The last holiday weekend passed really quickly and everyday school life was there.
Like every morning, I walked over to Dwayne, who was also coming out of his house.
'Ready for the first day of school? The last year Joe!!! We're almost there!” I grinned at Dwayne, who got into the car, his hair all messy. Ever since he had a car, he always took me to school with him.
"Ask me again later! ...I'd rather be in my bed now.” Dwayne laughed and we drove off.
"Have you heard from Jayden?" He pulled into the school parking lot.
“Thanks for giving my number! I thought I could just break up with him but now he texts me all the time!” He grinned cheekily and said he was sorry for giving my number to Jayden but I knew he wasn't sorry.
Tomm-tomm. My cell phone vibrated. again.
"Is it him?" Dwayne glanced at me as the car came to a stop and he put on the handbrake. We got out and I pulled my phone out of my back pocket.
»Yes...« This was followed by a deep sigh.
can we meet
Just the two of us?
I have to talk to you.
jayden
I put my phone away and walked to the front entrance with Dwayne.
»Peopleeeeee!!!!....« I knew that voice. Yes, it was Debby. What is she doing here?
Dwayne grinned from ear to ear and hugged her very happily when he spotted Debby. "So you actually did it? You're really crazy, you know that?..."
Debby blushed a little and gave me a short hug as well. »Yes, at my old school I couldn't stand the bullying anymore! And now that I have you guys, I'm hoping for a great senior year!” I saw her smile and it reminded me of Jayden. It was also clear to me at that moment that I couldn't avoid Jayden anymore. My mood kept getting worse. shit day Dwayne explained everything about the school and grounds to her, including where to find things and where to find our clique during breaks. She had almost the same schedule as me. Dwayne went to his class leaving us alone in the hallway.
'You hate me, don't you?' Debby looked at me helplessly. All my papers fell out of my locker and I gathered everything back together.
"No," I said doggedly.
"Doesn't sound very convincing!" I don't even have anything to argue with.
We were through our first school lessons and Debby was always by my side. When it was finally break, we walked down the long hallway to the cafeteria. In front of the doors there was a table with notes on it.
Behind it sat Sally, the Head Girl. "Hello you two! Welcome back. Please put your name on the list if you want to come to our school party in Heaven in three weeks. That way we know who's coming, what's needed and then you get the tickets after you pay me!' I forced a smile at Sally. She was so annoying and pushy.
“Hey Sally, I'm happy to sign us in, but we're getting tickets from Dwayne's dad. Have you forgotten he owns the club?”
She grinned and nodded. "All right, then just put your name on the list, even if you're coming with someone that evening!" Debby looked at me helplessly.
I turned to her. “Dwayne will take you! Just put your name on the attendance list!” She nodded and signed, among many others. Then I leaned over the table and started. I wrote myself on the list, also saw that the others were already higher up. When I saw the number of people, I first thought about what to write. I just drew a line as a sign that I wouldn't bring anyone else.
"Hello beauty!" I took a deep breath. No, not him now! I avoided him so well all day!! I turned sideways. Mike was standing next to the table. He was still so damn handsome, that asshole. Sally was busy with other students and Debby was waiting for me.
"What do you want?" I looked at him questioningly. In fact, everything was settled.
"Can we talk?" He really looked at me pleadingly.
I shook my head and gave a little shrug. 'I don't think there's anything left to talk about. We've settled everything! Just leave me alone!"
He took a deep breath and gave me the most charming look that had ever softened me. "Joey, it was a mistake, okay? We need to talk, you won't always be able to avoid me! ...at the latest in natural sciences!« Damn. He's always been my lab partner.
"Don't worry, I'll find another lab partner." He smiled and put his name on Sally's list.
Then he looked deep into my eyes and stroked my arm. "And who, if I may ask?"
Debby, whom I had completely forgotten, spoke up. "Me! I'll definitely replace you well!' I had to grin, turned to Debby and we went into the large dining room.
I spotted the others but queued up with Debby to eat. It went pretty quickly and she started asking me questions. "Who was that?"
My cheeks turned slightly red. "Mike, my ex!" She grinned to herself.
“He's really hot, but I'm sure you know that! When were you together?' I thought about it. In fact, I never wanted to talk about it again. But Debby was new and didn't know what had happened back then. Didn't need to know for sure.
'Oh, just last year. Mike has always been my lab partner and last year we were together, ... only half a year, then I went to Australia for 4 months and before that it was over!«
We had our food and drink and Debby followed me with the tray to the table where the others were already seated. Jane and Dan flirted like crazy and kissed constantly. Kirsten chatted animatedly with Steve and Dwayne. We sat down with them and Debby kept asking. "And why aren't you together anymore? What happened?"
