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Losing Control Of Him
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2025-03-21 18:00:24Sebastian
I exhale sharply, forcing the tension out of my body. Now isn’t the time to dwell on this.
“Shift,” I tell Celine, stepping back fully. “We need to go.”
She hesitates for only a moment before nodding. Shadows ripple around her as she shifts into her Fae form, her wings unfurling with an elegant snap. Even now, after everything that just happened, she looks calm, in control.
I wish I could say the same. I move toward the door, but my mind is already pulling apart the pieces of what just happened.
Helios took control again, and this time, I wasn’t aware of anything. That hasn’t happened since Ember Season. I try to reach back, to remember anything from the past hours, but it’s empty. A void.
It wasn’t like before, when I could fight Helios for control. When I could at least see what he was doing, even if I couldn’t stop him. This time, I was completely gone.
It was just him, and I only came back when Celine said my name. The t
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