I’ve walked into a cult. Bunch of peace loving idiots who were in no way prepared for those gun-toting cavemen. They might as well have been human instead of shifters. Fucking useless. Pathetic.
“Shut up,” a female voice snaps.
Was I thinking out loud?
“You still are. So shut up.”
I open my eyes groggily to see the golden amber eyes of Hope staring down at me, her gorgeously fiery red hair tied up into a high bun. Scraped away from her face she’s all intriguing cheekbones, freckles and pout. Not that I allow my expression to change in the slightest.
“What happened?”
“You stormed off to the medic thinking you were invincible. Passed out in a corner from blood loss and almost died. I’ve just finished digging the bullets out. I could get one of the peace loving idiots to have a go if you prefer?” she added sarcastically, a twist of a smile lighting her face.
“Shit, did I miss the group heading out to meet the attackers?” attempting to sit up and getting a vicious push back down. Her bare hands on my skin made something deep inside me fizz. That’s when I realised I had no shirt on. And that Hope has blood on her hands.
“I won’t tell you again to be quiet,” she murmured, sitting back into her folded legs, squinting as she delicately threaded a needle.
“I don’t have to listen to a word you say,” I growled, sitting up and looking around. I’m in what looks like a goddamn creche. The walls look padded. “What…where am I? This isn't the fortress?”
I got no response. Great. Hope is playing games, licking her plump, cupid-bow lips. Continuing to try and thread her needle but failing I gave her shoulder a poke in return, sending her off balance enough to get a glare.
With a bad-tempered growl I repeat myself. “I said. Where are we?”
“Try again. With manners.”
Annoyingly she had a point. My mothers voice flew into my head, she always corrects my manners too. Too direct, too immediate.
“Fine. I’m sorry. Dear Hope, saviour of my life and to whom I owe an eternal debt of gratitude…please can you advise just where the fuck am I?”
“Sarcasm doesn’t count,” before she sneezed out of nowhere. Except the needle jabbed into my shoulder. Completely on purpose. My wolf was outraged, my brown eyes no doubt firing up dark blue shards.
“Injuring doesn’t count as helping me,” I retorted.
“That little jab? It couldn’t have possibly hurt the big tough Alpha know-it-all,” she replied with a roll of her eyes.
“It didn’t,” I snapped, “but you wanted it to. Why?”
She pauses for just a second. “None of your business,” finally getting the thread through the eye of the needle, a victorious smile lighting up her features under the yellowish lighting. Everywhere I look I see beige. For a calming colour it’s weirdly unsettling.
“Because I beat up your boyfriend?”
Quick as a flash she moved one of her legs so she was straddling my torso. Dangerously close to my hips her ass rested on my v-line. Slowly she leaned down low enough that fine tendrils of hair almost touched my face. “Don’t move. I need to stitch this and it’s always better doing it face on.”
“Is it now?” I smirk, to my surprise her jewelled gaze lifts up to meet mine with a matching grin. For just a second, then it drops and she focuses on the gaping hole in my upper pectoral.
“Hmmm,” is the only answer she gives. I decided not to push my luck whilst she could still maim me. Plus it turns out being pumped full of bullets really does hurt.
With zero numbing she plunges the needle in and I can’t disguise the pain. A hiss leaves my clenched jaw and my body tenses. It doesn’t help that she is on top of me. Just a few inches away from doing it face on, as she might say.
It takes all my self-possession to prevent my cock reacting. I’m not jutting up into her ass like an overexcited teen because a woman is sitting on me. It’s the reaction she wants, I know that.
With her black fur coat removed, her clinging black catsuit feels barely-there. If I closed my eyes it would feel close enough to having her bare skin on mine. And shit my dick is unstoppably twitching at the thought.
“You’re in the bunker. And he’s not my boyfriend,” she murmurs, finishing off a knot with a vicious tug. Leaning over to bite the thread away, her hot breath lands on my chest. The few stray red hairs keep tickling my chest. Both her hands are on my skin, her thighs pressed against me.
Why the hell did she move away before she blossomed into this vixen? Single and stunning, I could be in danger here, maybe they just broke up?
“On your back,” she whispers. “Some shots went clean through.”
“How many?”
“A dozen holes, I’ve taken out ten bullets.”
“No wonder I feel like shit then.”
