I could feel my face heating up in embarassment. I can't even look at him! I tried to look at everything else but him. I probably look like a fool now.
"I'm sorry," I heard him say. He shouldn't be apologizing now because it's no one's fault. But gosh, I can't grasp the thought of it!"I'm sorry too," I said. I looked at him briefly and quickly looked away. This is just so embarassing!"Should we go back inside?" He asked and I nodded so eagerly without looking at him. I can't look at him just yet because it will only remind me of what just happened.We went back to the Karaoke room and it was the most awkward walk of my life! Good thing we won't be seeing each other in school after this. We won't, right? The University's quite huge and I don't usually go to their building. And I will just make an effort to avoid every person wearing an all-white uniform.Yes, I can do that!When we got back to our rented room, it wasn't as messy as earlier. Daisy was already asleep. And guess what, she's sleeping on Jed's shoulder! I knew she has a hidden agenda!I suggested we just go home because it's pretty clear that these girls are wasted and they agreed. I had to retrieve the rest of my stuff from Daisy's car after getting the keys from her and gave it to Jed. Daisy was already drunk so we decided to just take a cab. The guys will take care of Daisy's car.I only got to breathe freely when we were finally inside the taxi. Even breathing with Zandrey around is proving to be difficult.Ugh. I knew this night will do me no good.-Daisy was still soundlessly sleeping on my bed. I decided to just let her spend the night here in my condo because she was too drunk to go home. I can't also let her be alone especially when she's this wasted.I woke up earlier than her so here I am, standing in front of her, waiting for her to wake up. I want my face to be the first thing she'll see once she wakes up."Oh. Good morning, Ai," she greeted smilingly upon seeing my face. I arched a brow at her. "Did you not sleep well? Why do you look like you're in a bad mood?""Last night will definitely be the last time you will ever get to ask me a favor like that," I muttered. She sat up and looked at me while furrowing."You didn't enjoy it?" She asked. She doesn't know what happened to Zandrey and me last night."NO!"I saw the surprise on her face upon hearing my reply. Well, it was probably because of my tone. But she recovered quickly and even looked at me weirdly."You're weird," she mumbled. "I thought you enjoyed Zandrey's company last night.""No, I didn't!""Are you mad?"No, I'm not mad," I said, this time, in a soft voice."My God, Ai, you're making my head ache more," she mumbled as she stood up. She went out of my room and went straight to the kitchen and I followed."I will never join you next time!""Okay!""'Don't force me next time.""I promise I won't."Silence enveloped us. No, we're not fighting. We really talk like this most of the time."What's with your face?" Daisy asked laughingly. She was making a coffee for herself while I was leaning on the kitchen counter, watching her."Nothing," I muttered dismissively.I know it already happened and I can't do anything to erase it. And that really sucks! Because no matter how much I try to erase it from my mind, I couldn't.I'm really blaming Daisy for this!I just occupied a seat at the dining and took a bread. Maybe I just need to eat."Where's my phone?" Daisy asked."I don't know.""Ai," she said with a pout. "I'll just go find it. I'm pretty sure Jed texted me," she said while a big smile was pasted on her face. She ran to my room and I just let her. She really gets excited whenever it comes to her crush. I just always end up shaking my head, because even if she's like that, I like seeing her happy.I chose to just enjoy my bread and tried to forget about Zandrey for once. Although, a huge part of my brain really slips and thinks about him and what happened last night.I slapped the side of my head when that thought came to my mind. Maybe I damaged my head or something. But why am I so affected? It's not like we kissed for real. It was just a quick peck on my side lips and it wasn't intentional. Ugh!Suddenly I heard Daisy screamed. I was about to stand up and go to her but it was quickly followed with "Oh my God! He texted me! He texted me!" I could even imagine her jumping in joy.I rolled my eyes, but there was a slight smile on my face.-The day went... normal. Well, I tried my best for it to be normal.Daisy spent more hours in my condo but she had to go home because she's meeting Jed later. She will fix herself to look good for him, as she said. It was Jed who took care of her car last night. They will meet later to bring her car.So I was left peacefully alone in my crib again. I took out all my materials and decided to do some plates. I have a lot of hobbies but I'm an Architect student and I don't get to spend my time on my hobbies anymore. Because of plates. Freaking plates.My brows were knitted together when I heard my phone beeped. It's just probably Daisy. So I didn't pay attention.But then a few minutes later, it beeped again. It was annoying. So I just picked up my phone to check who was texting me.I furrowed again when I saw it was from an unregistered number. I opened it and suddenly, I felt my heartbeat doubled its pace.The text says:Hi, Aira! This is Zandrey. I was just wodering if you're free today?Another text came in:Or tomorrow? Whatever works for you.And then another one:I just want to ask if I can have my ID back? I can't enter the school premises without it.