I looked at his locked lips as he slept next to me so sweetly and completely contentedly. As always, I could hardly take my eyes off him. It's really hard to believe that only two months have passed since I let this cute and totally crazy guy into my life. What is he doing to me? How can you be so addicted and totally infatuated with just one person that was soooo unknown to me two really long fucking months ago?His arm was still on my hip and I brushed his messy dark brown hair from his forehead. His dimple was visible even without laughing and I'd like to kiss that exact spot. But then he moved very slowly and the first thing he did was show me his best smile before he even opened his eyes."That was the best night I've had in a long time!" He sighed and stretched out.I smiled at him and was so happy to wake up next to him. It was so nice that I could get used to it. Everything just fell into place between Jayden and me, it was so perfect. Maybe a bit too perfect, but at the momen
I managed to take Judith with me to TheHeartbreakers concerts or events on several occasions . She was thrilled every time and to be honest, so was I. I watched my boyfriend being adored and celebrated by others and continued to watch his career go uphill.At Christmas we finally had time for ourselves again, for three long weeks and it was damn nice. I gave him a small photo collage of us, a new Hoddy and a small pillow. Whenever he slept with me, he always complained that he was missing a small pillow, especially when traveling in hotels. He was really happy about the small gifts. He gave me beautiful jewellery, a purchase voucher in the shopping center and an SLR camera. I told him ages ago that I like taking photos and I always prefer to be the person behind the camera than in front of it. It was really thoughtful of him and I was so happy to have so much time with him.The longest so far was 3.5 weeks that I didn't see Jayden between his performances and trips. But when he was he
I continued to watch Kirsten and TJ from a distance. I had no idea what to make of it. Steve turned me to him and continued dancing, I had to laugh but couldn't take my eyes off the two of them."Joey, . . . that's definitely not going to happen!"I looked questioningly at Steve. "And how do you know that?"He just smiled. He kept smiling and bit his lip in embarrassment. It clicked in my mind and I got it after Steve's look. “You and Kirsten? Since when?” I laughed and waited for his answer.Steve blushed slightly. "...a week or so...but we haven't gotten any closer yet, all I know is that she's into me too...that's why she's there!"I pointed to TJ and Kirsten. "But it won't work that way... If you let TJ get close to her, remember that he's had a lot of women, so he knows how to talk to them!""I don't give a damn! If she wants me, she won't mess around with TJ..." My gaze rested on Steve for a moment and I knew that he was absolutely right in what he said.As if they knew we were
TJ sat on this Viktor and I watched him smack him over and over again. I pushed myself all the way through and stood right in front of him. "TJ! STOP!!!!« He drew back and then looked at me. Collin came over and pulled TJ off Viktor. He was still looking at me terrified and Collin was talking to TJ. "Never mind you're going to kill him, mate!" He helped TJ to his feet and I went to him. I had never seen him like this before. That anger. His face was bruised and red where Viktor had hit him. He was bleeding from his lip, which TJ immediately wiped away. Viktor lay on the floor coughing, with more blood on his face, trying to get up.I walked over to Collin who was standing right next to TJ. "I'll go now and take him with me! ...Thanks for stopping him!' He nodded at me and I started running. I heard footsteps behind me and knew it was Steve and TJ.Kirsten stood by the taxi and waved us over. She gave TJ a startled look at seeing him like this. Steve sat in the back with me and TJ whil
It was already spring. The days and time passed and Jayden and I had been together for almost half a year. I rarely saw TJ anymore, but we always got along well when we were doing something. He was always on the road somewhere else with his band, which really annoyed him.»I hate being on the road so much! I won't be able to do this much longer!” We sat in a bar and drank a couple of cocktails."Oh yes? And what's your plan?” I wish Jayden would say something like that.“I'm going to college like you!... did you finally get accepted? The semesters are starting soon!” TJ stared at me expectantly.»Topic change!...«He looked at me sadly and compassionately. "Shit, still nothing?"»I'm on the waiting list for the summer semester anyway! I definitely won't be able to get in there again! It doesn't matter, I signed it up way too late myself and then I have to bridge it somehow...""It'll be fine! Then we can study together?!« he stated with a grin.“Are you serious about your band? You re
It was a classic college party. People were standing around everywhere, in front of the building, in the garden, hallway, kitchen, living room where a few were dancing, outside a small group was playing beer pong and another group was spinning the bottle. I looked at Tim with amusement. "Beer pong is still cool, but aren't they too old for spin the bottle?"He grinned at me. "Your first college party?"I thought about it for a moment and couldn't think of anything else. "Yes!"Tim laughed briefly. »There are always idiots playing it.«I followed Judith and Tim into the kitchen and we got ourselves something to drink. I had fun with my sister again for a long time and was finally able to get to know Tim better. I remembered my phone and took a quick look at it. A couple of calls from TJ and a text from Jayden which I answered immediately. TJ, I forgot to call back here, it was way too loud.I saw someone walking past the kitchen door who looked familiar to me with his dark skin and I b
