"U-umuwi na tayo Ai.." Daisy grabbed my arm slowly. I could feel her hands were shaking. I'm also shaking. Kung sa kaba o galit, hindi ko alam.It's been six years since I last saw him. I was still in College, a young adult trying to make my way into adulthood. But now, a lot has changed. I'm no longer the naive Aira I was before. Marami na akong natutunan sa buhay. Marami na ring napagdaanan. That particularly event involving him made a huge impact on me. It changed my life forever.Hearing that he's back again made me anxious. And I thought it would take some time before our paths would cross again. Because who would have thought, right? Parang kanina lang pinag-uusapan lang namin. But here we are. Face to face. Same people, different levels of maturity. Same people, just a little older. It's been years since he made his way into my life and then left.It's been years, but how come I can still feel the fucking pain?I stared at his face... the face that has been my nightmare for the
"This will be your villa, Ma'am. Enjoy your stay," the woman said smilingly. I smiled in return.It's been more than a month since that encounter with Zandrey. Simula 'nong mangyari 'yon, parang hindi ako mapakali. Araw-araw, natatakot akong baka makasalubong ko siya sa daan, sa mall, kung saan. Natatakot akong baka bigla lang siyang sumulpot sa office o sa shop.I was so stressed because of that. Dagdagan pa ng stress ko mula sa trabaho. I couldn't eat well kasi madalas wala akong gana, causing me to lose some weight. So when the workload has become lighter, I went to this resort that Daisy suggested para makapag-relax.I looked around the place and I can say it's cool and it looks refreshing. Sana nga at makapagrelax ako."Thank you," I mumbled and the staff smiled at me before leaving.I looked around the villa. It was a huge room. Too huge for me, actually. Kompleto na lahat sa facilities. And there was even a private pool inside. Deprived talaga ako sa bakasyon kahit may naka-sep
I was so shocked I couldn't utter a word. It was like I could hear my heart drumming. Hindi agad ako nakagalaw. Heck, at this moment, I don't know what to do."Aira..." He uttered again. It's really him. It’s his voice.How could this happen? How did he get my number?"I just... I just want to talk to you,” he said softly. Parang may pag-iingat sa boses niya. I know he’s trying to be careful with his words. That’s good, but it’s still not enough.I don't know what to say. Pakiramdam ko parang nawala ang dila ko. My mind just stopped functioning."Aira, alam kong ang laki ng galit mo sa akin," he murmured. There was something in his voice I can't point out. It's like he's really sorry. But I thought about how he had already deceived me before. There's no way I'll let him get into me again. "That's why I want to talk to you."He was almost pleading. Dapat lang. Dapat lang na magmakaawa siya. But still, I won't give him the satisfaction of being able to explain himself. For what? What co
I didn't know they were planning on going home from the US. Wala silang nabanggit na bibisita sila kaya ganoon na lang ang gulat ko nang malamang nasa bahay na sila.After lunch pa sana kami uuwi ni Daisy pero after breakfast kami umalis. Masyado akong excited na makita ulit sila. Ilang buwan na rin 'nong huli kami nagkita nang personal."Ai, chocolates ha," sabi ni Daisy when we were just a few minutes away from home. Sa bahay kami dumiretso kasi makikisalubong din daw siya."Para ka namang hindi galing sa states," I said, chuckling."Biglaan 'yong uwi ko, Ai. Kaya hindi ako nakabili nang marami. Ubos na ngayon kaya bigyan mo 'ko," she murmured. I just shook my head smilingly at her.Nang matanaw ko na ang bahay namin ay parang gusto ko nang bumaba. But of course, I didn't. I can't afford to hurt myself right now.I almost ran inside our house, leaving my things in the car. Maging si Daisy ay narinig ko ring mabilis na nakasunod sa akin.When I entered the house, there were luggage a
