Aubree's Pov
*Then* (PS Then means we're talking about the past and now will be the present time)
I did not have any idea that I would meet the guy on whom I spilled coke ever again, let alone that guy being my future husband, like how does the Universe work?
But it seemed like the more I try to run from something, the more it comes to me. Well, whatever it was, the good stars, fate or luck, I met him again.
The next day, I reached the cafeteria and was surprised to see that my best friend Laura was talking with a guy, the same guy on whom I spilled my coke.
"And this is my best friend Aubree." She gestured me while she made me feel so very uncomfortable.
"And Aubree, this is my friend Jaden. We have the same economics class." She introduced him to me.
"I remember you. We met yesterday at the cafeteria." Jaden said and smiled.
I blushed. But at the same time, I became envy of Laura, she already knew him so very well. And here I was, the guy who I liked did not even know me. I know I sound very mean and bad, but yes I hated my best friend because she already knew the guy I had a crush on.
Oh how sad I felt at that moment. Why could I not have taken the economics class? Then he would have had been with me in the class, I would have known him beforehand.
"Hey Jaden, so sorry about yesterday." I apologised to him yet again while, we sat in the cafeteria for lunch.
"It was just an accident, don't worry." He said and smiled at me.
"Why what happened?" Laura asked, and I told her about me spilling coke on him earlier.
"So what? That was nothing. I intentionally spilled water all over him a week ago at Ira's party." she told and they both began to laugh.
"Oh yeah that was fun. Then I pushed you in the pool, and I still remember how pissed you were." Jaden said and they both began to laugh.
So my best friend and Jaden were so very close? Were they dating already? Because by the looks of it, it felt so. I had been so stupid to think that I had a chance with him. I had just met him and I expected him to like me.
Ira's party was the only party that I denied to attend and when I was completing my assignments, Laura was having fun with him. It felt so bad to know that he was going out with my best friend. But I was ready to accept them as that. After all, who was I to come between those two? I felt so jealous, stop Aubree, no she's your best friend, be happy for her.
"Okay so, Aubree, what do you want to be?" Jaden asked me, and just for a mere second I thought that maybe, they were not together.
"I am going to be a designer." I told him and he nodded his head.
"My mom is an interior designer. I know how these things work. All the best for that." He said and smiled at me.
"Aubree, are you coming to Nathan's party tonight?" Laura asked me and I nodded. I may have missed one party, but not now, and mainly, it was my best friend's party, and I was not going to miss that out of anything. I wasn't the shy type of a girl, I was more social than I had been back at high school, and I was ready to attend this party.
"Great! We can go there together." Laura said and I smiled at her.
"So I'll meet you two at the party." Jaden said and went away.
"So you and Jaden huh?" I winked at Laura. Though I know that I had a crush on Jaden, but still, I could not in my entire life betray a friend because of it. I loved Laura, and I could leave a million guys if it meant to save our friendship.
"What! No! He's just my friend. I don't have my eyes for him. It's Nathan stupid." She said and blushed.
I don't know why, but a heavy burden just got lifted up from my chest, and for a mere second I thought that just maybe, it was possible between us.
"So you like Nathan? As in my high school best friend?" I asked her.
"Okay yes I do. I like him. Now come we shall dress to impress." she said and we went away.
That same evening, Laura came to my dorm with her dress and asked me to do her hair and makeup. I was already proficient in these skills, and in just an hour, both of us were ready for the party.
Laura told me that she was seeing Nathan since a while and since Jaden was his friend, they used to tag along.
After getting ready, Laura took her car and told me to sit in it. Afterall, going in two cars was not an option because of the lack in parking area during the parties.
We reached his home and found that we had to park the car two blocks away as the neighbourhood was already packed up.
Nathan's home was huge. It seemed like his parents were loaded. Nathan and I had gone to the same high school, and we did get along pretty well. After coming to NYU, his parents had brought him a flat where he used to host parties almost every weekend.
"Gosh! I hope it does work out between me and Nathan, I really like him." Laura said and brushed her brown wavy hair with her hands. Laura was wearing a black cocktail dress and her hair was neatly combed, while her waves reached her shoulders. Her green eyes were complimented with a green eye shadow that made her look even prettier.