We finally had some time to ourselves in the car and I tried to hug Jayden. We really burst out, this relief at having each other again. We kissed a few times and I couldn't get enough of his lips."You look so sexy in a suit, you know that?" I pulled his shirt back and kissed him again.»Look at you... You are beautiful! I missed you so much!!"Jayden was the one of us who could take a step back and interrupt our wild greetings. »Otherwise we didn't see anything from your prom!« He was right and I strapped myself in so that we could get going.The gym was full and we pushed our way through the foyer for a while before we could find my friends. They all stood together and I was so glad to be here with Jayden. My classmates stared at Jayden and pushed straight through to him. I nodded to him that I was fine once he was available for the fans, especially for photos and autographs. He was busy for about half an hour until a couple of teachers intervened and they told the students to leav
I was at the diner around the corner with Jane, Kirsten and Debby. It was Ladies Night here, a DJ was playing and sparkling wine was dirt cheap to buy like nowhere else, of course only for women and nobody was interested in our age. We were still sitting on the first bottle and toasting to our forthcoming graduation. Kirsten raved about Steve and spilled her bedtime stories, of course, a little teased by the champagne. Debby wasn't sure, but that's how it always went with us when we were out and about without boys. We mostly talked and laughed about it, but everything was fine between us in our girls' group and we had the most fun together.Jane was in the middle of talking when her cell phone rang and she answered it. Kirsten looked at me and raised her eyebrows. "How was your prom night?"Debby groaned and took a sip from her drink. »Please no details from my brother! ...Please!"Kirsten looked back and forth between me and Debby, laughing. "I totally forgot again that he's your bro
We got closer to our friends again and got a few laughs and high fives, mostly from the boys of course, but TJ and I gave them high fives. All in all, the evening was really great and when we took the taxi home to TJ, I was almost closing my eyes from tiredness.TJ unlocked his front door and let me go first. We were both very calm and I just trotted back and forth, from the bathroom back to the bed, back into the bathroom, briefly into the kitchen and then finally, made-up off, changed and completely exhausted, I lay down in his bed. TJ came over to me for a moment and got a pillow from his bed, then he disappeared around the corner onto his sofa and it wasn't until I left that I noticed that he was only wearing shorts and a tight-fitting black undershirt, his back was immaculate and really nice in this.A few minutes passed and I just didn't hear from him anymore. It was too quiet and my brain turned on again. I thought about so many different things again and became more and more a
This Adam was really nice and really really sweet. He flirted a bit too much and too much for me, but it was just about okay. Maybe there was something to what TJ told me tonight. Maybe I really need a one night stand or something like that, but definitely not today. Not with this Adam. Then kissing, but I would need a few more drinks to be able to overcome that. Adam didn't dance very well, the only thing he could do was rub his body against mine and it was a bit annoying. I loved dancing too much and didn't always need this close dancing, especially not with Adam, I preferred dancing with my friends, so I knew that nobody would rub against me, you could dance with them quite normally. Adam was glued to me and really tried everything to get close to me. He pulled away from me briefly and turned next to us where his friends were probably all on the dance floor. I finally continued dancing on my own, how nice that was, but it didn't last long because when Adam turned back to me he imme
tjShe looked good, really damn good. She stood next to me and tied her hair together, moaning annoyed and scolding something I didn't understand and we waited for our taxi in the fresh air."I do not feel like! Let's go somewhere else!” Joey sounded really confident that I would do something else with her bad commanding tone. So she certainly didn't get through with me.The taxi came, we got in and I told the driver we wanted to go to Heaven . Joey looked thoughtful and annoyed out the window while I checked my cell phone messages again. A couple of girls had reached out, one cuter than the other, but there was nothing I could do today except take care of Joey. I just wanted to be there for her.After I paid the taxi driver, we got out and crossed the street."Do you think they're mad that we're only here now?" Joey walked beside me, casually fiddling with her hair again."No, at least we're coming, that's something!" I could already see Jamal in the distance and we walked towards hi
