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2025-04-02 16:17:51
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PRETEND PRINCESS SNOW SNOW GO AWAY
Lily's POVI let out a sigh, gazing at my phone well after Yuyu had hung up.This is a mess.I felt guilty—guilty because Yuki was entangled in something risky, guilty because despite him having a thing for Creed, this entire situation was shady as all get-out.Playing pretend to be a girl.Faking that everything was rosy when it was really blue.This was not sustainable.No matter how tough Yuki was, this would destroy him sooner or later.And then, of course, there was Grandpa Roman.I released a sharp breath, resting back against my pillows. Each day that went by made it more and more necessary that I find him a good home.But Yuki would not listen.Not yet.And I could see. I really could.It was painful to lose someone when they're still standing right there in front of you, one of the worst things that could possibly happen to a human being.So I tried not to say anything about it too often.I breathed another slow breath, looking around my bedroom.It was small but cozy—a stand
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-02PRETEND PRINCESS IN MY HOUSE
Creed's POVI woke up fine.The throbbing headache that had pounded against my head the night before had faded to a nagging pressure. My body wasn't sore anymore like I'd just completed a marathon in a snowstorm, and for the first time in what felt like forever, I could breathe through my nose.I blinked repeatedly, adjusting to the faint light filtering through the curtains.The air was. unusual.Not in a bad way, but distinctly. Like the lingering smell of something flowery mixed with the faintest of hints of medicine and something hot—bacon?I sat up slowly, my head tilting slightly as I surveyed the room.A glass of water and medication sat on the bedside table.Had I taken them?I didn't remember.Actually, I didn't remember anything at all.It snowed.I was ill.I went to—My eyes landed on the chair beside my bed on which my clothes were neatly stacked in piles, having been freshly laundered and folded.And I remembered.It hadn't been a dream, was it?I flung the blankets off,
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-03PRETEND PRINCESS PROVE IT
Creed's pov I smirked, pushing my now-clean plate aside. "Bet."I stood up, stretching some before going to retrieve ingredients. The fridge was as well-stocked as ever, and I had everything I needed. Flour, eggs, milk—easy enough.As I started mixing, I glanced over at her. She'd leaned her elbow on the counter, watching me with open amusement."This is entertaining for you, isn't it?" I guessed, cracking an egg into the batter."Highly," she said, grinning. "Big CEO man making pancakes in an attempt to impress me? That's grade-A entertainment."I rolled my eyes, but I didn't dispute it.While I cooked, she kept talking, interjecting teasing little barbs about my technique. I fired back with a few of my own, and soon we were laughing.It felt so. natural.I couldn't remember the last time I'd laughed like this.By the time I slid the last pancake onto the plate, she was already rubbing her hands together in anticipation."Moment of truth," I said, sliding the plate across the table
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-04PRETEND PRINCESS THE ONE TO BLAME
Zara's POVAll my self-control left me snapped like a too-tight wire.I was done.I would not let anyone take the man I had worked for.Creed belonged to me.We had bled together. We had hurt together. We had survived together.We were two halves of the same broken mess, and no one—nothing—was going to change that.My knuckles ached from holding the steering wheel so tight, but I didn't notice.The car's engine growled as I sped down the white streets, my anger heating me up inside like a simmering fire.The world outside was a white blur.Snow had stopped falling in large quantities, but the roads were still covered in a dense sheet of ice, and it was difficult to drive. The sky was a dull gray, just like my mood.I floored the accelerator, the car sliding forward.I couldn't shake it from my head.The way he looked at her.The way he talked to her.The way he opened up with her.He had never looked at me like that before.Not even once.Despite all that we had been through, all that
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-04PRETEND PRINCESS PANIC BABIES