While I was wearing a blue off shoulder top with black jeans and my long brown locks reached my back, I always believed in keeping things simple and classy in the beginning, that way I could stand out when the timing was right.
We both got up and went into the house.
"Well, well, if it is not the hot cheerleader from Everton High!" Came a voice from behind.
We both turned and saw Nathan, who came with two drinks in his hand, while he offered it to me and Laura.
"Hey Nathan! Nice to meet you." I said and took the drink he offered me. I used to be a cheerleader back at high school and Nathan had been my friend as he was on the basketball team. We used to practice together, him his basketball, and me with my cheer squad, and in no time we began best buddies as we all started to hang out together. He had just gotten his heart broken by my arch nemises, and I tried to make him feel better by talking to him, one ting led to the other and we became best friends. Even though almot all of the school thought that we had something or the other going on between us, our relationship was always just friends, so much so that even our parents knew that. Laura was the first person who knew that and decided to be our friend, and now she was pursuing him, I couldn't be happier for that.
While Nathan and I caught up with out lives, I noticed that Nathan was now holding Laura in his arms, indicating it was time for me to go and leave them alone for a while.
"Hey Jaden, man come up here." Nathan called his new friend towards them.
Jaden emerged from the crowd, wearing a black T shirt, and his hair still in a messy way, above his head while a subtle beard was growing on his face. He looked hot and almost every girl seemed to have her eyes on him, even me.
He approached towards us and looked at me, his eyes lingered on me while I felt a tingling sensation all over my body. He must like me, maybe.
"Hey Nathaniel, you look great." He said and fist bumbed Nathan while Laura and I laughed at them.
"Hey Laura, and hey hotness." He said and winked at me.
He said I look hot! Wasn't that what I wanted to hear? He said I look hot! He must really like me.
We began to talk for a while and soon, I saw that Laura and Nathan had started to become a bit cozy, so Jaden and I left them alone and went to the pool area where we were surrounded by the other college students, drinking and playing games.
It was great, just me and Jaden together, while Laura was with Nathan. Maybe, it really was possible between us.
"Aubree don't go, lets have fun together, I missed you at the last party" Nathan called out and Jaden and I turend back towards my best friend.
"I was thinking of giving you two some time. But if you want we can hang out together for some more time." I said and saw how Nathan became so happy on hearing this, but Laura's face dropped. I knew she wanted to spend some time alone with him.
Neverthless, we started to play some games like beer pong and everything was going on too well. I was in Jaden's team and I was having fun, getting to know him. While on the other end Nathan and Laura were crushing us in the game.
Some time later, Laura dragged me into the bathroom with her.
"I'm having so much fun!!" I said while trying to fix my hair in the mirror.
"What the hell are you doing?" Laura asked me and I was shocked, I knew she wanted to hang out with Nathan alone, but I don't think he was comfortable being alone with her for now. Ever since he had his heart broken, he always had his guard up and did not let anyone in.
"What are you talking about?" i asked her, though I knew what she meant, but I was drunk and nothing made sense.
"Are all the rumors true? That you and Nathan are a thing and that is why you are trying to sabotage any chance that I ever had with him?" She asked me.
"Laura you do know that is not true at all." I said and held her hands.
"Then why the hell won't you leave him the hell alone. Anytime I try to get close to him, you have to come near and ruin everything." she screamed and left my hands.
"You do know how difficult it is for him to open his heart to others, don't you?" I said and she shrugged.
"You don't have any idea what I have been through in my life and you are trying to ruin every chance that I ever had for love." she said. She always told me how difficult her childhood was, but never what happened that ruined it, and she wasn't ready to tell, she said she would when she was ready and I supported her decision everytime.
"Laura, I'm sorry if you felt that I tried to ruin your chance for love, I'll leave you two alone and go out with Jaden. Have fun with Nathan." I said and stormed out of the bathroom.
I was mean to her, but I knew we would make up with each other when we would be sober. I went out and grabbed Jaden and went out to hang out with other friends.
