Barely a week has passed since my seventeenth birthday and it couldn’t have sucked more. We werewolves have pretty high expectations with this particular birthday, especially because our wolves mature enough to finally recognize our mate by their scent. Having a mate is probably the end goal for many werewolves around the world and I can’t blame them. I have seen how much in love two mates can be, how sappy that shit is and I’m not going to judge someone who wants the same thing in life as soon as possible even though that’s not the mission of my life.
I was excited by finally getting the opportunity to train with the elder wolves because I wanted to be a warrior for my pack. I knew I had it in me and I could very easily see it happen. I would have been an amazing warrior too, instead, I was carted off to the other side of the country so that I could supposedly bond with my birth father and his pack. Well, fuck that. That’s at the bottom of my priority list. So, it is no surprise that I am scowling as I get ready for school in this new pack.
Noah Strong has been assigned the task of taking me to school like I’m a kid who can’t find his way around. Granted I’m new here and don’t know this place well but I’m sure I would have figured it out. I’m also dreading meeting Noah again after last night, the way he emphasized me being the next alpha. Hell, if it were up to him, I’d take over as the alpha tomorrow. It would have been better if he had hated my guts and told me I would never be a good alpha like my father or something.
I grumble pack my bag and slam my bedroom for good measure. Let the whole pack house be attuned to my frustrations! The layout of this pack is not that different from the one back home and it doesn’t take me a long time to find the entrance of the building. I bound down the steps quickly and felt my wolf just underneath my skin, begging for a long and hard run. If Noah is that cooperative, maybe he’ll take me for a run after school.
I find him leaning against a black Mercedes Benz and mentally doing a double-take. I shouldn’t be surprised. Somehow, bigger packs amass a huge amount of money and most of the cash goes to the wolves with higher ranks. It’s not unfair; it’s just because they work a lot for the well-being of the pack and it’s something they get in return. I have never understood how the finances of a pack work because it’s something only taught to the future alpha or the beta of the pack. Noah would probably know all about it and I’m sure he would give me a very detailed explanation if I chose to ask him about it.
“Hey Kyle, ready for your first day?” Noah rounds from the bonnet and opens the driver’s side of the car. I open the passenger side door and look up to meet his eyes.
“Honestly, it’s the last thing I want to do right now.” He doesn’t look surprised by my answer. He seems a bit pleased that he got the true answer from me. Without another word, we settle into our seats and drive towards the school.
After fifteen minutes, Noah parks the car in the school’s parking lot. He turns towards me and points in the direction of the main entrance of the building. “The school office is the first left from the entrance. You’ll find the reception and principal’s office there. You’ll get your schedule and locker number from Mrs. Nadine. Feel free to ask the directions to your first class too because I don’t think any other student is going to help you, you being new here and all. All the seniors have their lunches at the same time and there are no leftovers, so be there on time. Now, I am going to leave because I can figure out that you want to be alone for this. So, I’ll text you at the end of school so I can pick you up and we’ll go from there. Sounds good?” Before I can say anything, he is getting out of the car. He looks pointedly at me when I don’t immediately get out and I scramble to get out of the car. He locks the car, shoots me a nod, and walks away.
The office is exactly where Noah said it would be and I collect all my documents from Mrs. Nadine who I’m sure is a human. I skim through my schedule and ask for directions for my first class and my locker. I arrive in my first class a little late but the teacher gestures for me to enter the room and take a seat. I easily breeze through the first three morning periods, English, Art, and Physics. Granted I didn’t exactly make any friends because I’m as wary of these wolves as they are of me. I can imagine how edgy their wolves must be to smell me so I took extra effort to steer clear of them.
Now I’m heading to the cafeteria, where all the senior class is going to be sitting from wall to wall. I’m officially going to be put up in an exhibition because I’m sure everyone must know about me and my family by now. The long-lost family of the alpha has suddenly woken up from their deep slumber to take away the throne by just being the firstborn. If I had been in their position, I’d curse myself too but it’s hard to explain to all of them that staying here and being their alpha is the last thing I want.