š Ugh that ID! I should've given it to him when I got my things from Daisy's car last night so I wouldn't have to meet him! But at that moment, I couldn't think about it because I was prioritizing the thought of going home.Now I have to reply. And meet him to give his ID. Ugh.I typed:Hi, Zandrey. Is it okay if I give it to you on Monday? Before class. What time is your first class? Because I'm really busy.And it's just a matter of seconds or perhaps a minute when I received a reply from him.He replied:Sure. My first class will be at 9 am. Is it okay if we meet at 8:30?I replied:Yeah. I guess that will be fine. Let's meet at Gate 1.He replied:Okay. Great! See you, then.āŗAnd finally, I replied:Yup. See you.Okay. That will be just once and this will be the last. After it, I don't have to see him anymore. Sure, our worlds are getting smaller but I will make sure to hide from him and avoid him.-The most dreaded Monday came. While on the way to school, I keep on fidgeting. I tried to think of ways or excuse just to not see him, but nothing came to mind.I'm good at this! Why is it that my mind becomes blank when it comes to him?I already got to school before 8:30. I still have a few minutes to calm my nerves or better yet, think of an excuse.I looked around and saw the guard house. I smirked upon finally being able to think of something.Zandrey's still not here so I approached the guard and asked if I could leave the ID, and that someone will be picking it up in a while. Good thing, the security guard was very understanding.I texted him and told him I have an emergency meeting with my groupmates so I left his ID there. I smiled widely when I finally got passed the gate.See? I'm good at this!I then went to my classroom for my 9 am class. It was a minor subject. It was the kind of minor subject that feels like a major subject, so one has to attend because once you fail to attend even just one meeting, you will miss a lot. I don't want to self-study for this subject because I already have a lot of major subjects that I need to self-study for. I also have a lot of plates to do.After that class came another class and then a vacant time. I have two hours of vacant until my next subject which means more time to spend sa Library.The journey to the Library was never easy. I feel so paranoid whenever I am about to meet someone in an all-white uniform. Gosh, why are there so many medical students here?!A heart attack was threatening to happen whenever I see someone in white. God, this is not good for my anxiety!I managed to get inside the Library without bumping into him so I kind of felt at peace. I sat at the farthest corner, my back facing everyone else. I won't be able to concentrate if I keep seeing people in white.When lunch time came, Daisy texted me and invited me for lunch. I was going to accept it but then she mentioned Jed and thought they might be with Zandrey so I declined. I'll just let them have this time for themselves.The plan was to eat lunch quickly and go back to the Library because I left my stuff on the table I occupied.I was still being so careful. Too careful to the point that I feel like a weirdo. I keep on looking around and whenever I'm about to meet someone in white, I quickly distance myself. Seriously, this is making me look like crazy. I just really don't want to see him just yet. What happened last night was still carved in my head.My eyes grew wide when I saw him near the student center. He was approximately 6 meters away from me and I'm not sure if he saw me or not because I quickly hid myself behind the huge trunk of a tree. I really wish he has not seen me!The students who pass by me would always look my way. I wanted to scratch their eyes out because Zandrey might see me! I hope they realize I am hiding for a reason. Now I am not safe because of their stares!I waited for a few minutes before checking if Zandrey's still there. And a sigh of relief instantly comes out of my mouth. I noticed he was no longer there.Phew!"Who are you hiding from?"But my eyes grew wide and my heart started beating crazily inside my chest when I heard his voice from behind me.Fuck.Me.I never got myself in trouble before. Iām always careful when it comes to things and Iām a good decision-maker. Iām also not used to making myself look like a fool. I know how to get out of situations. I am that smart, as my Mom would say. But lately, I just wanted to bury myself six feet underground after all the embarrassment.My eyes were wide while looking at Zandrey in front of me. I can see him suppressing a grin, making me feel more ashamed. If only I could instantly disappear right now, I would really like that. I didnāt even know a heartbeat could be this fast. It was like it was in a race and wanted to come out as the champion.And my mind even decided to stop functioning.I am really doomed."Are you okay?" He asked, playfulness evident in his voice.I know he already has an idea for the answer to his own question. So instead of answering him, I just stood up straight while trying to look away from him. I can't keep on looking at him when he looks so amused.I heard him ch