*Now* Aubree's Pov "Hello, I am Mary, I will help you with your physiotherapy sessions." A sweet nurse smiled at me and made me ready for the first session. She told me to do some neck exercises and some simple stretches, then we began with some breathing exercises. After a while, she began to ask me questions regarding my life. There are times when the mind is dealt such a blow it hides itself in insanity. While this may not seem beneficial, it is. There are times when reality is nothing but pain, and to escape that pain the mind must leave reality behind. Our lives are mere flashes of light in an infinitely empty universe. In 12 years of education the most important lesson I have learned is that what we see as “normal” living is truly a travesty of our potential. In a society so governed by superficiality, appearances, and petty economics, dreams are more real than anything anything in the
*Then* Aubree's Pov The day when I met Jaden at the party, I realised that we would have to hang out everytime, whenever Laurawould be with Nathan. After we left them alone in the room, we both went out towards the swimming area, and I felt too odd, with him. I felt as if I had a million things that I would love to say to him, but at the same time, I was worried that those things may not be a good topic to discuss, since we had just met. But more than that, I was worried. What if things did not work out between Nathan and Laura? She would blame me for that. "So Aubree, what are your hobbies?" Jaden asked me while he handed me a drink. "I love to dance, and I love to decorate, hence with the interior designing. What about you?" I asked him and he smiled. "I love to sleep." He stated and I began to laugh. "Who doesn
*Now* Aubree's Pov We cultivate love when we allow our most vulnerable and powerful selves to be deeply seen and known, and when we honor the spiritual connection that grows from that offering with trust, respect, kindness and affection.Love is not something we give or get; it is something that we nurture and grow, a connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them – we can only love others as much as we love ourselves.Shame, blame, disrespect, betrayal, and the withholding of affection damage the roots from which love grows. Love can only survive these injuries if they are acknowledged, healed and rare. I think in the end, you would have stayed with me, out of obligation...or maybe comfort. Maybe I was safe to you, and you needed to feel that. I know how scared you get of the unknown. To you...I must be kind of a security blanket.
Aubree's PovThen"Hey Aubree! Glad that you came." Jaden greeted me as I got into his car and saw that Laura wasn't there. But she had promised to come."Where's Laura?" I asked him while he began to drive his car."She isn't coming. She's buzy with Mr. Cuteand his little winkie." Jaden said and we both began to laugh.In a way I was glad that Laura did not come. Today was our first dance class and Jaden had promised to take both me and Laura there. He too had enrolled for it. And now that Laura had not come, Iwas sure that he would partner up with me during the dance."Aubree you know how to dance. But what will a guy like me do there? Probably I will make a fool out of me and I could never be able to dance." Jaden said with a frown on his face.Oh no! I could not let him quit. What if he's not there? I absolutely love to dance, a
Aubree's PovNowIf I did not mention earlier, then I am again, Jaden's family was rich. The type of rich that they owned a personal beach house. And it was just a small one for him. But the view in front of me told a different story.In front of me stood a beach with green emerald coloured water crashing into the mountains as well as on the glittery sand. Out there at the corner, stood a three story beach house, made entirely of wood and the rest of the beach was full of sand covered with sea shells of all colours and umbrellas.People in the modern world are the most bored generation. They keep refreshing their Facebook, Instagram and Twitter pages to see if something interesting is happening. They would switch on their television sets every now and then with the hope to see some interesting content on it. I always hated that life, I wanted a quiet and happy life, something self-fulfilling and happy in
Aubree's PovThenEver since Laura found Nathan, nothing remained the same between us. One year had passed by, and our friendship was taking a new turn. We used to be so close that we hung out every day. But now, it seemed as if we were no longer friends. And Laura felt the same thing. So one day, we decided to meet, so that we could discuss the matter.We both met at a restaurant and began to talk about our lives."I'm so sorry Aubree. I'm such a bad person to abandon my best friend just because of Nathan." She apologised."It's all right Laura. I do know that we had other priorities. But now we need to spend more time together." I said with a smile and she smiled back at me."No I'm serious. I never knew that I would be ignoring you because of Nathan. I'm damn sorry. I hope I can try not to be with him all the time." She babbled while I just sat, giggling.