Yuki's POV"You know," Lily sighed, running her fingers over the plastic strands of my wig, "snow is a complete disaster for human hair. But artificial hair? Worse still."I scowled theatrically, cross-legged on my bed. "You're saying that my lovely locks have suffered some horrific fate?"She scowled at me, brandishing the wig like a victim of a crime scene. "Yuyu, this thing appears to have survived a zombie apocalypse. You've got knots here that are likely growing their own civilization."I theatrically gasped, clutching my chest. "My people! How did I let them languish so?""Because," she said, pushing the hair back through its knotted mess, "you've been too busy playing your little game of make-believe rather than facing your actual life problems."I flopped down on the bed, exhaling. "Do you have to always come at me with knives? Where did soft love and encouragement go?"Lily snorted. "Gentle love and support? Yuki, I've been observing you spin into this melodramatic soap opera
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-05PRETEND PRINCESS NEW HAIR, NEW ME
Zara's POVPain. That was the initial feeling I knew—burning, dull, heavy—like my body had been at war and didn't care to share the outcome with me. My eyes fought their way open to the light blue of the hospital ceiling, the antiseptic smell of disinfectant and something warm lingering in the air. I blinked slowly, trying to move, but all of my parts protested like I'd been run over by a truck and then dragged under it for good measure.A soft sniffle caught my eye. I turned my head, slowly, like a creaky door that didn't want to open. And there he was.Creed.Sitting beside me, a tissue pressed to his nose, his eyes bloodshot and glassy. He looked like hell—like someone had chiseled away at his dignity and removed the pieces that made him tolerable.And then it hit me. Like a slap to the soul.She won him. That girl. That perfect, superior girl with too-smooth hair and too-sweet voice. She won out over me for him.And he didn't stop it.He let her.I turned my head away, biting down
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-05PRETEND PRINCESS STUCK WITH ME
Yuki's pov When i came back to the vet… Lily was outside with a mile-wide smile on her face.I stood like a statue. "Did she—?""SIX!" she yelled, bobbing up and down. "Suzu had six puppies!"“OH MY GOD, SHE’S A LEGEND!” I screamed, running up to the glass. “SIX?! She’s so small! Where was she hiding them? Her tail?!”The nurse inside waved at me and gave a thumbs-up. I practically cried on the spot.When they let me in to see her, Suzu was resting, her belly finally relaxed, and six tiny little wiggling beans were nestled around her."My baby… my beautiful, messy, oversexed daughter…" I panted, squatting next to her bed. "You did it. You're a mother."I dropped a kiss on her forehead, and she smiled sleepily, yawning.I looked up at Lily, my voice cracking, "They're little… Look at their tiny paws! I love them already!"She grinned, wiping away her own tears. "You're gonna spoil them rotten.""Absolutely. They will know only love and gourmet dog food."But even then that idyllic mom
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-06PRETEND PRINCESS MERRY CHRISTMAS SURPRISE
Yuki's POVDecember 23rd – Christmas EveI was officially in a panic.Two days until Christmas and I hadn't bought anyone one decent gift. I'd been so busy—working, baking, sewing, gluing buttons onto socks because apparently Suzu's new pastime (don't ask) is now that. And now I was stuck in the middle of a mall that seemed to have Santa's whole village exploded on every inch."Sir, would you like to buy the ballerina nutcracker? Limited edition. Spins and sings," a man in a blindingly green elf getup informed me, jiggling the silver-wrapped horror in my face.I blinked at him. "She sings?"He nodded, much too enthusiastically. "Tchaikovsky's 'Waltz of the Flowers' in four variations."I blinked again. "You're frightening, you know that?"He just grinned like it was a compliment.I gave in and bought the accursed thing. For whom? No idea. Maybe it could be a decent present for . She seemed the type who would find an outrageously melodramatic decoration to her liking.The mall was repl
Huling Na-update : 2025-04-07
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PRETEND PRINCESS CURSED