I choked briefly. Dwayne and Jane looked at Debby with puzzled eyes and Kirsten fell silent. All eyes switched between Debby and me.
Dwayne leaned forward on the table, closer to both of us. "Are you guys talking about Mike?" Dwayne got a little aggressive and Debby told him everything while I ate a few bites. When Debby finished her short story, I still had my eyes on my tray.
"Joey, you're not going to talk to him?! ...Can you please look at me when I'm talking to you?” I looked into Dwayne's eyes, annoyed.
"Dwayne! What do you want to hear from me now? You know what happened to Mike, after all you beat him up! I don't intend to talk to him!” He leaned back in relief.
Debby's eyes widened and she was bursting with curiosity. "He what? How so? What happened then?' No one spoke, which I hoped.
I looked at Debby and stayed very calm. 'Listen Debby, this is past okay? And I certainly don't want your brother to hear any of my stories!” She looked away. Then back to me.
"It's okay!" I knew she would tell her brother everything if he asked her about it. Dwayne whispered to her that she should drop the subject and maybe in time she would find out.
The day could only get worse and I was absolutely right about that. Just before our break was over, Steve looked stunned into his phone.
“Holy shit!” Kirsten sat next to him, checking his cell phone. For a moment she was completely fixated on what she was reading.
Dan laughed at the two. "Reading the school tabloids again?" Dwayne explained to Debby. 'Our school has some anonymous press writers. They have their own website "Flash" where all rumours, news and all other unimportant things are posted! It's so uninteresting!' Jane then grinned at Debby too. »Nevertheless, there are enough idiots here who believe this lying press! Any idiot can send in something via the site and the rumor doesn't even have to be true!« Debby nodded gratefully for the clarification and at that moment Kirsten and Steve looked at me with a very sad look.
"What? Why are you looking at me like that?” Steve started to explain but couldn't get a word out. Dan snatched the cell phone from his hand and he quickly scanned what was there.
Jane read along and she too was flabbergasted at what she found. "Why do people do this? That's pure envy!« I typed around on my cell phone myself, finally knowing what was going on, and read it out loud:
»» Jayden Hanson was spotted with an unknown girl!
Until now it is not clear who the girl is.
They were spotted together at the fair. Afterwards in »Heaven«!
Someone must be changing the girls at his side like his underwear!«...«
Among them I found a totally badly photographed picture. Jayden and I on the ferris wheel. But they didn't recognize my face because his head was right in front of it. Yes, it was the exact moment we kissed.
Steven quickly told me that I shouldn't read any further. I was stunned. "It's still going on?" Then I was told that you could comment below it and a few had done so and they weren't really nice .
Before I could continue reading my shit, Dwayne snatched my phone out of my hand. He picked it up and said I would get it back on the way home, then it disappeared into his pocket. I was pissed off that he did that and totally appalled that people could deal with such topics on the internet. I would love to know who published such reports and, above all, who also made their nasty comments about them.
I got up, the break was almost over and I went on my way. I heard footsteps behind me. "Joey, wait..." Debby followed me. She walked silently next to me at first but I knew it wasn't going to stay that way. "My brother really was an idiot the other night, but what it says isn't true!" We went to our next classroom and were the first.
"I don't care!" That's all I could get out.
Debby sat next to me in the middle row by the window. “No, it's not Joey! ...I don't know what your problem is with me, but I'm trying to explain to you that Jayden has never dated women! ...before you existed!! There never was a woman. He was never interested in it and was always around such stupid bitches that Craig used to drag. But such women are not his thing and never have been. ...I don't know what's between you and Jayden that makes you so attracted to each other. Really... I really don't know... When I look at Mike and compare him to Jayden, I don't understand what you like about Jayden! ...Or I just don't get it because he's my brother! ...But what I understand is...he has a crush on you! It must be something like love at first sight for you! ...And that Joey, ....is really not often!« I turned to her to be able to look at her. Her gaze was familiarly directed at me.
"I have nothing against you! ...I just had a shitty day!« The other students came in and shortly afterwards our professor.
natural sciences. It used to be my favorite subject, but Mike had always been a contributing factor. Now he is sitting diagonally behind us in the last row and I could feel his gaze on me. It was unbearable. I wasn't allowed to tell Dwayne that. He's always had something against Mike.
Mike was and always is the most popular cutie in the whole school and it wasn't just me who was after him. He was aware of the confirmation of the women and that's how he acted, slightly conceited, which I only realized after the separation. If I said something against Mike in front of Dwayne, he wouldn't hesitate to hit him again.
