[Charlotte]
“Come on Charlie, live a little!” Juni puts a drink in my hand. It’s large and pink and smells like fruity gasoline.
“I don’t drink!” I scream back at her over the booming music, my eyes burning from the flashing club lights.
“Your cheating bastard husband just fucked his mistress in front of you! In front of your kids! For fuck’s sake, you deserve a drink!”
Juniper tosses her shot of tequila with a single gulp, shivering as the burn makes its way down her throat. “Hot damn!" she exclaims in appreciation before slamming her glass on the bar. "Come on, sis, woman up! Just one drink and you’ll feel better, I promise!”
Taking a sip I almost gag. It tastes worse than it smells. I have so little tolerance for alcohol that the buzz hits my head almost immediately.
“See…” Juni purrs. ‘Better right?”
“No,” I feel my eyes start to water. “What’s in this?”
“Not sure,” she shrugs. “Does it matter?”
“I guess not,” I take another drink.
Juni sets a kiss on my cheek as she hops off the bar stool. “I’m going to get myself a piece of that beefcake over there,” she points to a handsome young man in the center of the crowd. He was cute in a conventional kind of way. Definitely her type. It used to be my type too, until tonight.
“Have fun!”
Sometimes I wish I was as carefree and bold as she is. Maybe tonight I can be. Taking another drink, I build up my courage to swim out into that sea of bodies and forget myself. Unfortunately, I can’t get Andy’s last words out of my head. He shouted such horrible, ugly, untrue things for the whole neighborhood to listen to while our children were crying in my arms. That was right before he accused me of cheating on him, and told me that he didn’t believe our daughters were his.
Then that slut in the red dress sauntered past us. Andy left us standing there hurt and confused and proceeded to march her into our house where, in full view of our daughters and everyone else on the street, he immediately began to pound into her against the living room picture window. I’ll never forget the meaty slapping sound of her perfect ass hitting the glass while she moaned loud enough to make the neighborhood dogs howl.
Taking another big gulp of this foul concoction, I finally feel brave enough to approach the dance floor.
But then I look up and see something that makes me pause.
Across the bar facing my direction is a man in a gray suit without a tie, his white shirt unbuttoned to the collarbone. His large muscles are barely contained within his expensive-looking jacket and the open collar of his shirt reveals the edges of an artfully inked tattoo of what I think might be a chrysanthemum. Power and confidence roll off him in waves, affecting all those around him, and drawing me in as well. It is almost impossible not to stare at this adonis of a man, with the cheekbones and chin of a god but the eyes and smile of a devil. With more careful inspection, I notice he has just a hint of gray in his loose chestnut curls, but it doesn’t take away from the beauty of his face or the shine of his green-hazel eyes, which I notice are looking me over as well.
And then our gazes lock. He makes sure I know he appreciates what he sees with the way he is drinking me in with his eyes. It's like he wants to devour me, and it makes me shiver, but not from cold. I’ve never had a man look at me this way before.
This man is trouble. I don’t need any more trouble in my life.
Blinking, I take another long drink and then turn towards the dance floor. I think I’m ready. Maybe.
Walking into the crowd I let it take me.
[Micah]
I don’t usually mix with the patrons, but tonight I need a release.
I just discovered that my girlfriend of 4 years has been fucking my protégé, Andy, for the last three months while at the same time she helped him embezzle 1.5 million dollars. She has no idea that I know, and I have no intention of telling her. I want to see how deeply she digs her hole before it all caves in around her. Besides, I have plans for her and Andy, I just need the perfect trap.
They will get what is coming to them. Nobody double-crosses me.
Shaking off my anger, I breathe deeply as I take a seat at the bar and order my usual whiskey. Drinking it down, I look up to see a lonely angel sitting by herself, making faces at her drink.
Gods, she is beautiful. Her golden tan skin is shining brightly, even in the dim lights of the bar, and I can see she has an incredible figure, even though most of it is hidden by the counter. I imagine where my hands might fit along its curves, full and ripe, with just the right amount of softness supported by beautifully defined muscles. My fingers ache to comb through her tousled hair which is a rich shade of midnight black cascading across her shoulders and down her back in elegant waves.
But her most stunning feature is her eyes. Bright gray with just the smallest bit of blue. The eyes of an angel.
