APRILMortified, my heart and heat started to throb uncontrollably when I spotted Brooke. Our last encounter flashed through my mind instantly and I knew that I probably looked like the most hypocritical and unrepentant whore as I clung to her fiancée after swearing to her that I’d been coerced into having a sexual relationship with him. The worst part of it all was that she must’ve overheard our banter about having a quickie and now she was staring in horror at our compromising position. The gift bags in Brooke’s hands slipped from her grasp and landed on the floor and there was denying that she heartbroken and enraged by the sight before her. I tried to wiggle out of Ace’s hold and put my feet on the ground, but all he did was hold me closer like he had no plans of ever letting me go. When I took a look at his face, it was clear that he was absolutely unbothered by how heartbroken and crushed Brooke looked. He obviously had no regard for her emotions and I wondered how such a be
APRILHonestly, I’d seen Ace angry more times than I could count because he used to always posed when we first started fucking, but I’d never seen him as angry as he looked right now. He turned to me first, as though he was trying to confirm that I’d learned the truth after accusing him of uploading the video. Little did he know that I’d known the trust h a while ago and that’s what made nursing him to health more bearable. I didn’t react or speak, so he turned his enraged gaze back to Brooke. In seconds, he was dashing across the room, wrapping a wrist around Brooke’s neck and choking her angrily against the wall. “How could be so thoughtless and heartless as to release such an incriminating video? especially when you knew it would affect her reputation, her position, and her scholarship?” he demanded to know as he tightened his grip around her neck. Despite the pain he was inflicting on her, Brooke looked unrepentant about what she’d done and I was just numb where I sat as I re
APRIL Shame enveloped me like a second skin as I heard the sound of Brooke slamming the main door shut angrily behind her. I would definitely never be able to show my face in front of her. There was no doubt in my mind about that. When I resumed school, I was definitely going to have a hard time rejoining the volunteering committee because she oversaw it. And god knows she hates me more than she cares about providing volunteers to the community so she’ll never let me successfully enroll. Sincerely, I deserved that punishment just as much as I deserved all the guilt and shame that was plummeting a hole in the pit of my stomach. “She’s gone now,” Ace finally managed to wipe the rage off his face, “I’m really sorry for the interruption and how things blew ov—”“I should be the one walking out of that door and not her. She should still be here, talking this through with you like mature adults instead of the way you treated her like an inferior being where you’re concerned,” I felt ang
ACEAs much as it seemed like an odd thing for me, I only wanted to do her bidding. The last time I’d felt this strongly for a girl, I ended up regretting every single second of it, and despite the warnings ringing in the back of my head, I still felt more than willing to give it another shot. After the way I’d opened up with April and she’d practically turned into a therapist, I was hopeful that things would be different this time if I just did some things the right way. And the first thing on that list was making things right by apologizing to Brooke, so I picked up my phone and dialed her number. “Ace?” she sounded awfully shocked when she picked up the phone, and I knew it was because I never called her and barely picked up her calls. “Yeah, uhm…. Tonight’s family dinner at my parent’s place and I wanted to ask if you’d be interested in joining us, there’s some important things we need to discuss,” I told her, trying my best to sound respectful even though I still detested her
APRIL Luckily, I still had the prize money from the Jaw Wars that I’d been planning to use to pay up my debt before Nick cleared it. So, I paid for a service apartment because it felt odd for me to return to Nick’s apartment after choosing his friend over him and fucking the said friend gladly. In the moment, I usually forgot it, but whenever I remembered that Nick felt pain whenever I was fucking someone else, I hated myself and felt like I could never face him. I’d been in the service apartment for two days now, and most of that time was silent in self reflection. I was forced to finally face the fact that I had certain feelings for Xander and Ace, the kind that surpassed basic hormonal attraction. One thing I knew for sure was that whatever I felt for them wasn’t nearly as strong as the love I had for Nick. That didn’t stop me from wondering all day what else I felt for them asides sexual compatibility. There was something that warmed my heart whenever I thought of them these
APRIL Just when I thought that my mother couldn’t be more cruel, she outdid herself. At this point, I was convinced that she just hated me and would probably kill me with her bare hands if her marriage with Xander’s father was broken off because of my involvement with his precious heir. Her last words rang in my head and I was stunned into silence as I tried to process the fact that my own mother wished me death and she meant it. “Get the fuck out of my sight, you disgust me,” she shoved me out of the way, clutching her purse and strutting out of the suite like she owned every where she stopped her feet. I trembled when she slammed the door shut, especially because it was so violently done that I thought it would disturb Xander’s rest. I refused to dwell on the degrading encounter I’d just had with my mom and decided to walk over to Xander’s bed instead.Upon coming closer and inspecting the machines connected to him, I realized that he was asleep, he was unconscious. Most likely