“And yet, still talking,” looking up at me with those devilish eyes again. Shit maybe it might be worth doing a few more days down here. That prick isn’t her boyfriend, all the better for me.
I don’t protest when she climbs off me, but when her next move is to slap a rectangular white dressing over the stitches I can’t help my lip curling in anger. She seems delighted at my response. “Roll over,” twirling her finger.
My wolf immediately plants the image of my fingers doing the twirling. Deep inside her. I wonder what noises she would make if I found the right spot.
Gingerly rolling over onto my stomach before my stiffening cock betrayed me, I could study my surroundings a little bit better. I was laid on a ragtag collection of yoga mats, my blood staining them. The room was small, a beige painted concrete floor, magnolia walls and ceiling. Folding my arms under my chin I don’t complain when she resumes her position on top of me.
Sat practically on my ass, her legs wide, hugging my ribs she threads her needle. I breathe in only to find myself clouded in pears, freesias. Goddess that is a scent of pure temptation. Sweet yet intriguing. Like Hope herself. All backchat and hidden layers.
“Thought face on worked best for you,” I murmur, trying not to flinch as her tweezers get to work on my lower shoulder.
Her voice is softer, more teasing, my comment making her pause her nursing. I know because I can’t feel her breath on my back, she’s lifted her head up to look at me. “From behind works for me too,” and without looking I know the minx is grinning.
“Good to know.”
“How so?” her tweezers digging a little deeper even as her voice lightens, giving me another little burst of pain. My wolf gives me a bolt of confidence. Hope likes me. She must. She's straddling me, cracking double entendres and nursing me. The air is thick with tension, every sentence carrying weight and intent. Her hands are all over my back, propping herself up as she plucks out fragments of bullets.
Lets not forget I was pretty fucking brave too. That shit impresses women.
“For when I get out of here. Soon as I get the all clear I’m gone, what about you?” enjoying making her work for an answer for a change. Her tweezers stopped again. I can feel her breathing. She’s inhaled sharply, struck with indecision.
This back and forth is making my cock ache for her, it’s a battle I’m going to win. My pulse skips for a second as I feel her lean back up to sitting, taking her face and hands away from my bare skin.
Before I could say anything else, two brisk, painful smacks landed on my back. “No need for stitches here, just dressings,” she said. Then she leaned forward and dipped her lips close to my ear. There was no disguising the lust in her pear and freesia scent. I was probably no better.
I could roll over right now and grab her to me. In a low husky voice, I stifled a groan as she purred into my ear. “Are you planning to apologise to my mate when you get out of here then? He’d probably prefer that facing forwards?”
I could curse my wolf for that bolt of confidence now. He’s her mate. That useless Ryan? Fuck. Not single then. Fuck fuck fuck. How has that blonde, bearded idiot been blessed with her?
Except she keeps her face planted close, her lips brushing my ear. “Or did Mr Big Ego Alpha think…Uh-oh,” and my instincts took over. My arms were folded under my chin but quick as a flash I flexed my hand to grab her wrist.
It hurts like hell and I’ve no doubt ripped the stitches she’s just put in but with a yelp of panic she finds herself underneath me. Within seconds my hand is pinning both her wrists above her head. Not touching her, I simply loom over her, drinking in the golden shimmer in her eyes.
The arch of her back to cancel the stretch of her arms leaves her displayed like an angel. She’s angry and excited at the same time. Same as me.
“I don’t play silly games, Hope,” I growl menacingly.
"Get the fuck off me!"
"Try again. With manners," I remind her victoriously, unable to help a smirk as she continues to struggle.
She scowls right back at me, wriggling under my hold. “I’m not the one…ah, get off me! I’m not the one who ran straight into gunfire? I’m not the silly one-”
I quickly relaxed my grip on her wrists, freeing her, but being caught up in her flushed cheeks and pathwork of freckles and rapidly unravelling hair meant I missed the unexpected audience.
Without a sound I found my throat gripped. Speechless I found myself quickly rising upwards then slammed against the wall.
Which isn’t as padded as it looks and hurts like fuck.Snarling at me with rapidly expanding claws pressed against the vulnerable skins of my neck is a red fury. Shit. It’s Hope’s father. Howen. One of my fathers closest friends. Who helped teach me how to read the stars as a boy.
Who now thinks I was trying to attack his daughter.