I’m not surprised when the loud cafeteria grows quiet as soon as I enter the hall. I don’t make eye contact with anyone; I make my way to the food cart and when everyone realizes there’s going to be no drama, the hall fills with loud chatter again and I feel my tense muscles relax one by one. I load my tray with food and without checking twice, head to the empty corner table in the hall, grateful for the small reprieve.
I slide into the bench, my back facing everyone else and look at the burgers on my plate. Well, at least they don’t look like two sorry shits like they did back at home. Without another thought, I pick up a burger and take the biggest bite possible out of it and I’m floored by the amazing scent of it. This burger smells like nothing I have ever smelt before. It smells like cherries, vanilla, and chocolate all rolled into one and I’d be happy for life if I could wrap up in this smell for the rest of my life.
My eyes widen in realization at what’s happening to me right now. I swallow the huge bite of my burger and put it down so that I can take a deep breath. My wolf is going crazy inside my head, begging me to turn around and hunt for that one person who is destined to be mine. My wolf chants Mate! Mate! Mate! in my head and I fight the urge to snap at him. Of course, I know my mate is nearby because no burger on this earth smells that good. I turn around and try to find the source of this amazing smell, to finally set my eyes on her. I take a deep breath so that I can at least know the general direction the smell is coming from but my senses let me know that the scent has faded, which means that this girl has recently left the cafeteria hall, otherwise her smell would have just gotten more intense.
I leave my belongings on the bench and race towards the cafeteria’s doors that are still swinging, probably from the last person that left which has got to be my mate. I burst outside into the corridor which forks into three directions. Just my luck!
I take a deep whiff of the air around me, trying my hardest to catch on to her scent. To a human, I must look like a dog trying to sniff up its bones in the ground. Hell, I don’t even care about that. She’s got to be here. She’s got to be!
Panic rises inside me and the thought of not being able to ever see again makes me whimper. For someone who wasn’t interested in getting to know their mate, I’m acting exactly like someone who had been waiting for their better half for the better part of their lives.
I take a deep breath in a last attempt to regain my senses and follow the scent of my mate, but apart from a lingering whiff of vanilla, I get nothing. My shoulders slump in disappointment but I straighten when I realize if she was here today, she must be a student here, or maybe a teacher, and she has got to be here every day. She could even be in one of my classes. With that thought in mind, I square my shoulders, eager to be in this pack for the first time.
Twenty years ago…I push myself harder, as hard as my wolf can run. I can hear the heavy thud of my paws, and the dirt rising in the air behind me. I can feel my heart pumping erratically and my blood pumping in my body. My senses are enhanced, and my eyes can capture the least illuminated points in the forest. My ears prick every time I hear a snap of a twig or the rustling of leaves. This is night time and of course, the forest is alive with thousands of creatures. I’m just trying to be careful not to be caught. If my parents knew I was not in my bed at this late hour and was running in the forest, they would probably install iron bars on my window sills and my brother would have a field day.The pack follows a strict no wanderings and running at night policy, which I have failed to follow quite a few times. I know this policy isn’t insured because of safety reasons. The pack borders are guarded day and night by border patrols and they would rather die than a rogue get through, so m
I am so frustrated that I’m having trouble functioning; I think my lungs have forgotten how to breathe, my legs how to walk, and my head how to think. I feel euphoric and drugged, my hind so hazy that it can’t comprehend what’s happening. I feel as if the world is moving in a supersonic version while I’m trailing behind at a snail’s pace.My mind was whirring like an exhausted fan, my wolf had been extremely antsy the whole day and I don’t know how I have managed to get through the whole school day. Maybe the thought of seeing my mate in any of my classes helped me get through the day. Not that this hope led to fruition. The amazing scent I had smelt in the cafeteria hall seemed to magically vanish from the corridors of the school.The cafeteria was big but even then, it would be impossible for her not to sense my scent. Maybe, like me, she doesn’t want to have a mate, so she freaked out and ran the second she got a whiff of my scent in the cafeteria. The thought makes my wolf whimper