So I endured what felt like the longest hour that day and was generally happy when the day was over.
It's been two weeks now since I met Jayden. He still wrote to me every day, but sometimes I answered and sometimes I didn't. I thought about him a lot and started searching the internet for him over and over again.Debora and Dwayne were still sizzling, but sadly they hadn't been together yet. I have no idea which of the two needed an invitation, probably both. They spent a lot of time together and I was very close to Debby too. She really was totally fine. Debby had also become part of our clique and had found her place among us. We were very similar in many ways and attitudes and I was really thankful that we had almost every class together. We also sometimes studied together after school, which really showed in both of our grades, because not only I but Debby was an A student.It was only a week until that school party at Heaven . There were posters advertising it all over the school and it was the number one topic of conversation.Dwayne came into the cafeteria on Thursday with ou
He managed to grab me by the arm again before I reached the restroom. I turned to him and it made me furious that he grabbed me like that. "Let go of me!" I jerked my arm away from him and Mike stared at me, startled.“Joey, let me make it up to you. I miss you! I regret everything I did to you... Please give me one more chance!"I passed him again, but then stopped. The anger just came over me. I took a small step towards him and let a girl pass who had just come out of the toilet and pushed past Mike. I waited until the door to the club was closed behind me. "Are you completely out of your mind? You screwed me from start to finish! So I'm supposed to give you one more chance to fool me again and brag about it to your friends. You're a complete nut...' I did hear the door open behind me and the volume increase for a moment, but I got caught up in my freak and kept yelling at Mike.»...Who do you think you are? Just because you were the first one I loved doesn't mean you're the last!
I followed him into the parking lot in front of Heaven . I looked for an expensive car, but we headed for awhite pickup. “Wow, so this is yours? If I hadn't thought of it, I was expecting a fat Audi or BMW! No Ford pickup!' He unlocked the car. “No, mine is with my mom! It's my dad's!” Jayden gave me his shy smile. "And what kind of car do you have ?" He walked me to the passenger door. "A fat BMW!" When he tried to mock me, he had to laugh. "Where are we going?" He lifted the passenger door for me and I was surprised at how big and roomy the car was inside. But I didn't get an answer. He drove off and I had no choice but to listen to the radio. We were almost out of town, in a neighborhood I've never been to. When he stopped the car at the side of the road, I finally wanted to know more and broke the silence. "Jayden, where are we? What are we doing here?” He got out and before he closed the door I got my answer. "Just wait here, I'll go get something!" It wasn't the answer I
I started telling him about myself and trusted him completely. His gaze was directed at me and he radiated this warmth and security towards me.»Okay,.... well, in kindergarten I had my first great love, if you can call it that. His name was Thomas. We'd even kissed, just on the mouth, but he was my first boyfriend...' I smiled, thinking about that weightless time with Thomas. What was he doing today? After second grade, Thomas moved away with his family and I hadn't seen him since."That doesn't count..." Jayden laughed and gave me a quick wink. I had to laugh a little too."...okay, okay... So my first kiss....I had..with Dwayne..." I watched his reaction and he looked genuinely a little surprised. I got a little unsure at his look again and quickly continued talking. »...but that was just out of curiosity. We wanted to know how to kiss when we were twelve. So we thought we could try it together and kissed... It was so awful...' I laughed at the memory. Jayden just grinned. I had ne
There we were in Jayden's dad's pickup truck, right in front of my house. It was already six in the morning. I had no idea how the time went by so quickly, but Jayden felt the same way, I knew that.I looked over at him and he smiled at me with his tousled brown hair. "Thanks for the great evening... or rather night?!" He took my hand and kissed the back of my hand again. I didn't let go of his hand and kissed his cheek."I hope it wasn't so bad that we left your school party?" I shook my head slightly and stroked his hand, which I still held tightly."No, it was just right and the best breakfast I've ever had!" He smiled familiarly and pointed to the front door. I saw that the curtain on the window next to our front door moved a bit. Oh no."You'd better go inside..."I got very nervous because I didn't know what to expect at home. Hopefully I didn't get in trouble. "That must be my mom." I leaned in and planted a kiss on his warm lips, then quickly got out of the car. He waited unti
That's a really fat BMW. A matte black BMW was parked in front of our house and I was blown away by this car.Jayden held the door open for me and put his sunglasses back on. He planted a kiss on my cheek and I got in.When we finally drove off I turned the radio down. "What did my dad want from you?"He stared down the street. "It's not that important."I crossed my arms. "Jayden! Tell me!"He took a deep breath and began to explain it very calmly. "He made me realize I should be careful."I didn't understand. "What should you watch out for?"Jayden braked at a red light and looked at me. "Well, that with us! He warned me to leave you alone if I wasn't serious about you. After all, I'm a rock star!...” He looked at me, waiting for a reaction, but I looked sadly at the traffic light. “...Joey, it's okay. Look at the situation. He sees a famous guy with his vulnerable little daughter... I would do the same if I were him!'I shook my head. "It's not okay to threaten you!"But Jayden def