She must have feel me staring because she looks up while taking a drink, assessing me as well. For a moment our vision crosses and when our gazes lock, my heart stops.
It should be a sin to be that beautiful.
Why is she here alone? Someone like her should never be alone.
She blinks and takes another sip of her foul drink.
I look away to say something to the bartender. When I turn my head again her stool is empty.
She’s gone.
Where did she go? Was she a dream?
Scanning the crowd, I see my angel, a spark of light in a gold sequined dress, swaying alone.
[Charlotte]
The bodies are all too close, grinding against one another, gyrating with the beat of primal drums and electronic trills. The room smells like sex, sweat, and spilled booze. Even with my sensitive senses dulled by the effects of the drink, I am almost overwhelmed to the point of feeling sick. Changing my mind, I begin to turn away when a strong hand grabs me from behind, pulling me into him. He smells of cheap aftershave and cheaper beer.
"Not so fast, hot stuff," he claws at my waist, the sequins catching on his nails. "You look like you need some company."
"Not from you" I growl as I struggle to pull away. He just grabs on tighter.
The sharp cracking of bones catches my attention as the man jumps back. Holding what is most likely a broken hand. He scowls at someone behind him.
"What the f..." he starts to scream but then changes his mind, the color draining from his face.
"Leave. Now." a voice behind me commands. The jerk scatters away, falling all over himself trying to flee.
Turning, I look up to see who my rescuer is only to find myself face-to-face with my devil from the bar. Even though he doesn't know me, he looks down at me with tenderness and concern, his hand reaching down to touch my cheek.
"Did he hurt you," his voice is soft.
"No," I can barely speak as he moves in closer.
"Do you want me to hurt him?" he asks with a smirk.
"Maybe," I admit, smiling back.
His smile grows. "Done."
He places a hand on my waist. Timidly, I reach up to place my hand on his chest.
Reaching down, he kisses my fingertips as if I am some perfect, precious thing. Feeling bold, and maybe a little bit open to danger, I slide my fingertips down his chest, feeling the hard ridges of his perfect pectorals and his washboard abs. I am about to grab his waist to bring him in closer when he spins me around, placing my back against him. Swaying to the music, our bodies align perfectly, his intoxicating scent of sandalwood and sage enveloping me, covering me like a warm blanket. Our hips begin to move together in perfect sync,
Maybe it is the alcohol, or my stinging heart, but something in me clicks into place.
I want this man.
My husband already thinks I'm cheating on him.
Fine. Then I’ll do just that.
Because for just one night, I want to forget about Andy and pretend he never existed.
I also want to let this man take me in every way, erasing all traces of my husband's hands, his kisses, and all of his false promises to love and honor me.
So when this mysterious stranger whispered in my ear, "Let's get out of here," I didn't think twice. I took his offered hand and his offered coat.
I didn't even know his name and I didn't need to.
[Charlotte]Kissing this man is a drug, a dangerous powerful elixir giving me life while also stealing my breath.Our bodies are locked together for the entire ride as we sample one another, our hands tentatively exploring, enjoying the first taste of what the night promises.The car stops outside one of the most expensive hotels in the city. Once his driver opens the door, my devil helps smooth my dress down as he gently rocks me forward, pulling me out of the back seat. He drapes his jacket across my shoulders, shielding my body from the view of others in a way that feels both possessive and protective.“Welcome home, Sir,” the door attendant tips his hat to us as he opens the door for us.Hand in hand he leads me to the elevator. As soon as the doors close behind us, he walks me into the wall of the elevator, kissing me gently at first, and then more passionately. His hand reaches down to cup my bottom and feeling bold I lean against him, hooking my right leg to his hip so that he
[Charlotte] It’s been 62 days. 62 days since Andy broke my heart and I fell into the arms of an incredible stranger. A man too amazing to be real. The only one who knows about that night is Juni. Nobody else can know. If they did, it could ruin everything. My soon-to-be-ex husband will make sure of it. Thankfully, San Francisco is a large city and the odds of us crossing paths again are very slim. Even if my mystery man did find me, I’m sure that if he saw me he’d either walk right past without recognizing me. Because without makeup and Juni’s designer dresses, I’m just…me. And right now I am filthy, covered in sweat as I head home from my day job to eat dinner with my daughters. From there I’ll be heading out to my new night job. A job I never wanted to take. But after being a stay-at-home mom for 5 years, I didn’t have the right kind of experience on my resume to secure steady, good-paying work in a city as competitive as San Francisco. The only jobs that I can find that are
