They were both so strong, such wonderful human beings, or well Connor was not fully human, but it didn’t matter. They were her heroes and she loved both of them dearly, Josh was her very best friend beside Linda and Connor was the love of her life.
She no longer doubted for a second that she wanted to be with Connor for the rest of her life. Even children didn't seem like a scary thought anymore, she couldn't see what could possibly go wrong this time.
When Amelia awoke again, she was lying in a bed, and had a monitor measuring her pulse and oxygen levels on."I am happy to see you awake again, we don't need you bedridden as well, do we ?" Luke was smiling sadly at her.She sat up a bit too fast and felt dizzy, black spots dancing before her eyes. "Is there anything new Luke ? How did Josh take it ?"She felt really bad about fainting, like Josh needed that scare on top of the news about Connor."Josh is o
Amelia squeezed his hand and prayed that he would breathe, she was staring at his chest, didn't it just move ? She whispered. "Come on love, I know you can do this".Yes his chest was most definitely moving now and before long his breathing was calm and even. She started breathing again herself, at least he was breathing, there was still hope."The breathing is stabilised andt the oxygen levels are good, so this must be seen as a success. Now we can only wait and give him time". The doctor looked at her with a friendly smile.When the doctor had left Amelia l
"Amelia please stop doing that". Conner closed his eyes and turned his face away from her. She sighed, it sounded so wrong to hear him use her full name. "The physiotherapist says that we have to do it as much as possible, to wake up the nerves and create connections". It was three days later and she had been massaging his legs, to get them working, he needed to start on his rehabilitation as fast as possible. "I can't stand it, okay ? I can't stand that I can see you are touching me, but I can't feel it". The tears welled up in his eyes again.
1 week later "Whoops, thank you Ami". Josh smiled apologetic at her, seeking the support of her arm for a moment, before walking on with a bit of insecure steps. He was working on his rehabilitation, but his muscles still tired out easily and his legs were a bit weak from being so much in bed and Amelia walked next to him so he could hold onto her if he lost his balance. "It is perfectly fine Josh, you are really doing good". She held her arm out for support while he sat down in the chair. He sighed. "Thank you, I just get tired so f
"Hi sweetie, don't you want any food ?" She walked into Connor’s room, finding him on the bed with his back turned, laying exactly like he had when she left an hour ago. She could hear from the way he was breathing that he wasn't sleeping and after a few moments he shook his head. "I'm not hungry". "You need to eat something Connor. You need the energy, so you can do your exercises and get better". She sat down on the edge of the bed. His whole body kind of retracted from her and it hurt in her heart and stomach. "It doesn't matter, I am never getting any better".
Amelia breathed in deeply, trying to get a hold on herself, it was the second time today she found herself crying in Josh’s arms, he needed her support and help and not to have to comfort her all the time. But there was just something so nice and safe about laying there in Josh’s arms, it kind of felt like he was able to hold her just a bit together, keeping her from falling entirely apart. "What happened, Ami ? Something must have happened for you to come back here in tears". Josh’s hands were gently running up and down her back. She snuggled closer to him, breathing in his scent, it was comforting somehow. "He w
Amelia thought it felt like forever, and she had been dozing off in Josh’s bed as she waited. "Ami are you awake ?" She woke when Josh got up on the bed next to her, and instinctively she snuggled into him, feeling his arms around her, which made the nurse glare at them approvingly before leaving. She didn't care and she wasn't quite sure if the nurses thought they were doing something wrong or they just wanted to take her place, probably both. "What did he say Josh ? Was he happy to see you ?" She looked up at him, hoping Josh had shown a kind of positive reaction.
Amelia was watching Connor through the door. It was ajar, he was sitting up in bed, the bed raised to support him, he was gazing into nothingness, his right eye squints a bit outwards.She sighed, she just wants to snuggle up to him, kiss him, hear his soft laughter, see that special smile that always brightened her entire day, but he was never smiling or laughing these days and he wouldn't let her touch him.The doctor had promised to come talk to him, he had been expecting that there was something wrong and what she told him just confirmed that, he was almost sure it was a serious depression.She had thought that it had to be fixable, bu