"I'd forgotten how draining being a Don was," I said as I sat in the back of the Rolls Royce, one of my trusted men was driving, "it's always the same things just different people," I sighed as I brought the glass of whisky to my lips, gulping it all down.
He was trained to always listen, but to never respond. It's almost like therapy except that if he so much as gives me a glance that makes me feel like he's judging me, he's dead.
"I just hope seeing Beauty will make me feel a lot better," I voiced, "I've got patience but I really need a release right now."
We were driving in the streets of Philadelphia, passing the buildings and the busy streets; the busy lights and fast paced life of these people. I looked out the window, looking at each face, like I used to do when I was much younger and imagined what kind of life they lived. Did they love someone? Did they get fired? Do they have thou
"Are you being serious right now?" I snapped at Zale, recoiling in disgust as I held up the contract, "is this what you think of me? Is this really what you fucking think of me? That you flash a couple of bucks, cars and houses and I'll rush to open my legs for you?" I got even angrier as I heard the words coming out of my mouth and threw the paper at him, disgusted with him and also hurt."I thought you were fucking different," I paused, gauging his reaction, "I confided in you, dammit, and this is what you do to me? All you men are the same, you're all fucking pigs!"I was even more upset with myself because I actually thought that he cared, I actually thought that he wanted to help me and didn’t want to use me like every other man that has come into my life but now I’m convinced that I must be cursed."I understand that you may be a little upset, Bea-""A little ups
"What did they say?" Zale asked me as I entered the Bentley and I sighed."They said they'll let me know," I groaned, "but I know I didn't get it. I was stuttering so much and I didn't know what to say after certain questions," I felt exhausted and deflated because this was harder than I thought it would. I've attended over three different interviews for any kind of position I thought I was fitting for and each one was exactly the same.It was either hearing a "no" straight to my face or getting the "we'll be in touch" as they looked at me with bored faces."Here, I bought you a pizza," Zale said to me as I looked at the box of pizza in between us and I smiled gratefully at him, "I know you're probably hungry after such a long day," he continued and I nodded.I can't believe I'm here eating something so greasy inside a Bentley that looked brand new like he'd just purchased it this morni
I know I shouldn't. I know I shouldn't have signed the contract but all my life I've lived a sad life. I've lived on the brink of poverty and was always dependent on some man to come along and save me and that never happened. This here, it wasn't like that. I wasn't dating him and I wasn't having sex with him. Granted, he could be taking me for a fool like the other men have and I don't want to get my heart hurt again but is it too much to ask to have a job with such a great salary?I never thought I'd ever be able to earn so much.I had a plan with that salary of $50,000 I'd be able to leave that job as soon as possible. I'll save up for a new life in Canada or Cuba, or some other place like Hawaii and do something there. Become a teacher or whatever the hell I could because I'll have the money to buy a house there, have some savings and use it sparingly.I'm
"Good morning, angel," Zale greeted me as I walked lazily to his car, my shoes still not on and still very much half asleep as I slid into the luxury limousine, "rise and shine.""It's only 3 AM," I notified him as I took the coffee he was holding out to me."The business world never sleeps," he chuckled as he looked at me put on my shoes and look at my reflection in the mirror, glad that I had enough time to shower and get dressed into a decent outfit, "only fools sleep eight hours a night," he said and I thought over his words, nodding in agreement."We wake up before everyone else. I had mercy on you because it's your first day but from tomorrow onwards, we get home at midnight and at two AM we get to work.""There's no way you sleep for two hours," I gasped as I looked at Zale, but he just shrugged as he popped a pill into his mouth and gulped it down with some water.&
I wanted to prove myself to Zale. I know he didn't really think I could do this job, and he probably gave this to me to keep me busy while he goes on to do more important things and I guess that's alright. It's not the first time a man has thought of me as incapable of doing certain tasks. So I always made it a point to prove to them and to myself that I could do anything that I set my mind to.The first step to having a successful and beneficial workplace: get familiar with the employees. It’s what I always did because having a good relationship with the employees creates a stable work environment and everyone is more open and free. So I got to know the exotic dancers a bit better, found out their names and their stories about where they came from or basically whatever they were more than willing to tell me.They were really beautiful and sexy women who loved what they did for a living and view
