How did I do that again? Where am I now? how do i get back I actually just wanted to go to the toilet for a moment and said that I would find my way back to the cabin without any problems, but I couldn't bear to go home without going to the toilet again first.Yes, I had found the toilet too, but I must have taken a wrong turn somewhere. I haven't been here yet and there were lots of names on the cabins that I didn't know.I spotted a woman from the staff team. "Excuse me? How do I get to the exit from here?” She smiled and explained when I had to turn where, but only half of it stuck with me. Crap. I just went in the direction the woman had explained to me."Joey!" It was Dwayne, and it lifted my heart. He came towards me with Debby and behind them I discovered the buffet and the large lounge. »...man, we've been looking for you everywhere! Jayden is already going, but in the other direction! Come on, come on...' I followed him.We walked through the many tables where people were sti
It was really a wonderful evening with Jayden. We were still chilling with his crew in the rehearsal room, which was really big. The atmosphere was very exuberant and harmonious throughout the evening and Jayden just couldn't keep his hands off me. But it was also difficult for me to be without him for just a little while after he made me the happiest person alive. I couldn't think of a happier moment than before with Jayden. His eyes radiated this warm security as he confessed his love to me. He had done it, he really managed to win my entire heart over to him. I could just take off and roar out at the world that I love Jayden more than anything.When he drove me home, he even brought me to the door. Everything was so carefree and easy with him. Jayden didn't let go of my hand and pulled me to him in front of the door. I stood on the same level and was now at eye level with him. My hands were on his neck and I ran my fingers through his hair."Thank you for the day! It was really ni
The first guests disappeared after the famous "hour of decency" and the alcohol had an effect on me. A few danced to the music blasting out of the player and Debby and I joined them. We both danced, slightly drunk, with the small dance group at the back of the garden.Dwayne kept laughing as he watched us. It amused him because we also did a lot of nonsense on the side and fooled around.When I turned back to Dwayne, I saw Debby walking towards him and he himself stood up and shook someone's hand in greeting and laughed as he did so. Beside me, a girl screeched and another jumped up and down. What the hell...?I also followed Debby and she just gave Taylor and Simon a hug in greeting. My heart raced at the thought of Jayden being here. I stretched out and found him with my sister. He congratulated her, guitar in hand, and the only thing I could understand was "...we don't have a present, but could we play a bit?".She beamed from ear to ear and clapped her hands excitedly. 'It's a per
It was three o'clock in the morning and almost all the guests had left. Four of Judith's friends, including the girl who liked Jayden, 3 more boys and Tim were still there and my friends. Neil and Elena have already staggered home and that was putting it mildly. My parents were already in bed and only Judith's CD player was playing music.I could see Tim on the player and shortly after a slow song came on. He finally used his opportunity and asked Judith to slow dance. She beamed at him and wrapped her arms around him. I stood there and watched the two of them look so good together and they both seemed so happy.Dwayne grabbed Debby and dragged her to the back of the garden, he too was dying to dance with her, slightly drunk. He took her arms, she laughed really heartily and threw her head back for a moment, but Dwayne laughed with her and finally wrapped her arms around his neck before pulling her hips all the way up. The two were totally in love, every blind person could see that. T
I didn't answer that, but it didn't matter, she fell asleep on my lap and I had to get her into her bed somehow, it was already half past four. I put her on, keeping her eyes closed, and then took her in my arms. She put her limp arms around my neck and she looked really exhausted. Her hair hung slightly in her face and I stopped Judith, who was just bringing her last guests to the door. "Judith, where is her room?"She smiled at me and had an uncertain look at Joey on my arm. "Upstairs, the very last door...there is a 102 on her door because she thought it was funny to unscrew her motel room number when we were out and then put it on her own room door!" She smiled at this little reminder .This beautiful woman in my arms surprised me again and again. I carried her up and she continued to sleep. My breath hitched faster than I was in front of her door and there were actually three metal numbers stuck to it. I had to grin and set Joey down on her feet. I opened her door. “Joey, we're u
Crap. My head hurt so bad. I really had too much wine yesterday and I have no idea if Jayden was still in my room or not.I didn't get up until midday and I had to grin when I found my dad on the sofa just as exhausted. He was sprawled, coffee in hand, staring at the television. My mom was sitting in the chair reading a book. She spotted me first and smiled. "Hey, are you okay? Where's Jayden?” Okay, he was actually still in my room . Dad sat up so I could sit next to him."What?" Dad grinned at me and I really wasn't ready in the head yet. »...I need a headache pill!«My mom got up and went to the kitchen. "Judith told us Jayden brought you into the room... So...?" She came back with a glass of water and a pill. I didn't know what they wanted me to say, so I took the pill first and then looked at my dad, then at my mom. They really were both sitting there, eyebrows raised and a steady gaze at me. I took another sip of water and as soon as I put it down my dad asked what they wanted t
