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I do not have the strength and life left in me to care...

Author: Love4Fiction
last update Last Updated: 2024-04-28 00:59:52
Finally, the big day that Michelle had awaited all her life arrived. The artists who were arranged for making her the most beautiful bride of the century arrived. She slowly changed into the wedding gown and sat down for the make-up artists to weave their magic.

But her mind didn’t have the excitement of fulfilment of a dream but rather the dull ache of killing the last remnant of her soul that dared to dream of true love. She knew that with this step, she would forever deny herself that little bit of self-respect she had and felt helpless inwardly.

Daniel wasn’t in any better state. He truly did not want to go ahead with today despite the shame it would bring considering it was truly the eleventh hour. In all honesty, he expected Emile to call him in a panic and beg him not to go ahead with the wedding.

Cancelling the wedding for her was going to be his biggest act of redemption and indulgence for her but the call never came. Instead, he did receive gifts with blessings from both t
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