After that lunch with Zandrey, we went our separate ways. He still has his classes, while I have to go home. It was still weird for me to be friends with him. Iām not really a friendly person, especially when it comes to boys. Iām still wondering how everything happened so quickly. Earlier, I was determined to avoid him and now we have this weird connection. Or maybe he was just that good at making friends. I still have plenty of free time so I went home to sleep for a while. But I set an alarm for two hours. Even if I wanted to, I canāt just keep on sleeping. I canāt procrastinate because that will make me crazy. I'm not much of a multi-tasker. When I woke up from my nap, I proceeded to do my plates until I felt hungry. Timingly, Daisy was done with her classes and texted me she's on the way. I just asked her to bring some takeouts so we can eat it together. "So you're telling me that he suggested to be your pretend boyfriend so Charles will stop harassing you?" I told her abo
I feel like I was floating when my class ended. I bumped into a few people in the hallway because my mind was wandering somewhere else.Okay, not somewhere else.It was because of that kiss!Even when the classes are ongoing, all I could think about was what happened earlier. It was just the first day of Zandrey and Iās deception, I feel like I canāt do it anymore. And Daisy kept texting me, inviting us for dinner. I donāt know if I should go or just pretend Iām sick or what.Seriously, this should be easy. I just don't know why things are starting to be complicated. I just continued walking, unsure where I'm going. I donāt want to see Daisy just yet. I know Zandrey will be there too and I donāt know if I can last when heās around.With my tote bag on my right shoulder and books on my left arm, I walked cautiously. I kept looking around, checking if someone could see me right now. So far, thereās no Zandrey or Daisy in my way. I heaved a sigh. I feel like a runaway prisoner."Hey."
It's Wednesday and it's just the second official day of our deception. While I think it's still cringe, I also think it's quite effective.The entire day yesterday, even though I knew Charles was just a few classrooms away from me, he did not come to see me. Before, he would always make an effort to pass by our classroom just to see me, talk to me, and all sorts of things he can do to make his appearance be known.Right then, I thought it was a red flag. I have already rejected him numerous times and even explained myself, but he really can't understand or maybe he does, but he chose not to understand me. The thought of him being overly persistent is bothering me and giving me the creeps.Zandrey and I agreed on this deception to happen only in school, or wherever and whenever we need to. But oddly, even if thereās really no need to pretend, he would still act lovey dovey on me.Just like now.I just woke up and when I got my phone to check i
There were multiple texts from Zandrey when I opened my phone after that particular class. But I didnāt check it just yet and just headed straight to my next class. After this class, Iām free so I can go and meet him, before I have lunch with Daisy.After settling in our next classroom, I made sure I look busy just so Risa canāt approach me again. Iām still not ready to continue whatever we talked about earlier.If Zandrey really has some unsettled issues with his previous girlfriend and he offered to be my boyfriend just so Charles will stop harassing me, I will really kick him in the balls! I donāt want to be included in their drama. Iām trying to have a peaceful life here.While the class was going on, I tried to listen as intently as I can. But my mind just fails to concentrate and wanders somewhere else. Good thing I have already downloaded advanced lecture slides for this class and was able to scan it. That way, Iām comfortable I can answer the Professorās
I received a text from Daisy telling me she's at the the new cafe near gate 2. So after talking to Zandrey, I went there directly.I don't have any idea what it is that she's going to tell me. I don't know if it's that important, but I went anyway. Daisy's stories sometimes keep me sane. I have so much going on in my life, causing me tons of stress- from school stuff to personal life. I was glad to have someone like her who makes me forget those things. If it werenāt for her, I might have gone crazy.The moment I got to the cafe, I saw her waving at me, that's why it was easy for me to spot her. She was sitting in a corner.While I was nearing her, I looked around the place. It was fine. The ambiance was okay, and there's just a few people. Maybe because it was still new and now a lot of people knows about this place. But Iām pretty sure in a few weeks, they will get a lot of customers. The location was very strategic because it was near the school.
