"Be good, okay?" I said to Andrei. Medyo may sakit ako at nasa duty si Zandrey kaya pinahatid ko muna siya sa driver. "Okay, Mommy," he replied. He hugged me before I closed the door sa backseat ng kotse. "Kuya, mag-ingat sa pag-drive ha?" Baling ko sa driver and he smiled at me and assured me nothing bad will happen. I remained standing near the gate as I watched the car run. Nang mawala na ito sa paningin ko ay pumasok na ako sa loob ng gate. "Okay ka lang, Nay?" I asked Nanay Gina. She looked so pale while running towards me. "Si Ma'am Miranda po iyak nang iyak. Masakit daw po ang tiyan niya," she said. "What?" "Nasa kwarto po siya," she grumbled. Nagmadali akong umakyat sa taas at pumunta sa kwarto. Doon ay naabutan ko si Mommy Miranda na nakaupo na sa sahig. "What happened?" I questioned. Lumapit ako kay Mommy at nakita ko kung gaano siya namimilipit sa sakit. "Dalhin na natin siya sa ospital," Nanay Gina said. Naramdaman ko ang panginginig ng buong katawan ko. I never
I still feel so sick. Ramdam ng katawan ko iyong pagod at sakit pero parang wala lang ‘yon sa akin. A lot has happened. Sunod-sunod ang lahat at hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin. Para bang naging isang bagsakan ang lahat. Sobrang bigat. Sobrang hirap. Kinabukasan, when I got to the hospital, naabutan ko si Dad na natutulog habang nakaupo. "Dad.." He woke up and looked up to me and flashed his sad smile. "Umuwi ka siguro muna sa bahay, Dad. Mukhang ikaw naman ang kailangang magpahinga," I said but he shook his head. Alam kong ayaw niyang umalis sa tabi ni Mommy Miranda. Kahit ako ay ayaw kong iwan siya kahit sandali kasi natatakot ako sa pwedeng mangyari. Pero hindi pwedeng hindi siya magpahinga. Ayokong pati siya ay magkasakit. "Dad, ayaw ni Mommy na pinapagod mo ang sarili mo. Susunod si Nanay Gina dito kaya wala ka nang dapat ipag-alala," I added. It took me a lot of convincing bago siya napapayag na umuwi para magpahinga. Kita ko iyong pagod sa mukha niya but he said he’ll j
I tried to calm myself first bago bumalik sa kwarto ni Mommy Miranda. Even if I already feel so tired, hindi ko kayang ipakita iyon sa kanya. I don’t want her to worry about us. It should be us worrying about her. Wala siyang dapat na iba pang isipin kung ‘di ang magpagaling. Because we can’t afford to lose her.Pagkapasok ko ay nadatnan kong gising si Mommy Miranda na gising na and so I smiled at her. She’s still lying on the bed.I really wish I could do something for her."How are you feeling po?" I asked saka dahan-dahang naupo sa upuan sa tabi ng hospital bed.She smiled at me. But there was something different in her smile."You should give Emily another chance," she said. She's in pain but she still thinks of other people. Hindi ko alam kung paano niya nagagawa 'yon."We already talked," I replied. She nodded with a smile on her face. Nakangiti siya, but seeing that smile is hurting me. Hindi ko mapigilang maluha nang makita iyong ngiti niyang 'yon.She made my life bearable th
Ilang araw akong pabalik-balik sa ospital. I would go to work but my mind always wonders, kaya pagkatapos ng trabaho ay sa ospital ako dumidiretso. My mind’s really in chaos when I don’t get to visit Mommy Miranda and Daisy. Hangga’t hindi ko nakikitang okay sila, hindi ako napapanatag. It has become a part of my routine to visit them every time I have the chance. Nauna kong dinalaw si Daisy. Dom texted me earlier that she’ll be discharged tomorrow. I knocked on the door before opening it. Sumilip muna ako, then I saw Dominic sitting beside Daisy who’s currently sleeping. “How is she?” I asked when I entered the room. Mahina lang iyong boses ko dahil ayaw kong magising siya. “Still not as talkative, but she’s eating now,” Dominic replied. He’s looking at Daisy with worries in his eyes. Kita ko rin iyong pagod sa mukha niya. Both of them aren’t themselves the past days at naiintindihan ko ‘yon. They’ve been through a lot and I’m not expecting them to be alright immediately. It will