[Charlotte] Dear Ms. Bellarina, I am impressed with your dancing and natural grace. You have an incredible talent and I would love to cultivate it. Can we meet to discuss an opportunity that could be mutually advantageous? When you are ready to hear my offer, please call me at the number below. I eagerly await your response, Kane (415) XXX - XXXX This note was waiting for me backstage last night with a single white rose in a fine crystal vase. When I asked the assistant stage manager who had left it for me, she didn’t have a clue. She just shook her graying sandy curls and looked over me in that way that she does when she thinks one of us is acting foolish. "Do you really want to know?" she had asked. "Why not just let it remain a mystery?" None of the other girls knew who had left it either. Maybe it was a ghost, a phantom fan leaving love notes and flowers for unsuspecting women. I guess if I want to know, there is a simple way I can find out. I can just
[Charlotte] “Another day, another dollar,” I whisper to myself as I try to wiggle out of the bed I share with my twin daughters, Raine and Rose. It’s 7 o’clock, time for me to start my morning. Looking at my sweet angels I place a kiss on each forehead. Raine’s eyes blink open. “Mama, where are you going?” “Work, sweet girl,” my finger brushes a stray hair from her eyes. “You go back to sleep. Auntie Juni will take care of you until Ms. Lacey comes to watch you.” “Love you, Mama,” she yawns as she snuggles into her sister’s back. I take a deep breath as she lets me go. It looks like today is going to be an easy day. Sometimes she starts crying when I leave. Those mornings are always rough. Juni is standing at the breakfast bar with some microwaved pancakes and a cup of fresh coffee. I skip the coffee, I’ll have enough of that at work, but I snatch a pancake from her plate. “Get your own, you vulture,” she laughs at me. “There are plenty in the freezer.” “No
[Micah]I saw what that asshole had done, the way he had touched her. I want to storm in there, grab the little prick by the collar, and slam his face into the counter repeatedly. But that wouldn’t solve anything and would bring unwanted attention.No more than fifteen minutes later, Charlotte comes stumbling out the front door to the café. Her bag is wrapped around her shoulders and her sweater is barely staying on as she rushes away from the café at top speed, her sneakers slapping the sidewalk, punctuating her fear.A few moments later, her boss comes after her. His pimpled greasy face is covered in blood and his hands are cradling his manhood with care and fear as he shouts. "I'll have you arrested for assault, Bitch!"“Roger,” I sit on the edge of my seat, ready to pounce, but trying to keep myself under control.“Yes, Boss,” Roger calls back.“I need to take a walk. Can you take out the trash?”“I got you, Boss,” he grunts as I step out of the SUV and walk in the direction Charl
[Charlotte]Time slows. My breathing stops.Have you ever had one of those moments where you see all of your mistakes in one flash, and you know that this moment will be yet another mistake, perhaps the last mistake you make in your sad, short life?As I fell backward, I watched as time seemed to stop and then flow backward, my arms slowly flying as my legs let go and my back leaned me over the railing.I begin to fall.Closing my eyes, I wait to hit the bottom, not wanting to see my end approaching.Except that I do not hit bottom.Instead, strong hands grab me by the arms, anchoring me, stopping my trajectory, and keeping me from toppling over the edge. These hands continue to pull me towards them until my forward momentum moves me in the opposite direction until I am falling forward, landing against his impressive chest. He pulls me in tightly, holding on with both arms wrapped around my back, enveloping me with the musky blend of sandalwood and sage.“I have you, I won’t let you f
[Charlotte]I decided to walk the entire 4 miles back home. This gave me the time I needed to think as well as the opportunity to apply to as many places as I could while I made my way back. By the time I reached the house, I lost track of how many applications I filled out, my hands sore and cramped.Standing just outside the door, my hand hovers above the knob. I have so much on my mind and I don’t want to bring any of that inside when I greet my girls.I pray that the situation with Ricky doesn’t become more serious. The last thing I need is for this incident to become public knowledge. Ricky may have assaulted me first, but I left him bleeding on the floor. There is no way that this would look good for my case against Andy.And what am I going to do about Mr. McKaine? He is dangerous for me to be around, especially while I’m trying to prove that I’m not cheating on my husband. Why would the universe put such a temptation in front of me? If he were my boss, it would be even worse