There was an excellent barbecue with everything your heart desired. It was so delicious and really really tasty that I stuffed myself totally full. I felt so bad after eating that I regretted eating so much.I helped clear the table with Debora while Jayden and his parents pounced on Dwayne. They questioned him, just like my parents did to Jayden earlier.Rachel was very grateful that we cleaned everything up, so she could relax too. I've always liked to help wherever I could.Debby told me where to find the toilet and I made my way through the big house. It was furnished as comfortably as I only knew from a catalog or TV series when they redecorated the houses.When I was on my way back out, I stopped briefly in the hallway to the living room. Family photos hung over the fireplace. I was blown away and even discovered Jayden as a little kid."What are you doing?" Jayden scared me to death and he wrapped his arms around me from behind and hugged me. He kissed my neck below my ear and
It was Sunday and I was hanging out alone with Dwayne again. I was with him and we played a bit on the PlayStation.In the afternoon Kirsten, Dan, Jane and Steve joined them. We had a lot of fun playing party games on the console and we all got to hang out together again.Dwayne's parents were with mine, having dinner together and enjoying the evening. So we had no storm. Dwayne ordered us some party pizza. As we were about to eat, Dan asked him. "Where is Debby anyway?"Dwayne spoke with his mouth full. "She actually wanted to be there for dinner!"Jane sat on Dan's lap. "Maybe something got in the way? She'll come...' And as soon as I said it out loud, the doorbell rang.Dwayne disappeared around the corner and several voices were heard. He came towards us with his widest grin. After that came Debby, two handsome boys I didn't know and Jayden. I didn't know I would see him and felt uncomfortable for a moment because I was wearing his hoodie, which he gave me on the pickup. He beamed
We got closer to our friends again and got a few laughs and high fives, mostly from the boys of course, but TJ and I gave them high fives. All in all, the evening was really great and when we took the taxi home to TJ, I was almost closing my eyes from tiredness.TJ unlocked his front door and let me go first. We were both very calm and I just trotted back and forth, from the bathroom back to the bed, back into the bathroom, briefly into the kitchen and then finally, made-up off, changed and completely exhausted, I lay down in his bed. TJ came over to me for a moment and got a pillow from his bed, then he disappeared around the corner onto his sofa and it wasn't until I left that I noticed that he was only wearing shorts and a tight-fitting black undershirt, his back was immaculate and really nice in this.A few minutes passed and I just didn't hear from him anymore. It was too quiet and my brain turned on again. I thought about so many different things again and became more and more a
This Adam was really nice and really really sweet. He flirted a bit too much and too much for me, but it was just about okay. Maybe there was something to what TJ told me tonight. Maybe I really need a one night stand or something like that, but definitely not today. Not with this Adam. Then kissing, but I would need a few more drinks to be able to overcome that. Adam didn't dance very well, the only thing he could do was rub his body against mine and it was a bit annoying. I loved dancing too much and didn't always need this close dancing, especially not with Adam, I preferred dancing with my friends, so I knew that nobody would rub against me, you could dance with them quite normally. Adam was glued to me and really tried everything to get close to me. He pulled away from me briefly and turned next to us where his friends were probably all on the dance floor. I finally continued dancing on my own, how nice that was, but it didn't last long because when Adam turned back to me he imme
tjShe looked good, really damn good. She stood next to me and tied her hair together, moaning annoyed and scolding something I didn't understand and we waited for our taxi in the fresh air."I do not feel like! Let's go somewhere else!” Joey sounded really confident that I would do something else with her bad commanding tone. So she certainly didn't get through with me.The taxi came, we got in and I told the driver we wanted to go to Heaven . Joey looked thoughtful and annoyed out the window while I checked my cell phone messages again. A couple of girls had reached out, one cuter than the other, but there was nothing I could do today except take care of Joey. I just wanted to be there for her.After I paid the taxi driver, we got out and crossed the street."Do you think they're mad that we're only here now?" Joey walked beside me, casually fiddling with her hair again."No, at least we're coming, that's something!" I could already see Jamal in the distance and we walked towards hi
