APRIL Shame enveloped me like a second skin as I heard the sound of Brooke slamming the main door shut angrily behind her. I would definitely never be able to show my face in front of her. There was no doubt in my mind about that. When I resumed school, I was definitely going to have a hard time rejoining the volunteering committee because she oversaw it. And god knows she hates me more than she cares about providing volunteers to the community so she’ll never let me successfully enroll. Sincerely, I deserved that punishment just as much as I deserved all the guilt and shame that was plummeting a hole in the pit of my stomach. “She’s gone now,” Ace finally managed to wipe the rage off his face, “I’m really sorry for the interruption and how things blew ov—”“I should be the one walking out of that door and not her. She should still be here, talking this through with you like mature adults instead of the way you treated her like an inferior being where you’re concerned,” I felt ang
ACEAs much as it seemed like an odd thing for me, I only wanted to do her bidding. The last time I’d felt this strongly for a girl, I ended up regretting every single second of it, and despite the warnings ringing in the back of my head, I still felt more than willing to give it another shot. After the way I’d opened up with April and she’d practically turned into a therapist, I was hopeful that things would be different this time if I just did some things the right way. And the first thing on that list was making things right by apologizing to Brooke, so I picked up my phone and dialed her number. “Ace?” she sounded awfully shocked when she picked up the phone, and I knew it was because I never called her and barely picked up her calls. “Yeah, uhm…. Tonight’s family dinner at my parent’s place and I wanted to ask if you’d be interested in joining us, there’s some important things we need to discuss,” I told her, trying my best to sound respectful even though I still detested her
APRIL Luckily, I still had the prize money from the Jaw Wars that I’d been planning to use to pay up my debt before Nick cleared it. So, I paid for a service apartment because it felt odd for me to return to Nick’s apartment after choosing his friend over him and fucking the said friend gladly. In the moment, I usually forgot it, but whenever I remembered that Nick felt pain whenever I was fucking someone else, I hated myself and felt like I could never face him. I’d been in the service apartment for two days now, and most of that time was silent in self reflection. I was forced to finally face the fact that I had certain feelings for Xander and Ace, the kind that surpassed basic hormonal attraction. One thing I knew for sure was that whatever I felt for them wasn’t nearly as strong as the love I had for Nick. That didn’t stop me from wondering all day what else I felt for them asides sexual compatibility. There was something that warmed my heart whenever I thought of them these
APRIL Just when I thought that my mother couldn’t be more cruel, she outdid herself. At this point, I was convinced that she just hated me and would probably kill me with her bare hands if her marriage with Xander’s father was broken off because of my involvement with his precious heir. Her last words rang in my head and I was stunned into silence as I tried to process the fact that my own mother wished me death and she meant it. “Get the fuck out of my sight, you disgust me,” she shoved me out of the way, clutching her purse and strutting out of the suite like she owned every where she stopped her feet. I trembled when she slammed the door shut, especially because it was so violently done that I thought it would disturb Xander’s rest. I refused to dwell on the degrading encounter I’d just had with my mom and decided to walk over to Xander’s bed instead.Upon coming closer and inspecting the machines connected to him, I realized that he was asleep, he was unconscious. Most likely
APRILBeing in his arms felt better than I remembered, and I wanted to stay lodged in between them forever. The way he just confessed that he could never bring himself to hate me made my heart swell and I wasn’t sure what to say. He felt like home as usual, so I just wrapped my arms around him too and we stayed in that comforting position for almost five minutes. “I doubt that my love for you has any bounds. I’m floored at how deeply I’m devoted to you and no matter what you do, my heart remains drawn to you alone,” he was tracing a line along my jaw and watching me lovingly. This was exactly why I didn’t deserve his love, because I always ended up hurting him even though he forgave me countless times without being asked to. “For what it’s worth, I’m truly sorry for all the pain I keep causing you. It’s not intentional and I wished I could reach into my head and flip a button to fix all the chaotic emotions I was battling, but that’s impossible,” I sighed, my heart growing heavier
APRIL I swallowed and hoped that would push all those unpleasant emotions back down the hatch. Besides, I had no right to be upset about his marriage, I couldn’t be with him because I also teddy belong with Nick.“I could just lie and say that I don’t care what he does and who he does it with, but I hate lying to you, so I’ll tell you exactly how I feel,” I sat up straighter to face him. “There’s a part of me that’s hurt that he’s getting married to someone else, but I know it’s for the best, and you’re more than enough for me,” I smiled at him and he just traced a finger along my cheek and sighed. “You’ll always be perfectly enough for me,” he leaned in and pulled me into a hug and we ended up remaining cuddled tightly on the couch for the rest of the movie. As the credits started rolling, I pulled away from him and stood to my full height, stretching tiredly. He got up, picked me off my feet easily with a smile and started to walk us towards the room. “I think I’m a little tips