"How did you know I was there?" I asked. When we got out of the building, I almost fell to the ground because my knees were so weak. I even had to be escorted by him to the nearest bench near the entrance.It's indeed already dark. There are still students but I could count them with my fingers. When I looked up, there were already a lot of stars above. It would be nice to just look up and watch them twinkling. But I couldn't shake the fear off from what happened just a while ago. If Zandrey didnāt come, I couldn't imagine what could've happened. "I tried reaching you but you were not answering," he replied. "So I asked Daisy and she told me you're probably still in class. So I went there," he added. "Why are you looking for me?" "I was gonna ask about dinner," he replied. "You didn't reply to my texts," he added. I nodded, still looking up above. "Are you okay?" "I wasn't, until you came." This time, I looked at him and tried to smile. But as I smiled, the tears fell. They we
If someone would just see me now, they would think I have a huge problem because of my visible eyebags. I know and I can see it because I'm staring at myself through the mirror. And I don't like what I'm seeing. My hair was quite messy. It was evident in my face that I havenāt slept at all. How could I ever sleep when that kiss kept on coming back to my mind? Before, I used to worry about Charles pestering me. Now, I was worried that what happened last night wouldn't leave my mind. I donāt even know how I would handle facing Zandrey at this point.Am I a slut for allowing it to happen? I know I don't have any reference as to how it should feel but at that moment, I just knew it felt so good. I never kissed anyone and I never thought it would feel like that. I thought it was gross and disgusting and whatever because hello? You're exchanging saliva with other people! I was so conscious about even touching someone else's saliva before and now that I've discovered the wonders of kissin
Zandrey should know because he's a doctor. I wanted to ask him, but I suddenly felt conscious. Even if we've done it many times, I still have an ounce of shyness in me.I saw him walk towards me. He's carrying our son in his arms. I saw how the kid ran to him earlier and how excitement filled his face when he saw his father. And now, the kid was talking non-stop while they were on the way towards me, yet Zandrey's gaze remains on me.He has that usual smile on his face. He looks so carefree and problem-free. He's always glowing. I feel like the world is really unfair because those who has stressful jobs are the ones more glowing. Zandrey is a walking example. He's busy with his job and does not have much time for himself, but he still manages to smile like that.He radiates so much positivity, and I just realized how much I needed someone like him in my life. I feel like we compliment well. Even when we just knew each other, we already clicked. I know he's a good person and has a good
"Are you joining in the van with us?" Daisy asked. They're currently loading all the stuff we need to the van. Dominic will be driving. All their stuff are already inside. They just dropped by here to get the stuff we will bring. After that, they'll go to Mommy Emily to get her. As for Zandrey, I'm not sure. He's not here yet. "I'm not sure," I answered. They did almost everything, while I just sat there watching them. I wanna help but I know lifting heavy stuff isn't for me, especially right now. I get clumsy sometimes so I should move as less as possible. "Where's Zandrey?" She added. He has work last night. I just don't know if his shift is over. His schedule often changes and he wasn't able to inform me. "I also don't know," I replied. I kind of feel sad that he's not here yet, but I cannot do anything about it. "Can you give me some of that?" I added. She was eating some chips and she was eating it with gusto that I felt the need to eat some as well. She handed me the pack. I
We weren't able to push through our plan of going to the beach after my birthday. When I knew I was pregnant, I told everyone we can't go because I was not feeling well. Maybe I lied well in that part because they never doubted me.However, maybe we were bound to go one way or another, because Daisy decided to set another date. And this time, I was not able to invent a lie, unfortunately. "This will look good on you!" Daisy mumbled. She handed me the hanger with a pair of swim suit. I frowned at her. I shouldn't wear something like that. I'm not sure how visible my bump is. We're currently at the mall, buying stuff for our beach getaway which wil happen this weekend. She wanted to buy some new stuff for herself so I just tagged along. She ended up choosing things for the both of us. "I don't like that," I said. "This really suits you," she insisted. I shook my head and tried to look for something else. I don't want something so revealing. "What do you want?" She asked as she put
