What if one day, everything and everyone you've ever loved and cherished the most in this world will be erased from your memory?
Did you even have a cat?
Did you even have a car?
Did you even learn how to ride a bike?
Did you even have friends like that?
Why does everything feel so familiar?
It's like, being born the second time around.
Everything.
No memory is spared.
You're living in oblivion.
But does living in pure oblivion deter you from ever experiencing nirvana?
Will you ever, experience the feeling of being loved?
Especially by those closest to your heart?
Who am I, really?
[1] "Clary! Apo saan ka ba nanggaling? I called Kirsten earlier and she said you were not there. Saan ka pumunta?" That was Lola Minerva talking. She almost had a heart attack because I went somewhere with her not knowing. "Lola, I just went back to the tailor shop to buy these! You mentioned that you're running out of blue thread and needles last week." I said. I showed her the plastic bag containing what I bought 30 minutes ago and gave it to her. "Then why didn't you tell me? You told me you were going to Kirsten's to get supplies for your art class next week." She said as she rummaged through the bag. "Kulang naman yung binili mo pero, okay na ito. Sa susunod magsabi ka sa akin kung saan ka pupunta
[2] "Clary wake up! You have art class today! And what's with this mess? Clary! Wake the hell up! It's 9:30 already! Wake your damn ass up!" Oh dear lord. That voice. Hearing a rooster's voice is so much better than Lola's voice. I'm pretty sure na amazona 'to when she was younger. "I'm up! I'm up! I started unpacking the rest nung friday! Mom told me to unpack! Kinulit nya ako!" I yelled back. Nasa kabilang kwarto kasi eh. I groggily sat in my bed scratching my head. Eww. Wala naman akong kuto. I swear. If meron man, I'm shaving my hair. IMMEDIATELY. I went to my turntable and put on a classic vinyl. A Star Wars classic, Star Wars theme song to be exact.
[3] As soon as I woke up, I feel overwhelmed. I went to Kirsten's house after ko mag-ayos para sa class ko mamaya. Sobrang aga ng gising ko ngayon. It's so weird. "Hey dude." I saw Kirsten who just went out of her room. Kakagising niya lang. "Fuck! Why are you here?" She said. "Good morning to you too, Kirsten Eloise Van Zandt." I said while taunting her more. I'm really playful today. Don't worry, I'm asking myself why din. "You shut up and wait for me. No need for saying my whole girly name, Clary." She said and followed her to her room. Her room is really awesome, I must say. She has
[4]How can someone have beautiful eyes like his? My world slowed down for the second time as soon as I stared in his light chocolate brown eyes."Hello." That's what I managed to say then I felt Kirsten looked at me and said "I'm Kirsten and this is Clary." And nudged me to snap me out of this cloud nine feeling."I know you." He said.What? Did I heard it right? He knows me? What?"You're the elevator girl." He added then smiled."Uh yeah. Thanks for giving back my phone. Hehe." I awkwardly said and inalis ko na yung tingin ko sa kanya and made myself busy.
[5] Another busy day for me. It's been a month and tapos na rin yung art class namin. 2 months na nakakalipas and right now, I'm currently fixing my papers kasi mage-enroll na ako. Hurrah for the last stage of education that I'm getting! Buti pa si Rina, wala nang problema sa school nya kasi enrolled na sya. I took a deep sigh then I heard someone's calling for me down the hallway. Hinahanap ko kasi yung university registrar para ma-endorse na ako sa college of fine arts at para okay na ang lahat at bayad na lang sa tuition ang gagawin ko. "Clary!! Hey!" I looked at the person who's calling me only to find out na si Kirsten pala yung tumatawag sa akin. "Hey! Wait for me!" She added. Then may dalawang student
[6]Our sleepover was a success. After knowing my geek room, she was really in shock for couple of minutes and if you think that we had a pillow fight, we didn't. This is not some cheeky romantic turned into horror movies you guys are watching. Come on, be realistic!Ugh. Start na ng classes next week and bibili na ako ng mga gamit ko. Yes, ako lang mag-isa. Next week daw si Rina sabi ni mama.Hindi ba pwedeng sabay na lang? I'm lonely 😭"Lola, aalis na ako." I said then went out. She's just watching TV tapos mamaya, nagtatahi na ulit yan.Dumating na ako sa mall and damn! Ang daming tao dito. Jusko. I stopped walking then I fished for my earpods and plugged it on m