When I reached home from work the next day, I saw Andrei sitting outside the house. Nakayuko lang siya while sitting there but when he heard me, he hurriedly stood up. Napangiti na lang ako. My son is very adorable."You're home! Let's go, Mommy! Let's go to Andres!" He excitedly said. Mas lalo akong napangiti sa sinabi niya. I know he still hasn’t understand fully the concept of death, but I love how he always seem so excited when we’re about to visit his brother. Pero minsan hindi ko rin maiwasang malungkot. For sure, sobrang magkakasundo ang dalawa kung nabuhay lang si Andres.I can’t help but think about the what ifs."Where's lolo and lala?" I asked. Kailangan kong ibahin iyong nasa isip ko bago pa ako mapahagulhol sa harap ng anak ko."They're inside!""Okay. I'll just change my clothes then we'll go," I said and he nodded. I hurriedly went inside the house and saw Mom and Dad sitting on the sofa."Kanina pa naghihintay ang anak mo sa labas," Dad murmured."Oo nga po eh. Masyado
Ilang minuto kaming nakaupo lang sa loob ng sasakyan niya. Nakahawak lang siya sa manibela at nakatingin sa harap. He's been asking me for a chance to hear him explain, but now that we're here, he can't seem to find that courage to give answers to my questions."My dad was abusive," I heard him say. Mabilis akong napatingin sa kanya. He was just looking ahead still. "I made myself believe that we're fine. Because in the eyes of other people, we're the perfect family. Kasi doctor siya at may anak siyang magdo-doctor din. No one wants to let the world know how he would hurt me and my mom everytime he would lose his temper because we think no one would even listen."I didn't know this part of his life. Well, I didn't know much about him before. We never got to that part where we got to know each other more because before we could even do that, he ran away."When my stepmom and I finally got the chance to leave him, we took it," he murmured. "I wanted to say goodbye but I wasn't able to,"
Chapter 23When Saturday came, Daisy asked if she could borrow Andrei for the day. Ang sabi niya ay ipapasyal niya lang sa mall kaya pinayagan ko na. I know she'll take care of my son. And it made her really happy when I said yes. Lately kasi nakikita kong malungkot siya.Daisy told me last week about her 'one night stand' that happened weeks ago. I didn't say anything because that's her life. She's an adult now. But still, nag-aalala pa rin ako sa kanya.She keeps on saying na gusto niya nang magkaanak at di bale nang walang ama. I wanted to tell her how difficult it is but I couldn't bring myself to say so.I was on my way home from the shop and it's almost 6 in the evening. I decided to call Daisy to ask where are they now. Pero nakakailang tawag na ako ay hindi niya pa rin sinasagot. I called home and asked if Andrei's there already pero ang sabi ni Mommy ay wala pa naman daw. Biglang sumikip ang dibdib ko when a thought came into my mind.God.I dialed Daisy's number again pero d
"Where's my daddy, Mommy?" Paulit-ulit na nag-eecho sa isip ko ang tanong ni Andrei. The time I'm scared to come is here. He's asking who his father is and I don't know what and how to answer him.Seconds have passed and I still can't come up for an answer and Andrei is looking at me expectantly. Ramdam ko ang nginig sa buong katawan ko."Andrei-"I was cut off when I heard somebody knock on the door. I looked at Andrei and I want to say how sorry I am pero nanatili akong tahimik as I opened the door. It revealed Mommy Miranda who's smiling at us."Dinner's ready," she announced. I gazed at Andrei, who's also gazing at me at the moment."Let's go?" Pag-aaya ko kay Andrei and he just nodded. I sighed again. Maybe it's really not the time just yet to tell him.I took his hand at sabay na kaming bumaba papunta sa dining. If it wasn't for Mommy Miranda calling us for dinner, I probably have broken down in front of my son. And I don't want that to happen. I know he still won't understand e
