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2024-10-29 19:42:56Maybe Jim had unwillingly killed her.
Sean had heard noises like wrestling and things being smashed and shattered.
Maybe Jim had pushed her too rough, she’d tripped and hit her head the wrong way. And right now, his brother was shocked before the dead body, not knowing what to do.
Or maybe she had unwillingly killed Jim.
She wouldn’t be the first woman to throw things at Jim during a fight. Maybe she’d hit him with something harder than she’d thought. And right now, she was shocked before Jim’s dead body, trying to come up with a way to escape before they caught her.
Or maybe they had hurt each other, and now they were both lying on the floor, bleeding out, too stunned or too weak to ask for help or at least unlock the damned door.
Or maybe…
But Sean couldn’t think of any more tragedies to explain the silence inside the trailer.
Shit! He should’ve known better. He shouldn’t
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