“Dad, I’m not in the mood for dinner. I have so much work to do,” I said on the phone as I pouted, wondering what trouble he’d gotten himself into this time. I knew it was the only reason he’d called in the first place.
He needed money. He always needed money.
“Look, I need this deal to go through. If there’s no dinner, then I don’t know when Dante will be back in town. He has triplets in your year at Yale—you must know them.” The words stuttered, and I wondered if it was a bad connection or if he was scared.
“Who?” I asked. There were thousands of students in Yale—how could he possibly expect me to know all of them?
I didn’t have time for this conversation. Tomorrow was Friday, and I needed to submit an idea for my paper. It was approaching nighttime, and I was drawing a blank.
“I don’t know. A couple of them start with the letter A. How hard can it be with Italian names? Something like Alessandro, and…”
“Adolfo,” I said, filling in the blank as he struggled to remember the second A name. I definitely knew those guys.
I sat down at my desk in my dorm room, realizing this situation was bad. Going to dinner with the hottest guys on campus wasn’t a good idea. They only had one thing on their minds—sex, sex and more sex.
They had the type of reputation where if you wanted to get laid, you would turn to them. But if they turned you down—which they did 75% of the time—then there was something wrong with you. No girl would ever want anything to do with you because you had a bad reputation, and no guy would want you. Hell, if you weren’t good enough for the triplets, then you weren’t good enough for anyone.
They were arrogant. They loved to show off their money, always flashing their gold cards in Two Sheets where I worked, treating their latest conquest like a queen. Everyone would worship her, because she was one of the 25%. She truly was worthy.
I didn’t know why girls even put themselves through such torture. I thought I was done with all this crap back in high school—the mean girls—but no. Coming to Yale, I discovered it was even worse. People could be cruel at the worst of times.
“Good! You know them!” my dad said, excited.
I shook my head, even though he couldn’t see me. “No, I know of them. I don’t talk to them. There’s no way I’m sitting at a table with those three. They make me sick.”
“Why? I hear they’re all top athletes. One plays baseball, one plays basketball, and one football. Don’t ask me which one plays what. I’m still trying to think of the other one’s name… Look, it doesn’t matter. All I need you to do is smile, act pleasant, and that’s it. If Dante agrees to the deal, it could be the answer to all our problems.”
I sighed as I turned around to face the mirror on the other side of my room. My bangs, like the rest of me, needed some TLC. Even my dark eyes had shadows. I’d been so caught up on my paper and life in general, being in my senior year, I couldn’t even remember the last time I got dressed up, especially to go to a dinner, so I was in dire need of something to wear too.
“I spent nearly five years on the road hearing the same line,” I said, hating myself for telling him the truth. But I was upset he didn’t just pick up the phone and call to hear my voice or even just to say hi. He always wanted something. I shouldn’t have been surprised at it, but it still hurt.
“Bianca, we need to move. I’m in big trouble…”
This was what it was like living with him. He’d come and get me early from class, and I knew his life was on the line. I’d lost one parent to cancer, I wasn’t going to lose another one was what I used to think, but enough was enough.
Nan had tried to help him by putting him in rehab to get over his gambling addiction, and he seemed better when he got out… but it only got worse. He pawned everything Nan owned. He took out a mortgage on her house without her permission and stole nearly every penny from her.
All it took was for him to drive past a sign for a casino or see poker being played online in a movie, and he would gamble again, like a cat chasing a neon light, no sign of stopping and completely addicted to the thrill of it.
Nan was living with Uncle Floyd in Rhode Island at the moment and would be for the foreseeable future. She didn’t press charges and didn’t say anything to the bank when they came to repossess her home.
Dad often fought with Uncle Floyd, who owned a big real estate firm. He accused him of being mean and not helping him out whenever he got into trouble. When Mom was alive, she told me Uncle Floyd had helped Dad out more than once, then said enough was enough and turned his back on him. Sure, he was his younger brother, but that didn’t mean he had to give up his life for Dad’s.
Uncle Floyd told me I could stay with him any time, and I took him up on it when I turned sixteen. If I hadn’t, I would’ve spent in my life on the road with Dad.
It was fun at first, an adventure moving from place to place, but as I got older, I realized I had no friends, no home to call my own, and this would be it for the rest of my life. When I moved in with Uncle Floyd, Dad stopped talking to me, saying I’d left him all alone.
Uncle Floyd has always been good to me. He pays my tuition and gives me money to live off, but I hate relying on him for everything—he’s already done so much for me, so the least I can do is try to help myself a little. Things got more and more expensive every year, so I started to work in the Two Sheets, student bar so I didn’t have to rely on him so much for money.
I waited patiently for Dad to say something, anything, so I could hang up with a clear conscience. It’d been five long years since we last spoke, and now he was calling me out of the blue as if he never said any of those horrible things to me when I left him in the motel.
“Bianca, I promise this will be the last time.” He started to sob on the line. I hated it when he cried. I fell for it every single time, and I knew I would regret it.
I threw my head back and took a deep breath, knowing I’d probably regret the words that were about to leave my mouth for the rest of my life.
