"I have no idea how to find Jayden here?!" Jane had to laugh at the crowd in front of us."Just wait until he shows up somewhere, you don't even know how he's dressed up... or just text him!"That was a great idea, which I implemented immediately. Just as I was sending it off, a guy came up to Jane and me and started flirting. He asked a lot of questions and wanted to know all sorts of things. He was wearing a silent-of-the-lambs suit and had his mask on his head. This guy was really funny and soon had all the pick-up lines out there. Eventually Dan joined them and made it clear to the guy that Jane was taken. He pulled away and disappeared into the crowd and there was still no sign of Jayden. Where is he?I headed for the toilet after two mugs of vodka and cherry. Shit, a little snake. So I queued up and waited for the queue to clear and it was my turn. A few people further down the line talked and laughed, but it wasn't ordinary conversation. I felt like they were being watched and
When the taxi took me and my friends home, the sky was already turning yellow and red. We'd been partying all night and I was really longing for my bed now. The evening was long, my feet hurt and I could hardly keep my eyes open while driving. It was the best Halloween party I've ever been to. I will never forget this party. It was the first party where everyone was friends with Jayden and his brother and it was the first time Jayden and I had been a couple in such a public way. He gave me the confidence to rise above all the stares and comments and ignore it. He stood by me and showed me how he couldn't care if we kissed and people gave us weird looks.I love him! He's perfect for me!I don't know why the weekends were always over so quickly. Jayden was either rehearsing all week or had important appointments. I hardly saw him, but I was looking forward to the weekend. His mom was getting married on Saturday and I was really looking forward to the party. Weddings are always something
I looked forward to the evening. I have no idea what TJ was up to but I was looking forward to seeing him. I just got out of the shower and was wearing jogging shorts and a top. My hair was still wrapped in my towel.I was sitting at my dressing table and starting to apply lotion and makeup when there was a knock on the door."Mom, I just need a minute! I'll be right down..."The door opened and I rolled my eyes because Mom was impatient again. I looked over my mirror at the door and saw Jayden's mad eyes fixed on me. "I'm not your mom, but can I come in?"I turned to him and was so happy to see him. I hugged him and kissed his warm lips. His cheeks burned and his pulse raced. Jayden gave the door a shove and it slammed shut."What are you doing here? I thought we'd see each other tomorrow?""An appointment was canceled..." He bit his lower lip and narrowed his eyes briefly. »...so I thought we could both... Well... chill out or do something else? Whatever you fancy!«I took his cheek
I've been waiting in front of the cinema for half an hour. Josie will be happy when she sees that I already bought the tickets and popcorn for us. Where is she? The movie starts in 15 minutes! Everywhere there are small groups or people who have met in front of the cinema to finally go in. I put out my fag and looked back at Josie.My cell phone vibrated and I pulled it out of my back pocket. josie I didn't have a good feeling about it. "...Hey..."» ...hehe…. TJ?.... TJ,.... Sorry we have to move this... Haha.... She was talking to someone else on the side and giggling like crazy. She seemed very happy and exuberant, which annoyed me a bit. » ...please let me be brief…. tj? Do you hear? ….haha that tickles…. Stop it, Jayden... "Of course. Jayden! He's ruining my movie night with Josie. Fuck."Understood! See you then« I was really annoyed."Yes, we'll catch up on that..." And she just hung up.Fuck. i hate her boyfriend He'll see her all day tomorrow. And we had agreed beforehand. F
Jayden was still right above me and he looked into my eyes so lovingly that I couldn't get anything out of it other than to breathe "I love you...". My hand ran through his hair and he kissed me on the mouth, madly in love."Me too you!" He got off me, put on his shorts and went into the bathroom.When he came back, he lay down under the covers next to me and pulled me to him. I kept rubbing his chest and couldn't stop grinning.He was really good and so loving, I didn't know that at all. When I had sex with Mike, it wasn't that exciting. On the contrary, it was sometimes really like that, I just thought "Let him do it, then he'll calm down..." It was always the same, and he had no sense of what I liked, for Mike it was just that he was satisfied.The sex with Jayden, on the other hand, was completely different. Full of love and tenderness. When he felt my body react when he kissed me in certain places, he smiled contentedly and continued the same way. He also touched me very differen
I got my small duffel bag out of Dwayne's car and gave Jayden an excited look. We went to his BMW and he opened the trunk while Dwayne and Debby got in the back. "What have you got with you? A second outfit?” He grinned, put my bag inside and closed the trunk again.I spoke very quietly, but Jayden understood every word. "No, I thought it would be late today, ... and that I'll be with you..." He took my hand, kissed it and I didn't manage to finish my sentence."Yes, ... that would be nice!" He took me to his passenger door and held it open for me to get in. The dress was floor-length and I had to make sure that everything was in the car and that I didn't pinch anything.While driving, Jayden just held my hand except when he needed to shift gears, but he really wanted to be near me. He also smiled at me the whole time and then I smiled back.Jayden took my hand and we walked past the ballroom to the grounds. Everything was prepared for the ceremony and we looked for our seats in the f