No thought of Jayden and off to TJ's home, just away from where everything reminds me of him . The exit would be so perfect, but no, TJ started talking about Jayden again and when we drove away, Jayden and Debby were of course standing at the Staffords' door, who were probably also just leaving the party. His gaze followed us and Jayden looked slightly confused and disappointed, staring at us as we pulled away in TJ's car. Debby's gaze, on the other hand, was a bit sour and I turned away from them again. TJ frowned at the street and I wasn't sure if he had seen Jayden at all, but didn't want to dig deeper. Jayden looked so damn good that my thoughts just turned to him again. I had forgotten how sweet he was and how his eyes met me again and again, especially what he could trigger in me, unimaginable. I was worried about how I would convey to him today what he thought of me and what would have happened if we had talked until TJ snapped me out of my thoughts. "What's the matter with tha
Great. I sat alone at the table with her sister and a silence fell between us. Slightly uncomfortable. I looked around to see how long Joey needed, but couldn't find her right away. Judith cleared her throat. »...um... I know we both had a rough start... But you're the only one Joey can get right now and I really appreciate that! Without you she would still be sitting in her room and probably wouldn't even have her degree in her pocket! I don't know what you have about you that makes her live again...but thanks TJ! For real! ...And since Tim thinks you're "okay" too, I may have misjudged you... That...that I'm sorry!"I was briefly flabbergasted by what she said and looked around again to see if Joey was finally coming, I finally spotted her but she was just pouring drinks and I turned back to Judith. »Well, I think anyone could have brought her out of her absolute low point...«She interjected and interrupted me. "No definitely not! I don't know how you do it. But it's the right way
After graduation, my friends and I were all invited to Dwayne's house with our families together. It was absolutely great that Neil made such a nice party for us in his garden. There I stood in my room and hung the robe back on my room door, looked at myself again in the mirror and was unsure because I didn't know if Jayden would come and if I would meet him there, let alone I was afraid of what would happen if he were there. Will he talk to me then? Am I going to go up to him and talk? Are we ignoring each other? Am I breaking down again? I shouldn't be so scared that I might run into him, but it's really killing me. Every thought I give to him kills me!!!!But I was glad that TJ still came and I got some emotional support.I went over to the Staffords with my parents and I was really nervous. There were a lot of people there, but I did n't see him . That was good. Was it? I really couldn't take it otherwise. I didn't want to see him, not even from a distance. I wasn't even ready to
"Are you nervous yet?" Today was the graduation ceremony on the sports field behind the school gym and I thought my mom was more nervous than me."It's still okay!" She handed me my red robe, which I put on and smiled happily at me.Dad, Judith and Tim were waiting at the car and I was allowed to sit in the front with my dad, who, like everyone else, had dressed up really well. He was super proud of me, I knew that, and honestly, I was a little bit too. The thought of graduating from high school was great, but it also sucked because I didn't know what I was going to do afterward. The college in town only had me on the waiting list, so I had to wait another semester because I didn't want to leave. My friends all had college places, some of them far away, which would mean that we wouldn't see each other again soon, at least very little and rarely. It sucked not knowing how my life would go on."Is your junkie boyfriend coming too?" I turned with a scathing look at Judith after Mom even
TJ was by my side the whole time, texting me daily and trying to cheer me up in any way he could. I haven't heard from Jayden for weeks, which was a good thing. After all, five weeks have passed since we parted ways at the airport. The first few days were the worst, some of which I can't even remember. My friends also said that I was just in a trance and not really responsive, which could also explain my memory gaps. With each week the pain in me lessened and my parents were really touching towards me. They both had a slight problem with TJ because Debby once told them everything about him in a short conversation, about his previous drug history, fights and his many affairs. Of course they weren't enthusiastic about him at all, but they still allowed him to visit me very often. Judith never liked him anyway, which he felt every time. I felt sorry for TJ because my family actually had something against him, but just tried to put it aside, which I've gotten really good at.We finally ha
tjShe lay back in my arms and closed her eyes.I have no idea what exactly happened but I would love to meet Jayden right now and tell him what a HUGE asshole he is! I would definitely smack him in such a way that he would first get to know the floor better. I really can't stand to see her like this anymore. What happened? He must have broken up, otherwise she would have been a little more composed! That fucking wannabe rocker!!! I'll kill him!!! It drives me crazy to see this woman suffer like that. How can he hurt this wonderful person like that? What did he do to her? Did she love him that much? If she were my girlfriend I would never have done that to her! This is such a great woman that you can't give it away anymore! He's such an asshole and so stupid! If he crosses my path, he's due!! ….But what am I talking about? I would never have a girlfriend because I couldn't keep it. I wouldn't be faithful and just as much of an asshole as him! I'm not a relationship type, when I look a