APRILI almost gagged in disgust at the sheer display of stupidity. The men were banging the glass, some were licking it, most had their hands inside their trousers, some even had their dicks out in the dimly lit room and they were rubbing them so vigorously to the movement of my body. The twirl, shake, flatten, and twisting of my body as I became one with the pole. I closed my eyes firmly and tried to ignore them, tried to ignore the chant of Red, my nickname. It was utterly appalling and disgusting and I wouldn't be here if I didn't need the money.I couldn't even rush through my routine. I was the best stripper here. Those animals paid a lot to watch me strip for them and I have to satisfy them. I didn't finish too fast enough and when I finally did, I sprinted out of the box to the inner rooms while the groans and chants of Red trailed after me. I relaxed when I got to the hallway. I couldn't wait to get to my assigned room, shower, and sc
APRILI was doomed! Xaden was going to expose my secret. He must have trailed me to find this out. I was screwed. I grabbed my mask and held onto it tightly. My face still wasn't exposed so maybe I could wriggle my way out of this. "I don't know what you're talking about," I lied and turned back to leave. He grabbed me by my ponytail and yanked my head backward with so much force a startled scream left my mouth and the mask fell off my face. "Red, hunnn?" He mussed darkly, "That's what they call the almighty April Lawson. Such a befitting name, for your red hair and your untamed mouth.""Xaden, please," I begged shamelessly. In school, I never beg for anything. I was the most important and most feared student there but this was a matter of life and death and I was going to die if Xaden should expose me. "So you can beg," the hatred in his voice was unbridled. He let go of my hair; more like he tossed me away and it took a miracle for me n
APRIL I swallowed and hoped that would push all those unpleasant emotions back down the hatch. Besides, I had no right to be upset about his marriage, I couldn’t be with him because I also teddy belong with Nick.“I could just lie and say that I don’t care what he does and who he does it with, but I hate lying to you, so I’ll tell you exactly how I feel,” I sat up straighter to face him. “There’s a part of me that’s hurt that he’s getting married to someone else, but I know it’s for the best, and you’re more than enough for me,” I smiled at him and he just traced a finger along my cheek and sighed. “You’ll always be perfectly enough for me,” he leaned in and pulled me into a hug and we ended up remaining cuddled tightly on the couch for the rest of the movie. As the credits started rolling, I pulled away from him and stood to my full height, stretching tiredly. He got up, picked me off my feet easily with a smile and started to walk us towards the room. “I think I’m a little tips
APRILBeing in his arms felt better than I remembered, and I wanted to stay lodged in between them forever. The way he just confessed that he could never bring himself to hate me made my heart swell and I wasn’t sure what to say. He felt like home as usual, so I just wrapped my arms around him too and we stayed in that comforting position for almost five minutes. “I doubt that my love for you has any bounds. I’m floored at how deeply I’m devoted to you and no matter what you do, my heart remains drawn to you alone,” he was tracing a line along my jaw and watching me lovingly. This was exactly why I didn’t deserve his love, because I always ended up hurting him even though he forgave me countless times without being asked to. “For what it’s worth, I’m truly sorry for all the pain I keep causing you. It’s not intentional and I wished I could reach into my head and flip a button to fix all the chaotic emotions I was battling, but that’s impossible,” I sighed, my heart growing heavier
APRIL Just when I thought that my mother couldn’t be more cruel, she outdid herself. At this point, I was convinced that she just hated me and would probably kill me with her bare hands if her marriage with Xander’s father was broken off because of my involvement with his precious heir. Her last words rang in my head and I was stunned into silence as I tried to process the fact that my own mother wished me death and she meant it. “Get the fuck out of my sight, you disgust me,” she shoved me out of the way, clutching her purse and strutting out of the suite like she owned every where she stopped her feet. I trembled when she slammed the door shut, especially because it was so violently done that I thought it would disturb Xander’s rest. I refused to dwell on the degrading encounter I’d just had with my mom and decided to walk over to Xander’s bed instead.Upon coming closer and inspecting the machines connected to him, I realized that he was asleep, he was unconscious. Most likely