Twenty years ago…I was a very bad person but it was so hard to hope for something else. The night before Samuel’s birthday when I went to bed, I prayed for hours to the moon goddess. Prayed that Samuel wouldn’t find his mate tomorrow. I prayed to the goddess to let him be my mate. I bribed the goddess, pleaded with her, and promised to do anything she would want from me. I knew it was cruel of me to pray for that. He wanted to find his mate more than anything in the world and I was asking the goddess to make him wait. I wouldn’t be seventeen in a year and I was praying to the goddess to make him wait a year for me. It was all I could do though, to pray to the goddess to make him my mate because I knew he would never look at me otherwise. I would always be his best friend’s little sister and I wanted to mean more to him.When I woke up in the morning, I hated myself for my selfish wishes. I claimed to love Samuel but prayed to the goddess to keep from him the one thing he truly wanted
I had again planned to eat my dinner in my assigned room, away from the pack members dining in the kitchen. I needed my privacy tonight. I have felt this restless in my life. The urge to find my mate, someone who is in this pack but hasn’t yet let me face her. My wolf was prowling in the recess of my mind, driving himself crazy about being this close to our mate, sensing her, and being out of reach of her. It was plain torture to endure.But when Noah had stormed into my room twenty minutes ago and told me there was going to be a packed announcement after dinner and had told me that everyone had been instructed to be there, a heavy weight had eased from my chest. I had no desire to be considered a pack member and attend any meetings, but since the whole pack was going to be there, there was a hundred percent certainty that my mate would be there too and I’d be easily able to sense her presence.I had played with the twins after coming back from the training sessions, a desperate way t
Twenty years ago…I didn’t know if he was coming today but I sure hoped he would. The barely-there smile was the only contact I’d had with Samuel the whole day and not knowing if has found his mate or not makes me nauseous. I know I prayed to the moon goddess to let him be my mate but sometimes, prayers hardly lead anywhere and the anticipation of everything was killing me. Granted, if he had found his mate and declared so publicly, the pack would be in an uproar, celebrating for their future Luna but I would like to hear from him, in simple words how his birthday went and if he succeeded in finding his mate.If the alpha found out I had been running around after sundown, against his express command to stay indoors because of the threat of rogues, I’d be skinned alive. I knew that he favored me, and treated me like his own daughter but he wouldn’t take kindly to my breaking one of his rules. Aware as I was of the consequences, I couldn’t sleep and instead of tossing and turning inside
My wolf is raging mad at me and hasn’t been talking to me since last night, when I decided that I didn’t want to do anything with my human mate. He had raged inside my head, demanding I accept her because it was what the moon goddess intended. He made threats about restricting my shifts and gave me the silent treatment. At one point in the night, I was clutching my head in pain because my wolf was forcing me to shift and sniff out the girl, find out where she lived, who her family was, and if she would accept us as her mate. More than that, he wanted to go berserk because I had even thought about rejecting her and I had been in pain all night trying to force him to the deepest recesses of my mind because I was sure me raving around in my wolf form wouldn’t look good to the pack members after the alpha announces us being trustworthy and harmless.To be honest, I was a little disappointed. Even though I knew I could live a fulfilling life without my real mate, I wanted to see who the go
I lay in bed, my thoughts zooming around in my head with the speed of light. Everything that had happened yesterday left me feeling so confused, that I couldn’t face anyone from the pack and hid in my assigned bedroom. My wolf had started recognizing this pack as a long-lost home and had stopped feeling antsy over crossing and staying in new territory. I had no idea how Kyle was faring, though because he was still angry with me, and with all the drama going on, I barely had time to talk to him. I hoped a part of his wolf recognized this pack as his own; at least, that way he would be less grumpy. The twins, on the other hand, were too small to listen to the voices of their wolves. So, the only way they were uncomfortable was because they missed home. I couldn’t face Samuel again but I had asked Aaron for permission to let my babies sleep with me, and he had given it to me without hesitation.Even if your world is breaking down and you have all sorts of things on your mind, life goes o
