I have been in my room throughout the entire time after the conversation/witness.Honestly, everything that happens is just like some kind of drama. And today's a new episode, and I've decided not to go to school. So, as I listened to it, it's just that I don't have the strength to actually take myself to school once again, and be part of the bullies and Max stone and everything surrounding being the high school student. Of course, I didn't miss it sometimes, but I've just realized the disadvantages that actually come with school, when it is actually tiring to have to be strong every single day. What unfolded between Dane and Elena today is nothing more than a horrible eyesore to me, honestly. She can tell swiftly that doesn't want to have anything to do with her. And if anybody did have something to do with each other, it is past. I hate to be the one to break it, but it's not as if I have such a shot at being in his life. I'm just something he met at the way and stuck. I don't
My heart started racing immediately the moment I remember what happened. I open my eyes and I try to move my fingers immediately to remember, if I can feel myself. This is the worst thing that could ever happen to someone. It is such an insane amount of pressure, electricity and power, it came right through and still thinking that you're not able to stop yourself.I against everyone that comes in my way but then I was saved and rescued by someone who I definitely hated. He is someone that definitely makes me question my defenses and I do not even know how to talk myself out of what I'm feeling right now. I thought I had nothing to do with him anymore. I thought this was the end of our story, especially when I told him that everything he said was false. All he said about being attracted and being able to call upon my wolf. I told him it was all lies, but it turns out it wasn't, there is something magnetic about that brings me towards him and I have gotten the better idea of that b
Are you okay? This is the first thing on my mind as Dane walks into the room, and he looks at me for a very good time. I wonder what he is about to say to me but then, he says nothing immediately. He is not going to shout at me and tell me that I have done messed up. I should have stayed inside and controlled myself and any of that but when I remember the way he came towards me and helped me.I realize that he's not hold bad as I think he is. I want to think of him in the worst way possible. I truly do want to but every single time he finds a way to make me feel different about what I set my mind upon. It makes me look back and just see the good in him and so, he steps into the room. I look at him and he smiles at me.How do you feel? He says and I'm so shocked by the fact that he's smiling at me. I don't even know what to say in this moment. I'm just truly shocked about the whole thing and I have nothing else to do than to watch him. Watch me! I'm perfectly fine. I say to him e
Why is it that you feel suffocated? Dane says to me, and I let go to folk to look at him.“I don't even know how to reply to that question because my whole existence has been suffocation.” I've been suffocated by everything and everyone at every single area of my life.It has been nothing new. “It has been nothing different and neither will it be by this time.” I want to answer that question and tell him…obviously.I do not even have the strength to make him not see through me. I am obviously going through something tremendous and I don’t need words to let someone else see it. Instead, I nod my head and I agree with him, it is what I'm going through. I’m stupid for asking! “Of course, I know what you are thinking about.” Dame says.I nod my head so that he cannot know how it feels. It's not some kind of thing that everyone is able to understand. I wouldn't even wish it on my enemy. “That is how bad it has gotten.” I think to myself and push the plate aside because at this point I
I exit Dane’s car after he drops me at Georgina's and I take a second look at him before he leaves in his car. I will not lie in my heart did skip a bit by that mutual contact that happened between the both of us. And since then I have not fully recovered. I don't just know what it is between the both of us, is is a real relationship that we have. And there's just nothing at this point in this time of my life that I can use to explain what it means to either of us. I mean, I think about it and it's amazing. But then there are times when there is nothing romantic about being in each other's presence and I just want to understand that I am fully incapable of controlling my own feelings when it comes to him. He just like ignites some kind of fire in me that was never fully working. And when that happens I'm just stuck looking around and hoping that he would make the next move.The door opens and Georgina sees me as she gives me a hug. She closes the door behind her, we have so much t
After an hour of nap, I feel like I am able to go downstairs and grab another bit of snack. I close the fridge in frustration, there is a slight sigh on my face as I look at the watch. It seem that there is still time at least I have about eight more hours before I go back home and have to face Dane again. For Dane, I have to say whatever I can say to him.How would I meet him and expose myself? What would it be like to be with him? How would it be to allow his lips and his tongue caress every part of my body. I mean will he doing this out of obligation? I ask myself, and I've never really known the answer. I mean, I wish I knew the answer. But then I'm so lost in the details of what it would mean for him to touch me like a man touches a woman. Just like Gina said, I'm supposed to pretend and behave like this is nothing. I'm supposed to do it out of duty, only for the fact that I want to find out who I truly am. I'm not supposed to treat it with concern. I know myself and I will