Since we havenāt told anyone yet about the pregnancy, we were very careful when it comes to doing things. He wants me to stay at home for now, and maybe work from home too. But I don't want to. People will definitely wonder why Iām not doing my normal routine. So here I am, in the office and doing all the things Iām supposed to do. I even drove myself coming here while Zandrey drove Andrei to school. āGood morning, Maāam Aira,ā Jelyn greeted when she saw me coming. I smiled at her and gestured to her to follow me to my office. This time, I was not wearing heels and was walking as carefully as possible. I'm still afraid I'll trip and fall. Of course, I donāt want that to happen so Iām being extra careful. Jelyn then proceeded to tell me all the things that I need to do today. That includes some meetings and site visits. But I declined the site visits. It's too risky for now. āCan you ask my Dad if he can do the site visit instead?ā I asked. āYes, Ma'am. I'll inform him
Iād like to think that this is my pregnancy hormones craving for Zandrey, craving for his presence and all of him. Iām definitely not the clingy type but I have this feeling that I just want to see him all the time. I want to feel his presence all the time. I want to hear his voice all the time. Iām getting used to this feeling of wanting him to be just around all the time. It has been two weeks since we knew about my pregnancy. I haven't said anything to anyone just yet. Even Zandrey hasn't said anything too. Itās just the two of us who know Iām carrying his child. We have already been to the OB-Gyne. I was so nervous. I was reminded of the time I also went to the OB-Gyne when I was pregnant with Andrei and Andres. I was also very nervous that time. But unlike now, I have someone I can hold when Iām trembling in fear. Before, I used to go to my appointments with Dad or Mommy Miranda. But being accompanied by Zandrey hits different. The entire time I was being checked by the d
I feel like I look like a kid waiting for her parents to come home. I was sitting on the balcony of my room. I could see the gate from up here and I could see anyone coming. I sat there patiently, waiting for a car to arrive- waiting for Zandrey to arrive. I already cleaned myself after puking. I'm already wearing fresh clothes. I don't want to go downstairs just yet. I wanna know he's already there before I go down. While I was waiting for him, I was also thinking about a lot of things. I was thinking about when I should tell the people close to me about my pregnancy. I need the perfect timing. Mommy Miranda just passed away and Daisy lost her baby. I'm really not sure if it's okay to tell them just yet. I really have to think about it. I'm also not sure how Andrei would react. The kid would be thrilled, I can imagine. But I also don't know if I should tell him already. I probably need Zandreyās perspective on this. While thinking about things, I saw Zandreyās car parked o
"Daisy," I called. She asked me to meet her at a restaurant just near my shop. I donāt know whatās going on. She didnāt tell me anything, but I know something is bothering her. Her calling out of the blue and asking me to hang out somewhere definitely tells me something. "Oh Ai," she murmured. She motioned me to sit in front of her so I did. "Why did you call me again? Is something wrong?" I asked the moment I sat down. She smiled at me. Iām just not sure if it was a genuine or forced one. She suddenly became hard to read. Before, I could read her by just looking at her face. It seems she has become better at hiding what she really feels. I donāt know if thatās a good thing. "I just needed someone to talk to,ā she answered and then she stifled a sigh. I suddenly feel bad. I donāt know just yet whatās really the reason why sheās like this, but I already feel so bad. "Tell me what's wrong," I grumbled. "A lot of weird things are just happening in my life lately,ā she replied and it
The thought that I am pregnant didn't register in my head right away. I still canāt believe it and the ideaās still out there, in the abyss of my thoughts and is refusing to be acknowledged. We ate the ice cream together, but that was just it. We barely spoke a word, and I donāt know what to feel about it. I know Zandrey is also thinking about a lot of things right now. When he left, I was left there with my thoughts. It was surrounding me that I almost thought I was drowning. I tried swimming and then gave up. And then there it isā¦ It finally sinked n. I am pregnant. Andreiās going to have a sibling. Dad will have another grandchild. Daisy will have another niece or nephew. God, Daisyā¦ I donāt know why but I suddenly felt guilty about getting pregnant unexpectedly. Iām not sure how it happened. I was prompt with my pillsā¦ or was I? I know it happens, but itās crazy to have happened to me. We were careful, since we started the agreement. Were his sperms that strong? Does t
Zandreyās POV I donāt want to agree on the arrangement Aira wanted. Iām not just after her body. I want to be in her life, to be in our sonās life, to be included in her priorities. But I can't just push that thought, can I? I want her for myself, but I donāt want her to think Iām selfish. In every decision I make since we met again, she was in my head. Every step I make, itās her that I consider. I just wanted to win her back. But destiny has been so playful. We see each other, but she doesn't like seeing me. But still, giving up on her was not in my plans. Iāll do everything I can to win her trust again. If it means waiting for her until I turn seventy, then I am okay with that. Sheās worth the wait, so I am willing to wait. Giving her pleasure was so important for me. Itās always her over anything. Even if I don't get mine, I'm fine, as long as sheās satisfied, and I make her moan for my name, Iām good with that. Nothing feels better than that. Everytime she scratches