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21 - Apollo CastielloIs regret something missing from your heart?Blue is the Warmest ColorI was waiting for someone to answer the door at Joy's parents' house while a snowstorm was falling heavily around me. The snow had covered everything in sight, creating an almost surreal scene of immaculate white. That cozy silence and the biting cold contrasted sharply with the emotional storm I carried inside me. I hoped Joy was in that house because it was Christmas, and everyone has their traditions. I had one too, but Joy managed to turn that tradition into something dark and painful.When the door finally opened, I was greeted by a comforting, though somewhat ironic, sight given the context."Apollo!" Mr. Marshall appeared on the threshold of the door, his expression illuminated by a mixture of surprise and genuine joy. "What a nice surprise! You've been missing, my son."Mr. Marshall, with his full white hair and piercing black eyes, welcomed me with a warm smile. I shook his outstretch
My secret lover Chapter 22
22 - Mia Lauren HudsonBut our love is like the wind. I can't see it. But I can feel it.A Walk to RememberI was flying. I was leaving all my hurts and joys from the past days behind, under where the clouds made a point of hiding. But it couldn’t be erased. The height, the distance, the miles that separated me couldn't erase your last look from my mind. Apollo even followed me. He followed me home, and yet, I left.My mind was reeling, asking for an explanation which I didn't let Apollo provide. It would be too humiliating, much worse than the paranoia in my head. I tried to think of some reason, some sign that it was fate that brought us together, but nothing fit in my head. Not in the mind of someone who had never truly been loved unconditionally. And why would I be now after all these years?I thought about the first time I saw him, (off-screen) he always addressed me as Hudson. The answer had always been there. Apollo always saw me as the wife of a man who slept with his girlfrie
My secret lover Chapter 23
23 - Apollo CastielloWe will only be memories to each other.The Bright Side of LifeMy dad and I had just stepped back inside after a long day of Christmas shopping. My dad called me minutes after I left Joy's house, asking me to go to the mall with him since we hadn’t finished our shopping yet. If Mom had been with us, we would have had everything sorted out since December began. But she wasn’t. Instead, my dad and I were trying to keep up the facade that everything was fine, even when it clearly wasn’t.I thought about how the pain seemed to grow when we tried to talk about it. My dad had lost the love of his life, and I had lost Mom and the woman I loved without even realizing how much she meant to me. Now, she was completely distant, and I didn’t have the courage to call her.Joy’s voice still echoed in my mind, reminding me that she had chosen Bradley. I tried to avoid thinking about all of this, tried not to think about Mia.As my dad and I navigated the mall’s aisles, a part
My secret lover Chapter 24
24- Mia Lauren Hudson Love distorts things.NymphomaniacWe were gathered in the Hudsons' living room. Bradley's entire family was gathered, and I felt at peace there. I felt almost relieved to be away from everything. I was far from London, far from how Bradley treated me in that city. I simply loved Dublin because there I could be the Mia I always wanted to be. A fun, funny, fearless Mia, and even if it was just a little bit, I felt loved.But this relief was not complete because my heart still seemed to be in pieces. And I struggled a lot not to think about him. Or about everything I had left behind.At that moment, I was sitting in one of the armchairs in that large, well-furnished living room with my mother-in-law beside me and my sister-in-law, who was trying in every way not to remain the center of attention there."Please, Mia. You need to have a serious conversation with Phoebe. She hasn't introduced this new boyfriend to me," Eleanor insisted on the matter with Phoebe, who
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25 - Apollo CastielloI will find her. I promise. Even if I have to endure two hundred years of purgatory, two hundred years without you, that will be my punishment, which I deserve for my crimes.OutlanderI had felt like the most useless person in the last few days. Boredom filled my days, as did the unanswered questions. I had nothing to do during those year-end parties. I wasn't working, I didn't have Mia to kill time with, I didn't have my mother for us to marathon her favorite series.My father and I had been completely silent in the last few days. Now and then, he would help me memorize the new film script, and most of the time, we just lay on the couches and watched unbearable TV shows.But what was even worse than that whole depressing situation was the reason behind it. I had lived for twenty-eight years without knowing Mia existed, but now, going six days without her was completely unbearable. I was still hoping she would call me or answer my calls, hoping she would come ba
My secret lover Chapter 26
26 - Mia Lauren HudsonI miss you so much.- A Safe HarborDecember thirty-first. I loved this date. I loved knowing that all the wounds, pains, and disappointments were being left behind. I always liked the feeling of being cleansed when the clock struck midnight. It was something that relieved me, and deep down, I deluded myself a lot with all of this. Because nothing ever changed for me, never. Not even my haircut.And nothing changed during the past six days we spent in Dublin either. I made a point of keeping myself busy at all times, chatting with Phoebe, enjoying Bryan and Paul's insults, or when Eleanor kept asking about her daughter's feelings. And that was exactly what was happening at that moment while we eagerly awaited the arrival of the new year.“Do you think he’ll ever stop being so serious?” Sara stopped beside me and pointed at Bradley, who had his arms crossed and an impassive face while his father tried and failed to have a lively conversation with him.“I’ve grown
My secret lover Chapter 27
27 - Mia Lauren HudsonMarriages aren’t fireproof. Sometimes, you get burned. — The FireproofI was back in London. After days away, distant from everything, I returned. I was fine, even anxious. I missed Kayla, I missed my own home.I was excited about the idea of a new year and absurdly eager for the start of filming. I would be the lead! It was still hard to believe, which is why I eagerly awaited the next meeting at NewScene. Actually, I wasn’t waiting that eagerly because I didn’t want to see Apollo again.It had been days since I’d heard from him, and I was used to his absence, to his lack of presence. He occupied my thoughts for days, but I was determined to leave him behind. What we had was a mistake, a sweet mistake with a bitter aftertaste. I accepted it—he never loved me, and that was okay. Apollo would be just a colleague, a stranger with something in common. I could handle that.Now, sitting in the car, I looked at London through the window, watching winter fade away and
My secret lover Chapter 28
28 - Apollo Castiello"I won’t let anything happen to you."“Death congratulates you”It was a new year, but to me, it felt like the clock had stopped. Nothing was new. The countdown, the sparks in the sky, the promises of renewal... everything seemed empty, like a rerun of a movie where the ending never changes. I found myself surrounded by the same faces, the same challenges, the same uncomfortable silences echoing inside me. And yet, the world around me continued to see me as someone fulfilled, a successful man, as if all the pieces of my puzzle were in place.Everything remained exactly the same, and in a way, I knew nothing would change. Not while I remained trapped in the same version of myself, unable to break the invisible chains holding me back. On the outside, I appeared to be at peace, accepting the life I had. After all, why should I complain? Anyone in my position would give anything to live what I lived. I was a recognized actor, someone whose performances moved crowds.
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