APRILBeing in his arms felt better than I remembered, and I wanted to stay lodged in between them forever. The way he just confessed that he could never bring himself to hate me made my heart swell and I wasn’t sure what to say. He felt like home as usual, so I just wrapped my arms around him too and we stayed in that comforting position for almost five minutes. “I doubt that my love for you has any bounds. I’m floored at how deeply I’m devoted to you and no matter what you do, my heart remains drawn to you alone,” he was tracing a line along my jaw and watching me lovingly. This was exactly why I didn’t deserve his love, because I always ended up hurting him even though he forgave me countless times without being asked to. “For what it’s worth, I’m truly sorry for all the pain I keep causing you. It’s not intentional and I wished I could reach into my head and flip a button to fix all the chaotic emotions I was battling, but that’s impossible,” I sighed, my heart growing heavier
APRIL I swallowed and hoped that would push all those unpleasant emotions back down the hatch. Besides, I had no right to be upset about his marriage, I couldn’t be with him because I also teddy belong with Nick.“I could just lie and say that I don’t care what he does and who he does it with, but I hate lying to you, so I’ll tell you exactly how I feel,” I sat up straighter to face him. “There’s a part of me that’s hurt that he’s getting married to someone else, but I know it’s for the best, and you’re more than enough for me,” I smiled at him and he just traced a finger along my cheek and sighed. “You’ll always be perfectly enough for me,” he leaned in and pulled me into a hug and we ended up remaining cuddled tightly on the couch for the rest of the movie. As the credits started rolling, I pulled away from him and stood to my full height, stretching tiredly. He got up, picked me off my feet easily with a smile and started to walk us towards the room. “I think I’m a little tips
APRIL“How did you think of this?” I asked him as he helped me out of the car and shut the door behind me. He looked back at me like I was the most intriguing being he’d ever come across and then he broke into a genuine smile.“Let’s just have a good time, don’t worry about all that,” he leaned in and kissed my cheek and warmth spread throughout my entire body at how good it felt. Even though I wanted to bombard him with more questions, the lingering feeling of that peck made me nod and simply tighten out intertwined fingers as we walked into the paintball arena. “Mr. Davenport, we’ve been expecting you, everything’s set up for you and your lovely date, please follow me,” the man who I’d known to be the manager told him, and seeing how much older he looked made me realize how long it had been since I visited. “Sure, thank you,” Xander said politely and we trailed behind him. When we finally got into the private arena, I was completely blown away. As a kid, I’d always wondered wha
APRILXander had just asked me out on a date for the first time ever and I was completely frozen in shock. He’d become a man I never knew could exist because of who he'd been when we first met. Each time he did something sweet, shared someo thing personal, showed some vulnerability, or was willingly truthful with me, I couldn’t help but be stunned. And right now, my shock was at the very peak after being asked on a date by him. Part of me wanted to freeze the moment and keep it forever, and another part of me was warning me against being roped into his arms again after what happened the last time. I never wanted to be the reason that any of the guys would get hurt again. It would tear me apart so badly, especially since they were all magically tolerable and sweet to me.But Xander’s eyes were so full of hope as he waited for my response and I couldn’t bear to crush that hope. I was unable to keep him company in the hospital and I hadn’t even known that he’d been discharged for day
APRIL The chocolate isle was beckoning to me as it always did when I walked into the grocery store. I came here to grab some snacks since Nick was at a meeting with his dad. I encouraged him to get involved with the family business since he took a semester off school on my behalf, and he’s been doing really great so far. Thinking back to the sacrifices he’s made to my life a little brighter even when it should be filled with nothing but gloom brought a smile to my face. “All I need to add some sugary goodness to the excitement I feel is a big box of ma—”My speech was cut short when I turned into the next isle and immediately bumped into a hard chest that made me a little dizzy. I pressed a palm over my forehead and looked up, only to stagger backwards in awe. “Xander? Oh my goodness,” I found myself exclaiming and jumping towards him to wrap my arms around him in a hug. There wasn’t a bone in my body that wasn’t overjoyed to see him back to his usual self instead of the pitifu