"What's that...?" I skipped the expletive in front of Taylor, who just grinned at me.'Someone who's after your friend! ...But don't worry, it's much too cheap!« Shouldn't I worry? They definitely know each other otherwise they wouldn't have greeted each other like that! That jealousy always comes up in me... Shit!"I'll go to the bar for a moment!"Taylor also stood up next to me. "To Jayden?"I emptied my glass of water for a moment. "No, no!... Across the hall!" I could hear his footsteps behind me and he followed me to the liquor bar.I ordered two of the bartender's choice, I didn't care what we drank but now I needed a shot or two. I tried to have my back to Jayden because I couldn't even risk a look."Are you getting so down?" Taylor looked at me cautiously.I sighed. 'I just can't bear to see him like that with someone else! I know I'm way too jealous, but Taylor, this bitch is totally throwing herself at my boyfriend! ...And he allows it without further ado!«Taylor laughed w
jaydenWhen there was cake we all sat back at the table and ate again. The band played again and Debby dragged Joey to dance with her. They were having fun and Mom would join them too and try to move rhythmically to the music. The band made really good music, but I kept looking at Joey dancing and laughing. She was really beaming.After a while the band announced a slow dance and Mom grabbed Debby. Bob walked up to Joey and tapped her on the shoulder and shortly after that she nodded and he was dancing with my friend. Bob was a good mover and the way he rolled Joey around and danced with her made her happy.Halfway through the second song, Taylor replaced him. He grinned at me and put his arm around Joey. He talked to her a bit while they danced and pulled her even closer to him. What is he doing there? Sure, he's my best friend, but why is that ass dancing with her like that?Joey threw her head back and laughed exuberantly. Actually, she should only laugh like that in my arms, but I
We got closer to our friends again and got a few laughs and high fives, mostly from the boys of course, but TJ and I gave them high fives. All in all, the evening was really great and when we took the taxi home to TJ, I was almost closing my eyes from tiredness.TJ unlocked his front door and let me go first. We were both very calm and I just trotted back and forth, from the bathroom back to the bed, back into the bathroom, briefly into the kitchen and then finally, made-up off, changed and completely exhausted, I lay down in his bed. TJ came over to me for a moment and got a pillow from his bed, then he disappeared around the corner onto his sofa and it wasn't until I left that I noticed that he was only wearing shorts and a tight-fitting black undershirt, his back was immaculate and really nice in this.A few minutes passed and I just didn't hear from him anymore. It was too quiet and my brain turned on again. I thought about so many different things again and became more and more a
This Adam was really nice and really really sweet. He flirted a bit too much and too much for me, but it was just about okay. Maybe there was something to what TJ told me tonight. Maybe I really need a one night stand or something like that, but definitely not today. Not with this Adam. Then kissing, but I would need a few more drinks to be able to overcome that. Adam didn't dance very well, the only thing he could do was rub his body against mine and it was a bit annoying. I loved dancing too much and didn't always need this close dancing, especially not with Adam, I preferred dancing with my friends, so I knew that nobody would rub against me, you could dance with them quite normally. Adam was glued to me and really tried everything to get close to me. He pulled away from me briefly and turned next to us where his friends were probably all on the dance floor. I finally continued dancing on my own, how nice that was, but it didn't last long because when Adam turned back to me he imme
tjShe looked good, really damn good. She stood next to me and tied her hair together, moaning annoyed and scolding something I didn't understand and we waited for our taxi in the fresh air."I do not feel like! Let's go somewhere else!” Joey sounded really confident that I would do something else with her bad commanding tone. So she certainly didn't get through with me.The taxi came, we got in and I told the driver we wanted to go to Heaven . Joey looked thoughtful and annoyed out the window while I checked my cell phone messages again. A couple of girls had reached out, one cuter than the other, but there was nothing I could do today except take care of Joey. I just wanted to be there for her.After I paid the taxi driver, we got out and crossed the street."Do you think they're mad that we're only here now?" Joey walked beside me, casually fiddling with her hair again."No, at least we're coming, that's something!" I could already see Jamal in the distance and we walked towards hi
