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37. Cyrus

Author: Alle
last update Last Updated: 2023-09-28 21:35:32

I’m sticking to my side of the deal. I remain his enforcer. I monitor, I report. He can’t hurt me if I shut all the feelings down. I've learnt my lesson the hard way.

The cruel dreams I've had where she approaches me in white, seeking me out with love, not fear in her eyes. What else is there to think of her as but an angel?

My knuckles are still red raw. I couldn’t handle myself for the first few nights after it all fell apart. In the room with the cells, where Mireille was first locked up, there is a separate annexe. While she slept, I had time to stare at the walls far too long and noticed the odd outline.

It opens with a concealed metal mechanism. I don’t know who else knows about it, but so far, those small square metres of space are my only sanctuary from Raze. And now from Mireille.

I am careful not to go there too often. Raze can't know every move I make. After all, I am the rat in his latest game.

Will I go mad and kill everyone? Or will I keep quiet and survive at any price
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Alle
bastraze! love it!
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LAURA BIBIANA SANCHEZ GUEVARA
So do we think that BastRaze was the one who hurt Quinn and it's a crazy mother#&$&% Also I can't wait to hear our Cal is safe!
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Deb Eff
Wait, I've just realised - he's gonna tell the truth on the full moon?! That sounds like a sexy time waiting to happen!
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