Jayden got in touch with me Sunday night. He told me about his flight and that fans were already waiting at the airport. He really made an effort to let me be a part of his little trip and to tell me about all the things he did and experienced. Most of the time I listened to him because there was nothing new about me. We talked on the phone until eleven o'clock when I told him that I should sleep now because I had school the next day. He was very understanding and promised to call me back tomorrow after school."...After school we'll meet at Danny's for dinner!" Dwayne said it during the lunch break when I had just eaten and I was really looking forward to seeing Thomas again. Dwayne had actually managed to keep in touch with Thomas and already made something out with him.Debby just joined us at the table. “Cool, so all of us? And then we'll do something else?” She didn't even notice what Thomas was saying and everyone fell silent. It was Dwayne's job to somehow teach her that her br
Thomas texted me all the time and almost always made me laugh. Yes, it was really a bit crazy that we got along so well, but he always had time to write and after all he was the one who wanted to meet us all again on Friday. It really was as if he had never been away.Jayden also checked in with me every day. Sometimes more, sometimes less, so I knew when he was busy and when he was having a leisurely day. I told him about Friday, but he already knew about Debby and avoided the topic of Thomas completely. But it was okay with me before there was an argument afterwards.My cell phone rang Thursday afternoon, but it wasn't Jayden. No, I was totally surprised when I read "Thomas" on my display. I stood in the kitchen and my mom unpacked the groceries next to me."Hi Thomas!"»Call me TJ... haha... what are you doing? ' It was loud in the background, as if he had been on the road."I'm about to help my mom cook, why?" I could hear a chuckle.» Oh, I would have had time now and just wanted
We got closer to our friends again and got a few laughs and high fives, mostly from the boys of course, but TJ and I gave them high fives. All in all, the evening was really great and when we took the taxi home to TJ, I was almost closing my eyes from tiredness.TJ unlocked his front door and let me go first. We were both very calm and I just trotted back and forth, from the bathroom back to the bed, back into the bathroom, briefly into the kitchen and then finally, made-up off, changed and completely exhausted, I lay down in his bed. TJ came over to me for a moment and got a pillow from his bed, then he disappeared around the corner onto his sofa and it wasn't until I left that I noticed that he was only wearing shorts and a tight-fitting black undershirt, his back was immaculate and really nice in this.A few minutes passed and I just didn't hear from him anymore. It was too quiet and my brain turned on again. I thought about so many different things again and became more and more a
This Adam was really nice and really really sweet. He flirted a bit too much and too much for me, but it was just about okay. Maybe there was something to what TJ told me tonight. Maybe I really need a one night stand or something like that, but definitely not today. Not with this Adam. Then kissing, but I would need a few more drinks to be able to overcome that. Adam didn't dance very well, the only thing he could do was rub his body against mine and it was a bit annoying. I loved dancing too much and didn't always need this close dancing, especially not with Adam, I preferred dancing with my friends, so I knew that nobody would rub against me, you could dance with them quite normally. Adam was glued to me and really tried everything to get close to me. He pulled away from me briefly and turned next to us where his friends were probably all on the dance floor. I finally continued dancing on my own, how nice that was, but it didn't last long because when Adam turned back to me he imme
tjShe looked good, really damn good. She stood next to me and tied her hair together, moaning annoyed and scolding something I didn't understand and we waited for our taxi in the fresh air."I do not feel like! Let's go somewhere else!” Joey sounded really confident that I would do something else with her bad commanding tone. So she certainly didn't get through with me.The taxi came, we got in and I told the driver we wanted to go to Heaven . Joey looked thoughtful and annoyed out the window while I checked my cell phone messages again. A couple of girls had reached out, one cuter than the other, but there was nothing I could do today except take care of Joey. I just wanted to be there for her.After I paid the taxi driver, we got out and crossed the street."Do you think they're mad that we're only here now?" Joey walked beside me, casually fiddling with her hair again."No, at least we're coming, that's something!" I could already see Jamal in the distance and we walked towards hi