WARNING: This chapter contains scenes of graphic violence and mutilation. If you prefer, you can skip to the next chapter without missing anything truly vital to the overall romance. [Micah][earlier that evening]I stand long enough to see her walk around the corner safely before sitting back down at the cafe and pulling out my phone. The first person I call is my company lawyer. I have her draft a contract for Mrs. Slate as my full-time assistant with salary and benefits. I also have her create a second contract for her babysitter, Ms. Lacey Dupree, offering her pay at twice the going rate for any childcare provider. I want to make sure that Charlotte has all the resources she needs to think and plan her next move. Even if she doesn’t take this job, it’s the least I can do to make up for the mess that Andy left for her. In some ways I am responsible. I never looked too deeply into his personal life. I also could have done something sooner, something that might have saved her marria
[Charlotte]I don't remember much after that moment when I first attacked McAllister. I was lost in the moment, avenging my fallen friend, making sure that he didn't get up ever again. And then I felt a sting on my back and a rush of heat. I fell to the ground and the rest faded into nothing. When I woke up in the hospital two days later and Juni was by my side, I thought I must be dead. But I wasn't. She isn't dead, and neither am I. An hour or so later, Micah arrives in the room smelling clean and looking tidy, his arms full of dozens of chrysanthemums in shades of gold and white. "A gift, from the Masumotos, " he explains as he sets them down next to my bed. Juni kisses me on the cheek and says she'll see me later as she leaves Micah and me alone. "The girls are fine," he says as he takes a seat, "And as you can see, so is Juni. Everyone is safe."I nod. It's all starting to feel like a bad dream. A nightmare I didn't think I'd wake from. "Was it ever Juni in that room?" I ask
[Micah][Earlier that evening]Stepping out of my car, I am flanked by my crew as together we walk straight into the dragon's den. Our enemy, McAllister, is going down tonight. We aren't alone as we approach the landing. It seems that McAllister called in all of the faction heads to attend his VIP event. Even the current head of the Skeleton Crew is here, Bones LeRoux bringing full Louisiana flair, from his checkered suit to his ivory-topped cane. Mobs bosses and gang leaders from across the country all gathered in one place. McAllister is planning something. Something big. Maybe this wasn't just about MMK Industries. Does McAllister have plans for a global expansion? "Nah," I say to myself, realizing the truth. "He's just trying to show off." Roger, standing next to me, nods in agreement. For a man who is outwardly plain and prefers to remain unnoticed, he does have a way of making himself showy when he needs to. As soon as we pass the threshold to his mansion, the drab exterior
[Charlotte]The flight over was grim. We are not going to Portland on holiday--it is a rescue mission. Micah and I stayed next to one another, but I couldn't cuddle in his arms the way I'd prefer. We both had to be generals of this little rag-tag army of ours. I have my girls, my Blue Diamonds, and he has his Angels and his soldiers, his troops on the ground. There would be time for snuggling later. If we all survive this. And if we don't, I guess we'll have to find each other in the next life. As soon as we land we'll be going our separate ways. He'll be taking his people to the Tattooed Walls. We'd be McAllister's guests in one of his hotels.Our time went by much too quickly. It felt like a blink Holding my hand, we disembarked together, Micah refusing to let go of me until he had no other choice. Waiting on the tarmac were two cars heading in different directions. If all goes well, we'll be back here tonight, on our way home.And if it doesn't...Using our intertwined hands as
[Micah]I do not like this plan of Charlotte's. It is too dangerous. She is putting too much at risk, even surrounded by her Blue Diamonds. As part of the plan she made with McAllister, she and her girls will be providing "entertainment" for him and a few choice guests. "A private, intimate party for only the very best customers." Just the thought of her in a room with his kind of people makes my heart race and my vision blur with fear and anger."I'm counting on you to make the most of the time we give you," Charlotte demands, holding my face between her hands as she looks me dead in the eyes. "My girls and I can take whatever he dishes out, don't you worry about us. He isn't going to expect that a bunch of strippers are also cold-blooded assassins. But we are only the distraction. We need you and your boys to get us out of there safe."I think she is underestimating him, which is why I need to make sure my part of the plan goes flawlessly. As soon as we touch down, I kiss my beau