I'd like us to establish one thing and one thing only, I'm fucking damaged. Always have been and probably always will be. I tried to change but we all know that change can't happen overnight especially for a fucked up girl like myself. I've been through all kinds of shit, all kinds of shit with all kinds of men.I've been in prostitution ever since I was only sixteen years old. So when I say I'm fucking damaged, that should already let you in on some of the fucked up shit I've done. I'm talking about sleeping with men triple my age.I've tried to deal with my issues but every person I've ever been with has never allowed me to deal with it. They all just tell me to hush and that everything will be ok.I'll let you in on a little secret about men, they love damaged women. Not because they can fix us, but because we end up depending on them and making them our heroes and men love that.I'm
It was Saturday night and as promised, Zale had returned from whatever his business was. We didn't talk much, he just told me that he and I were going to have dinner together and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't relieved. I guess I just wanted to break away from the routine my life had become this week.I’m not complaining but it’s been a big change of scenery and running a club wasn’t easy. It was so much simpler running the “red boot guards” as Zale had come to call them. They were only a handful of men and they stuck to my side every hour of the day. Whereas running the club was taking care of all of the many employees which were north of 20 and trying to control the drunk men and women who stumbled around. I was doing my absolute best and I very quickly figured out how to do my job because I wanted to impress Zale and show him that I was capable of doing this.He told me the driver would drop
Everything about my day had been perfect. I'd gone shopping until my feet hurt and I bought the most beautiful of silk dresses and the sexiest of underwear. I didn’t rob myself of the luxury of designer bags and shoes and as I had promised Zale, I went for a massage. I did my hair and nails and I was feeling refreshed and the best I've felt in a while.But I needed some relief and now that Zale was home, I knew that some way, somehow he'd catch me in my bathroom. I don't know how but I just know that he will and honestly, I don't think I'm ready for him to see me like that. I just got this job and I can't lose it, and this might be what will make him snap and push him over the edge. Strangely, I don’t want to upset him because he was trying so hard to bring light into my world but he had no idea that I was more damaged than I let on.So I stood outside the door of Hadassah's apartment, waiting for her to
"Boss, your phone," I was sitting on my balcony, looking out at the beautiful sunset and just thinking about what life will be like in a few days. I can't wait to look at sunsets with the love of my life, for the rest of my life.Beauty and I have been looking at sunsets for these past few weeks and I can't get out of my mind how peaceful she and I are whenever we watched the sun set. I'll hold her in my arms and I won't get tired of her body being close to mine and now...now we're going to be parents."Boss," I snapped my head back at the silly man who kept calling me."Who the fuck is it?" I snapped at him. I was thinking about Beauty and whenever I think about her, I don't want to get interrupted because I enjoy the world I get lost in."It's your uncle, he says you want to hear him, it's about Beauty," the man said as he hande
After our little yet beautiful and private, kind of sad excuse of a ceremony, everything felt right with the world and everything felt perfect between us. The sun seemed to shine a bit brighter and the air felt cooler with all the breeze that blew through his bedroom. We were having the time of our lives, still dressed in our wedding attire and acting silly.We sang and danced around his bedroom, spinning each other and rapping along to rap music. We ordered pizzas and sat and ate about a million slices as we talked about baby names and decorating a baby room.We laughed and took a nap, wrapped up in each other's arms and it felt like we really had our wedding day. To us, we were already married. We just needed it to be on paper but that's alright.Yesterday felt like a dream as I stood arguing with Zale right now. It's nothing serious, he just doesn't want me to leave but I promised him I'd be fine b
Zale refused to let me out of his sight ever since we found out I was expecting. I can't even go to the bathroom alone without him following me to make sure I don't get hurt. I keep telling him it's alright to at least let me pee in peace but the man is determined to protect me and who am I to stop him from that?So I had to keep us entertained because if we weren't making love or having rough and wild sex, we were sitting and planning for our future, talking about this baby and how we'd spoil them rotten.Zale has been begging me for the past week to show him my wedding dress, that was hidden in his closet somewhere and I made him swear he won't look at it. I know he keeps his word when it comes to me.I kept telling him no but today, I guess we were feeling a bit rebellious and I was so eager for him to see the dress. I didn't care about anything else because I wa