No thought of Jayden and off to TJ's home, just away from where everything reminds me of him . The exit would be so perfect, but no, TJ started talking about Jayden again and when we drove away, Jayden and Debby were of course standing at the Staffords' door, who were probably also just leaving the party. His gaze followed us and Jayden looked slightly confused and disappointed, staring at us as we pulled away in TJ's car. Debby's gaze, on the other hand, was a bit sour and I turned away from them again. TJ frowned at the street and I wasn't sure if he had seen Jayden at all, but didn't want to dig deeper. Jayden looked so damn good that my thoughts just turned to him again. I had forgotten how sweet he was and how his eyes met me again and again, especially what he could trigger in me, unimaginable. I was worried about how I would convey to him today what he thought of me and what would have happened if we had talked until TJ snapped me out of my thoughts. "What's the matter with tha
Great. I sat alone at the table with her sister and a silence fell between us. Slightly uncomfortable. I looked around to see how long Joey needed, but couldn't find her right away. Judith cleared her throat. »...um... I know we both had a rough start... But you're the only one Joey can get right now and I really appreciate that! Without you she would still be sitting in her room and probably wouldn't even have her degree in her pocket! I don't know what you have about you that makes her live again...but thanks TJ! For real! ...And since Tim thinks you're "okay" too, I may have misjudged you... That...that I'm sorry!"I was briefly flabbergasted by what she said and looked around again to see if Joey was finally coming, I finally spotted her but she was just pouring drinks and I turned back to Judith. »Well, I think anyone could have brought her out of her absolute low point...«She interjected and interrupted me. "No definitely not! I don't know how you do it. But it's the right way
After graduation, my friends and I were all invited to Dwayne's house with our families together. It was absolutely great that Neil made such a nice party for us in his garden. There I stood in my room and hung the robe back on my room door, looked at myself again in the mirror and was unsure because I didn't know if Jayden would come and if I would meet him there, let alone I was afraid of what would happen if he were there. Will he talk to me then? Am I going to go up to him and talk? Are we ignoring each other? Am I breaking down again? I shouldn't be so scared that I might run into him, but it's really killing me. Every thought I give to him kills me!!!!But I was glad that TJ still came and I got some emotional support.I went over to the Staffords with my parents and I was really nervous. There were a lot of people there, but I did n't see him . That was good. Was it? I really couldn't take it otherwise. I didn't want to see him, not even from a distance. I wasn't even ready to
"Are you nervous yet?" Today was the graduation ceremony on the sports field behind the school gym and I thought my mom was more nervous than me."It's still okay!" She handed me my red robe, which I put on and smiled happily at me.Dad, Judith and Tim were waiting at the car and I was allowed to sit in the front with my dad, who, like everyone else, had dressed up really well. He was super proud of me, I knew that, and honestly, I was a little bit too. The thought of graduating from high school was great, but it also sucked because I didn't know what I was going to do afterward. The college in town only had me on the waiting list, so I had to wait another semester because I didn't want to leave. My friends all had college places, some of them far away, which would mean that we wouldn't see each other again soon, at least very little and rarely. It sucked not knowing how my life would go on."Is your junkie boyfriend coming too?" I turned with a scathing look at Judith after Mom even
TJ was by my side the whole time, texting me daily and trying to cheer me up in any way he could. I haven't heard from Jayden for weeks, which was a good thing. After all, five weeks have passed since we parted ways at the airport. The first few days were the worst, some of which I can't even remember. My friends also said that I was just in a trance and not really responsive, which could also explain my memory gaps. With each week the pain in me lessened and my parents were really touching towards me. They both had a slight problem with TJ because Debby once told them everything about him in a short conversation, about his previous drug history, fights and his many affairs. Of course they weren't enthusiastic about him at all, but they still allowed him to visit me very often. Judith never liked him anyway, which he felt every time. I felt sorry for TJ because my family actually had something against him, but just tried to put it aside, which I've gotten really good at.We finally ha
tjShe lay back in my arms and closed her eyes.I have no idea what exactly happened but I would love to meet Jayden right now and tell him what a HUGE asshole he is! I would definitely smack him in such a way that he would first get to know the floor better. I really can't stand to see her like this anymore. What happened? He must have broken up, otherwise she would have been a little more composed! That fucking wannabe rocker!!! I'll kill him!!! It drives me crazy to see this woman suffer like that. How can he hurt this wonderful person like that? What did he do to her? Did she love him that much? If she were my girlfriend I would never have done that to her! This is such a great woman that you can't give it away anymore! He's such an asshole and so stupid! If he crosses my path, he's due!! ….But what am I talking about? I would never have a girlfriend because I couldn't keep it. I wouldn't be faithful and just as much of an asshole as him! I'm not a relationship type, when I look a