*Now*Aubree's PovThe next morning when I woke up, I found that Jaden wasn't sleeping next to me. Last night I did not even remember when I fell asleep. All I remember was watching a movie while in his embrace.I got up and saw that the sun was already shining through the windows and the most spectacular view was in front of me. There were different rocks, of all colours lying there, and the sea water rushed through it in full force, creating a very calming noise, making me feel even better, and I saw that the sun hadn't risen up fully, and the surrounding were plastered with a soft orange glow. The view of the horizon was definitely the best view one could wake up to."Hey you're awake!" I saw Jaden coming in the room with a plate of fish chips in his hands, a glorious smile while wearing a work suit."Are we going somewhere?" I asked him when he placed the plate of fish chips in front of me."Actually I
*Then*Aubree's Pov"Are you sure that they are not at the club yet?" I asked Laura who was currently in my room, raiding my closet to find a dress for me."Yes for the millionth time I'm telling you that yes they are not at the club yet. They were playing video games when I last called Nathan and he promised to call before they leave for the club." She heaved a sigh and continued her search to find a dress for me.After we left the restaurant, Laura called Nathan, who told her that they won't be in the club until eight, and hence we had time to get ready before we went there."Take this dress and curl your hair. And if you ask me about their whereabouts then I will kill you." Laura screamed at me while handing me a short red dress."Yes your majesty." I said and began to change.I knew I was over reacting now and she had the full right to scream at me.
Aubree's POVOne step forward, then the other following the same ordeal and stepping further, just a robotic movement and I knew I could do it. After all, I had endured much worse situaions in my life, other than walking on the aisle.My emotionless face, my tear stained eyes, my smudged blush and the imperfect lip gloss were hidden from the eyes of this world with a white veil. But now I knew that it would be the last day that I would cry for such a person. The last day that I had cried for my best friend Laura.The entire hall was full with people that I knew, who used to love me, but then, who knew the truth any longer?My face was still emotionless, just staring at the man who stood at the altar, ready to accept me as his love again, and this time, no one could separate us.It strained my heart. Well, strained wasn't even the word to define how my heart felt. Ever since I met her, I knew she would be my best friend forever. Who
Aubree's Pov*Now*The love that I gave him, was never reciprocated by him earlier. The love that he felt for me, never even reached me. And when we were finally on the verge of getting together, we were ripped apart all over again, that too by my own best friend.What did I do to deserve this? If I was betrayed because of the trust that I withheld in my best friend, then I would never be able to trust anyone else again.The girl who asked me what to wear, how to dress up, who copied all my homework, the girl who sang with me when we were all drunk and rolled down the streets, laughing and screaming profanities at all the passerbys. She actually shared each and every moment of her life with me. The woman who was now married to my best friend. How could I even face him and tell him about what she had done?You have no idea what people are capable of doing if pushed enough. It may not seem rational, but then, again, nothing
Aubree'sPov*Then*We began to have clashes, a lot of them. Not only because Jaden was lying, but also because he wasn't spending his time with me. He used to come home late at night, then claimed that he had work to do.But I knew best. He wasn't out for work, he was out there with Isla. She told me about this everyday. She called me each and every day and told me that Jaden still loved her and that he spent his whole time with her. It broke my heart to know this though. My heart drained with the knowledge of this information. Isla told me this, just because she was being a good friend and wanted me to know the reality. She told me that she wanted him to stop, but he never did.He was married to me, yet he wasn't into me not even now. What did this mean? He just married me so that he could be good in the eyes of his parents, and this world. He had married a broken girl, but was
