hint of disbelief flickered in her eyes. “You don’t even want to know why it happened...?”I shook my head no, even though it was the direct opposite of what I wanted, but it had to be done. I couldn’t stay in this marriage if I was going to hold on to what she did. I was going to try everything including pretending to forget, then maybe I actually would.“Okay,” she breathed out, a confused smile forming on her face. I co

  • Passion in Broken Love   Twenty-Five

    EthanShe didn’t have it easy like most kids.Her biological parents were both nutjobs. They maltreated her in ways no sane person could even think of, especially to a five-year-old child. People who blamed their daughter for all their misfortunes and punished her with multiple chores and at times beatings, for the mistakes they made didn’t deserve to be called parents.You would think the death of her mother, though by suicide, would bring peace or at least lighten her burden, but it only increased her nightmares a hundredfold. Yeah, she was blamed for her mother’s passing too.Her father turned into an even more violent drunk. Throwing beer bottles at his daughter and twisting her arm whenever he wished became a habit.Her breakthrough came one day, when the bottle broke on her back, leaving a relatively small comma-shaped scar at the small of her back, which remains to this day. She tried running out of her house only

  • Passion in Broken Love   Twenty-Four

    Ethan“So how are things?” he asked as we walked past the cafeteria.“Very difficult. I miss my daughter so much, now that I feel like I could lose her. She’s with her grandparents now,” I informed him.“Why though?”“They don’t want her to notice…what’s going on.”“Oh, makes sense. And the Mrs?”I couldn’t hold back my smile when he called her that. “Patricia? I actually don’t know how she is. Things got like this, and it has made me realise how distant we’ve become, so much that I feel like I don’t know her like I used to.”“But you're giving her a chance?”I glanced at him. “I don’t know what I'm doing.”He stopped in front of my door. “You should know. But it’s your marriage after all. The decisions are all yours to make. I can help you with your t

  • Passion in Broken Love   Twenty-Three

    EthanShe kept bouncing her legs throughout the ride, perhaps unconsciously, but I couldn’t take my mind off it. I couldn’t say anything about it either, because I wasn’t sure if I wanted to talk to her or not. Neither of us had said a word to each other. Her fists were tight around her bag as she looked out the window. She was definitely still pissed.Did I care?That was the issue. I cared a whole damn lot, but I didn’t say anything and soon, I stopped at the parking lot of her workplace. She mumbled something that sounded like thanks and then quickly got out.My conscience slapped me as I watched her walk away from the car.Good heavens.I got down from the car instantly and rushed after her. “Patricia.”Thankfully she stopped and turned around walking slowly to meet me.I halted when I was just about two feet away from her. “I’m sorry.”She blinked, obvio

  • Passion in Broken Love   Twenty-Two

    EthanI dropped the towel when I realised I was over aggressively drying my hair with it. The things tunning through my mind were so many and had taken all my attention so that I couldn’t concentrate on anything else.I thought sleeping would make the tormenting thoughts go away, but here was I the next day, going crazy over the same thoughts again.Yesterday’s conversation with Patricia, if I could even call it that, was awful. I couldn’t believe our marriage had come to a place like this. I couldn’t believe I had the conscience to speak to her like that. I tried to convince myself that she deserved everything that was happening, but I couldn’t defend myself that way. I couldn’t justify my actions. How was I even going to look at her today?I tightened the towel around my waist and left the bathroom for my closet. I wore my trousers and went back into the bedroom while I put on the shirt.Surprisingly,

  • Passion in Broken Love   Twenty-One

    PatriciaNo one uttered a word the entire journey back home. Not him, not me, but I didn’t miss how tight his grip was on the wheel. I didn’t know what to think of the situation. He said he was giving us a chance to fix everything, but nothing about his actions showed he was ready to do that.I tore my gaze from him and looked outside, thinking about the conversation I had with Bryce. I hoped I hadn’t been to mean and pretentious. After all, we made this mistake together. I loved him so much as a friend. It was really sad things had become like this.Nothing changed when we got home. He didn’t even look at me as got out of the car and walked into the house. I sighed and got down as well, hurrying in after him.He was at the stairs when I got to the living room.“Ethan,” I called, making him stop. He stayed like that for a while before he turned to me.“What?”“Is there som

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