“Papa! Let him go! Please!” Hope screamed, tugging on his arm as I extended my own claws. Howen might be older than me, slimmer in build but he’s made of pure iron. My vision is already blacking at the edges as I swipe for him. I’ve got nothing, my body spasming without air, my eyes feel like they want to pop out of their sockets.
I cut his shoulder, slashed his black pullover and ribcage but he just glares. His green eyes are filled with pure rage.
“Papa! It wasn’t what you think! I was treating him and winding him up-”
“Howen, release him if you want to stay here this Freeze,” a dark voice commanded.
Howen’s jaw, already tightly clenched, ticked manically for a couple more seconds as he clearly weighed up just murdering me outright and paying the consequences. My throat was bleeding down into his fingers, my blood definitely smeared on the beige wall.
“Last chance Howen!” and I hit the floor with a thud. Retching and heaving onto the floor, pain washed over me as my pulse and lungs raced to reclaim my stolen oxygen.
Alpha Reu kneels down to my level, silently looking over my bleeding, shuddering carcass. His blue eyes are frosty, focused. His white hair is the only reminder of the world above. “Cal, the weather has turned. You’re down here for the Freeze. I cannot let my you take on the route out of here injured and unprepared-”
“That’s not your call,” I groan, “I’ll take my truck and go now.”
“I had to use your truck to transport the supplies. They’re arriving back in the next few hours then we shut the bunker down. We have given them everything we can to save Miereille. The weather has turned, there isn't enough time to get out.”
“What? How are you going to survive down here?”
“While you were unconscious everyone who wasn’t critical to the bunker running was issued supplies and a snowmobile. We are going to survive down here Cal. You are part of this bunker now. And I won’t hesitate to lock you up on Corridor Nine if you give me even the slightest bit more shit.”
“What about Howen? He’s unhinged!”
“You had better apologise then hadn’t you?” he snapped, rapidly losing interest in my protests. “Oh, and leave his daughter the hell alone,” he growled before standing up. “This will be your room, so when you feel like it, you might want to give it a clean.”
Alone, I roll onto my back and look up at the ceiling, waiting for my pulse to settle.
I’d promised my father I wouldn’t spend a Freeze up here. Thanks to rushing into a hail of bullets, determined to be some kind of Alpha-hero, I'm going to break his heart and make them worry for months.
I’ll be scarred too. That will devastate him.
Guilt merges into apprehension as I realise the enormity of the next six months. Trapped underground. No way out. Tonnes of ice and snow building up above us once they shut the hatches.
Nobody to talk to except light-obsessed pilgrims now she is off-limits. She has a mate. Game set and fucking match to Hope.
I’m so screwed. I shut my eyes and cover my face with my hands, except that only makes the situation worse.
My hands smell of pears and freesias, the darkness glinting with flecks of her amber and gold irises.
I let myself get carried away there. Now I must calm down my father. Except he won’t stop pacing the floor of his small room. He’s too flustered to sign, so I’m stuck waiting for him to communicate. Guilt hits me. What would Ryan have thought if he’d walked in on that scene? Cal’s firm, possessive grip lingering on my wrists, his face only inches away from mine. In those few silly moments of teasing my mate was miles from my mind. All I could think about was running my hand through Cal’s soft brown curls. Seeing just how hard a peak I could tease that bulge in his parts into. Thank the Goddess I didn’t go there or my father really might have killed him. His face was fascinating. Cal thinks he’s so gruff and unreadable. I felt every bit of his body flexing, twitching and moving as we traded barbs. His chest had a fine covering of soft, lighter brown hair. My fingers accidentally brushed through it as I cleaned him up. Sat on his v-line, my main worry was that he would sense m
I have never tried to eavesdrop so hard in my life. As a child it was discouraged. Especially underground in the confines of the Light’s bunker. Everyone still did it. Now I’m pressing my head as close to the silver bars as I dare, hungrily trying to catch any snippets. My hulk of a guard remains stoic and silent. It is impossible to tell how long I have been down here thanks to the lights never dimming but I’ve had two huge sleeps. So who knows. “I can’t move you know,” I growl at my keeper, knowing he will do nothing. “This is the start of my body failing!” My thinking is fuzzier. Logic, harder to come by. The only thing cutting through the haze is my guard's rosemary scent which just makes my heart ache for home. When the corridor outside of my cell starts to echo with the whoops of triumph I struggle to my feet, quickly dizzy with the exertion. In strides Alpha Raze. He has ditched his leathers and now sports a long, black fur coat, his blonde hair poking out from under a furry