My eyes keep drifting to Noah driving beside me. I’m not surprised when he takes a right turn, different from the one we would have taken if we had been going to school. At least, I know something good will come out of this trip we are taking, I’m going to miss a whole day of school, a place I don’t want to be. My thoughts drift to my mate, whose name I still don’t know. Not going to school also means that I will be missing out on the opportunity to see her and be close to her. If my gut clenches in pain at the thought, I don’t think about it much.My mind is going back and forth over every word that has passed between Noah and me. I can’t help but think twice about every snide comment and sarcastic moment, just like I did last night. I’m anxious about where Noah is taking me; not because I’m worried for my safety. If there had been any danger, my wolf would have warned me before I got into this car with him. I’m anxious about what I’m going to find at the end of this journey we are t
LeaI watch Ben and Mason circle each other, judging each other’s stances and anticipating each other’s moves. These boys were growing up too fast, they were already too eager to participate in the pack’s training sessions and they still had years before they could officially attend those sessions. It still didn’t stop them from watching every practice session and cheering for the older werewolves. It didn’t help that Kyle encouraged them all the time, boosting them up, and telling them to aim to be the best pack warrior there has ever been. I think it was cute how they both looked up to Kyle, wanting to impress him, to spend time with them, and to just be near them.Ever since Kyle has officially started training to be the future alpha of this pack, he has become incredibly busy. He barely has time for himself, and I know he feels guilty about not being able to give me enough time. If he had been here from his birth, Alpha Samuel would have groomed him to be the next alpha from the m
I know I wasn’t supposed to eavesdrop, wasn’t mean to listen to their conversation, but how could I not? Even a saint would have had trouble to avoid listening in on them, and I am no saint. I had been reeling from the revelation after the pack initiation ceremony, about how I had magically changed packs, and I was so confused about everything that I didn’t know what to do. I kept trying to deny what was happening, what had already happened and it had gotten me nowhere.When I ran out of Samuel’s office, I had no idea where I was supposed to go, and what I was supposed to do. I couldn’t go back to my room, or talk to anyone. The thought of interacting with anyone or sitting alone in my room made me claustrophobic. So, I did the only thing I could think of, I ran to the lake so I could think and re-think everything and decide what I had to do now.An epiphany slammed into me when I was there. I realised I could go on thinking about everything, thinking about the past, present, and the
The party after the initiation ceremony was still going on in the dining room of the pack house. Everyone was assembled there and I couldn’t catch a breath or take a step without someone congratulating me or telling me how amazing the hunt was. Pack hunts were rare because we didn’t want to disturb the ecosystem around us, but they were sometimes a celebration, like today. I was lucky to spot a herd of deer, and we managed to hunt down a couple of them, enough for everyone in the pack to take a celebratory bite of the hunt. Now, I was tired, both from the day and everyone frolicking around me.I wanted to retire to my bedroom already, but before I could do that, I wanted to see Samuel. So, I went upstairs to his office and knocked on the door. It is probably the first time I’m coming here without being summoned for doing something wrong or breaking the rules. It felt nice to not be the troublemaker for a change. I waited for his call to come in before swinging the door open and going
I had witnessed pack initiation ceremonies a few times in this pack and back home. They were rare because it was unusual for an alpha to induct a wolf into their already blooming pack. Often, these ceremonies were held after an extensive background search and interviews, and all for a very good reason. Alpha has to make sure that they’re not introducing a sneaky snake in the pack that could harm them or the pack in the future. But this ceremony was an exception because not only Kyle was Samue’s blood, but Samuel was sure of Kyle’s heritage and I’m sure he is excited about having Kyle in the pack because it means that he will have his son in the pack and a legitimate future alpha.I had gone through the pack initiation ceremony myself when I had chosen Brad as my mate. I was as unprepared for it as Kyle was for his ceremony. I would have told him about what was supposed to happen but werewolf law states that the person is supposed to be initiated is supposed to go with as little knowle