I didn’t know what to say. What he said really caught me off guard. Kung bakit basta-basta na lang kasi akong binibigla?I stayed silent simply because I am lost for words. Para pa kaming mga tanga na nakatayo lang dito sa harap ng pinto ng kwarto ni Mommy Miranda. People would be weirded out if they see us here.“You know what, never mind,” he said. Hindi ko na tuloy alam kung ano ang tumatakbo sa isip niya ngayon.Binuksan niya ang pinto kaya napilitan akong itago sa kailaliman ng utak ko iyong mga sinabi niya kanina.When we entered the room, both Mom and dad were looking at us. And Mommy Miranda’s smile as usual looks like she’s teasing us.They might have noticed too that Zandrey and I are getting better. Madalas rin kasi nila kaming nakikita na magkasama and everytime, Mommy Miranda has that weird smile on her face. Alam ko ano iyong iniisip niya. A part of me wants to stop her from thinking that way but I still ended up letting her think whatever. Para sa ikasasaya niya, hahay
We were a little quiet during dinner. Not that I don’t want to talk, but because I was enjoying the food. Nag-uusap naman kami. Zandrey would start the talk but it would immediately die down. Pareho kasi ata kaming gutom kasi parehong sa pagkain napupunta ang atensyon namin.But I liked it better that way. Hindi naman ganoon ka-awkward unlike before. I could really say I’m slowly getting comfortable again.When we finished eating, I felt like there’s something else I want to do more. It’s Friday and I’ve never been out for so long. Na-miss ko iyong gumala at uminom kapag Friday. Sadly, that rarely happens these days. Una, kasi wala akong kasama kasi hindi pa rin lumalabas si Daisy. Pangalawa, I’m swamped with work. Pangatlo, do I even have the energy left? I don’t think so.“Gusto mo nang umuwi?” Zandrey asked after paying the bill.I asked myself, do I want to go home already?Napatingin ako sa labas. The street lights made outside looked magical. Ganoon na siguro ako katagal na hind
Silence enveloped us after he said those words. I don’t know how to react. He totally caught me off guard. Maging siya ay hindi rin nakapagsalita matapos sabihin iyong mga salitang ‘yon. Because of the silence, I felt the need to do something- anything that can distract me from the words he just said. Kaya iyong beer ang napagdiskitahan ko. I was supposed to stop drinking, but I took the glass to my mouth and drank the remaining beer in it. Ramdam ko ang tingin ni Zandrey sa akin. “Hindi ka pa ba uuwi?” Basag niya sa katahimikan. Ramdam ko na ang panginginit ng pisngi ko, which means I’m quite drunk now pero hindi naman iyong tipong lasing na lasing. Just drunk enough to be shameless. “Do you wanna go home now?” I asked back. I tried to stare back at him. Pareho ngayon kaming nakatingin lang sa isa’t-isa, like no one wants to lose the staring game. “Only if you want to,” he replied. “Hindi naman kasi pwedeng iwanan kita. Nakainom ka so you can’t drive,” he added. I nodded. Some
Warning: R18. Zandrey was my first and my last kiss and more and it has been years since it happened. But when our lips touched, it was like I still knew all along how it would feel. It was familiar and consuming. Alam kong nabigla siya sa ginawa ko kaya halos hindi siya nakagalaw. I’m crazy, I know. Parang kanina lang ayaw kong makasama siya, but a few glasses of beer later, I’m even initiating a kiss. When I realized what I had done, I quickly moved away. “I’m sorry,” I said. I didn’t hear him reply. Nang lumingon ako, Zandrey was just staring at me- the kind of stare that’s trying to pierce through my soul. “Why did you do that?” He asked. Why did I do that? Because he looks good and dashing and dreamy and I’m drunk and I haven’t kissed anyone for a very long time. But I didn’t say a word. “Aira…” “I’m drunk, I’m sorry,” I said. Now I’m starting to feel ashamed. “Please don’t say you’re sorry.” I didn’t move. I feel like things will get even worse if I move. “Aira…” he