Creed's POVI slammed the office door shut so hard that the walls vibrated. The secretary outside yelped as if she thought the damn ceiling was going to come crashing down."Get me the quarterly reports," I barked. "Now."She rushed out of her seat, almost falling over her own feet. Pitiful.I paced in front of my office like a wild animal in a cage, blood pumping hotter each passing second. All of this was pissing me off every day now. The terrible coffee. The creeping elevators. The godforsaken interns' breathing out in the corridor.Five weeks. Five weeks since I let go of that imposter, yet my heart clenched at the thought of her…of him !Anger boiled in my veins over and over but today a particular anger took over me, one o couldn't explain but already had ties to That imposter I didn't need him and I wasn't gay!There was no going back for me. And I felt the whole office knew that from the very moment I resumed, a week ago Besides they couldn't blame me for their incompeten
PRETEND PRINCESS NOT WHO I REMEMBER
Lily's POVToday became tomorrow.Tomorrow became next week.Next week became three endless weeks.And somehow, despite all the promises I made to myself, I still hadn't met Yuki.I don't even know how it all tightened up like that — how every small detail became so hard. Between caring for Grandpa Roman, going back and forth to the hospital for meds, doctor appointments, dealing with his therapies — life had gotten tangled around my neck with no mercy. I didn't have space to catch my breath, didn't have time to think. And amidst all of this, something gnawed at me:Yuki trusted me.I had been entrusted with Grandpa Roman — with one of the only people he loved — and deep, way down deep inside me, I knew I didn't want to let him down.But today. today was different. Today was the day. I was really going to fix all of it.I was going to go see him, apologize for whatever stupidness drove us apart, tell him about what he'd seen that day with Dan, tell him everything.Dan.He officially m
PRETEND PRINCESS AGAIN
Zara's POVThere's regret.There's pain.And then there's anger — thick, bitter, wild anger.I didn't deserve this.I was the last person in this damn world that deserved this.He wasn't supposed to push me away.He wasn't supposed to treat me like… like I was nothing.I was supposed to be by his side.I was supposed to be the one to fix him. To save him.I paced back and forth in my chamber, my hands in my palms, trying to contain the storm raging inside me.The walls were closing in, the air heavy, and my mind was filled with his face. His eyes. His lips. His voice when he'd instructed me to leave.I hated him.I loved him.God — I loved him.I couldn't take it anymore."Call Zed," I barked at one of my servants.She stopped. "Now, ma'am?""Now!" I screamed.My hands were trembling. My heart thudding. I was unraveling, going crazy and I didn't give a damn anymore.Within minutes, Zed arrived.Tall, dark, as calm as ever.He always had been.The man who took orders quietly, who had a
PRETEND PRINCESS ALL ALONE
Yuki's POVTwo weeks.That's 20,160 minutes. Twenty thousand, one hundred and sixty minutes of pure torture.I'd texted Creed so much. Too much, really. Sorrys I couldn't phrase correctly first, things I didn't have the courage to tell him out loud before, little things I knew he didn't want to hear. I texted anyway, hoping for a crumb of a reply.But there was nothing. No dot. No word. No fucking breath.So I made up my mind. I'd made it up the day everything went wrong—the day everything went in the opposite direction of my plans, like some sick cosmic joke. I was leaving New York. Done. Finito. Finished.Lily hadn't called me for two weeks either. It was as if my world had burst wide open, and I stood in the middle of a great emptiness. Grandpa Roman… two weeks of nothing from him too. Two weeks of not hearing his shaking, bewildered voice, of not chasing after him when he got me mixed up with my mother. Two weeks alone, tearing myself apart, living on my own regrets.I was complet
PRETEND PRINCESS THIS ISN'T YOU
Creed's POVTwo weeks.Fourteen days.20,160 minutes.I knew because I counted them. Every goddamn one of them.It's ironic that you know exactly how you feel about someone after 20,160 minutes of silence. No calls. No texts. No presence. Nothing. Just a void where they used to be. The only sound was my own breathing and it had started to get under my skin. My house was worse than my head. Clothes scattered everywhere. Empty bottles. Shattered frames. A grime mountain I could barely bring myself to look at — and still, I hung around there, festering amidst it like some wounded beast.I hadn't left for the office in two weeks. Fourteen days. No one had tried calling anymore. No one knocked. Not since the third day when I ripped the doorbell off of the wall and hurled it out of the window. My stubble was heavy. I barely recognized the face staring back at me in the mirror the occasional time I made the mistake of looking.I flopped onto the bed, blankets that smelled like sweat and guil