Not a huge suprise but it didn't take long to confirm being underground is fucking boring. Alpha Reu storms up and down, relentlessly checking every pipe and valve for something to do. Luna Elvie has taken to her room, studying furiously as to why the light turned against Mireille. There is nothing I can do to help. I’m an inconvenient guest. Plus, I don’t care how many tricks they’ve managed to stuff into these long corridors. Little libraries, music rooms, meditation chambers. It’s all just disguising the fact that we’re prisoners. Add onto that a layer of worry that I’m going to wake up with Howen’s hand around my throat and I’m far from happy. Howen is a worry because I saw the look in Hope’s eyes at the meeting. The exact same as mine. Six months of enduring a magnetic pull. Something crackles everyone we spar and I’ve got to keep a lid on it. Whether I like it or not, when I had my hands on her wrists, her chest arching up to meet mine, there was a spike of desire between u
I’m so pleased I bit the bullet and asked him. These past two weeks I’ve actually laughed and joked. The paranoia about the place caving in on me has lifted too.Tonight is the first full moon since we locked down the bunker. Later, we will dope ourselves up on Monks Pepper and drown out our wolves' desperate urges. Apparently underground it’s almost savage how much your body craves sexual contact. As in whimpering, begging, whining, anyone-do-anything-to-me desire. So, considering Cal still makes my stomach flip every time his dark eyes meet mine, I intend to drink at least a pint of the stuff. Maybe two.There is a routine established now. Vera and Ervin have stepped into the Beta roles. Arlen is now Sol’s full-time carer. So the slightly smug blonde pair are keeping things running day to day. Between the other devotees, the kitchens are run, the rooms are cleaned, and the boiler is maintained. They meditate, eat, and socialise together. Calix and I are the annoying children left
After Quinn got the boiler working Raze came to visit me. Leaning his long, languid body against the bars of the cage he shook his head in amusement. Arms folded, muscles fighting against his black shirt. “Now…I know Quinn didn’t magically become an engineer.” “Quinn?” I reply, playing dumb. “If you want to play games, I’ll leave right now-” “No! Please don’t. I helped Quinn, I wrote down the instructions but she had to do everything!” He stared at me flatly, his green eyes clearly finding me completely stupid. With the heating on he had shed his furs and I could see his shape more clearly. Slender but seriously strong, he wore dark black pants and a long shirt. The edges of tattoos peeked out from around the neck. I imagine he is covered in them. “No Mireille. Quinn just got one of the men to do it and pretended she’d worked it out.” “Oh.” Maybe I am stupid. “So what now?” “I want to know what your intentions are, while you’re here.” His voice remains flat, cautiously watch
The day of the full moon Raze leafed through the fresh stacks of paper, standing at the threshold of my door. Watching him read every word left me shaking. I should be used to the pre-moon jitters, but I'm so edgy I feel I could really slip up here. No tea, no calming, just a steady, tingling build-up of dirty thoughts and throbbing erogenous zones that I didn’t even know I had. If someone touches behind my ear, I might moan.Alpha Raze left me alone in my room for the most part, with just Brody checking in on me. Every so often, I caught the smell of rosemary. My guard is still watching over me, even if it’s in the shadows. “You have gone into an awful lot of detail here, Mireille,” he finally answered, his voice low, more of a growl. Certainly not pleased. “Not just about creating this full moon space but in general. Almost as if you’re telling me how to do my job.”My stomach sank. Dressed in the same long-sleeved black pullover and pants, I watched his long hands leafing through