TW: Abuse, ViolenceZandrey's POVI was almost running late for my next class. Naharang kasi ako nina Jed at Dominic. Nag-aayang makipag-group date. To avoid prolonging the conversation, I just agreed to go. There's no harm in it. Besides, I might benefit from it. In whichever way, I'm not sure. Lagi lang naman akong game sa mga buhay nila. Lately, all I did was study and go home when I have the chance. I can't mess this up. Not when I don't want to be under my dad's roof anymore. Kaya kailangan kong pagbutihin ang pag-aaral. I know he has the wealth, but I don't really trust him in giving it to me as his heir. Baka may iba siyang anak, so I have to do well on my own. I don't really need his money.I passed by the Library since it was the closest route going to our building. But it was quite packed with students so I bumped into a girl."Are you okay? I'm so sorry," I quickly said. I helped her picked up her things that fell on the floor. When I looked up, I almost stopped.Man, she's
"Does your tummy still hurts?" Andren asked. He's holding a book while looking at me. Napansin niya sigurong napapangiwi ako."Konti. Pero hindi naman gaano," I replied."Mom, why don't you go to the hospital?" Andrew butted in. "Hindi pa naman siguro ako manganganak. Mararamdaman ko naman 'yon," I murmured. I inhaled-exhaled. This month's gonna be my month. We'll finally going to have our baby girl.Zandrey and I had been married already for 8 years. We already have three boys. And finally, after several years of waiting ay magkakaanak na rin kami ng baby girl. I was actually waiting for this. And it indeed came."Asan ba ang Kuya niyo?" I inquired. Andrew and Andren looked at each other. "Where's Andrei?" I asked again."Umakyat ng ligaw," Andrew replied laughingly. My eyes widened because of what I've heard. May nililigawan na ang anak ko nang hindi ko man lang alam? God, he's just sixteen!"What?" I asked, a bit panicking. Hindi pa siya pwedeng magkagirlfriend! Hindi pa siya pwe
"You may now kiss the bride," the priest said. Dahan-dahan niyang itinaas ang belo ko and smile lovingly at me before brushing his lips to mine. "I love you so much," bulong niya when he hugged me. I returned his hug, even tightier."I love you more," I replied. I felt him kissed the top of my head."Hey, stop that. Picture muna," Daisy exclaimed after that long moment we just had. Naghiwalay na kami mula sa pagyayakapan and smiled at each other.We took pictures and a lot of pictures. We wanted to have as much documentation as possible. Masasabi kong ito na talaga ang isa sa mga pinakamasasayang araw ng buhay ko. I believe this is what Zandrey feels as well. Today, we just really happy because after everything we went through, all the backwards and forwards that came in between, we are finally here and are officially married.I am Maria Airaleen Alfonso-Del Fuerto now. And I think what a beautiful name that is.Who would have thought na ang dating "group blind date" lang sana at mau
It took him weeks to fully recover from everything. He had to go to a lot of therapy to fully recover. Mabuti na lang at walang ibang na-damage sa kanya. He still has to stay at home for some more time though. But that's okay. As long as he's okay and still breathing.He already knew about my pregnancy . I will never forget the huge smile on his face when I show him a picture of the sonogram. Thank God my body also recovered kaya wala na akong problema sa pagbubuntis.We decided to have the wedding after I gave birth to the baby. Ayokong malaki iyong tiyan ko kung ikakasal ako. We agreed to it and I know we're all set for that. Kailangan din munang manganak ni Daisy because she still wants to be the one who will organize it for us.We're currently in bed, both ready to sleep when I felt him hug me. Nang lingunin ko siya, nakita kong nakangiti siya sa akin."I can't wait to marry you," he mumbled. Natawa na lang ako. We're still quite far from the date we initially set.I remember when
Iyak ako nang iyak habang nagmamaneho si Thaniel. We were still an hour away from the hospital where Zandrey is. At hindi na ako mapakali. No one would tell me what's really his condition and my heart can't stay still. "Ai, please don't forget you're pregnant. Makakasama sa baby 'yan," Thaniel said, his eyes, still focused on the road. Ilang beses na niyang sinabi 'yon, pero kahit anong gawin ko, hindi pa rin ako matigil sa pag-iyak. Hindi ko alam kung paano kakalma pagkatapos ng nalaman ko. I can't help but blame myself for everything that happened. Kung hindi ako nagmatigas, siguro ay walang away at hindi mangyayari ito. From time to time, I text Daisy or Dominic for update but none of them has replied to my messages. Hindi na ako mapakali sa kinauupuan ko. Kung pwede lang paliparin itong sasakyan, kanina ko pa ginawa. Hindi ako relihiyoso. I don't pray as often. I don't call Him all the time, but at times like this, I have no one call but Him. Alam kong ang daming nangyayari t