PRETEND PRINCESS EVERYTHING HURTS
Yuki's POVI did not know what to do with this. With him. With this. miserable life. Grandpa Roman was bleeding — his hand was slashed open, red spreading onto the floor and Lily's voice disintegrating in horror as she ran left and right. Everything appeared to be unfolding too fast and too slow all at once. The glass, the blood, Suzu's frantic barking, the aching in my chest. My head was an absolute, overwhelming void."Yuki! Grab the first aid kit, now!" Lily screamed.My legs barely worked. I was stuck there, agape, like my brain couldn't wrap around it. Like I couldn't wrap my head around how fast everything disintegrated. One second he was just standing there, screaming at my mother, the next glass was shrouding everything, blood on his wrist, and the fragile reality I was pretending to hold together had broken completely."Yuki!"I jumped and ran for the kit.Lily was pressing a towel over his palm, speaking reassuringly to him but he wouldn't stop struggling, calling out for la
PRETEND PRINCESS REMIND HIM
Zara's POVI was furious. No — furious didn’t even begin to cover it. I was livid, seething, burning so hot I thought my skin might melt off my bones.After everything I did, after everything I exposed… Creed didn’t even react.I expected rage. I expected him to throw that lying, pathetic excuse of a human being out of the building. I expected him to grab me by the arm, pull me aside, demand to know how I found out, maybe even slap me, shake me, fire me, break something — anything.But nothing happened.He stood there, looking like a statue, his eyes void of any of the fire I’d always loved seeing in him. There was no anger, no betrayal, no disgust, not even pain. Just a flat, hollow emptiness.It made me sick.He should’ve done something.I stormed into my mother’s office, slamming the door so hard a frame rattled against the wall.“Mom,” I snapped, pacing the floor like a caged animal. “He didn’t even react.”My mother barely lifted her gaze from her tablet, calm as always. “What a
PRETEND PRINCESS END IT WITH TEARS
Yuki’s POVI felt heavy. So heavy.Like my whole chest had been filled with cement, and someone left me sinking at the bottom of some endless, dark ocean. I laid there, my back flat against my tiny mattress, staring up at the ceiling like it could explain why everything had gone so wrong. My mind was… nothing. A complete abyss. Blank.I couldn’t think.I couldn’t feel.I couldn’t even see properly — everything looked foggy, like my eyes had turned into glass.It felt like a dream.A dream I’d spent years carefully stacking, one fragile piece at a time, and today it just… cracked.Shattered.And in the fallout, I couldn’t even tell where my heart used to be.Why?Why did it have to go down like this?Why did I let it happen?I planned to run, to leave before anyone really got hurt.I never wanted to break anyone.Not him.But it hurt… it hurt so much because I saw it in his eyes — Creed, that mixture of confusion and betrayal and something way worse — like I wasn’t even human to him an
PRETEND PRINCESS YOU DON'T ALWAYS KNOW
Creed’s POVHow could I be so goddamn stupid?The question kept looping in my head like a song you hate but can’t stop hearing. It was there in the way my stomach twisted, the tightness in my jaw, the way my fists clenched at my sides like I could punch the thought away.YuYu Roman.What a fucking joke.Except it wasn’t a joke. It was my life. My embarrassment. My shame.He wasn’t a she.Not even close.And the worst part wasn’t the lying — it was how it made me feel. How kissing him felt good. Too good.Soft lips, warm breath, the way my heart had stumbled in my chest like it didn’t know better. Like it wasn’t supposed to feel disgusted. And when his hand had brushed against my cheek — so light, so tender — something inside me had cracked open, a small flicker of warmth I didn’t think existed anymore.And now?Now it felt like filth under my skin.A goddamn stain.I could still feel it.Still taste it.I wanted to throw up.How could you be so blind? How could you be so easy? So… des