[Charlotte]My blood is still boiling after seeing what that bastard did to his own daughter. It is ten times worse than any humiliation that I ever faced by Andy's hand, and it is her father pulling the strings. Did he make her watch Kenji suffer too? Was she in the room when her father's men cut off his ear? We're going to save Sasha and Kenji. And then we're going to burn it all down. But how do we slay this sick dragon? Micah wants to go in full guns blazing, the Masumoto clan at his back. Grandma Masumoto is down for this plan, angry that her favorite grandson has been captured and so thoroughly disrespected. She's already called the cousins in Yokohama. They'll be flying directly to Portland and arriving tomorrow morning. I have another, more subtle plan, one that I hope will distract McAllister enough for Micah to be successful in our little coup.Pitching my idea to him, he tenses. "I don't like this, Mon Ange. I don't want to put you in that demon's grasp." "You'll be ju
[Charlotte]"Can you sign for this?" A smiling young man approached the main desk. I was passing through and our receptionist, Claire, handed it to me. Sasha was out today, so I took the package. Weirdly, she didn't call in, but knowing Kenji's plans for her last night, I'm sure they're still busy "resting" in bed this morning. I can already imagine the wedding. She'll be such a beautiful bride. After thanking Claire, I see that it is made out to Mr. and Mrs. McKaine. Rubbing my finger across the postmark, I can't help but glow. We're really married. It's still so hard to believe, even though I wake up next to him every morning snuggled into his warmth after a night of endless lovemaking. You'd think learning I am pregnant with his twins would cool his ardor--mission accomplished! He's so virile he succeeded in knocking me up twice over. But no, if anything he's even more passionate, even more determined to show me his love every day. "You are so beautiful," he likes to tell me eac
[Sasha]My father has never been a gentle man. Nor has he ever shown compassion to anyone, not true compassion. Not even to his daughter. I grew up knowing that I am not blood-related, that he picked me from a selection of surrogates pregnant with children they didn't want. He didn't want to leave his physical legacy in the world. I was just something for him to control and mold. Love wasn't part of the deal.To be honest, I don't know if he's capable of such a complex emotion. Or any true emotions. He wears masks that people find believable to convince him that he is interested in them and that he cares about anything they have to say, but it is all an act. Just another part of his carefully curated self-image. Just like me--just another prop to make him more "likable" and "relatable." Most children turn to their parents when they need comfort. I never had that instinct, or more precisely, I was never allowed to develop that kind of attachment. The only people who were with me cons
[Charlotte]Humming to myself, I walk to the break room, take a slice of some "welcome home cake," that the office had presented to us this morning, and grab a nice cup of coffee. The cake tastes amazing. I've hardly been able to keep anything down lately and my body needs the calories. Apparently, this baby likes sugar because I am able to eat the entire piece without even the smallest touch of indigestion. Taking a sip of my coffee to cut the sweetness, I start to choke. Fighting back the urge to vomit, I force myself to keep it all down. Fine, no coffee. My girls gave me similar trouble. They didn't like any caffeinated beverages. I couldn't even drink a cup of green tea. "Babies suck," I look at my coffee sadly as I text Micah to let him know our appointment is in 45 minutes. "Meet me in the garage in 10 minutes," I text as a follow-up. Tossing my coffee, I groan. I could have used that jolt of energy.I don't even make it to the elevator before Micah has his hand around my wa
[Charlotte]Things are different when I come into the office the next day. My morning starts normally enough. Micah is already off for his day, gone in early to take care of some "urgent business," and I'm to come in a bit later after dropping off the girls at their new school. My new driver, Agnes, is the latest addition to the Blue Diamonds, and like Roger is to Micah, she will be my constant companion and driver. "Ma'am, we're here," she announces in a tight, southern drawl. "Are you ready, or do you need me to make another circuit?""I'm ready," I give her my sunniest smile even though on the inside my stomach is churning--although I'm not sure if it's about this or something else, something more important. Thankfully Sasha is already in my new office, typing a report when I enter. I know she's McAllister's daughter and I shouldn't trust her, but Kenji loves her, and that's good enough for me. I trust his judgment and his family's legendary ability to judge a person's inner cha