Ever since the pack announcement, everything in the pack has been a whirlwind. Everyone has been running around to organise the pack initiation ceremony as if it’s the most important even to happen in their lives. Decorations are being torn apart and hung again, menus are decided and then discarded, everyone is striving to make the even perfect. And it is all making me antsy. Surely, it is not that big of a deal, getting initiated into a pack. Even people’s attitudes toward me have changed, they somehow stand straighter whenever I enter a room, their heads bowing to me in deference, their voices going quieter and their smiles becoming brighter. I don’t understand what the big deal about all of this is because I have been living in this pack for the last couple of weeks and I’m still the same person. I’m still me but the way I’m being treated is completely different and disconcerting.I’m being treated like an alpha son, exactly how Ryder was used to being treated back home. I feel a l
Twenty years ago…After I talked to Samuel, I made my way home, tears blurring my every step. I felt like the world was crashing around me. I couldn’t breathe, I felt the air around me had been sucked out and I was stuck in a vacuum. How had this happened to me? I couldn’t for the life of me figure this mystery out. All my life I’d just wanted to have a mate, love him as truly and honestly as I can, and be there for him in every aspect. Now, here I was, practically rejected by a mate who had a pregnant girlfriend that he was planning to propose to. On top of everything, he had the gall to reject my child, choosing to stay with his girlfriend rather than his mate.Tears were already leaking out of my eyes when I reached my home, but as soon as the door closed behind me, I started bawling. I had expected my parents to be there, I wanted their support at the moment, I wanted their love. I also hoped selfishly that when I told them Samuel was my mate and that I was pregnant with his chil
I’d thought Lea’s father was in bad shape but I hadn’t expected it to be this bad. I could see an endless number of tubes going in and out of him, several machines beeping continuously, and he was sedated with such a high dose that I was sure he wouldn’t wake up if someone set him up on fire. His face looked black and blue his whole body is mottled with bruises and it’s crystal clear that he had been brutally beaten by the rogues before being left to die at the pack border for us to find.Lea had gone ghostly white after seeing her father in that condition and I couldn’t blame her. The scene reminded me of the time Brad was stuck in the hospital during the last couple of weeks of his life, how emaciated and weak and sickly he had started to look. It took me back to the time when Mom used to worry about him leaving us behind all the time, how the twins realized that he would leave and never come back. I’m sure these thoughts must be running in Lea’s head too, and I wanted to take her a
I’m once again in Samuel’s office. Surprise, surprise. In the short time we’ve been here, I have been here more than is normal for any pack member. I may as well set up my chopping block in this office because I’m summoned to be here so often. I think Kyle has also done everything possible to make sure we’re called again back to this office. Every time I’m here I’m brought back to the past when I and Aaron had been asked by Samuel’s dad to not see each other since we weren’t fated mates. My life has moved so far away from that trajectory, that it feels like a fictional tale someone uninvolved with my life is reciting to me. I can’t say my current life feels familiar to me because, for the first time in forever, Kyle hasn’t done anything remotely wrong. We’re here because of Lea and her father, and I’m a bit relieved that at least, we’re not the bad guys right now, always seemingly disrupting the pack peace, rules and regulations.For once, I wished we were called here for a good reaso
Samuel only summoned Lea to his office but Aaron didn’t raise an eyebrow when I volunteered to accompany her. I didn’t know how many people knew about Lea and I being mates but I’m guessing since Aaron didn’t stop me, he knows or Samuel must have hinted to let me come. If it had been any other situation, I wouldn’t have felt the need to be with Lea but since the issue is so sensitive, concerning the rogue attack on the pack and possibly, her father’s involvement in it.The idea hit me when I was running from the dungeons towards the pack house to talk to Lea. I didn’t believe she had anything to do with the rogue attack. I know she’s loyal and holds real regard for Samuel because he accepted her and her brother in his pack and gave them home without any prejudice. It would also be rare for a pack member to have any connections with a rogue and leak pack information for a planned attack. The only thing that made sense was for her father to be the mole. He is only an honorary pack membe