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Chapter Thirty:
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2024-10-29 19:42:56“Yulia?”
The sound of Evgeniya’s gentle voice came from the Church’s entrance, and echoed to where I was still standing up front by the painting. I wiped my eyes hurriedly and turned to face her. I noticed that she fingered her gold cross necklace as she slowly started walking toward me. The traditional Russian headscarf she wore was long enough to serve as a shawl as well, and it flowed around her delicate shoulders with each movement. The pattern, although beautiful with it’s elaborate pink and yellow floral arrangement, was making my head hurt to look at so I averted my gaze off to the side. I shouldn’t have been surprised to run into Evgeniya here. Maybe caught off guard was a better term.
“Vasilisa. My name is VASILISA. Are you absolutely certain you’re the one who renamed me?”
“It was a sudden decision, the name. Forgive me, I can’t get used to it.” Evgeniya replied with remor
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