APRIL Luckily, I still had the prize money from the Jaw Wars that I’d been planning to use to pay up my debt before Nick cleared it. So, I paid for a service apartment because it felt odd for me to return to Nick’s apartment after choosing his friend over him and fucking the said friend gladly. In the moment, I usually forgot it, but whenever I remembered that Nick felt pain whenever I was fucking someone else, I hated myself and felt like I could never face him. I’d been in the service apartment for two days now, and most of that time was silent in self reflection. I was forced to finally face the fact that I had certain feelings for Xander and Ace, the kind that surpassed basic hormonal attraction. One thing I knew for sure was that whatever I felt for them wasn’t nearly as strong as the love I had for Nick. That didn’t stop me from wondering all day what else I felt for them asides sexual compatibility. There was something that warmed my heart whenever I thought of them these
ACEAs much as it seemed like an odd thing for me, I only wanted to do her bidding. The last time I’d felt this strongly for a girl, I ended up regretting every single second of it, and despite the warnings ringing in the back of my head, I still felt more than willing to give it another shot. After the way I’d opened up with April and she’d practically turned into a therapist, I was hopeful that things would be different this time if I just did some things the right way. And the first thing on that list was making things right by apologizing to Brooke, so I picked up my phone and dialed her number. “Ace?” she sounded awfully shocked when she picked up the phone, and I knew it was because I never called her and barely picked up her calls. “Yeah, uhm…. Tonight’s family dinner at my parent’s place and I wanted to ask if you’d be interested in joining us, there’s some important things we need to discuss,” I told her, trying my best to sound respectful even though I still detested her
APRIL Shame enveloped me like a second skin as I heard the sound of Brooke slamming the main door shut angrily behind her. I would definitely never be able to show my face in front of her. There was no doubt in my mind about that. When I resumed school, I was definitely going to have a hard time rejoining the volunteering committee because she oversaw it. And god knows she hates me more than she cares about providing volunteers to the community so she’ll never let me successfully enroll. Sincerely, I deserved that punishment just as much as I deserved all the guilt and shame that was plummeting a hole in the pit of my stomach. “She’s gone now,” Ace finally managed to wipe the rage off his face, “I’m really sorry for the interruption and how things blew ov—”“I should be the one walking out of that door and not her. She should still be here, talking this through with you like mature adults instead of the way you treated her like an inferior being where you’re concerned,” I felt ang
APRILHonestly, I’d seen Ace angry more times than I could count because he used to always posed when we first started fucking, but I’d never seen him as angry as he looked right now. He turned to me first, as though he was trying to confirm that I’d learned the truth after accusing him of uploading the video. Little did he know that I’d known the trust h a while ago and that’s what made nursing him to health more bearable. I didn’t react or speak, so he turned his enraged gaze back to Brooke. In seconds, he was dashing across the room, wrapping a wrist around Brooke’s neck and choking her angrily against the wall. “How could be so thoughtless and heartless as to release such an incriminating video? especially when you knew it would affect her reputation, her position, and her scholarship?” he demanded to know as he tightened his grip around her neck. Despite the pain he was inflicting on her, Brooke looked unrepentant about what she’d done and I was just numb where I sat as I re
APRILMortified, my heart and heat started to throb uncontrollably when I spotted Brooke. Our last encounter flashed through my mind instantly and I knew that I probably looked like the most hypocritical and unrepentant whore as I clung to her fiancée after swearing to her that I’d been coerced into having a sexual relationship with him. The worst part of it all was that she must’ve overheard our banter about having a quickie and now she was staring in horror at our compromising position. The gift bags in Brooke’s hands slipped from her grasp and landed on the floor and there was denying that she heartbroken and enraged by the sight before her. I tried to wiggle out of Ace’s hold and put my feet on the ground, but all he did was hold me closer like he had no plans of ever letting me go. When I took a look at his face, it was clear that he was absolutely unbothered by how heartbroken and crushed Brooke looked. He obviously had no regard for her emotions and I wondered how such a be
APRIL Every second of that was fucking great. I’d long known how amazing it felt to be fucked relentlessly by Ace, and despite how mind blowing that was, it couldn’t compare to how amazing it felt when he made love to me. There was something addictive and flooring about he’d worshipped every inch of my body last night. The hickeys on my boobs peeked out as I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around myself while looking in the mirror. I couldn’t help but smile as I recalled him complimenting me and leaving love bites on my breasts while I moaned for him. I swallowed at the memory and made my way into the room where I changed into fresh clothes, then followed the aroma coming from downstairs that led me to the kitchen where Ace was flipping an omelette in a pan.“What’s cooking?” I rubbed my starving tummy as I curiously peered at the half burnt cinnamon pancakes, crispy sausages, and eggs. It was clear that he didn’t really know what he was doing, but he was more than