It's a Saturday and it's a very hot day. “I can't even believe I'm saying this but I would just like to go to the beach and get a swim, having some freaking cold lemonade with Gina and be under the sky till evening time.”This is what I want but I cannot have until the Alpha is okay with it.“Of course, I'm not some princess that has to be trapped in the cave.” I think to myself as I step out of the shower and put on my shoes. “Right now, I have new set of jeans and new tops.” So, now I do not have to repeat the same old T-shirts anymore. “I've taken a step in advance from the normal clothes I used to put and closed the door of my room as I head downstairs.” “There, I see Dane pulling out some boxes.” I wonder if this is the best time for me to tell him what I want you to do. He sees me and for a slight second. I tilt my face anyway to make it seem as if I wasn't looking. I mean, what else is there to look out for in this glass house.At one point I can see clearly his hands and
I can hear Georgina's voice and she is definitely scared. The second I pick the call, what I hear is the sound of growling. They are with her. My forehead continues to glow and I cannot even begin to put my feelings in a better way. I feel like shooting fire out of my hand once and it clashes with whoever and whatever. It will not be enough for me. I cannot stand here and do nothing about it. I definitely have to do something about it. As as time continues to go by, I can't seem to put my feelings in a single position. I turn back immediately and I'm not sure anyone is able to understand what's wrong with me. I'm feeling the need to actually fight and cross out everything that stands in my way. As I begin to rush back into the house. They must have told Dane what I'm up to because he begins to run after me soon after. Then, he gets to the car before me even when I started to run earlier. What is the matter? He says and I look at him. “My friend is in danger.” I say to him a
“We stay in our designated lane to attack when the time comes.” We have made the plan very well. Now, the only thing I'm thinking about is how the saint brothers caught us the last time.I and Victoria are standing in the circle where we been told to stand and everything feels surreal. I cannot believe that so soon. We're already planning our attack towards them. I just hope that it goes well. I raise my head when I begin to hear the sound of footsteps drawing closer.In a few minutes, the saint brothers walk to meet us and I raise my head. I can see the smirk on their faces when they find out that Jonas has brought them two hybrids.They probably think what's the catch? And what the price is for whichever one of us they actually want. I cannot wait for them to be destroyed from the face of this earth. I take a very deep breath and I didn't realize that Victoria is holding my hand until I stare at our palms that are entwined together. “Oh my goodness.” It is the same girls we caug
Victoria has continued her life. She hasn’t really spoken ever since she saw what Max and what he was doing. Them, she decided that she was not going to care about whatever he did again. Yet, she cannot seem to focus on what needs her focus. She comes out from class and there is sweat profusely sipping from her forehead and she doesn't even realize it. She locks shut locket and she begins to head out of school.She can see Maria, walking right in front of walk and normally, she will try to start a conversation and say, whatsoever she has in our mind, but this time she just walks past. Maria sees that she walks past and she can tell that something is definitely wrong with her and because Dane has finally talked about the reason why this had happened. Maria believes she can actually have a conversation with Victoria. A conversation that does not involve the both of them trying to kill themselves or trying to show that they've got the upper hand whatsoever. Maria walks towards her o
The moment I get home I see Jonas, he literally just pops up from nowhere and begins to walk towards me. I shake my head in disapproval when I see him. I know he's trying to apologize, he's going to do as much apology as he can to make me not hate him for what he did. In fact, I do not hate him for what he did. I could never hate him. He is the love of my life and he will continue to be that to me. He is definitely stronger than Dane and he knows that why did he have to enter into the fight? Are you seriously angry with me? He says.I stop facing him, wondering what exactly he is thinking by that statement? Am I supposed to be happy with him for beating Dane? “Yes, he may be my ex boyfriend but that doesn't mean anything.” I will continue to be angry because it was so unnecessary. It basically did not have to happen. And yet it did. “Yes, I'm angry at you.” And why is that such? Why is it such a shock to me? He came into your room and you did nothing about it. He says and my facia