"That's the third time you've thrown up this morning," Zale complained and looked at me with great concern as he handed me a glass of water to drink, "I'm calling the doctor, whether you like it or not," he told me. I understood why he wanted to call the doctor but it was just a bit of normal sickness. I probably ate something that upset my stomach and I was paying for it. Or maybe it’s because of my detoxing and my diets and it’s somehow upsetting my stomach."No," I shook my head, "I'm fine," I sighed, handing him back the now empty glass as I put my forehead into my palm, wondering why the hell I was feeling so under the weather. I couldn’t help but ask myself what it really is because everything that I’m on is healthy and it shouldn’t make me throw up like this."Look at you, Beauty. The sooner I call the doctor in, the faster you can get better. I don't want you feeling so sick on
We were both all wrapped up in his silk sheets, our legs intertwined and his hands all over my body and my hands all up in his hair. We were both sweaty and only calming down from the multiple orgasms we both experienced.The curtains were wide open and the room was brightly lit with the early morning sun. Fresh air was coming into his massive master bedroom that was the size of a mall with a bed that could fit more than twenty people.Everything really felt right with the world at this moment as I looked at this man who had given me a lot more than I thought he or any other person would be able to. I really can’t stop thinking about how well he has treated me and how long he stayed by my side even when I was struggling with my addiction and trust issues."Zale," I said his name softly and he kissed me on my collarbone, "you're the first person to
"I'm going to go see Hadassah," I told Zale as I stepped out of the shower with him and avoided his eyes. It was because I knew exactly how he would react when I told him. Zale blames Hadassah for my overdose and I’ve argued with him and tried to explain to him that it was all entirely my fault and I had manipulated Hadassah for my own wants. Zale refuses to see it that way, to him, if Hadassah actually cared about me, she wouldn’t have brought me the drugs.He does have a point but I refuse to blame Hadassah because it was my decision to take the drugs and I take full responsibility for it."Why?" he asked me, furrowing his eyebrows, as he looked down at me and I matched the intensity of his gaze."Because she's my friend and I want to invite her to the wedding.""I don't like her," he said with a frown and I sighed. Zale had been so upset after my overdose and
A lot of girls grow up with dreams and visions about how their special day will be and I’ve come across many girls who have described to me the perfect princess fairy tale. Almost every young girl wanted a big ball gown and the carriage with white horses. They all pictured themselves getting married in a castle to their perfect Prince Charming.But because of the kind of living environment that I had grown up in, I wasn’t afforded a chance to dream of a better life and imagine my future. I was forced to deal with the deep and dark present nightmare that I called my life.And even when I had grown up and I turned 30 years old, I never thought that anyone would still want to settle down to me. I also didn’t plan on settling down with anyone because I didn’t think that I was capable of loving a man or a woman at any point and time in my life. Yet here I was, going wedding dress shopping with
The second we returned home and walked into his bedroom, Zale strode towards me. When he reached me, he threw me on the bed and climbed on after me. He balanced on his knees over me, pulling the buttons of his pants open impatiently.I laid where I had fallen and watched as he reached down and tore the shirt I was wearing, ripping it from me and revealing my dark nipples. His hands went into my pants and pulled them off with rough motions.I couldn’t find any words to say because I was anticipating this, all I wanted was him and I didn’t want to fill the air with any empty words. The air was filled with our heavy breaths as he made quick movement to give me the relief we both needed sexually.He flipped me onto my belly, putting his hands under my hips and lifted me. He was on me and then inside me in a moment, kneeing my legs apart, finding the angle and plunging into my softn
"Oh damn," Zale whistled as I met him by the foyer and he extended his hand for me to take, spinning me slowly so he could see me in my outfit. I was dressed in a sophisticated pure white pantsuit with a white blouse underneath the jacket. I had on a pair of sensible heels and my hair was brushed to perfection.