One Hellish Bullshit Apologize

Julianna

He walked out the class that I could see and feel the weight of his words heaving down on my chest whereas the consequences wasn't something I dared even think about.

The preying eyes weren't leaving me, feasting on me with their whispering voice reaching my hearing hushly.

"Julianna.." The familiar yet shocking voice reached my hearing that it had compelled me twitching my head to the voice. Flora had somehow fished herself from the crowd, that it had my eyebrow frowned with question.

"What-" She forcefully yanked my hand before she practically dragged me out of the class and everyone couldn't help but to be curious as at what relationship I shared with her.

Coming out from the hall, I didn't know how many turns she took, but I found myself at a designated place, having less students.

My eyes pitching back at her, with her facials holding that she wasn’t one bit happy and was rather disappointed.

I was about opening my mouth but she beat me at it, with her words.

"The person you wanted to report, or the person you filled the form against, is professor Grey right?" It sounded like it was a question, but it seemed like she was sure of it.

Not breaking her intense eye contact, I shook my head and it had sighing out were her eyes rolled out.

"How could you be this clueless Julianna? you must be fucking kidding me? you have just used your own hands to sign your death note in this school." It was hard for me to figure out if she was just over reacting or it was just the anxiety getting to me.

After previously getting over the shock that she somehow found me there and getting me dragged out of the class, I gathered some words.

"Is there perhaps something I missed? or is there something I did wrong.” came the clueless words of mine, having still not being able to comprehend why she appeared like I had committed a great offence.

Flora took her seat on the near by chair and her silence was increasing my anxiety drastically. Frantically, I matched my steps towards her, questioning again thought she hadn’t responded to my previous words.

"Listen Flora, I don't care who that man who claims to be a professor is, and I don't care what grounds he holds in this school,but one thing is certain which is the school will always pick the right side which is mine, that man tried to touch me inappropriately and he did it again." The words of mine seemed to have her rolling her eyes.

"His father owns this university Julianna Incase you haven't gotten the memo."

My eyes recollected in shock at her words of nonchalance.

She continued despite my expression which turned sore. "The school won't pick your side Julianna and trust me, they will try to cover this up, with the cost being your peace of mind and sanity." Her dull eyes flagged up to mine. "If you don't want things to escalate, your better apologize to him."

"What do you mean I should apologize to him? weren't you a witness to what happened back there? he didn't even deny it and he isn't one bit remorseful about what he did." That was completely barbaric and I refuse to allow that man thing he can have some negative effect on me.

If that was what the rest students were doing, then he should be aware that am not them.

"I won't drop this matter that easily, and instead I will make sure he apologize to me, publicly because he had humiliated me in the open."

A chuckle erupted from Flora, having finding what I said funny but it wasn't one bit. Standing up, she adjusted the bag on her shoulders.

"It seems to me that you need to experience his wrath first hand before you will finally snap back to your senses. Have a wonderful day." And just like that, she walked away were perhaps the little conversation we had cause me to rethink my decision.

If it was indeed true that he's father owes this place, then most definitely it will be in his favor. Maybe that was what gave him the liberty into thinking that he could mess with me.

I attended my rest classes for the day were I had anticipated that I would be called upon by the board members or perhaps the man would come to his senses and apologize but it wasn't what was happening.

"Ms Gabby's." The voice of the lecturer broke me out of the trance, and it had me quickly focussing on the woman.

"Would you mind explaining to the class what we have been discussing for the pass one hour?" Irritation mixed with some rudeness matched her tone.

Of course she must have gotten the hint that I wasn't listening. At this point I wasn't shock on how she even got to know my name.

"I don't have all day young lady." Her nagging voice sticked again.

Chewing my mouth, while racking my brain. Knowing it wasn't a good thing to keep mute, I voiced. "I'm sorry mam, I didn't catch what you were explaining."

The whole class burst into a dramatic laughter.

"The nerve of you to even say that to my face, that you aren't listening, maybe you don't find my class important to have your attention but you can channel your attention on humiliating a professor?"

Her words gave out the feeling of dejavu.

"That's not what I meant--"

"And who said you have the right to interrupt me while speaking? freshers like yourself lack manners in every aspect. Get out of my class, and you aren't allowed in until this semester is over."