[6]Our sleepover was a success. After knowing my geek room, she was really in shock for couple of minutes and if you think that we had a pillow fight, we didn't. This is not some cheeky romantic turned into horror movies you guys are watching. Come on, be realistic!Ugh. Start na ng classes next week and bibili na ako ng mga gamit ko. Yes, ako lang mag-isa. Next week daw si Rina sabi ni mama.Hindi ba pwedeng sabay na lang? I'm lonely 😭"Lola, aalis na ako." I said then went out. She's just watching TV tapos mamaya, nagtatahi na ulit yan.Dumating na ako sa mall and damn! Ang daming tao dito. Jusko. I stopped walking then I fished for my earpods and plugged it on m
[5] Another busy day for me. It's been a month and tapos na rin yung art class namin. 2 months na nakakalipas and right now, I'm currently fixing my papers kasi mage-enroll na ako. Hurrah for the last stage of education that I'm getting! Buti pa si Rina, wala nang problema sa school nya kasi enrolled na sya. I took a deep sigh then I heard someone's calling for me down the hallway. Hinahanap ko kasi yung university registrar para ma-endorse na ako sa college of fine arts at para okay na ang lahat at bayad na lang sa tuition ang gagawin ko. "Clary!! Hey!" I looked at the person who's calling me only to find out na si Kirsten pala yung tumatawag sa akin. "Hey! Wait for me!" She added. Then may dalawang student
[4]How can someone have beautiful eyes like his? My world slowed down for the second time as soon as I stared in his light chocolate brown eyes."Hello." That's what I managed to say then I felt Kirsten looked at me and said "I'm Kirsten and this is Clary." And nudged me to snap me out of this cloud nine feeling."I know you." He said.What? Did I heard it right? He knows me? What?"You're the elevator girl." He added then smiled."Uh yeah. Thanks for giving back my phone. Hehe." I awkwardly said and inalis ko na yung tingin ko sa kanya and made myself busy.
[3] As soon as I woke up, I feel overwhelmed. I went to Kirsten's house after ko mag-ayos para sa class ko mamaya. Sobrang aga ng gising ko ngayon. It's so weird. "Hey dude." I saw Kirsten who just went out of her room. Kakagising niya lang. "Fuck! Why are you here?" She said. "Good morning to you too, Kirsten Eloise Van Zandt." I said while taunting her more. I'm really playful today. Don't worry, I'm asking myself why din. "You shut up and wait for me. No need for saying my whole girly name, Clary." She said and followed her to her room. Her room is really awesome, I must say. She has
[2] "Clary wake up! You have art class today! And what's with this mess? Clary! Wake the hell up! It's 9:30 already! Wake your damn ass up!" Oh dear lord. That voice. Hearing a rooster's voice is so much better than Lola's voice. I'm pretty sure na amazona 'to when she was younger. "I'm up! I'm up! I started unpacking the rest nung friday! Mom told me to unpack! Kinulit nya ako!" I yelled back. Nasa kabilang kwarto kasi eh. I groggily sat in my bed scratching my head. Eww. Wala naman akong kuto. I swear. If meron man, I'm shaving my hair. IMMEDIATELY. I went to my turntable and put on a classic vinyl. A Star Wars classic, Star Wars theme song to be exact.
[1] "Clary! Apo saan ka ba nanggaling? I called Kirsten earlier and she said you were not there. Saan ka pumunta?" That was Lola Minerva talking. She almost had a heart attack because I went somewhere with her not knowing. "Lola, I just went back to the tailor shop to buy these! You mentioned that you're running out of blue thread and needles last week." I said. I showed her the plastic bag containing what I bought 30 minutes ago and gave it to her. "Then why didn't you tell me? You told me you were going to Kirsten's to get supplies for your art class next week." She said as she rummaged through the bag. "Kulang naman yung binili mo pero, okay na ito. Sa susunod magsabi ka sa akin kung saan ka pupunta
What if one day, everything and everyone you've ever loved and cherished the most in this world will be erased from your memory? Did you even have a cat? Did you even have a car? Did you even learn how to ride a bike? Did you even have friends like that? Why does everything feel so familiar? It's like, being born the second time around. Everything. No memory is spared. You're living in oblivion. But does living in pure oblivion deter you from ever experiencing nirvana? Will you ever, experience the feeling of being loved? Especially by those closest to your heart? Who am I, really?