Aira's POV I decided to take a vacation. Alam kong hindi dapat ako nagbabakasyon ngayon sa dami ng mga dapat gawin sa firm. Pero kailangan ko 'to. I needed to go somewhere so I can clear my head. If I don't do this, I might explode, so I needed a relaxing place where I can fully be alone with myself and my thoughts. "Siguro ka bang okay ka lang?" Thaniel asked. I asked him for help in booking a room in his resort. It was very last minute and I hate to take advantage of our friendship, but I just really need this right now. "I'll be fine, Thaniel," I responded. Mukhang hindi pa rin siya kumbinsidong okay lang ako. There was something in his face. I tried to smile at him pero mukhang naging ngiwi iyon. "Ang creepy," he commented. I rolled my eyes at him and he just laughed. "Siguradong okay ka lang mag-isa dito ha?" "Oo nga," I replied. "Just call me whenever you need anything, okay?" "I will." I shooed him away once again. Mukhang ayaw niya kasing umalis. Kailangan ko nang map
I woke up with a heavy head. Para akong dinaganan ng ilang daang sasakyan. I couldn't even stand up from my bed because of the heaviness I feel. "I cooked some soup. You should have some para mabawasan ang sakit ng ulo mo." I looked up and saw Mom standing beside me. When I looked around, I realized I was at my old unit. Wala na akong maalala kung paano ako nakauwi dito. "Si Dom na ang nag-uwi sa 'yo dito kagabi. Lasing na lasing ka," she stated as she walked towards me. Pinaurong niya ako sa kama saka siya tumabi sa akin. "Ano bang nangyayari, Zandrey? May problema ba kayo ni Aira?" Gulong-gulo na ang isip ko. Nauubusan na ako ng lakas sa tuwing naiisip ko ang mga nangyayari. Aira's still not talking to me. Her father punched me in the face. And now, I'm about to tell her Mom that I hurt her daughter.Why is this happening to me?"Come on, you can tell me everything, Zandrey," she murmured.I took a heavy breath before I started telling her everything that happened.It was not ea
I know she's hurting because of what she witnessed. I was hurting too because I unintentionally hurt her. Kahit gaano mo pala iwasan iyong mga bagay na pwedeng makasakit, you would still end up hurting them. Pero alam ko sa sarili kong wala akong kasalanan. I was just a victim too and I wanted to explain myself to her. But she's not giving me any chance to explain at all. I understand her, but I am also being put in a helpless situation.The entire time I was still busy at the hospital, maya't-maya pa ring pumapasok si Aira sa isip ko. I was so distracted at work that I just wanted to take the rest of the day off. Kaso hindi pwede. Walang ibang on-duty na doctor. So even if I really don't want to wait, I just did. I can't run away from my responsibilities here.When I got home, it was already late, and she was already sleeping. She locked the door. She must ahve forgotten I have a key so I opened it as slowly as I can.My heart instantly ached upon seeing her form lying on our bed. I
Aira has been so cranky these days. Madalas kaming hindi magkaunawaan, but I always make sure we still end up making up at the end of the day. Ang hirap kapag may galit o tampo siya sa akin. I feel like anytime, she'll push me away and I cannot go back to her. Konting pagkakamali lang ay natatakot na ako. Natatakot kasi akong mawala siya. One weekend, we had a beach getaway with our family and close friends. Pagkatapos lang iyon ng mga busy na araw. We thought everybody just needed a rest from everything. I know I do, kaya nang magka-chance ay pumayag ako. Daisy and Dominic announced their pregnancy. I'm so happy for them. Madalas kasi akong kausapin ni Dominic tungkol doon. After they their first baby, they had a hard time conceiving. Ngayon ay makakahinga na siya nang maluwag kasi dumating na ang panahon para sa kanila. The kids were already tired from swimming in the sea. Maging ako ay napagod din kaya agad akong nakatulog. But I woke up in the middle of the night. Naalimpungata