“Ok. What time’s dinner and where?”
He laughed. “Don’t worry about it.”
Then there was a knock on the door. He’d been in the hallway all this time. How had he known where to find me?
“Dad?” I said when I opened the door, still holding my phone in my hand. I didn’t even recognize him at first. It had only been five years, but the way he’d aged it could easily have been twenty. He had hardly any hair, his thick, dark, curly locks replaced with thin grey wisps.
“Sweetheart, I knew you would see sense,” he said as he wrapped his arms around me.
I hated myself for agreeing to dinner with him, and I hated him even more for knowing my soft spot.
* * *
The next day, I spent an hour getting ready, straightening my hair and painting my nails. I was starting to get suspicious if I was part of the deal and he was pimping me out. Dad reassured me I wasn’t, but I wasn’t sure I believed him.
Something was different this time, because he was more nervous than usual. And I wasn’t a fool—the bottle of “water” he was holding onto and sipping as if his life depended on it was full of vodka.
I wondered at times if it was the alcohol that spurred him to gamble, or if the gambling led him to drink. I guess it didn’t really matter—if the alcohol didn’t kill him, then the goons who were after him would.
I had a feeling this time would be the last time I’d see him. If his plan worked out like he wanted, then he’d disappear. If it didn’t, then he would be dead. Either way, I’d play along, because when all was said and done, he was still my dad.
I got changed in my bathroom, feeling a little awkward as I put on the sexy, short, backless black number Dad bought for me. He’d conveniently had it in his car.
“So, tell me. How do I look?” I asked as I stepped out. Dad finished the remains of his plastic bottle, looking disappointed he’d drained it so quickly.
“You look beautiful.” He sighed as I adjusted my dark hair, which was pinned up in a bun with a few loose strands framing my face.
“I never wear stuff like this,” I said, tugging at the hem of my skirt. “It’s so short that it just barely covers my butt. I feel as if every part of my body’s exposed.”
“You remind me of your mom when we went to prom.”
I shook my head. “I’ve seen the prom photos, and no way did Mom wear something this short.”
I had no idea what that had to do with what I was wearing now, but he continued to explain, even if it didn’t make it any clearer.
“Yeah, in those days it was all about the long dresses and not showing too much flesh. Not like now. I remember your prom—you wore something similar. Right?”
I just nodded, because it wasn’t worth correcting him. I’d skipped my prom—no one asked me, and I didn’t want to go alone or as a third wheel.
“You really should dress like this more often, instead of hiding away in whatever you was wearing before.”
Dad was right—I didn’t really care what I wore in general, but I did care about my health. Mom used to always drum into me about healthy eating and the benefits of it. “Healthy body means a healthy mind.” Unlike Dad, who drank like a fish and had never worked out in his life, yet didn’t have one health issue. Sometimes I thought it was just down to genes—if you have strong genes, then it didn’t matter how much you abused your body, you would get away with most of life’s illnesses. She was taken by cancer, and the idea of never being in her arms again at times still kept me up at night.
“Let’s get going,” I said as I grabbed my purse. I wanted to leave before Erika, my roommate, came back.
Dad was a mess, and as much as I was trying to put it all at the back of my mind, I couldn’t help feeling that I should have just called Nan and Uncle Floyd to tell them he was here. They would do something to intervene. He wasn’t in a good state—not at all.
It didn’t take long to figure out where our party was sitting as we stepped into the Italian bistro. The four men were so loud, they were grabbing all the attention in the restaurant. I would have found it annoying, but the other diners seemed to find it amusing, waving in their direction and laughing at the noise they were making. I knew them. Alessandro, Carlo, and Adolfo, plus an older gentleman who must be their dad.I’d never spoken to them in my nearly four years at Yale, and I never planned to. I could quite happily continue avoiding them like the plague and feel good about it. I’m sure I looked just as nervous as Dad as I pulled down on my dress one more time. It was silly, I knew, because the moment I pulled it down, it would ride back up again, yet I’d formed this habit in the space of thirty minutes since I put the dress on and left my dorm room. I felt a wave of jealousy seeing them at the table. They were laughing and talking as if they were all the best of friends. Se
“Did I hear right? You exchanged numbers with the boys, right?” Dad asked as he dropped me off at my dorm. I hadn’t wanted him to drive, but he’d sobered up somewhat after a couple of espressos.“Yeah,” I whispered.He patted me on the knee as if I was five years old. “Good. I just need to get Dante on my side so he can look at this app.”Since I’d spent the evening trying to stop myself from getting wet from Carlo’s touch, the scam had flown right out of my head, but the frustration came flooding back with his reminder. “Dad, you never told me you invented things. Why the hell didn’t you tell me this was all part of some scam? I go to school with these guys—did you think, or even care, about how this would reflect on me when it all goes sour?”In the end, he hadn’t even told Dante exactly what the app he supposedly developed was supposed to do. And wasn’t that supposed to have been the whole point of the dinner?I was upset, disappointed, and fed up with him using me. Him being my d
