Chapter 38.

I Am Jealous, I Admit

“Have you gotten the Aerospace file I sent?” Ryan asked me from his desk. It's been like this all morning since I told him yesterday that we needed to maintain a professional attitude and act like nothing happened between us. I walked out after telling him that and went to the form desk to chat with Lillian, after which I came upstairs and he was no longer in the office. I felt relieved, but also bad that I had to tell him something like that just to protect my heart and stop the both of us from taking whatever this was further.

When I woke up this morning, I wondered how it was going to be at the office today. If he was going to avoid me or question what I said yesterday. It was however neither of these two options. Instead, he just did exactly as I asked by treating our relationship in a cordial and professional way. It was what I asked for, but, it left a nagging feeling I didn't like in my chest.

Now that he asked me this question, he wasn't looking up from