NICKI was trying to select a new avatar on the Mortal Kombat game when I heard someone knocking the door. Excited to see April again, I threw the controller aside and hurried to the door. “Why’re you knocking when you can just open the d—”My mood soured when I pulled the door open and found Xander staring blankly at me with his hands in his pocket and his hair stuffed into a beanie. “What are you doing here?” I didn’t hide my annoyance at him when I asked that frostily. He didn’t respond.Instead, he waltzed past me and went into the living room like he owned the place. And when he got to the couch, he sat down like a king, with his hands and legs spread out a little too comfortably. As you’d expect, that pissed me the fuck off. There was something about his audacity that pushed the wrong buttons. “Unless you’re begging for a repeat of the last time, you’d better get the hell up and get out of my house right now,” I warned him, more than willing to remind him of his place. He
XANDER It’s been almost ninety two depressing hours since I’ve been trapped against my will. About four days ago, I was finally discharged from the hospital, but since I was weakly laying down in the back of the car, I didn’t realize that my father was taking me to his bloody house instead of mine. It was when I woke up in my teenage room the next morning that it dawned on me. But it was too late for me to do anything because my father had lined up hundreds of guards outside the house and my wolf wasn’t strong enough to take them. From that moment onwards, I was on house arrest and my father refused to listen to reason. Every second that I was away from April felt like literal torment. After the way we bonded while we were together, I was excited to explore the bounds of our relationship and bond even more, and it pissed me off that I couldn’t. Nick had already robbed me of the time I rightfully deserved with her by keeping me in a coma for almost three weeks. And now, my fathe
ACEDriving through the city was a literal nightmare. There were countless billboards carrying the poster of mine and Brooke’s sham of a wedding and I was fucking sick of coming across them. Because of how obnoxious and annoying it was to see them everywhere, I got a personal driver and got extremely tinted windows for the backseat of the car he’d be driving so I wouldn’t have to tolerate the gruesome sight of the wedding billboards. However, that didn’t help me escape from the countless pop up ads on every single social media platform about the wedding. To worsen things, Brooke, my parents, random people, and countless gossip blogs were constantly tagging me in posts about the wedding that I didn’t give a shit about. It was driving me so fucking crazy. My parents and Brooke’s mom were meeting at the house almost every damn minute of the week to prepare for the wedding, and it started to feel like I was drowning and screaming for help but all the passersby were just waving at me
APRIL I swallowed and hoped that would push all those unpleasant emotions back down the hatch. Besides, I had no right to be upset about his marriage, I couldn’t be with him because I also teddy belong with Nick.“I could just lie and say that I don’t care what he does and who he does it with, but I hate lying to you, so I’ll tell you exactly how I feel,” I sat up straighter to face him. “There’s a part of me that’s hurt that he’s getting married to someone else, but I know it’s for the best, and you’re more than enough for me,” I smiled at him and he just traced a finger along my cheek and sighed. “You’ll always be perfectly enough for me,” he leaned in and pulled me into a hug and we ended up remaining cuddled tightly on the couch for the rest of the movie. As the credits started rolling, I pulled away from him and stood to my full height, stretching tiredly. He got up, picked me off my feet easily with a smile and started to walk us towards the room. “I think I’m a little tips
APRILBeing in his arms felt better than I remembered, and I wanted to stay lodged in between them forever. The way he just confessed that he could never bring himself to hate me made my heart swell and I wasn’t sure what to say. He felt like home as usual, so I just wrapped my arms around him too and we stayed in that comforting position for almost five minutes. “I doubt that my love for you has any bounds. I’m floored at how deeply I’m devoted to you and no matter what you do, my heart remains drawn to you alone,” he was tracing a line along my jaw and watching me lovingly. This was exactly why I didn’t deserve his love, because I always ended up hurting him even though he forgave me countless times without being asked to. “For what it’s worth, I’m truly sorry for all the pain I keep causing you. It’s not intentional and I wished I could reach into my head and flip a button to fix all the chaotic emotions I was battling, but that’s impossible,” I sighed, my heart growing heavier
APRIL Just when I thought that my mother couldn’t be more cruel, she outdid herself. At this point, I was convinced that she just hated me and would probably kill me with her bare hands if her marriage with Xander’s father was broken off because of my involvement with his precious heir. Her last words rang in my head and I was stunned into silence as I tried to process the fact that my own mother wished me death and she meant it. “Get the fuck out of my sight, you disgust me,” she shoved me out of the way, clutching her purse and strutting out of the suite like she owned every where she stopped her feet. I trembled when she slammed the door shut, especially because it was so violently done that I thought it would disturb Xander’s rest. I refused to dwell on the degrading encounter I’d just had with my mom and decided to walk over to Xander’s bed instead.Upon coming closer and inspecting the machines connected to him, I realized that he was asleep, he was unconscious. Most likely