TW: Abuse, ViolenceZandrey's POVI was almost running late for my next class. Naharang kasi ako nina Jed at Dominic. Nag-aayang makipag-group date. To avoid prolonging the conversation, I just agreed to go. There's no harm in it. Besides, I might benefit from it. In whichever way, I'm not sure. Lagi lang naman akong game sa mga buhay nila. Lately, all I did was study and go home when I have the chance. I can't mess this up. Not when I don't want to be under my dad's roof anymore. Kaya kailangan kong pagbutihin ang pag-aaral. I know he has the wealth, but I don't really trust him in giving it to me as his heir. Baka may iba siyang anak, so I have to do well on my own. I don't really need his money.I passed by the Library since it was the closest route going to our building. But it was quite packed with students so I bumped into a girl."Are you okay? I'm so sorry," I quickly said. I helped her picked up her things that fell on the floor. When I looked up, I almost stopped.Man, she's
"Does your tummy still hurts?" Andren asked. He's holding a book while looking at me. Napansin niya sigurong napapangiwi ako."Konti. Pero hindi naman gaano," I replied."Mom, why don't you go to the hospital?" Andrew butted in. "Hindi pa naman siguro ako manganganak. Mararamdaman ko naman 'yon," I murmured. I inhaled-exhaled. This month's gonna be my month. We'll finally going to have our baby girl.Zandrey and I had been married already for 8 years. We already have three boys. And finally, after several years of waiting ay magkakaanak na rin kami ng baby girl. I was actually waiting for this. And it indeed came."Asan ba ang Kuya niyo?" I inquired. Andrew and Andren looked at each other. "Where's Andrei?" I asked again."Umakyat ng ligaw," Andrew replied laughingly. My eyes widened because of what I've heard. May nililigawan na ang anak ko nang hindi ko man lang alam? God, he's just sixteen!"What?" I asked, a bit panicking. Hindi pa siya pwedeng magkagirlfriend! Hindi pa siya pwe
"You may now kiss the bride," the priest said. Dahan-dahan niyang itinaas ang belo ko and smile lovingly at me before brushing his lips to mine. "I love you so much," bulong niya when he hugged me. I returned his hug, even tightier."I love you more," I replied. I felt him kissed the top of my head."Hey, stop that. Picture muna," Daisy exclaimed after that long moment we just had. Naghiwalay na kami mula sa pagyayakapan and smiled at each other.We took pictures and a lot of pictures. We wanted to have as much documentation as possible. Masasabi kong ito na talaga ang isa sa mga pinakamasasayang araw ng buhay ko. I believe this is what Zandrey feels as well. Today, we just really happy because after everything we went through, all the backwards and forwards that came in between, we are finally here and are officially married.I am Maria Airaleen Alfonso-Del Fuerto now. And I think what a beautiful name that is.Who would have thought na ang dating "group blind date" lang sana at mau
It took him weeks to fully recover from everything. He had to go to a lot of therapy to fully recover. Mabuti na lang at walang ibang na-damage sa kanya. He still has to stay at home for some more time though. But that's okay. As long as he's okay and still breathing.He already knew about my pregnancy . I will never forget the huge smile on his face when I show him a picture of the sonogram. Thank God my body also recovered kaya wala na akong problema sa pagbubuntis.We decided to have the wedding after I gave birth to the baby. Ayokong malaki iyong tiyan ko kung ikakasal ako. We agreed to it and I know we're all set for that. Kailangan din munang manganak ni Daisy because she still wants to be the one who will organize it for us.We're currently in bed, both ready to sleep when I felt him hug me. Nang lingunin ko siya, nakita kong nakangiti siya sa akin."I can't wait to marry you," he mumbled. Natawa na lang ako. We're still quite far from the date we initially set.I remember when
Iyak ako nang iyak habang nagmamaneho si Thaniel. We were still an hour away from the hospital where Zandrey is. At hindi na ako mapakali. No one would tell me what's really his condition and my heart can't stay still. "Ai, please don't forget you're pregnant. Makakasama sa baby 'yan," Thaniel said, his eyes, still focused on the road. Ilang beses na niyang sinabi 'yon, pero kahit anong gawin ko, hindi pa rin ako matigil sa pag-iyak. Hindi ko alam kung paano kakalma pagkatapos ng nalaman ko. I can't help but blame myself for everything that happened. Kung hindi ako nagmatigas, siguro ay walang away at hindi mangyayari ito. From time to time, I text Daisy or Dominic for update but none of them has replied to my messages. Hindi na ako mapakali sa kinauupuan ko. Kung pwede lang paliparin itong sasakyan, kanina ko pa ginawa. Hindi ako relihiyoso. I don't pray as often. I don't call Him all the time, but at times like this, I have no one call but Him. Alam kong ang daming nangyayari t