I’d seen Bianca walking around campus as if she was lost, never fitting in after all this time. I’d only ever heard of her dating the one guy, Ben, who broke up with her when she wouldn’t put out, and I’d only seen her with one friend, her roommate Erika, who worked with her at Two Sheets. Unlike Erika, Bianca was far from friendly. It felt like as soon as we stepped into Two Sheets, she headed in the opposite direction. Alessandro says it is because she’s stuck up, the kind of person who thinks she’s better than us. But how would he know if he’d never spoken to her?If anything, Alessandro was the uptight one. If some girl didn’t grovel to him twenty-four seven, he concluded that she wasn’t the kind of girl we should hang out with. He made too many assumptions about people. Sometimes I wondered if we were even related—he was too fucking judgmental.Dad said her dad, Paul, used to go to high school with him. He said he was a mess when they were kids, and it seemed as if things hadn’t
Jesus, this dude was still drunk. Had he constantly been drinking since we left him last night? How did he even manage to get around in his state?Paul was talking, and Bianca complained about needing to complete some paper before her shift at Two Sheets later. I’d been there a few times and bought drinks for the guys, which is how I knew exactly who she was as soon as Dad told us about the dinner last night. Bianca was the kind of girl who was saving her V-card until her knight in shining armor came upon a horse and took her in his arms. Sure, she looked hot last night, but the girl didn’t know how to dress or hold herself. Bianca walked around in sweats and t-shirts, and a knight wasn’t going to take a girl that didn’t dress like a princess. If she couldn’t be bothered to keep up her physical appearance, I hated to think what the inside her dorm looked like. Most likely like Adolfo’s room. As for my other brother, Carlo… any girl would do for him. He was so damn horny. He was so i
I’d hated him before, and after the way he spoke to me at breakfast, I hated him even more. He always had a way of making me feel insignificant. Yes, I didn’t normally dress in a minidress like I did last night, but I did it because Dad asked me to. This was why whenever Alessandro came to Two Sheets, I made a point to never serve him. I always made sure Erika did the deed. She was more tolerant than I was, always managing to serve everyone, including jocks like Alessandro, with a smile on her face. He would swarm in with his gold card and buy drinks for anyone who gave him any attention. I hated the way he did it, and I knew I wasn’t the only one. He was loaded, and he wanted everyone to know it. I knew some guys on campus were probably as well off as he was, but they didn’t flaunt it like he did with his Rolex, Gucci clothes, and every other designer item under the sun. He made it known everything on him was worth more than I had in my closet and then some. I needed to stay as fa
“Delete the fucking group, Carlo!” I blurted out as I saw my lazy brother sitting in the kitchen, eating what looked like the whole delicatessen section of Walmart. “What’s your problem? You don’t need to contribute to it anymore, and if you do, then I’ll do it for you. Ok?”I shook my head, because he wasn’t listening. I headed to Adolfo’s room to get him in on this conversation. Enough was enough. We didn’t need to have anything more to do with them, neither Bianca nor her dad. “Adolfo, come out so we can have this out.”Adolfo shook his head. “Nope. I’m shooting hoops with the guys. You and Carlo figure it out. You know me, I’m easy. Whatever you decide, I’m down with it.”Adolfo, the voice of no reason. He never took sides, always backing out whenever there was a confrontation between me and Carlo… which was most of the time. “Fine, be a chicken!” He ignored me as he sighed, rolled his eyes, and then stormed out of the door. “Just leaves you and me,” Carlo said. “Can we talk
Two Sheets was quiet, which was the good thing about working the early shift. It was always calm this time of day, never stressful like the night shift. Erika said I was crazy, that there was nothing better than the night and seeing the craziness that went on, that it made work entertaining and the time fly by. I had to admit, she did get tipped a lot more than I did… but then again, she was a lot friendlier than me. I gave each customer their drink or snack and moved on. Erika not only to served them but entertained them at the same time, all while managing somehow to never accumulate a line. I was daydreaming, thinking about Alessandro and wondering why I struggled to focus on a particular topic for my paper.“Maybe he’s right. I’m an imposter,” I mumbled to myself. When I looked up, I saw the last man I wanted to see in my life burst into Two Sheets. “We need to talk, now,” Alessandro barked at me. Then he turned to James, the manager, and said, “Can we use your office for a few
I’d been texting Bianca, but I hadn’t heard back from her. Alessandro was out for blood. He’d been on the phone with Rik and had managed to track down Paul. He was going to get every penny from him. I couldn’t believe he’d gone to Two Sheets to accuse Bianca of taking Dad’s money. I tried telling him Dad was a grown man. He knew what he was doing the moment he gave Paul the money, and frankly, it was none of Alessandro’s business. Yet he didn’t fucking listen. Neither Adolfo nor I could understand the madness. I knocked on Bianca’s door and waited patiently, croissants and coffee from the bakery in hand. I decided to make my first romantic gesture ever, hoping to convince her over breakfast that we weren’t all as crazy as Alessandro. I hoped she wasn’t a late sleeper… maybe ten was too early for her. She did work in a bar. Although, she must have class at some point today…I was just about to give up when a teary-eyed Bianca opened the door. “Bianca?”“Sorry, I just… I don’t know