Aubree's Pov *Then* My eyes were open all the time. I looked at a body coming near me. Though my eyes were blurry at that time, I could still recognise him. It was Jaden. He had come here now, I would be safe now. Safe from Seb, but forever unsafe in life. Have you ever felt this way? That whether your eyes are opened or closed, it doesn't matter anymore. Like all your deepest desires are suddenly dead. Once in my life, I opened my eyes cheerfully, just to experience the good in the day to follow. I always had a hope that something good would suddenly come over, and my life will change to the normal one that I once lived. But nothing like that ever occurred. Though I still had that hope in my heart. I thought that if I owned nothing, had nothing, was nothing, I would have nothing left to lose, and I wouldn't be scared anymore. Because my whole life I’ve been so damn scared. Scared to live becaus
Aubree's Pov*Then*Matt was a druggist, he took advantage of me a million times. But it was all okay for me at that time, because he never hurt me. He actually loved me more than anything and he knew that I never could love him back. I screamed Jaden's name a million times while he was making me come. But he never said anything. He just walked away on me, because it was the best for the both of us. He knew it, and so did I.Sebastian was yet another case. He did drugs. He was extremely alcoholic. And he never stepped out of his room without being high. If Matt was a druggist and I was an alcoholic, then Seb was the king of us all.I just wanted a person by my side so desperately that I almost forgot that who I was dealing with. It was Seb, and you never mess around with guys like them. I knew this ever since he taught us how to dance. He never tolerated tardiness, or something wrong thatyou d
Aubree's Pov*Then*I may not be as beautiful as her. I may not be as thin as her. I may not have my well clicked photographs. I may not be as popular as her. But I know that I loved him more than she could even imagine. Because, at the end of the day, loving isn't something that's physical, it's something that comes from deep within. My love for him was true, and it wasn't just his physical appearance I craved for. I wanted his heart to be mine, I wanted to touch his soul, like no one ever could. But it was just an imagination now.I was way too nervous. It's like, I wasn't ready to meet him.Years had passed by, but still, the reminder of the look of his face was ready to send my heart to that time when I had fallen in love with him.How could I face him, after all these years that were going by? How could I even look at him and Isla together again, yet feel nothing at all? It was going to be
Aubree's Pov*Then*I could feel the touch of his hands, as they began to roam my body, drawing tiny circles on them, as he kissed the fuck out of my neck. I did admit that it felt good, but I never imagined that this is how my experience with Jaden would feel.I held his hands once, which were soft and warm, but today, his hands were rough and cold, making me slightly cringe at the thought of kissing him back.He began to kiss me all along again, and this time, I could feel something, but it wasn't so good."Jaden.. " I moaned, while his lips sucked my earlobe.After sometime, he stopped. Just laid beside me and began to stare at the ceiling."I'm leaving." He said.It was then that I realised that it wasn't Jaden. It was Matt. This is why it felt so bad, but then why did I think about Jaden? I was totally over it, it had been a few years since
Aubree's Pov*Then*It was our three months anniversary. He planned out a dinner date for me. He took me out on a motorbike that night, towards the fanciest restaurant uptown. I wasn't expecting much so early, but he was keen to give me a lot, because, this is how much he loved me.He took me to the balcony, and a surprise awaited me. The whole place was full of red roses, and at the centre table, my name was written with the flame of candles. He told me how these three months of his life had been so wonderful, and how he awaited those next years to run by.Then, in an instant, he wrapped me within his arms, hugged me, and kissed my lips. Kissed them so hungrily, that he made me feel like I was lit by a million matches at the same time. I never expected this kiss to be so good, but he made me feel a million things with just a single shower of kisses.Next, he took me to the penthouse
Aubree's Pov*Then*Their was no light. I was walking down the street and suddenly, all the street lights went off. I was scared.It was dark alone, that brought out the worst in me. Nothing else had the ability to scare me off like darkness did. It felt like I were not able to breathe. Like breath was being sucked out of my lungs, as if life was getting pumped out of my heart.I could not breathe, I could not feel my heart pumping blood within me. If this wasn't the worse, I heard wolves howling just nearby. I was so scared, that I thought I might pass out. It was way too much to bear.Just then, I felt my hand within someone else's hold. Someone was walking beside me, and even though I could not see him, I knew who he was. He had always been there, whenever I needed him, he came along. Even today.My eyes opened at that same moment and I realised that I were sleeping and thi