The day after the full moon, my mood was foul. How could my wolf let me down so badly? I should have control over my beast. Instead, I almost gave in. I took it to the very limits of my resistance. I think of myself as having the control of an Alpha, except I almost shredded it all for a chance to kiss her.Even worse, I almost went and found Vera, knowing she would have been more than willing to take advantage of my pathetically aroused state. Reduced to an awkward waddle I went to find the fucking tea, thanks to my cock trying to launch itself out of my sweats. Then I knocked a load of washed up teapots over in the kitchens making a complete fool of myself. It couldn’t have gone much worse, the clattering sound ripping through the silent night.A torch shone at my eyes in seconds, Alpha Reu glaring at me as I fumbled in the dark.“It won’t work now. You’re too late,” he said drily. “Fuck off,” I growled, “I’m fine.”“I warned you about how you speak to me. I’m the Alpha of this b
I hadn’t lied. I am pissed off that he ditched me, but saying it was because I missed our friendship wasn’t the entire truth.My father is attending so much meditation that he is forgetting to eat. His blue eyes, always so vivid and bright, are dwindling, like a dying star. I miss his personality. His muteness never stopped him from filling a room with his character before.Staring at the portrait of my mother, I know I’m trying to capture something I’ll never have again. So I don’t blame my father for hiding down here. We can both pretend until spring, when we return to our empty house. Where we will be stabbed in the heart all over again.I haven’t added much to the portrait. Each day, I spend hours staring at it, listening for footsteps that never come. Ryan sometimes floats into my mind. I try to keep him there. Remember how it felt to nuzzle against his blonde scruffy beard and gaze into his gentle brown eyes. Fill my thoughts, my heart with our fragile, barely sealed bond. Why
Standing in the courtyard, I can feel my heart racing. It’s a strange feeling to know you’re going to die in a few minutes. I made my vow to Mireille all those years ago. I’ve been an Alpha of the North, overseen peace, and brought up our beautiful children, but this is the vow that matters. Because this promise was the one that eased my angel’s mind. Knowing we would have this final offering to the Moon Goddess and pray it is enough to free our children. /I love you/ I whisper to her, noticing her hands shake. I take her hand in mine and squeeze it. /You don’t have to do this/ she links back, her voice still as soft and light as the day I met her. Age has barely touched her. I am most definitely grizzled and rough around the edges. She is ethereal. Her pale green eyes shimmering with love and sadness, her white hair plaited tightly. She’s wearing a simple white dress. I insisted on wearing my huge winter fur. It seemed the right thing for me. /Wait, I want something/ I urge. I h
The last twenty years have been a rollercoaster, to say the least. That night in the hail, when Cyrus pulled me back from the brink and I spilt every single woe from the bottom of my soul to him, was the turning point. Since the triplets' birth, I had walked around with lead weights in my shoulders, dragging me down. Guilt chipped away at my self-confidence. To the point when I didn’t even feel I could be a Luna. Standing at the top of that tower, thinking the isolation helped clear y mind when it only bogged me further down in the doubt. Cyrus changed all of that. He took my guilt and made a solemn vow. Twenty years. If we can’t fix it together in twenty years, we will offer ourselves to the Moon Goddess. After that night in the hail, I cried for two days in a row. Once whipped away from the beam, the full horror of what I’d almost done was crushing. I couldn’t look at the children without damning myself all over again. Cyrus though, he became the Alpha. With everyone’s bl
If it wasn’t for the three women I lived with and little Opal I’d have lost my mind. Delilah hadn't changed from our blessed childhood friendship. Morgan’s mate Nell was full of bizarre ideas for preserving food and practising emergency drills. Lyra remained stoic and calm. Our lighthouse of sense and hope. Opal cried for her Daddy, and I had to try not to join in with her. I had to promise her he would come back, based on nothing but pure, desperate hope. It turned into full-scale war out there. The various Rogue armies were enormous, but they never quite made it to Filney. We were prepared, though. Thanks to Nell, we each had a gun safely stored by the bed. Escape routes planned. Little Opal still slept with me, keeping her close to my heart. Finally, one day, they returned. Trucks pulling in to Lyras white walled villa woke us up. One by one, we all screamed with excitement. Cal didn’t even try to trick or provoke me. He just pulled up the truck and sprinted towards us.
