ALINA I spent the entire night crying, my body wracked with sobs that didn’t seem to stop, no matter how much I wanted them to. When sleep finally came, it was restless and broken, and by the time I woke up, my head was pounding with a relentless throb. The pain was as much emotional as it was physical, and for a moment, I just lay there, staring at the ceiling, letting the memories of the previous day crash over me.Yesterday was my wedding day. The day I had tied myself to Jaime in what was supposed to be an act of revenge, but instead, it had turned into a nightmare. My chest tightened as I remembered the way Jaime had grabbed me, his rough hands pulling me down, the fear that had surged through me when he wouldn’t let go. I could still feel his hands on me, still see the way his face had twisted with drunken determination. And then, Kai had shown up, like some kind of avenging angel, tearing Jaime away from me and beating him bloody. It had all happened so fast, but the fear, th
ALINA I was going to leave to get some air for myself when I decided that I needed to go and face Kai. I was still doubting what I heard, and I knew I couldn’t just let things end like that. The weight of what Kai had said to Jaime’s family lingered in the air, and I needed to understand. My mind was racing, filled with questions and confusion. Without thinking, I followed him out of the dining room, my heart pounding in my chest as I made my way to his quarters.When I reached his room, the door was slightly ajar. I hesitated for a moment, my hand hovering over the wood. But I couldn’t walk away, not without answers. He had not even looked at me when he came in. I wondered what I was going to see when I entered to see him now. Did he blame me for doing what he did? Or would he hate me because I was the reason he disabled his cousin? I had so many questions, but I realized that I would not be able to get any of the answers if I did not go in to see him. Taking a deep breath, I pushed
KAI The next few days were hell. With Jamie’s family hurling all types of words at me, I could barely stay in the house without feeling their hate for me radiating out through the walls of the palace. Everyone blamed me. They all saw me as the wicked person, the one who could not take a loss because they all thought I beat him because he married Alina. I chose to keep the part of what he did to myself, and I decided to let them think whatever they wanted. I had told the people that mattered. My siblings and Lily knew what happened and they did not judge me for it. It was only their opinion that mattered to me. Today, the elders had called for a meeting and I already knew what they were going to tell me. I stood outside the conference room, wondering how many times I had come to the damn room for the past few weeks. I knew Elder Agnes, along with the other elders and lords, were disappointed in me. I did not really care about it. When I finally stepped inside, the room was cold. I w
ALINAI didn’t want to see him. I didn’t even know if I could handle seeing Jaime after everything that had happened, but something inside me pushed me toward his room. Maybe it was guilt, or maybe it was the need for closure. Either way, I found myself walking down the hallway, my heart heavy with dread as I approached his door.When I stepped inside, my breath caught in my throat. Jaime lay on the bed, beaten and bruised, his face swollen and covered in cuts. The sight of him like that stirred something in me—regret, pity. It was hard to tell. His eyes flicked up to meet mine, and for a moment, I saw something there that looked like remorse. He was quiet for a while. I did not know if it was his reaction to this or if his face had just turned that way because of the disfiguration in his face. “I’m sorry,” he said quietly, his voice hoarse and strained. “I shouldn’t have tried to force myself on you.”I stood frozen, unsure of how to respond. Part of me wanted to believe him, want
ALINA I found Kai on the roof of the palace, standing at the edge, staring out into the distance like he was trying to escape from everything that had happened. The wind ruffled his dark hair, and his posture was tense, like he was completely lost in this thoughts. I swallowed hard as I approached him, my heart pounding in my chest. I couldn’t help but think about the almost-kiss we had shared, the way the mate bond had flared to life between us. The memory sent a jolt of heat through me, but I quickly pushed it aside. I wasn’t here for that.There was something else I needed to know. Something more important. I was surprised that he did not notice my presence here. He was an alpha in the lycan world. He noticed things that most people never notice, like movements and sounds. Maybe his senses were dulled because of his thoughts. I took a deep breath, gathered my courage, and placed a hand gently on his shoulder. His body shook as he turned to look at me, his eyes wide with surprise,
ALINA I stood frozen in the same spot for what felt like an eternity. The world around me was still moving. The fan, the guards and servants, the little pets in the palace, but for me, time had stopped. Everything I had just learned, everything Kai had told me, was still sinking in. He had killed my mother. It wasn’t an accident, it wasn’t some twist of fate—Kai, the man who had saved me, the man I had thought might be my mate, had taken her life, the woman that mattered to me the most. The one that had given me my life. I always thought of how I would react if I found the person that killed her. I wondered how deeply I was going to hate them, and how I was going to take revenge on them. In the sickest twist of fate, the person that killed her was my fucking mate. I did not know how to react to that. I waited for something, anything, to happen that would tell me this was all some kind of sick dream. I wanted to wake up, to find myself in my bed and discover that none of this was rea
KAI It had been a week. Seven long, torturous days, and I hadn’t moved from my bed. I couldn’t. Every muscle in my body ached, but it wasn’t the physical pain that kept me there. It was something far worse. It was the weight of guilt, the crushing realization that I had ruined everything. I wished I could be the normal me and try to fix everything like I usually would before, but I could not even get the zeal to stand up from my bed. To function like a normal human being.I lay there, surrounded by empty bottles of alcohol, the only thing keeping me functioning, though barely. Every time hunger gnawed at my insides, or thirst parched my throat, I reached for another bottle, taking a long drink to stave off the discomfort. But nothing could dull the ache in my chest, the heavy guilt that gripped me tighter with each passing hour. The room reeked of stale alcohol and sweat. The air was thick and stifling, but I didn’t care. I deserved this. Every part of me deserved to rot away in thi
ALINA For the first time in what felt like forever, I was living my best life. It wasn’t what I had expected, not by a long shot, but I had accepted it because this was my life now, the one I had always dreamed of in some deep, hidden part of my heart. I had let go of the past. Every painful memory, every betrayal, every scar had been buried deep inside me, and now I was free.When we arrived at the new pack, I had been in awe. It was the most beautiful place I had ever seen, unlike anything I could have imagined. Everywhere I looked, tulips of every color bloomed in abundance, my favorite flowers. I had always loved tulips, and seeing them scattered across the fields and gardens made me feel like I had stepped into a dream. The sunlight filtered through the trees, casting a soft glow over everything, making it all feel magical.The people here were different, too. Devastatingly handsome and beautiful, every single one of them. They were welcoming, smiling at me as I walked through t