No thought of Jayden and off to TJ's home, just away from where everything reminds me of him . The exit would be so perfect, but no, TJ started talking about Jayden again and when we drove away, Jayden and Debby were of course standing at the Staffords' door, who were probably also just leaving the party. His gaze followed us and Jayden looked slightly confused and disappointed, staring at us as we pulled away in TJ's car. Debby's gaze, on the other hand, was a bit sour and I turned away from them again. TJ frowned at the street and I wasn't sure if he had seen Jayden at all, but didn't want to dig deeper. Jayden looked so damn good that my thoughts just turned to him again. I had forgotten how sweet he was and how his eyes met me again and again, especially what he could trigger in me, unimaginable. I was worried about how I would convey to him today what he thought of me and what would have happened if we had talked until TJ snapped me out of my thoughts. "What's the matter with tha
Great. I sat alone at the table with her sister and a silence fell between us. Slightly uncomfortable. I looked around to see how long Joey needed, but couldn't find her right away. Judith cleared her throat. »...um... I know we both had a rough start... But you're the only one Joey can get right now and I really appreciate that! Without you she would still be sitting in her room and probably wouldn't even have her degree in her pocket! I don't know what you have about you that makes her live again...but thanks TJ! For real! ...And since Tim thinks you're "okay" too, I may have misjudged you... That...that I'm sorry!"I was briefly flabbergasted by what she said and looked around again to see if Joey was finally coming, I finally spotted her but she was just pouring drinks and I turned back to Judith. »Well, I think anyone could have brought her out of her absolute low point...«She interjected and interrupted me. "No definitely not! I don't know how you do it. But it's the right way
After graduation, my friends and I were all invited to Dwayne's house with our families together. It was absolutely great that Neil made such a nice party for us in his garden. There I stood in my room and hung the robe back on my room door, looked at myself again in the mirror and was unsure because I didn't know if Jayden would come and if I would meet him there, let alone I was afraid of what would happen if he were there. Will he talk to me then? Am I going to go up to him and talk? Are we ignoring each other? Am I breaking down again? I shouldn't be so scared that I might run into him, but it's really killing me. Every thought I give to him kills me!!!!But I was glad that TJ still came and I got some emotional support.I went over to the Staffords with my parents and I was really nervous. There were a lot of people there, but I did n't see him . That was good. Was it? I really couldn't take it otherwise. I didn't want to see him, not even from a distance. I wasn't even ready to
"Are you nervous yet?" Today was the graduation ceremony on the sports field behind the school gym and I thought my mom was more nervous than me."It's still okay!" She handed me my red robe, which I put on and smiled happily at me.Dad, Judith and Tim were waiting at the car and I was allowed to sit in the front with my dad, who, like everyone else, had dressed up really well. He was super proud of me, I knew that, and honestly, I was a little bit too. The thought of graduating from high school was great, but it also sucked because I didn't know what I was going to do afterward. The college in town only had me on the waiting list, so I had to wait another semester because I didn't want to leave. My friends all had college places, some of them far away, which would mean that we wouldn't see each other again soon, at least very little and rarely. It sucked not knowing how my life would go on."Is your junkie boyfriend coming too?" I turned with a scathing look at Judith after Mom even
TJ was by my side the whole time, texting me daily and trying to cheer me up in any way he could. I haven't heard from Jayden for weeks, which was a good thing. After all, five weeks have passed since we parted ways at the airport. The first few days were the worst, some of which I can't even remember. My friends also said that I was just in a trance and not really responsive, which could also explain my memory gaps. With each week the pain in me lessened and my parents were really touching towards me. They both had a slight problem with TJ because Debby once told them everything about him in a short conversation, about his previous drug history, fights and his many affairs. Of course they weren't enthusiastic about him at all, but they still allowed him to visit me very often. Judith never liked him anyway, which he felt every time. I felt sorry for TJ because my family actually had something against him, but just tried to put it aside, which I've gotten really good at.We finally ha
tjShe lay back in my arms and closed her eyes.I have no idea what exactly happened but I would love to meet Jayden right now and tell him what a HUGE asshole he is! I would definitely smack him in such a way that he would first get to know the floor better. I really can't stand to see her like this anymore. What happened? He must have broken up, otherwise she would have been a little more composed! That fucking wannabe rocker!!! I'll kill him!!! It drives me crazy to see this woman suffer like that. How can he hurt this wonderful person like that? What did he do to her? Did she love him that much? If she were my girlfriend I would never have done that to her! This is such a great woman that you can't give it away anymore! He's such an asshole and so stupid! If he crosses my path, he's due!! ….But what am I talking about? I would never have a girlfriend because I couldn't keep it. I wouldn't be faithful and just as much of an asshole as him! I'm not a relationship type, when I look a