3: YOUR LIFE OR AN ORGASM

                                        APRIL

The self loathing blossomed in full force when I got back to the hostel. Before I left the strip club, I had scrubbed myself over and over again in the bathroom and I didn't leave until I was squeaky clean.

When I got back to the hostel, I scrubbed myself again. And again. And again. It wasn't enough. TThe minute I feel clean and I return to the room, memories from how he had dominated me would attack me again, the way his hand had messed up my boobs, the way his cock has plundered my mouth, the way he had spilled his seed over my skin.

Then, I'd return to the bathroom to scrub myself again.

It was the third day and I was still doing that.

"You know I've been observing you since you got back from the library three nights ago," Natalie, my roommate and best friend pointed out when I emerged from the bathroom after another massive scrubbing. Natalie was an omega, a werewolf of the lowest status. The only people they were bigger than were us, humans and they always rode on that superiority wave like it was everything to them. She befriended me in our first year when others shunned me. Now, they regret shunning me as I was now the human, the measly being at the top of the food chain and Natalie was still enjoying the perks of being my best friend.

We were so close and yet, she had no idea that I was a stripper at night. Xaden, who hated my guts was now the only one privy to that knowledge. The memories of that night came rushing back again and I was suddenly filled with the urge to return to the bathroom to scrub my skin again.

I pushed it away and walked to my wardrobe to dress up instead.

"You've been taking more showers since then. Are you okay?"

"Yeah, sure. Why shouldn't I be?"

She looked at me skeptically for a while and I tried my hardest not to squirm. With the way she was looking at me, it felt like she could see the way Xaden had dominated me.

"If you say so."

I relaxed and started to cream my body.

"So, are you attending the resumption party?"

I rolled my eyes at her questions. She knows I wasn't a party freak. I've never attended a party in school. If I wasn't reading to better my already perfect grades, I was thinking of ways to make Enigma a better college for students or thinking of how to make the online newspaper more powerful.

"Of course, not."

"Why not, April? It's our final year. You haven't attended any party since our first year. You need to unwind, April. Unwind, and live a little. You haven't even had a boyfriend or explored anything sexual and you're almost 21. You need to start."

Ohh, I've explored. I've had my hands tied behind me, had my breasts toyed with and my mouth plundered.

I crossed my legs at the sudden warmth I felt at that thoughts.

"I'm not interested for now," I told her, "when the time is right, I'll definitely do all those things."

"Well, the time is now and I'm sure going to make sure you attend this party, meet a guy and at least make out with him."

I shook my head, certain of my conviction that I'd never attend the party no matter what Natalie does.

Almost 2 hours later, we were pushing against lots of dancing and drinking bodies. Natalie won and I had attended the party with her. It was better than going to the library to try to read when all I would do would be to drown in the remembrance and self hatred of what Xaden did to me.

Now, as we made ourselves comfortable in the party, some people regarded me warily. I knew they were students of Enigma College and they were right to be wary of my presence. Who knows whose secrets I'd mistakenly uncover at this party? Secrets that I'd publish and would probably get its owner suspended or even expelled.

The people that were more open towards me were students from other schools. They didn't know well enough to be wary of me.

"Let's go and dance," Natalie shouted the minute we settled on some empty chair. I shrugged her hand off when she tried to pull me up.

"You go, I'll just go and get a drink at the bar."

She looked disappointed that I wasn't following her to dance and I had to convince her that I was okay so she'd go alone. I walked to bar once she left and as I walked, my sixth sense awakened and I felt someone looking at me. I whirled around immediately but there was no one looking at me. It was just a room full of people.

I couldn't shake the feeling off. I got to the bar and while my drink was being processed, I felt a rush of air behind me.

"Be at the car park in 2 minutes," the voice I recognized all too well whispered against my ear. I turned around again but he was gone. It almost seemed like I had hallucinated it, like that didn't happen.

I shook it off as I walked back to my seat with my drink in my hand. Xaden definitely wasn't in this party and he didn't ask me to come and meet him at the park. I took my seat and I'd barely comfortable on it when my phone vibrated. It was a message from an unsaved number.

Didn't I tell you about the repercussions of making me repeat myself?

I jumped to my feet at that message and my cup nearly dropped to the ground. I could feel the anger behind the words. I looked around for Natalie. She was dancing with some guy. I sneaked away, hoping that she wouldn't see me and ask me where I was going.

She didn't. My heart started pounding as I walked to the park. It was filled up, with both cars and people but it was so easy to locate Xaden. He was leaning against a black Royce Rolls, and dressed in all black. One that mirrored his soul perfectly.

He opened the passenger's door when I got to him.

"Get in," his tone left no room for argument but yet I stood my ground.

"Where are we going?"

"Didn't I warn you about making me repeat myself?"

He zeroed his eyes on mine and the dare in them propelled my legs to move forward until I stepped into the car. He closed it and walked over to the driver's side. He started the ignition wordlessly. I held onto my seat belt as if it'd protect me. Xaden didn't say anything and I couldn't say anything either. The more he drove away from the school, the faster my heart was pounding.

When he turned onto a deserted highway, I couldn't handle it anymore.

"Where are you taking me?"

I got no answer. The closest thing I got was an increased speed. It started slowly at first, then it gathered monumentum until the car was practically flying.

"What are you doing?" I asked, my voice so full of dread that I couldn't recognize it. I was frozen on the chair and I held onto the seat belt for my dear life.

"What do you think?" there was a sinister grin on his lips. A complete untamed madness that has never looked more regal.

"Stop the car!" I screamed, "stop it right now!"

As if enchanted, he slowed the car down till we were driving at a snail's pace. I exhaled, relived, only for the speed to stop picking up again. I turned to look at him, alarmed. It was dark and deserted. We could get into an accident.

"What are you doing, Xaden? This is madness."

He slower down only to pick up speed again. He was toying with me, trying to drive him crazy for what I did to him and his friends and he was succeeding.

After almost 30 minutes of driving recklessly like that, I could feel myself about to throw up, my heart was pounding too much and everything was just...

"You want me to slow down, right?"

I nodded.

"So earn it."

What? "Have yot run mad?" I couldn't help it, "you're trying to get us into an accident and you want me to do something to make you stop this madness?"

"I guess you're enjoying it then."

Then he picked up speed again till the car was practically flying. It was too much for me. My stomach was turning. I could feel the ground slipping away from beneath me.

"Fine!" I screamed, "What do you want me to do?"

He slowed down again and I felt my body relax a little.

"Roll your gown up and take off your panties," he delivered it casually as if he were asking me to pass a jug of water to him.

My mouth dropped open. "What?"

"I thought we already established our number one rule: don't make me repeat myself."

"This is madness, Xaden, you have to..."

"Madness? I just want to see what the student leader looks like when she cums. How's that madness?"

My mouth dropped open. I closed it again, utterly rendered speechless by what was going on. Even more speechless by the strange thrill that was coursing through my body.

"You can't keep doing this, Xaden, just because..."

"Don't make me repeat myself, Red," there was a certain chill and finality to his voice, "it's either your life or an orgasm."