No thought of Jayden and off to TJ's home, just away from where everything reminds me of him . The exit would be so perfect, but no, TJ started talking about Jayden again and when we drove away, Jayden and Debby were of course standing at the Staffords' door, who were probably also just leaving the party. His gaze followed us and Jayden looked slightly confused and disappointed, staring at us as we pulled away in TJ's car. Debby's gaze, on the other hand, was a bit sour and I turned away from them again. TJ frowned at the street and I wasn't sure if he had seen Jayden at all, but didn't want to dig deeper. Jayden looked so damn good that my thoughts just turned to him again. I had forgotten how sweet he was and how his eyes met me again and again, especially what he could trigger in me, unimaginable. I was worried about how I would convey to him today what he thought of me and what would have happened if we had talked until TJ snapped me out of my thoughts. "What's the matter with tha
Great. I sat alone at the table with her sister and a silence fell between us. Slightly uncomfortable. I looked around to see how long Joey needed, but couldn't find her right away. Judith cleared her throat. »...um... I know we both had a rough start... But you're the only one Joey can get right now and I really appreciate that! Without you she would still be sitting in her room and probably wouldn't even have her degree in her pocket! I don't know what you have about you that makes her live again...but thanks TJ! For real! ...And since Tim thinks you're "okay" too, I may have misjudged you... That...that I'm sorry!"I was briefly flabbergasted by what she said and looked around again to see if Joey was finally coming, I finally spotted her but she was just pouring drinks and I turned back to Judith. »Well, I think anyone could have brought her out of her absolute low point...«She interjected and interrupted me. "No definitely not! I don't know how you do it. But it's the right way
After graduation, my friends and I were all invited to Dwayne's house with our families together. It was absolutely great that Neil made such a nice party for us in his garden. There I stood in my room and hung the robe back on my room door, looked at myself again in the mirror and was unsure because I didn't know if Jayden would come and if I would meet him there, let alone I was afraid of what would happen if he were there. Will he talk to me then? Am I going to go up to him and talk? Are we ignoring each other? Am I breaking down again? I shouldn't be so scared that I might run into him, but it's really killing me. Every thought I give to him kills me!!!!But I was glad that TJ still came and I got some emotional support.I went over to the Staffords with my parents and I was really nervous. There were a lot of people there, but I did n't see him . That was good. Was it? I really couldn't take it otherwise. I didn't want to see him, not even from a distance. I wasn't even ready to
"Are you nervous yet?" Today was the graduation ceremony on the sports field behind the school gym and I thought my mom was more nervous than me."It's still okay!" She handed me my red robe, which I put on and smiled happily at me.Dad, Judith and Tim were waiting at the car and I was allowed to sit in the front with my dad, who, like everyone else, had dressed up really well. He was super proud of me, I knew that, and honestly, I was a little bit too. The thought of graduating from high school was great, but it also sucked because I didn't know what I was going to do afterward. The college in town only had me on the waiting list, so I had to wait another semester because I didn't want to leave. My friends all had college places, some of them far away, which would mean that we wouldn't see each other again soon, at least very little and rarely. It sucked not knowing how my life would go on."Is your junkie boyfriend coming too?" I turned with a scathing look at Judith after Mom even
TJ was by my side the whole time, texting me daily and trying to cheer me up in any way he could. I haven't heard from Jayden for weeks, which was a good thing. After all, five weeks have passed since we parted ways at the airport. The first few days were the worst, some of which I can't even remember. My friends also said that I was just in a trance and not really responsive, which could also explain my memory gaps. With each week the pain in me lessened and my parents were really touching towards me. They both had a slight problem with TJ because Debby once told them everything about him in a short conversation, about his previous drug history, fights and his many affairs. Of course they weren't enthusiastic about him at all, but they still allowed him to visit me very often. Judith never liked him anyway, which he felt every time. I felt sorry for TJ because my family actually had something against him, but just tried to put it aside, which I've gotten really good at.We finally ha
tjShe lay back in my arms and closed her eyes.I have no idea what exactly happened but I would love to meet Jayden right now and tell him what a HUGE asshole he is! I would definitely smack him in such a way that he would first get to know the floor better. I really can't stand to see her like this anymore. What happened? He must have broken up, otherwise she would have been a little more composed! That fucking wannabe rocker!!! I'll kill him!!! It drives me crazy to see this woman suffer like that. How can he hurt this wonderful person like that? What did he do to her? Did she love him that much? If she were my girlfriend I would never have done that to her! This is such a great woman that you can't give it away anymore! He's such an asshole and so stupid! If he crosses my path, he's due!! ….But what am I talking about? I would never have a girlfriend because I couldn't keep it. I wouldn't be faithful and just as much of an asshole as him! I'm not a relationship type, when I look a