Maria drops Dane on the bed after dragging and wobbling him down the stairs, and then, other sorts. Honestly, she did not ever think she would make it. But now that she has made it, she's about to walk right straight out without even looking behind when he grabs her. Dane grabs her hand before she can leave and she faces him.“It is because of the decency that she has left in her soul that made her decide to bring him home.”At the end of the day, she doesn't want to have anything to do with him. So, it wasn't meant to be relationship, it was just because she puts it in the look on his face alone shows that he is going through a lot.She doesn't know why he is going through a lot or why he is looking this way. The reason for him breaking up with her is the most insensitive thing on this earth but yet it happened and she had to live with it.But he's also human and he makes mistakes and she has grown from that mistake and because she has grown from that mistake, she's able to forgive
After Dane has gotten the confrontation and information that he wasn't expecting, it has a hard time heading towards the car. As much as it wants to keep moving. There's just this freezing in the step on your face as if he cannot take another step forward. She is completely different from the person who used to or maybe it's because it wasn't prepared for this new home. She's definitely moved past from him. I will never be looking at him. Again, irrespective of where they land. did not think that this would be easier. But then he didn't think he should be accepting either. He has always been a strong person in it and this is no different. He is about enter into the car when he hears a footstep right behind him. Dane looks back—thinking it is Maria until he got that scent that proves it isn’t. He catches it before even facing back, it assures him that it is not Maria. Dane looks back and sees Joan’s behind him and his brows lift. The moment his eyes catches him, he crunches his fi
I have said this many times, how many times do you have to be told there is no us in this anymore? You and I, it's over!“I am with Jonas now, and I love him very much.” “ I know what love tastes like, I know what love is supposed to smell like…I know how love is supposed to treat someone.” Love isn't supposed to cheat on you with someone else that you were already becoming close to someone you are considering to be a friend love. “I'm supposed to do that and you're kind of love does all of this shit, doesn't it?”“Yeah, blame me for all of that.” Dane says.What do you mean by blame you for all of that!? You basically did all of that. You're asking me to blame you, dude.“It's your fault. I say to him, but I don't ever want to have an argument with him.” Jonas is right downstairs and I shouldn't be in the room where I just finished making love talking to another guy. “You need to leave, right now.” Yeah, I know. Dane says and he increases his voice. “Reduce your voice, he could
I wake up from the bed and Jonas is right next to me. I didn't know what I was expecting but I wasn't expecting him to be right so close to me where I could see him, smell him. All of that which I never thought I will ever do again. It's easy for me to look at this moment and remember how far I've come along I've put myself in this place. And how I got here. It's also easy for me to stay here forever, and I look out of it for a second and I love every bit of it. The feeling of being in his arms, being protected and so often, not knowing if he's making a fool of me or something. He captivates my heart in ways that I cannot fully process and I’m just seeing myself here right now. I'm in love with this situation where I am right now. I'm not scared. I'm not trying to understand where he stands. When it comes to me. I know where he stands. I hold on to where he stands. I have the perfect scenario hooked up in my head and there was no dogs that walks around me when I tell myself that h
Dane has a smile on his face in the presence of Elena, he has finally been able to see the brighter light of everything and workout the things that seemed to kind of want to swallow him up. She is giving an intel about her journey, who she met on the road and what it is like to be out of the city, and just how the news is brought back. “So, Victoria and Max are hybrids.” Elena says and he nods his head.“I cannot believe that Max is alive.” When I heard that Max was alive, I thought it would be such a great thing to help you . I know that you struggle a lot with the burden that rests on your shoulders, but I did not realize that there was more danger at hand or we could have ever imagined. “I'm really happy that Max's life she says to him, and he nods his head.” Yes, I'm happy too, I guess my brother's life was never lost. And I guess I know the reason why they were attacking him. “So this saint brothers and Jonas, you believed you're still working together?”Do you not trust him
Dane is in his feelings.He is not in the right mindset, right now and nothing is looking good for him. He cannot even bring his focus to on one spot—everything seems to be in disarray.Here, his mind is in multiple places at a time. He basically has a responsibility of taking care of the whole pack. The curse lies on the back and it seems like no one understands how heavy the weight lays on his shoulder. Do they think all he does is give others and command, authority toe everyone. They do not realize the influence or the adverse effect of what his orders and command may do to him.The lives that he needs to protect. His brother was known to be dead for an abrupt time and before it was revealed, he had to put up with a girl who was supposed to be the reason why his credit was put in danger in the first place. He fell in love with her. And later, he decided that he was no good for her because there was a responsibility that laid on our shoulder that he needed her to realize. And be