**FOUR YEARS LATER** I don’t know how time flew by so quickly. Everything Cal promised me has come true. We have bickered, disagreed, and walked down the beach in a huff. Mainly me each time, knowing he would be sat on the porch waiting for me with an amused smile. That lopsided grin that makes my stomach flip. We never stopped fighting for each other. Not for a second. It's been everything and more. That first morning, dozing in the hammock together, I woke up with a start. Realising the time, how late I was for retrieving poor Button made me scramble and swing so violently he crashed to the floor all over again. “You know I might ban you from my lovely hammock,” he groaned. I just laughed and pulled him up, pretending to rub his muscular shoulders, back, chest better until he growled and finally bent me over that porch. It was perfect. Of course, Button was absolutely fine with Declan and Lyra. They were already playing on the beach with her, Declan, having his toes burie
“Shit, the weather look,” she whispers, lifting her head up from my bare chest. From our cosy tower room, we can see wind is starting to howl, hail pelting the glass. The first savage winter snowstorms have begun.“It’s time to start prepping,” I grunt with disappointment, sitting up to get a better look. My beautifully naked angel sits in between my legs, allowing me to start nuzzling my chin against her neck. Her hand absentmindedly trails up and runs through my dark hair, keeping me close to her. “We’ll be underground for the first moon,” I add, which is the only thought that makes the idea of humping all those supplies down below bearable.“Hmm, you might be right. Let’s see how it goes,” she whispers back in a soft little voice before turning to plant a loving kiss on my grizzled cheek. “Better get dressed,” she groaned before pushing me down back onto the mattress and climbing on top of me. My fingertips brushed against her still red, warm asscheek and she jumped at the sensat
** TWO YEARS LATER **The first snows have landed. The next full moon is a fortnight away, but we will probably be underground before then. No pilgrims have arrived this month either. Things are a lot quieter at the Fortress these days. The grand days of my parents' first few years have definitely waned. A trickle of pilgrims instead of floods now make the dangerous journey over the mountain tops.I still stand at the top of the fortress and watch the sun descend. Every night, I stare at the black ridges of the mountains. I did it as a child. I did it the night before the rogues arrived and turned my life upside down. Now I stand every night we are above ground and observe its fiery descent and try to be thankful for what I have. Three wonderful children. A mate who worships me. Loyal, wonderful friends and family who made the last two freezes more than bearable. At first, I struggled with my survival. When Cyrus held me in his arms and told me dozens of times how he doesn’t need
“Hey there,” wasn’t the smoothest opener, but there was nothing else I could say. In the same way he knew my heart would melt for the flowers he put in the inn, he must have known that I would make some kind of entrance. My coppery hair is down, catching the breeze. For once I felt like a queen in my black dress after leaving Button with her kind-of adoptive grandparents. It’s tight, strapless, hugging my curves and showing off my long legs just as I intended. I don’t want my reunion with Cal to be about Button, as much as I love my little wonder. We'll get there, after tonight. After all, this moment has been a few days in the making. Cal’s not the only one capable of making plans. In fact, the first people I saw were Lyra and Declan. When I produced Button from out of the passenger seat, I felt a surge of panic. “She’s not Cal’s,” I said too quickly to sound polite. Then, allowing her to scamper off merrily towards the sand, I added softly, “She’s technically not mine either. I’
It’s a good job Hope was still asleep when I left. Otherwise, she might have caught up to me parked on the side of the road, still completely torn in two as to whether my gesture was romantic or insane. I ran my hands through my shaggy brown curls so many times it’s a wonder I wasn’t bald when I finally pulled up to the shoreline. Nine months after setting off I’m finally home. I raced home in dangerously quick time, panic-stops excluded. Because I have a home to build. A life to prepare. Howen and Pearl’s old villa at Finley is still magnificent, but it hasn’t been lived in for over five years. When I knocked on the door, there was only my mother there. Half a second of shock was followed by fifteen minutes of being almost throttled by her cuddles and kisses. Her long black hair was wavy from her morning swim, her gentle face full of worry. She quickly explained that my father had left to help Mireille and Cyrus after being summoned.. “So…what happened with Hope? I’m guessing tha
Only after she fell unconscious did the room check who was actually capable of performing such surgery. Sven and Quinn immediately pointed to me and my heart sank to its lowest, darkest depths.Slicing open her soft, perfect skin was terrifying. The tautness of her bump meant every cut felt far too deep yet not enough. Plus, if I didn’t hurry, the medication would wear off and leave her enduring more pain at full volume.With my poor angels whimpering cries finally silenced, you could hear nothing but the tearing, slicing sound of raw flesh as I cut ever deeper. With everyone's eyes burning into me, the blade shook in my hand.. “Hurry, this is no time for hesitation,” Arlen insisted. Stifling a growl, I steeled myself and made a sweeping horizontal incision. Then it was a mad rush to gather the babies. Cords were snipped, Arlen telling what to remove and what to stitch. I blindly followed, vaguely aware of tiny cries in the background but unable to do anything but care for my pale,