"Mam!" My voice turned alarming.

Eye-wide she barked back. "What! are you going to report me for sending you out? this is an institution Ms Gabby's I have the right to throw you out."

This wasn't one bit fair! I gritted my teeth wanting to pull my hair out in frustration. Her intentions were clear, she tried to get back at me because of professor Grey but how was that even reasonable? Shouldn't they side with me? for heavens sake, am the victim here.

'Arghhh!!!' I slumped on the chair outside the hall that every minute was turning frustrating. Mother Agatha won't be one bit happy, rather she would be disappointed that I had gotten myself into such a scandalous thing.

'You should apologize to him.' The echoing voice of Flora whispered into my hearing.

What was there to even fight about? and is it even worth it. A tight and knowing feeling told me that I will be getting thrown out of more classes at this rate.

I didn't want too, infact I should have stood my ground and not allow the man have his way but it wasn't worth anything, and my grades and me graduating from this place was much more important then some self pride.

Finding myself here was the least place I thought I would visit but I had turned quickly helpless.

His name which hung the door had my stomach rumbling. This is for yourself Julianna, you have to do this.

Knocking on the door there wasn't any response and the more I knocked on the door then I realized that he wasn't in there.

Sighting out with disappointment , I walked out the the building the hot sun having me remember that I should be in class.

Classes for that day ended, and sluggishly I dragged myself to my hostel, feeling really disappointed at myself.

"I hope you haven't exhausted yourself because you have the whole departmental lecturers on your neck and more ready to have pitch forks on your head." Flora was lying on her bed, having said that after hearing me sighing out for the hundredth time.

"They should as well hang me on the cross or something." I stared at the ceiling. I couldn't believe that a sweet person like me had already turned a target to others. Being a prey to others weren't something anyone should pray for.

Getting up from my bed, I sat up with Flora who was still lying on her bed, her face glued to her phone. I still couldn't get why people were addicted to it, phones.

"What if I don't apologize? I'm I going to be expelled?" Currently that was the one thought running in my head and my biggest fear too. I didn't want to be sent back to England, it would be so embarrassing and I doubt they would take me back.

She shook her head, without finding her eyes in mine. "Possibly he would have you expelled.....but you don't have to worry you aren't the first."

Fear crawled down my skin that the foreign feeling grew more in my heart.

But then her tone tailed out again. "But if you do well to apologize and try licking his ass then all this will turn into a distant nightmare."

It was settled then, I would apologize to him.

The next day, I wasn’t feeling the usual excitement of starting off a new day. This place was having more negative feeling buzzing in my chest.

"Already deciding to start skipping classes?" Flora was fully dressed, whereas I was dragging myself around the place.

"It feels really suffocating."

"I have been there and it only gets worst."

Lord please help.

I should probably find a nearby parish to attend maybe that would help with all the drowning feeling.

A seminar was being held, for the newly admits and unfortunately I found myself there, and I was thankful enough that Flora volunteered to follow me because the stares I was receiving made me felt like an outcast.

I guess that words flys quickly here.

"Good day everyone, with a standing innovation, let's welcome professor Grey." The woman at the podium announced that subconsciously my heart rate quicked.

My eyes lashed down, were Flora was pressing on my hand and she flashed a smile at me. It gave me a piece of comfort before resuming my eyes at the man.

He was brief with his words, giving us the rules and regulations, advising us to follow them strictly. A breathe of relief had escaped me thinking that he was done and that there wouldn't be any drama but my thoughts were dropped on the trash.

"And standing here, I would want to apologize to a certain person here, my actions were wrong and I shouldn't have tried to force myself on you, it was a simple misunderstanding, were I thought you were someone I knew. Here at Harrison University, we make sure that justice is given to every student, which is why I have come out to publicly apologize to Ms Julianna Gabby's for my misconduct towards her."

Of course he had to drag me down with him.

"Please accept my apology and if there's anything I can do to help you please let me know. Once again I'm truly sorry." His hand was placed on his chest, were it sounded like he was really sincere with his words.

I didn't know how to feel about it, should I be happy or scared that he actually apologize and that too publicly.