Aira's POV I decided to take a vacation. Alam kong hindi dapat ako nagbabakasyon ngayon sa dami ng mga dapat gawin sa firm. Pero kailangan ko 'to. I needed to go somewhere so I can clear my head. If I don't do this, I might explode, so I needed a relaxing place where I can fully be alone with myself and my thoughts. "Siguro ka bang okay ka lang?" Thaniel asked. I asked him for help in booking a room in his resort. It was very last minute and I hate to take advantage of our friendship, but I just really need this right now. "I'll be fine, Thaniel," I responded. Mukhang hindi pa rin siya kumbinsidong okay lang ako. There was something in his face. I tried to smile at him pero mukhang naging ngiwi iyon. "Ang creepy," he commented. I rolled my eyes at him and he just laughed. "Siguradong okay ka lang mag-isa dito ha?" "Oo nga," I replied. "Just call me whenever you need anything, okay?" "I will." I shooed him away once again. Mukhang ayaw niya kasing umalis. Kailangan ko nang map
I woke up with a heavy head. Para akong dinaganan ng ilang daang sasakyan. I couldn't even stand up from my bed because of the heaviness I feel. "I cooked some soup. You should have some para mabawasan ang sakit ng ulo mo." I looked up and saw Mom standing beside me. When I looked around, I realized I was at my old unit. Wala na akong maalala kung paano ako nakauwi dito. "Si Dom na ang nag-uwi sa 'yo dito kagabi. Lasing na lasing ka," she stated as she walked towards me. Pinaurong niya ako sa kama saka siya tumabi sa akin. "Ano bang nangyayari, Zandrey? May problema ba kayo ni Aira?" Gulong-gulo na ang isip ko. Nauubusan na ako ng lakas sa tuwing naiisip ko ang mga nangyayari. Aira's still not talking to me. Her father punched me in the face. And now, I'm about to tell her Mom that I hurt her daughter.Why is this happening to me?"Come on, you can tell me everything, Zandrey," she murmured.I took a heavy breath before I started telling her everything that happened.It was not ea
I know she's hurting because of what she witnessed. I was hurting too because I unintentionally hurt her. Kahit gaano mo pala iwasan iyong mga bagay na pwedeng makasakit, you would still end up hurting them. Pero alam ko sa sarili kong wala akong kasalanan. I was just a victim too and I wanted to explain myself to her. But she's not giving me any chance to explain at all. I understand her, but I am also being put in a helpless situation.The entire time I was still busy at the hospital, maya't-maya pa ring pumapasok si Aira sa isip ko. I was so distracted at work that I just wanted to take the rest of the day off. Kaso hindi pwede. Walang ibang on-duty na doctor. So even if I really don't want to wait, I just did. I can't run away from my responsibilities here.When I got home, it was already late, and she was already sleeping. She locked the door. She must ahve forgotten I have a key so I opened it as slowly as I can.My heart instantly ached upon seeing her form lying on our bed. I
Aira has been so cranky these days. Madalas kaming hindi magkaunawaan, but I always make sure we still end up making up at the end of the day. Ang hirap kapag may galit o tampo siya sa akin. I feel like anytime, she'll push me away and I cannot go back to her. Konting pagkakamali lang ay natatakot na ako. Natatakot kasi akong mawala siya. One weekend, we had a beach getaway with our family and close friends. Pagkatapos lang iyon ng mga busy na araw. We thought everybody just needed a rest from everything. I know I do, kaya nang magka-chance ay pumayag ako. Daisy and Dominic announced their pregnancy. I'm so happy for them. Madalas kasi akong kausapin ni Dominic tungkol doon. After they their first baby, they had a hard time conceiving. Ngayon ay makakahinga na siya nang maluwag kasi dumating na ang panahon para sa kanila. The kids were already tired from swimming in the sea. Maging ako ay napagod din kaya agad akong nakatulog. But I woke up in the middle of the night. Naalimpungata